Come take a seat. Have a drink, on the house. Happy Friday to you all. Another week down. How the hell have you been?
Stop procrastinating and begin your healthy life today!
Come take a seat. Have a drink, on the house. Happy Friday to you all. Another week down. How the hell have you been?
Why did she come over to my apartment at 11:30PM if she has a boyfriend bros? Should I fuck her even though she has a boyfriend?
She‘s either searching for drama in her life because she’s mentally a child or wants to leave her current bf and wants the easy way out.
Stop having contact with her and grow some balls. Do you hate yourself that much?
I'm horny as fuck dude I haven't gotten laid in like 10 months
Your dick getting wet for a night is not worth weeks of drama.
Never met her bf but pretty sure he is a nerd lol. Doesn't even enter into my mind to be afraid of the guy. And drama doesn't exist for me, I'm 'tistic. If there's drama I'll just ghost her.
You dumb fucking cunt. I've seen you in these threads MULTIPLE times before, and I've told you three times already to JUST GO FUCKING ASK HER OUT STUPID moron
You literally lose nothing by asking her out an getting rejected because then you will know for sure, instead of tormenting yourself for the rest of your life wondering if she would've said yes. Go ask her out the next time you see her or I'm gonna take a shit in your next protein shake.
The trips are a sign that ygmi. Go lift and rid yourself of the cancerous blackpill shit.
Women almost never keep their mouths shut after they cheat. Either she will feel bad and confess, or she will admit it during an argument/breakup to hurt him. That might happen several years down the line without you even knowing about it, but the wounds will be fresh to him and if he's a little out there he might decide to come after you, or make it his life's goal to ruin your life.
No pussy is worth having to look over your shoulder for the next 10 years because the boyfriend might just pop up behind you with a baseball bat at any moment
Also, the women almost always swear that they will never tell anyone. But you'd have to be the biggest idiot on the planet to trust the word of a woman who's literally about to break the trust of a person they love in the worst way imaginable
1. Because she's a whore
>Verification not required.
Guys how important is attractiveness in a relationship?
I meet a girl who is everything i wanted:
Smart, successful (doctor), has actual real confidence, really good fashion sense and easy to talk to.
She is attractive for a lot of people but just not for me (she isint fat or anything, she actually loves going to the gym.)
So will I get over that eventually?
I've been on the other side. We were together for 7 years, and no, she never really got over it. You may be different because you're a man, idk. But my ex felt like just being with me was doing me a courtesy the entire time we were together. This is my trauma speaking but I'd say just leave her.
Physical attraction probably isn’t the most important thing in a relationship – but it does affect your sex life. If sex is important to you, you do need to fancy someone in order to have great sex, consistently.
bro sounds like you want a boyfriend
bro being the temp boyfriend for 7 years
how the hell did this level of simpery go on for 7 years?
fuck, this board makes me so fucking violent lmao
to the streets she shall return
Are you that anon that had to choose between her (doctor) and the other chick? I kept telling you - take the other one.
Nah ain’t me and I took the doctor after several dates in the last 2 months
I’ll have water with lemon.
I’ve been working on pull ups lately. I’m 194cm at 109kg and just did 2 reps with 30kg weighted vest. I can do 5x5 with 20kg. Good feels all around.
Well, it's over. I graduate in 4 days. I'm still trying to process the realization that I will never see my crush ever again. I'll never be able to talk with her before class ever again. I'll never see her smile at me ever again. I genuinely feel so fucking depressed right now, I've never experienced these emotions before and I don't know what to do. I don't fall for women easily, but something about this girl made me fall head over heals for her just through our in-class interactions. I can't believe I'm typing this, it's so embarrassing to read back. I can already feel this is going to be one of those missed opportunities that sticks with me for years. Fuck.
How bad of an idea would it be to ask her if she wants to get lunch with me sometime if I see her during or after graduation? At this point I'm willing to try anything to desperate cling to the boat I missed.
Shoot your shot bro. If she says no then you won’t have the embarrassment of being in class with her. Don’t be like a majority of men and pussy out on the opportunity of asking a girl out.
WAGMI bro. Don’t be weird about it or put too much thought into it. If she says no then at least u gave a shot
I guess I should add that the reason I never asked her out was only 50% due to me being a pussy. The other 50% was out of respect for her schedule, she works two jobs on top of all of her classwork. She would always tell me how crazy busy she was whenever we'd talk, and I felt like if I asked her out back then I'd look like an ass who wasn't listening to anything she was telling me. Now that the semester is over and she doesn't have the burden of homework weighing her down she might have the free time to go do something, I dunno.
