Falling off - Fitness journey stalled

Been trying to commit to a more optimistic lifestyle of fitness both body and mind. But I feel like I'm failing. Trying real hard to believe in something and do the right thing, for myself and others.

Hours before logging on, I did have a gush of negative emotion flowing through me, mostly fear and despair. I saw what may be an insight to my own end, and realized it may be sooner than I thought. Came close to complete third person out of body perspective on who I am, and felt a separation of multiple parts of myself. What exactly that all means, I'm not quite sure, or perhaps more poignantly I'm not surely I ever truly knew myself or even have a personality/identity, certainly not one worth caring about. Even though I never considered myself not sincere, but perhaps any pursuit of optimism on my part is merely running away from the inevitable or a sign of not having any true character to embrace the pain completely, simply missing the mark instead.

All I know is, ironically any efforts I have made my whole life in anything may have always led to more harm than good in whatever way, and I still don't understand myself or any of what I'm saying, but saying it has to at least be one step in some direction, right or wrong.

I don't know if I'm giving up or not.

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  1. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    my balls itch

  2. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Frick are you trying to say? You are an NPC?

  3. 2 months ago
    Anonymous
  4. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    <

  5. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Whatever dumb drug and alcohol fueled attempt at self reflection you're having will last less time than your body. Just workout the minimum. 5-10 minute run 5 days a week. Fullbody workout 2 days a week. 30 minute walk everyday. It's not very much but it's enough to stay healthy or get healthier

  6. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    You feel that shit because you allow yourself to feel that shit and feed into it like it just isn't your self-defeating/depressed internal monologue.

    How you speak to yourself will reveal what you see in the world. Change that shit.

    Notice how when you're constantly thinking of red cars, you end up seeing more red cars in the world? Thats the power of the mind and what you allow it to cook up. Start cooking up some real nibba shit instead of "it's so over" bullshit.
    Unironically watch a shit ton of those motivational speech YouTube videos. We can all say their cliche, cringe, platitudes, whatever, but the fact of the matter is your subconsciously feeding your brain good shit it has to process on the back end, feed your brain good shit and workout. Love you.

  7. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    TLDR

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      This one hit me hard being exactly 26.
      How do I frick all the 18yo frequenting the bar I work at?

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        show up in a lambo

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        dont be ugly

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        have game/rizz
        also that pic is complete bs - look up how many zoomer men are single(I think it was over 60%), now ask the question - who are the zoomer girls dating?
        Im zoomer myself so dont flame me sour grapes and shit

      • 2 months ago
        AnavarGuy

        Why are you working at a bar anon? Youre 26 get a career already or you wont be able to provide for a family in the near future.

  8. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Realness.

  9. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    I'm not OP, but why is everyone being buttholes? This is the worst thread I've ever seen on this board in terms of replies.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      https://i.imgur.com/lpRtWgm.jpg

      You feel that shit because you allow yourself to feel that shit and feed into it like it just isn't your self-defeating/depressed internal monologue.

      How you speak to yourself will reveal what you see in the world. Change that shit.

      Notice how when you're constantly thinking of red cars, you end up seeing more red cars in the world? Thats the power of the mind and what you allow it to cook up. Start cooking up some real nibba shit instead of "it's so over" bullshit.
      Unironically watch a shit ton of those motivational speech YouTube videos. We can all say their cliche, cringe, platitudes, whatever, but the fact of the matter is your subconsciously feeding your brain good shit it has to process on the back end, feed your brain good shit and workout. Love you.

      Minus the only real reply. Guess everyone else thinks they're too much of hot shits to care.

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        Well the one real reply with an image was perfect. Exactly what I was writing down again last night, think positive!

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      For real. Anon is probably going to kill himself

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        good

  10. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    Calm down OP you look decent in that photo.

  11. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    just have a nice day you fat c**t

  12. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    It's not that hard to spend an 1 at the gym.

  13. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    kys

  14. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    off topic but Rhett growing his hair out was the best decision he ever made.
    sure he's a lanklet but he's 6'8" or some wild shit like that, so the mountain man look really works for him.

    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous
    • 2 months ago
      Anonymous

      https://i.imgur.com/eoT37gf.jpg

      i hope you die and that homosexual hippie dies

      • 2 months ago
        Anonymous

        you too

        • 2 months ago
          Anonymous

          N

  15. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    read Nietzsche
    or, if you grew up religious or have an iq below 90: find faith in God
    I sometimes wish I grew up religious so I had faith, cant psyop myself now, too grown up for that

  16. 2 months ago
    Anonymous

    >and I still don't understand myself or any of what I'm saying
    Yeah OP clearly I dont either...

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