Its got a hold of me bad bros, really bad.

Its got a hold of me bad bros, really bad.
Getting off work(smoking on the way back) and late nights trigger me way too much.. If I keep myself busy I'm good but I can't keep myself busy 24/7.. Idk what to do. I've tried every other drug including fet and never got hooked..

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  1. 11 months ago
    Anonymous

    I feel for you, bro. Been there. We are many who walked thru hell to stop but we managed. Swear to God that there is some kind of sentient thing in weed that makes you think and tell everyone else that it's not addictive at all. Maybe some kind of alien life form that create zombie workers with weed.

    • 11 months ago
      Anonymous

      Maybe some kind of fungus that takes over the brain like that fungus that fricks over ants.

    • 11 months ago
      Anonymous

      I never said it wasn't addicting, even when I was young. Before I ever tried weed I watched a bunch of stoner movies and already made my choice of being a pothead.

      Yeah same here bro. It was never like this. For almost my entire life I just used it out of boredom and could quit cold Turkey at any time, maybe at most have a few nights of shit sleep then be back to normal. I was able to quit for for year and come back and then quit again a year later. Or just take a few weeks or months off.
      Around 2 years ago I started using it to cope with shit feels. It’s like after 6pm I get hit with this massive depressive wave and gut wrenching anxiety about all random stuff. Shit I’ve come to terms with over a decade ago suddenly being in my head. The most recent one is my ex. It was 100% the right choice, I’ll go through my day and not think about her or if I do I feel in my core “lmao frick that b***h” like a gut feeling leaving her was right. And the circumstances leading to it were so blatant I 100% was. Then at night she’s in my mind, and it’s like my brain is hoping she texts again and trying to twist things to find a way to get back with her.
      It’s been the ex or random bullshit occurrences as a child popping in my head, and I can’t change my focus. Without the weed I’m up until 4am. I took two days off last week to white knuckle it thinking it would get better but then it got bad again. It’s weird I’ll have zero craving for weed and don’t even wanna use it anymore but it’s all that helps me with this. Lifting doesn’t even fix this shit like it used to.
      How fricking moronic is that? I’m abusing weed despite not wanting to be high anymore so that I can sleep knowing I’m not getting good sleep either way high or not because otherwise I hyper fixate on shit that isn’t even that serious or that holds zero weight on my life or future that 99% of the time I don’t think of or feel negative about in anyway. It’s only at night.
      There’s also this crippling lonely feeling. Idk how to stop that. Maybe my answer is finding a new b***h to frick so I can fall asleep

      >stress over ex
      Definetly the weed, stressing over ur ex is kiddie tier shit. I'm stressing over my dog thst died 3 years ago, now that's fricking stress. Funny thing is it's somehow slightly easier dealing with it when I'm sober.

      Like fml, I just relpased and I feel like shit, why did I do it? I don't feel better. It's like I just crave it, I'm not using it to run away from problems and feel good when I'm sober, I'm just feinding for it.. the more time passes the more the idea and taste of it becomes like honey to me

    • 11 months ago
      Anonymous

      >Swear to God that there is some kind of sentient thing in weed that makes you think and tell everyone else that it's not addictive at all.
      I've thought this too. My theory is that drugs/drug users might actually create egregories

      • 11 months ago
        Anonymous

        It's strange to combine this thought with drugs that mechanistically get rid of addictions and don't work for weeks after one dose.

    • 11 months ago
      Anonymous

      For real. I've often thought weed is a conscious being that uses humans as a vessel to both exist in our minds and to cultivate the plant itself so it can survive and evolve.

      • 11 months ago
        Anonymous

        this is some moron tier logic. weed is an anti-depressant, people smoke it because the alternative is stupid shit that's even worse and makes big pharma executives rich. weed is the cheapest anti-depressant on the planet

  2. 11 months ago
    Anonymous

    Yeah same here bro. It was never like this. For almost my entire life I just used it out of boredom and could quit cold Turkey at any time, maybe at most have a few nights of shit sleep then be back to normal. I was able to quit for for year and come back and then quit again a year later. Or just take a few weeks or months off.
    Around 2 years ago I started using it to cope with shit feels. It’s like after 6pm I get hit with this massive depressive wave and gut wrenching anxiety about all random stuff. Shit I’ve come to terms with over a decade ago suddenly being in my head. The most recent one is my ex. It was 100% the right choice, I’ll go through my day and not think about her or if I do I feel in my core “lmao frick that b***h” like a gut feeling leaving her was right. And the circumstances leading to it were so blatant I 100% was. Then at night she’s in my mind, and it’s like my brain is hoping she texts again and trying to twist things to find a way to get back with her.
    It’s been the ex or random bullshit occurrences as a child popping in my head, and I can’t change my focus. Without the weed I’m up until 4am. I took two days off last week to white knuckle it thinking it would get better but then it got bad again. It’s weird I’ll have zero craving for weed and don’t even wanna use it anymore but it’s all that helps me with this. Lifting doesn’t even fix this shit like it used to.
    How fricking moronic is that? I’m abusing weed despite not wanting to be high anymore so that I can sleep knowing I’m not getting good sleep either way high or not because otherwise I hyper fixate on shit that isn’t even that serious or that holds zero weight on my life or future that 99% of the time I don’t think of or feel negative about in anyway. It’s only at night.
    There’s also this crippling lonely feeling. Idk how to stop that. Maybe my answer is finding a new b***h to frick so I can fall asleep