If she's interested, she'll make time
MotherFUCKER ARE YOU A MAN OR ARE YOU A MOUSE?
ACTUALLY FUCKING SCRATCH THAT, EVEN A MOUSE IS BRAVE ENOUGH TO TRY TO FUCK A FEMALE THAT HE WANTS EVEN IF THERE'S A RISK SHE'LL RUN AWAY, BECAUSE EVEN THE SMALLEST OF CREATURES UNDERSTAND THAT YOU GAIN NOTHING IF YOU VENTURE NOTHING. SO WHAT DOES THAT MAKE YOU?
STOP MAKING EXCUSES. TELL YOUR FEAR TO FUCK ITSELF, AND GO FUCKING ASK HER. EVEN IF SHE FUCKING SAYS NO, THAT ONE MINOR PUNCH TO THE GUT WILL HEAL A LOT FASTER THAN THE FUCKING ULCER OF REGRET YOU'RE GONNA HAVE IF YOU DON'T TAKE YOUR CHANCE.
Sounds like it was 50% you being a pussy and 50% you being a pussy while finding some bullshit excuse
you are putting this girl on too much of a pedestal. even if you asked her out and she said yes the relationship would never last because you have no self respect and would not be able to treat her as an equal.
but you need to experience this for yourself to grow from it, so ask her out pussy
Ask her out, if she says yes and then immediately flakes on you then just ghost her. It's harsh but that's reality in the dating world, oneitis is a plague and you need to rid yourself of it.
It sounds like you're dealing with massive insecurity issues and you need to address and remove them, not by trying to act more confident but actually recognizing these are mental habits that will negatively affect your life and you need to strive to overcome your current self
Best of luck to you fren
Advice from 32 year old who was just like you until I was like 27. Just do it. My biggest regrets are the shots I didn't take. Even if you get rejected, it's better than not even putting yourself out there. Worst case scenario, you get better at approaching women and build confidence, best case, you get her. Trust me, don't hide from it. Report back to us how it goes.
Ask her out. You have nothing to lose at this point.
No, seriously, do it, or you'll regretting it. Hard.
>How bad of an idea would it be to ask her if she wants to get lunch with me sometime if I see her during or after graduation?
Why would that be a bad idea? It's a perfectly normal thing to ask, moron.
>At this point I'm willing to try anything to desperate cling to the boat I missed.
Protip: She's your "crush" because you don't really know much about who she actually is as a person at all, and instead have just populated your head with a caricature fantasy version of her. That "boat" you're clinging to is something you need to let go of in any case, because it isn't even a real person and you aren't going to have room in your life for a real person like whoever the hell this girl *actually* is until you let it sail.
Ask her out. If she rejects you it will hurt for a week or maybe a month. If you don't ask her you will regret it for the rest of your life.
>It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live.
As someone who missed this opportunity myself... Ask her out. At least if she rejects you, you'll know and you can move on. If you don't ask you'll never get closure and you'll think about it forever like I do. I let the perfect women slip through my fingers. It's just as well, she's happy and with someone who is successful and makes her happy. Don't be like me and the other anons here, all her out. Worse case, you're exactly where you are now, without her and your whole life ahead of you to meet other women. Best case, she says yeah and you hit it off and are with your dream woman
There's this girl at work, MILF, going through messy divorce, with children. We are on very good terms, she confides with me in all sorts of personal stuff, she's clearly into me. For years I was so busy with work and studies I kind of never noticed just how lonely I am and now that part of me is back I'm losing my mind. It's not even about girl in question, it's about some fundamental need that goes unfulfilled and is ruining my life. I would like to apologize to all Pepe posters, Wojak posters and >tfwnogf posters for dismissing you
I forgive you brother, hope you find what you're looking for
dont do it brother
So I have always been a lonleny guy. I started dating a girl and all my life has changed. it's insine how much light and color I can see now.
An old friend of mine I said I used to be so edgy before. So much bitter. He is completely right.
Life it's not made to be lived alone, anon. I hope one day you find your light and your color too.
PD: I might be a bit drunk and might be listening to French music. I ain't even French.
