I was laid off 6 months ago and have been unemployed since. I live by myself and I was feeling pretty shitty so I decided to masturbate. I found this subreddit r/pornischeating and I decided to jerk off without cumming. I was HOOKED. That first day, I must’ve edged for maybe 20 hours. I closed all the windows and turned off all the lights so it was just me, my screen, and my weed in a dark room. Eventually, my balls got so sore I had to stop and sleep. Waking up the next day, my balls were still incredibly sore but I was so horny I couldn’t keep my hands off my cock. I did this daily for six months. I’m pretty sure I’ve permanently destroyed my brain with porn but I can’t stop now. It feels soooo good to edge. My dick is so sensitive now. I’ve stopped wearing clothes. I essentially get up from bed, masturbate for 12 hours, get a quick bite to eat, and sleep. I can’t even attempt to put pants on now because I’m so sensitive I’m afraid I’d cum. My edging has devolved into me watching porn and maybe poking my dick every couple of minutes because if I did any more I’d shoot my cum everywhere. My dick is practically purple now. My balls have gotten bigger since I started, and they’re a light blue color now. They’re constantly sore and EXTREMELY sensitive. When I squeeze them I literally squirt a little precum out of my cock. I get soft occasionally but I instantly get hard again. Everything feels so fucking good and I can barely think of anything else except for porn and edging. I tried to call a friend of mine but I had to hang up because I could barely hold a conversation and I kept feeling up my cock and audibly moaning. I’m scared I’ve turned myself into a dopamine-addicted edging zombie but it feels so fucking good and I never want to stop. Hell, I’m typing this with one hand while touching my cock with the other while I have porn playing on my other screen. I’ve given up on maintaining meaningful relationships. Edging and porn is all I need now.