How do I fix my life? I've been edging 12 hours a day for almost six months.

I was laid off 6 months ago and have been unemployed since. I live by myself and I was feeling pretty shitty so I decided to masturbate. I found this subreddit r/pornischeating and I decided to jerk off without cumming. I was HOOKED. That first day, I must’ve edged for maybe 20 hours. I closed all the windows and turned off all the lights so it was just me, my screen, and my weed in a dark room. Eventually, my balls got so sore I had to stop and sleep. Waking up the next day, my balls were still incredibly sore but I was so horny I couldn’t keep my hands off my cock. I did this daily for six months. I’m pretty sure I’ve permanently destroyed my brain with porn but I can’t stop now. It feels soooo good to edge. My dick is so sensitive now. I’ve stopped wearing clothes. I essentially get up from bed, masturbate for 12 hours, get a quick bite to eat, and sleep. I can’t even attempt to put pants on now because I’m so sensitive I’m afraid I’d cum. My edging has devolved into me watching porn and maybe poking my dick every couple of minutes because if I did any more I’d shoot my cum everywhere. My dick is practically purple now. My balls have gotten bigger since I started, and they’re a light blue color now. They’re constantly sore and EXTREMELY sensitive. When I squeeze them I literally squirt a little precum out of my cock. I get soft occasionally but I instantly get hard again. Everything feels so fucking good and I can barely think of anything else except for porn and edging. I tried to call a friend of mine but I had to hang up because I could barely hold a conversation and I kept feeling up my cock and audibly moaning. I’m scared I’ve turned myself into a dopamine-addicted edging zombie but it feels so fucking good and I never want to stop. Hell, I’m typing this with one hand while touching my cock with the other while I have porn playing on my other screen. I’ve given up on maintaining meaningful relationships. Edging and porn is all I need now.

  1. 3 months ago
    Anonymous

    OP is lapping but one time I smoke a 10 sack of tweak and edged for 8 hours literally, gave myself a hemoeriod and fucked up my back for over a year from sitting in one position and jacking off. I would stop and let it cool down whole i cleaned my house butt nakes fully erect.. Probably got heart damage..

    • 3 months ago
      Anonymous

      >Probably got heart damage.
      my sides

    • 3 months ago
      Anonymous

      I would just edge for 6 - 8 hours regularly when i was 16 up until i got a gf good times

  2. 3 months ago
    Anonymous

    Post pics of cock and balls or you will cum in your sleep tonight.

    • 3 months ago
      Anonymous

      I don't wanna get banned

      • 3 months ago
        Anonymous

        Post an imgur or catbox link you retard

  3. 3 months ago
    Anonymous

    Not gonna lie OP, that's pretty funny

  4. 3 months ago
    Anonymous

    Jesus fucking christ dude. Please get some help.

  5. 3 months ago
    Anonymous

    just watch a clockwork orange
    you get a good movie and lots of hot naked chicks

  6. 3 months ago
    Anonymous

    >Everything feels so fucking good
    Foreskin or no foreskin? I need to know if there's hope.

  7. 3 months ago
    Anonymous

    Now edge by massaging your prostate, you might die from how hard you’ll cum eventually though. Best of luck.

    • 3 months ago
      Anonymous

      >The time would be easy to know, for then mankind would have become as the Great Old Ones; free and wild and beyond good and evil, with laws and morals thrown aside and all men shouting and killing and revelling in joy. Then the liberated Old Ones would teach them new ways to shout and kill and revel and enjoy themselves, and all the earth would flame with a holocaust of ecstasy and freedom.

  8. 3 months ago
    Anonymous

    i read op like 4 times . my fucking face hurts from smiling and i almost died due to no air. holy fucking shit thank you op

  9. 3 months ago
    Anonymous

    still saner than the weakest plebbit gooner

  10. 3 months ago
    Anonymous

    Do a psychedelic like LSD or mushrooms. This will temporarily place you in a state of heightened neuroplasticity that will allow you to break habits. Using mushrooms just ONCE has shown the ability to get smokers to stop with an 80% success rate for up to 6 months with only a single dose in a single session when combined with cognitive behavioral therapy. Rates are even better with ibogaine.

    While you are doing this, be sure to spend the entire session thinking about why you are doing this, why you want to stop, how it is affecting your life, what you stand to gain by stopping, what you stand to gain by continuing, etc. Think hard about this for a while until you have a solid answer to all of these questions. Begin a session of edging extremely slowly to analyze you behavioral triggers as to how you enter into the dopamine cycle. Analyze every step and action as you do. Do this entire process up to 5 times and if you can't break the habit 100% for good then you might want to try to get some serious professional help, but psychedelics are so effective in breaking preformed habit patterns with proper intention that it is difficult to imagine that you would make it to a second or 3rd session.

    The important thing to know is that if you don't take advantage of the highly neuroplastic state with real intention and honest desire to change it won't do anything and you'll just goon while high for 6-12 hours. You likely won't want to though if you really think it's a problem.

    >inb4 hippie
    Shits as legit is it gets. There's a reason psychedelics are illegal and it's not because they're bad

  11. 3 months ago
    Anonymous

    most likely a larp.
    I have been retaining my semen and edging for over 2 years and despite major suicidal thoughts and depression my cock is still very functionnal and my balls feels fine.

    You will feel fine physically, much better then when you coom. The problem is that when you edge and you never cum for YEARS you will be massively depressed.

    I could have cured this either by fapping and never edging again OR by going completely hard mode and never fapping again.

    Both are the only way to heal yourself from edging.
    I fell for the no fap meme and thought I would magically lose my virginity from not touching my dick, guess what all it did was make me very horny and depressed. Either coom or go super hard mode and become a saint. There is no in between where it is ok to edge and shit all it will do is to fuck you up.

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