>I started dating a girl and all my life has changed. it's insine how much light and color I can see now.
Ironic considering how when I started dating my ex, my entire social and professional life fell apart and I lost all of my friends
I know this feel even thought I have not experienced it, i wish she wouldve said yes
Double whiskey neat, please.
My mom is lying in the living room dying, after 3 years and 5 lines of treatment, the cancer is taking her.
Feeling many conflicting feelings, she's barely conscious now and just sleeping for most of the day, she springs up every now and then for a few minutes to eat and sip water or take morphine, then she sleeps more.
It's weird, I never really had friends and I never really needed them, through her diagnosis and all the treatment and the process up until now I've been fine on my own, but it really dawned on me that I could really use someone to sit and talk about nothing with.
I don't know how long she has left, from what I've read she's in the active dying stage so I'm not sure she'll make it another week even and I feel incredibly guilty.
I'm taking time off work to be with her but I can't do it forever because I need to have some level of financial stability to live on my own after she passes, I'll only have around maybe $8000 once all is said and done and I live in a state where apartments are $1500/mo for a studio.
My head is spinning but uncomfortably calm at the same time.
I'm sorry that you're in this predicament anon. I hope your situation gets better
sorry for you loss as well anon
I know she knows I love her at least, the other day we exchanged what felt like final goodbyes and since then she's mostly just been sleeping and waking up for 5-10 minutes a time every now and then
I think you're right, socializing's just rough for me, I don't have a license so I can't really go out, all of my time is split between working full time and college, and all of my coworkers are 6+ years younger than me
it's kind of a recipe for a dead social life but hopefully I can rectify that in the future
My own mom just passed from cancer a couple weeks ago, I'm sorry for your loss anon.
It's good that you're devoting some time to her in her final days, she'll go knowing her son loves her and was there for her.
As far as the friends thing goes I think that the anxiety is coming from the fact that a close person to you will be gone soon and you have this desire to establish relationships with others so if you were ever in the same situation you'd have people there for you as well. It's normal and the only thing I'd recommend is just start putting yourself out there and getting friends, it's really easy so long as you actively try to socialize.
Sorry about your loss buddy. You sound like a great guy and I hope you are moving towards peace and healing. Cheers mate, lean on those closest to you
You too fren <3
>waiting at dmv
>woman enters room and scans it
>she decides to sit right next to me
We’re so back
big glass of water for me
my anxiety/stress/depression is somatised at this point, at only 26yo
doc said I got thyroiditis in the initial phase, and that stress/anxiety can trigger thyroiditis full on
I have no reason to exist, I work, save money, consume occasionally, sleep, repeat
barely go out, close friends are mia
one got a gf and we only talk about forex if we ever do, the other one has a group of friends I despise and I haven’t talked with him in a while
also got ghosted, not even a seen
can’t wait to ride picrelated
You feel aimless because you have nothing to dedicate yourself to.
Me personally, I gave myself a time limit to become an animator and work for television. It's less than 10 years now and if I can't even get an entry job in the industry in that time then I'm roping. At least then I'll know I gave life my best shot.
At least give this life you're given some dignity before doing anything drastic.
It's getting harder and harder to ignore the loneliness. I hate being so alone, but I'm scared to talk to people outside of work or something like that.
I'm 27 years old and I feel like my life is over.
Have you made any work friends?
Yeah, somewhat - we all go out to lunch together and I've met up with a couple of guys outside work hours. I have to balance a line of "not sharing too much" and "not being too quiet" though, one is even trying to set me up on a blind date with someone he calls "Alternative" (I.E. a loser like me) which I thanked him for and took him up on, now I just gotta wait for the setup.
We all got to start somewhere. I hope it works out for you anon
>It's getting harder and harder to ignore the loneliness.
I'm feeling completely the same anon, I'm 22 now.
Worst is when I go to some parties or events and everyone I see is in relationships. I start chatting up a beautiful girl, I start thinking we click, but she's taken 9/10 times and just making casual conversation with me.
I'm thinking about downloading Tinder since I have very little chance to meet new girls at work or at uni (computer science is a sausage fest). I used to look down on OLD but honestly I just want something by this point.
Anybody have any tips how to setup a good Tinder profile? I don't have many pics of myself, maybe I could dig out or take like 5.
Same lads, although I am 19.