    • 11 months ago
      Anonymous

      Deal with it pussy

      • 11 months ago
        Anonymous

        Honestly dude I don’t think I can even argue with you on that. I used to have such an absurdly strong will. Ffs I started fitness as an obese sedentary lard elemental and one day just decided to run sun 1000 calories for a year, and never once cheated on the diet and got shredded. I once spent 1.5 years training sprints and powerlifting with a bone on bone meniscus tear and pushed myself until the knee stopped moving before ever even seeing a doctor. Now? Idk where that willpower has gone. Idk what happened. There was once a time I could do anything I wanted within reason.
        And now I’m struggling to stop inhaling a burnt plant because I get anxious? Frick.
        I wonder if I could redeem myself to some degree by managing to cold turkey weed caffeine and nicotine at the same time.

        • 11 months ago
          Anonymous

          you sound like you need a few slaps to the face. I am positive given your description of your life that you could find a few willing providers.

    • 11 months ago
      Anonymous

      >dear diary

    • 11 months ago
      Anonymous

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  3. 11 months ago
    Anonymous

    >Quit THC vapes last months
    >Started doing cardio every day
    >Lifting heavy 2 or 3 times a week
    >Nausea is gone and now I can eat like a horse
    >Getting the best sleep of my life
    >Body is recovering faster than it did when I was doing high school sports
    Thanks for reading my blog post

  4. 11 months ago
    Anonymous

    I smoked heavily for several years, I stopped about three years ago and haven't really missed it. I live in a medical only state, so it is available, but smoking a bowl gives me weird anxiety now. The hardest part is the first month, I've found that I actually have time to do things now, before everything revolved around smoking a bowl/hitting the rig. You can do it anon. I believe in you.

  5. 11 months ago
    Anonymous

    Also I think one of the hardest (and most important) parts about quitting weed is changing up your social groups... you're never gonna quit if the people you hang out with do it.

  6. 11 months ago
    Anonymous

    atleast just buy edibles or make them from the weed. stop burning plants covered in mystery pesticides and fertilizer deep into your lungs moron. vaping it is just as moronic. you're accelerating heart disease and cancer and could easily be dying decades early from this
    Edibles are also less addictive and easier to quit, and they are way more fun

  7. 11 months ago
    Anonymous

    ^listen to this while reading:
    i was vaping weed since last summer to febuary this year. failed a lot of courses. life sucked. i felt lost + hopeless. the dab pen helped me cope w/ being a loser. vaping weed + banging b***hes made me feel okay. however, i needed a job b/c i needed money + needed to pass a drug test, and i did so in ONE MONTH. $18/hr forklift certified, "frick you money". my trick was exercising daily, cardio. listening to andrew tate motivational vids. my brain works much better now + i've gained strength + gained money. i only fricked 1 b***h(es) 1 time in the past 3 months, on some real shit dawg. it's not even about the fricking of the b***hes at the moment. i'm on some getting money shit. i have like $7k in my bank now, and just dropped $1k on PC parts. still going to drop like another $500. this summer i'm getting money, then i'm going to get back into finishing my degree, except with racks in my muhfrickin bank, no weed, higher chess rating on chess.com, and i plan to frick hotter b***hes because i've made muscle gains + longer better hair.

    hope this wall of text can inspire you drug addicts.
    we're all going to make it bruvs.

    • 11 months ago
      Anonymous

      >$18/hr forklift certified, "frick you money".
      >i have like $7k in my bank now, and just dropped $1k on PC parts.

      also to eleborate, this is PHASE 1.
      i'm stacking my cheese and then i'm going to do different shit.
      my plan is to make more money
      and then frick more b***hes.
      I'm soon starting PHASE 2, but i've still got to wrap PHASE 1 shit up, still doing shit rn. not going to elaborate b/c it would be novel.

      back like 5 months ago, i got my dick sucked for like 1hr while i was SOBER. when i was preparing for a drug test + had no job. the reason i got my dick sucked for 1 hr is because b***hes know i'm becoming a legit top g, and when they suck on my tip, they can FEEL THE EXCELLENCE coming from my dick. my ex never sucked my dick for 1 hr. there are way better b***hes out there. my ex was mid as frick so perhaps that's why it's easier for me to move on? (probably)

  8. 11 months ago
    Anonymous

    I QUIT TWO DAYS AGO AND I CANNOT SLEEP AHHHHHHHHHH

  9. 11 months ago
    Anonymous

    weed is an anti-depressant and pandemic made a lot of people depressed. you should realize you're using it to medicate yourself so slowly cut back. quitting cold turkey won't work so you gotta just cut back until you're smoking less every week

  10. 11 months ago
    Anonymous

    Keep smoking as you quit stimulants like caffeine and nicotine. Once that is a done deal and you have a three day weekend or something, stop. Tire yourself out. You won't sleep. Tire yourself on day 2. You might sleep. Keep doing stuff. Do not take anything, not even melatonin. Your brain WILL sleep.

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