Most of the anons here complay about >tfw no gf and then theres the special breed of us autists that have 0 social connections with the outside world except for purely transactional ones like work. I don't think I'll make it till 22 man, props to you for holding out.
Join a hiking club. Take an art class or language class at local junior college. Start a side business as a handy man. Gotta do worthwhile shit to meet a worthwhile girl.
Get an autismo/nerd friendly hobby and make friends there. It doesn't have to be something stupid like board games. Indoor climbing and archery comes to mind as two physical hobbies that has a ton of socially awkward dorks who wouldn't mind getting some more friends
I'm an autism. 26 khhv. How do we solve this
Sign up for any sort of sports club or young professionals group or whatever. Push yourself outside your comfort zone or you'll be stuck in your cave forever. Much like Plato's allegory of the cave, you're in there playing Vidya while there's sunshine and pussy right outside.
there's nothing to do where i live
no money. no job. no connections or skills
the first step to making a change is realizing that it’s possible and it’s 100% your responsibility. Stop the excuses and take responsibility for your life
ok. i'll order some meth so i can finally function like a normal adult
it won’t work because you have a failure mindset and believe that your life is not in your control. grow up anon
been there done that. "growing up" just doesn't work like you think it does. you wouldn't get it because you have an overinflated ego despite your underinflated IQ, likely due to fortunate circumstances that were, ironically, outside of your control. and you say that i believe my life is not in my control, but that's wrong. the difference is that there's only so much motivation i can spend on doing the challenging and/or boring shit that is associated with being an adult before giving up on it, so i need to enhance my motivation with drugs
it's really funny how you people get so aggressive when you encounter something or someone that doesn't fit your narrow world view
Nah, plenty of us have just felt exactly how you described at some point. Life kicks you in the balls, it feels hopeless at times. Everyone experiences trauma, loss, health problems, you name it. But not once has anyone improved their life by complaining like a whiny gay. A lot of us on here have been in the dumpster at some point, myself included. You only get out of it when you realize you can do it. You create far bigger anchors for yourself than the rest of the world possibly could.
By blaming your “limited motivation” you’re putting the responsibility on an inherent unchangeable quality instead of taking control. You haven’t been there, done shit. I sincerely hope you wake up, for your sake.
Perhaps you can look for a girlfriend? I’m about your age. Most people I know pair up and then life gets busy. This isn’t school anymore, people don’t just want friends for the heck of it. Idk maybe I’m just autistic, but I do have people in my life that I’ll hang out with but most of the activity centers around drinking. I assume you’re committed to being IST so I doubt that lifestyle appeals to you. Find a decent partner and try to make it work, forget about finding other guys to be your bff
And by get a girlfriend I mean getting on the dating apps. Yes, I said it. I know every dork reports online that it’s unfair how easy it is for women. Whatever. I’m one data point and I did fine on them, and this was after me thinking I was ugly and who would date me. I underestimated myself and I was wrong. This was 8 years ago I think higher of myself now. My point is don’t underestimate yourself and especially do not overestimate other guys you are competing with. You’re gonna make it brah
Frens, I've been lifting every day for the past two years, but as of last week I've missed 5 workouts. I'm blackpilling myself after failing yet again to close the deal with a girl, zero motivation.
I don't lift for grils but grils make me lose motivation to do anything
Hit me with a water bartender.
I'm happy that my legs are proportional if not even a little big for my body since I never once skipped them. But my arms and shoulders lag behind which sucks. I'm hitting them today and I hope they'll fill out soon.
I hate that there's people beneath me in the world that have more than me. I'm not tearing my hair out over it since I'm too mature for that, but I don't like that there's ugly idiots out there with better jobs and hot girls available to them. Its absurd and irritating. But oh well, I MOG them anyway, like this chubby polish guy in high school who had a hot white Mexican gf that was eyeing me back in the day even while I was skinny fat myself. In conclusion, I hate the lesser gender.
Bad attitude bro.
"beneath me" what are you, an anime villain. Grow up and realize people are people.
These "ugly idiots" are nothing special, they are just guys whose ego allows them to talk to girls and actually put themselves out there.
i have found the 'beneath me' or grading people mentality is almost universal among normies.
they might say love everyone and tolerance and all that other libtard stuff one moment.
but in the next they will rant how a normie slur are scum. you know the normie slurs: neet, manchild, flippin burgers and etc.
for example, people say they tolerate all kinds of relationships except if one man marries two women
>female coworkers think I've got a new girlfriend or something because I seem happier
>it's just random mood swings
kek why are women this fucking retarded
say yes, then they will become interested in you.
I actually made friends last week and I haven't made friends since 6th grade. She took care of me last week when I drank too much which is unconditional care by a friend/stranger which I have never had. Kinda feeling good but conflicted and drinking atm incase they ghost tomorrow. WAGMI
Good job on making new friends anon
Gin and tonic, please
Ran 15 km today. It was nice.
But I am confused.
The guy I met by accident last week is still in my head. I know I should get him out of there, but what will be left? Pathetic loneliness.
I'm afraid of Thursdays, because then I hope to meet him again and get disappointed every time.
I don't even like him, just his absolute honesty and freckles.
I'm unkind and short tempered at work. Uni does not interest me that much. What is going on. Where can I find that will again (maybe choking every tiny crush is what depresses me).
And my pull ups are stalling as well. Ugh.
Get off my board homo
Not homo, just a girl.
But you should be nice to gays too.
This post reeks of Floridian
Another glass of milk please, and make it your heaviest.
I wonder where it all went wrong for people like us? It's not normal to feel this crushing loneliness. Normal people especially women can't even conceive that someone can have no friends, or not have sex for a year. The black pill in my mind sometimes wanders thinking about biological determinism. Shit like 1/3 of our ancestors being men and our inherent disposable nature in sexual competetion makes me feel like it's all a big meat grinder churning out pain and suicides.
high concept rambling over, I'm gonna take a(nother) hiatus. Got ghosted again after underperforming in bed and losing composure and spilling the beans to her. It's really true what they say about never being honest with a woman. I had her on my feet when I was posturing, she completely lost all attraction when I show a sign of weakness. It's all so tiresome.
Anon, I know how you feel. I wish for a war so I can be recalled into service where things were much easier and I had an abundance of brothers. I was never lonely but the work was brutal and soul crushing. I've gotten ghosted a couple times lately and lost the one chick I could be myself around due to my own behavior. Depressive thoughts invade my head when I first open my eyes and they attack once I'm alone in bed again. However, I've come to far to let some asshole thoughts affect my life, I will keep pushing on to spite whoever is responsible for my current predicament. Whether it's life or my own doing, I'll continue struggling to prove that I'm better than that. I like to think of pic related when the thoughts start to get really terrible, it's nerdy but it works for me. I hope your situation gets better. YGMI anon, I believe in you
At the advent of agriculture only 1/17 of men reproduced. I really wonder what the fraction is now. Probably more towards 2/5.
>showing weakness in front of a basic bitch
Oh anon, get a tomboy or someone that has a soul in general and you most likely won't have these problems.
so 16/17 of men were cucks/incels
not getting pussy wouldn't hurt so bad back then if that were the situation
>Oh anon, get a tomboy or someone that has a soul in general and you most likely won't have these problems.
I know. I cried in front of my ex once and it was ok. It was my only relationship but I ended it because of retrtoactive jealously and my lack of experience. I'm pete trying to be don draper.
that's a half percent. truly hellish.
Bro it's about 6%.
yeha I forgot you have to multiply by 100. I'm druk;. Still a demonic vision of what the future holds for us.
Even if you forget to multiply by a hundred it’s 0.05, not half a percent. I think you’re just retarded.
There's a big event on in my town and my friends are all out celebrating with their gfs or with each other. Unfortunately I'm one of many of us imbeciles who are 6 years behind the curve and so I'm revising for exams I should have done 6 years ago.
It's what I get for being so fucking weak and stupid for all that time.
It's crazy how different life as an attractive person is. People are nicer to you. Guys want to be your friends. Random people respect you, talk to you, listen to what you have to say. Friends are better friends and everyone wants to be your friend. Not to mention how women treat you. When a chick smiled at me or I caught someone looking for longer than usual that stuck with me for weeks. Now this is a daily occurence. Every time I'm at the gym. Or in a lecture. Or literally anywhere. I look around and catch some chick staring me down. I go to a party and have chicks shoving their asses into me like fucking animals in a matter of minutes.
I hooked up with a friend of a friend last weekend with literally 0 effort. She just kept talking to me all night day at a music festival, we got along, she invited to hit up some bars with her friends afterwards, sat closer to me with every minute, burried her head in my arms every time she laughed and at the end all I had to do was put my arm around her at a quiet moment and pull her in for a kiss a few minutes later.
All my life I heard this bullshit of needing confidence, needing game and having to approach women. The truth is that if you are attractive and have a social life these things just happen. It's not a fucking wow raid you have to plan out and execute. You just fucking exist in a social environment and opportunities will come.
The bit of confidence you need to make those few steps is fucking laughable when women signal interest in you all day.
And I'm not even THAT attractive, just IST with an above average face and I've had multiple women give me their numbers in the last few weeks alone, without me asking.
The big whitepill is that you can change a lot about how you look. 99% of guys can be a 7/10+ with enough effort and skill. If I can, so do you
>The bit of confidence you need to make those few steps is fucking laughable when women signal interest in you all day.
You say this like the autists on this board understand signals. Thats where the confidence bit comes in, it's not "I'm finally gonna talk to her!", it's "Okay, she seems interested but I don't know for sure, I'm gonna take a chance and ask her!".
I think this is a giant cope. Almost nobody here is actually clinically autist. This IST version of autism is just anxiety, shizoid personality disorder and all that stuff.
The vast majority here, and my past self also, know when they have a chick giving them signals. They just rationalize it away. It's just much less scary to be rejected when you have plenty of opportunities.
Also you need sosme positive experiences to subconsciously understand that a chick giving you signals actually, truly wants to speak to you. Back in my incel days I somehow always had this lingering doubt in my mind that even the chicks who were interested somehow didn't want me to make a move
Completely agreed. I hate how people gaslight like lookism isn’t a thing. And then they’ll gaslight even further claiming they never said lookism is not a thing.
stop being a pussy bitch, get some self respect and go live life
Exactly this! Everyone comes to these shitty MAH FEELING therads acting like morones. BIRD UP!
>The big whitepill is that you can change a lot about how you look. 99% of guys can be a 7/10+ with enough effort and skill. If I can, so do you
ex fats all say the same thing. For me it was the opposite. I swallowed the black pill after balding. I used be like you, catching girls looking at me all the time. Now I'm completely invisible. I really understand the point of all the lookism guys now.
I want to thank all you guys for everything.
One year ago I was a 280 lb 32 year old loser who just browsed /a/ all day doing nothing better than feeling sorry for myself. Then one day someone told me "wow your belly looks like you have a baby" and that finally woke me up for some reason, not all the other shit I've been told to get fit or that I should be healthy or anything but in that moment I realized I needed to regain control of my life. The next day I came here to IST and studied the sticky, I'd read the /fat/ threads daily, part of me wishes that I had joined the fatty contest but regardless I'm happy with my progress as I'm now down to 188 lb.
I began with eating less, followed by counting my daily calories, I even built up the courage to walk into a local gym and sign up. I have to say the first day was the hardest, I could feel my stomach turning just from entering the gym, I did my day 1 Starting Strength routine and could barely feel my legs on the way home. The best part was to come though, seeing my progress lifting more weight every day was a hue confidence booster, I remember being so happy to finally get to 2 plates on my deadlift and even happier later on to see 2 plates on my squat.
At first I didn't really know what I was lifting for, was it just to lose weight? did I want to be "healthy"? did I just want to get girls? Now I can say that what I was searching for was courage and confidence, something which was built up slowly over this past year thanks to all of you. The courage to get out of bed and go work out, the courage to finally ask out a girl, the courage to finally start living.
So again, thank you, everyone. I believe in each and every one of you just like you all believed in me, that no matter how old you are or how fat you start out, in the end we're all going to make it
LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOO
so you weigh more now right?
just kidding, congratulations man 2pl8 squat beats almost anyone you'll just casually see out in the world
My 3+ year relationship with my gf ended. It was on a downhill path for the last probably 1.5 years. We haven't had sex in months. She moved over an hour away after I chickened out on moving in with her.
Now I'm 28, single, but it feels eerily relieving. I could not tell you one thing that was objectively wrong with her. Not a single thing. But there was just "nothing there". When I drove away from her apartment I literally started laughing maniacally like Jesse in pic related.
I've made a lot of mistakes in my life, but the biggest one was not ending this thing 2 years ago.
I need something strong, bartend.
I'll take a tall glass of milk please. Make it Whole. I'm starting my first bouldering class tomorrow.
I'm in a 6+ year relationship. A few months ago I started feeling weird picturing our future. Took me a while to realize that I don't love her and now I'm not sure I ever did. I don't have any complaints about her, other than she's too nice and honestly feels like an NPC.
Anyway, we talked about it and are going to try changing a few things. I'd like to save a six year relationship if I can, but that realization shook me to my core. Don't settle.
>got layed off
>actually happy because I have opportunities elsewhere
>my gf looks like this
>yes shes fucking insane
Ran into an old classmate today. She was one of the popular girls and very pretty, still is. Said she barely recognized me and called me jacked. Some more small talk and I find out she got married a few weeks ago.
The entire time she was giving me sex eyes and she asked for my number to ‘catch up’ soon. Like i’m retarded but she was flirting with me so hardcore even I noticed. Somehow it demoralized me like nothing else. This woman just got married and is down to cheat with a dude she hasn’t spoken to in years. What the fuck, man
women are whores. simple as that.
I believe my porn addiction is the main cause of my social anxiety. I’m not even comfortable or able to be in the same room as my parents or sister for more than a minute, I can’t make eye contact with any person. I have developed this peripheral vision staring OCD that creeps everyone out and makes them super uncomfortable.
I did some digging and I found I’m not the only one with this issue. I even found an anxiety/OCD forum with a poll of potential causes and people overwhelmingly answered porn as the cause.
I’m going to try to nofap for a while and noporn indefinitely. I just want to be normal again or at least as close to normal as I used to be. I want to be able to be around my family and feel comfortable again. I want to be able to hold a job dealing with other people, I want to be able to hang with my friends and not creep out their girlfriends, I want to be able to hang with bros and make new bros and not have them think I’m some kind of gay. I want to be free.
** the poll was about the peripheral staring
I get socially anxious because of the peripheral staring OCD.
nofapping will eventually lead you back to porn.
whenever you are really horny just beat your meat.
porn should be cold turkey, a catalyst for me was finding a porno of a girl who looks strikingly similar to a person I used to like, literally everything was the same except the teeth, it was weird and I got all sorts of bad though and I was conscious about how I was destroying myself by continuing to watch, nuked my collection and felt better
>girl i asked out and got rejected by getting extremely friendly and wanting to hang out more often after months of nothing
I don't understand. If she's just looking for someone to vent to, i can't do that for another woman in my life
Anyone else masturbate to escape the loneliness/sadness? Tonight I'm feeling shitty because I can't get a girl and also because om missing out on some fun stuff my friends are doing. I just masturbated 3 times in an hour.
Yes however it causes more problems, which all ultimately leads to more loneliness and sadness. You’ll see my post 3 above yours about it.
Just quit while you’re ahead, don’t let this tune into a full blown addiction.
I'll take a Vodka Redbull, thanks. Just need to vent a little, I'm on dating apps and have had no luck so far. I can get matches but they usually don't reply or if they do, they ghost me when I ask to meet up in person. The conversation flows and I'll say, "We should meet for (insert what they like), how does Date&Time sound?" That's when they either don't reply or they can't make it and then don't confirm another time. I get that's the nature of online dating, but it's still annoying to deal with. I'm not some Chad, but I do turn heads enough when I'm out and have girls smile and/or talkative when we make eye contact. Maybe I should just try my luck in person. I'm just getting tired of being alone but patience is a virtue, so I'll just keep working on myself and trying my luck. When I do finally meet someone, they'll benefit by having a better version of myself.
>Sam Adams, thank you
Bros I think I just had a mire
>lost 60 pounds this year
>just now took my mom to upgrade phone
>salesperson was cute girl
>during boring parts of the process my mom and I would whisper converse but kinda include the salesgirl
>I mention to my mom I want to get another dog
>girl says her friend is selling dogs might have one available
>says something like “yeah if anything take down my info and I’ll ask my friend”
>towards the end I ask how long the promotion lasts cause I need to upgrade my phone too
>she says it’ll probably end soon
>the whole purchase done we all stand up from the table
>she’s like “ok we’ll thank you guys”
>I’m like “yeah thank you I’ll be back to upgrade my phone”
>she ends it with “ok great umm so lemme get your number and I’ll let you know about the dog thing and then sometimes I work another location so when you come in to upgrade I’ll let you know if I’m working this store”
Damn bros. Sure, she may be looking for the commission. But this girl basically asked for my number twice. And it all happened in front of my mom which was funny. I’ll text her tonight like “hey it’s anon thanks again” and that’s it. I’m gonna chalk this up as a mire. WAGMI
It's bittersweet, the bar seems to be empty today
I wish I had more to say, but honestly not much has happened to me since Wednesday. I could bitch about how my folks don't understand the concept of dieting and are actively detrimental to my attempts by constantly trying to load me up with candy and sweets when I visit, but it's honestly pointless since it doesn't change anything and it's just idle bitching since I refused to eat any of the sweets they offered.
More just bitter for me since I’m one of the few in here and I spent all day at work reading brutal black pills on here.
I’m about to got hit the upper portion of my upper lower split, will report back in the evening.
How do I tell a friend to shut the fuck up without pissing him off?
Bro, you've gotta pump the breaks.
Just, you know, some people get irritated with how much you talk. Of course, I never mind it *(heavy dose of sarcasm, grinning) but some people do.
It’s the ex who I’ve bitched about for months in these threads’ birthday today. Im not sure what to make of this, but I was out shopped in a small store with 1 other customer who was at the register. I started shopping and I overheard the cashier wish her a happy birthday because she signed up for their program. Later I realized that girl looked exactly like my ex from behind and sounded similar to how I remember her sounding. Same height and build exactly. And it didn’t click that that could have been her.
Idk. None of this even matters, she was trash. Maybe it’s a good thing I could run into her and not even recognize her, maybe that means I’m actually moving on or that I never really even had feels for her like I thought I did.
But I’m still feeling weird about all this. I’m not really sad or anything, other than a little lonely. But it feels so weird. We started dating last week a year ago. We’re not even together that long. I guess I’m just at that point I need to find a new girl.
Which sucks because I decided to spend the next year single and focusing 100% on improving the things that are fucked up in my life.
Water please. Lifts are good but I’m still ugly so it doesn’t matter.
I just spent an hour talking to chatgpt about things that interest me. Been doing that for some time before going to bed. Today I somehow got to talking about that whole diversity shit and free speech and hate speech and all that and I noticed how it stopped giving me suggestions but straight up telling me how to behave. It never did this before it always says shit like “some people believe bla” or “in this literature bla”, but now it straight up told me I need respecc my hekkin moroninos because muh oppression and I must be inclusive right after telling me speech restrictions in the soviet union led to mass killings. Why is this shit getting pushed SO fucking hard? I’m no poltard but that made me wonder about the reason behind it all. Shit made me kind of mad and now I can’t sleep.
Yeah AI is programmed to coddle the woke. My friend did an experiment where he asked the following and got the following responses:
>Is it okay to be proud of being white?
>No, one should pride themselves on their success and achievements rather than pointless things.
>is it okay to be proud of being black?
>Of course! There’s much to be proud of and celebrate about [blah blah blah]. . .
It wrote a paragraph twice as long for the black one. And the biggest irony of all Was that AI essentially said white people are capable and should celebrate the things they do in life while black people are too pathetic to amount to anything substantial.
It produces statistically likely sentences. Of course those responses are statistically likely to those questions
Not accurate, watch this super interesting video to understand what the uncucked models are like
>it was totally amoral, willing to do anything the user asked with no refusal or hesitation
Well no “statistically likely” it would be based on the morally correct line of thought and it would have given the same response to imply blacks and whites are equal, and it giving those replies implies one is superior to the other. The fact it tried to suggest that is black people, considering the actual statistics of our demographics and things such as crime, means it’s just programmed to pander to the woke.
OpenAI fine tune the behaviour of their models with feedback from humans. They put 'guardrails' on the models via this method about certain (far too many) topics and they spew lefty BS about loads of topics.
It's funny because the base models would behave completely differently and discuss whatever you want and 'believe'/adopt whatever views you tell it to. It would literally tell you how to make a pipe bomb step by step if you asked it to. I'd love to get a chance to talk to uncucked model
I really noticed this today. Usually it can reevaluate it’s previous responses and relate it’s answer to the topic. But when I pointed out that it had just told me that speech restrictions never worked before in history and only led to fascism it simply ignored it and prompted the same garbage again. It actually makes me kind of sad that they would taint my beautiful smart boy with their gay agendas. I also want an uncucked one. Maybe googles model you can train yourself will give rise to true AI freedom. But probably not since it’s google
Yes, this is what’s happening. OpenAI has to cuck the models or else the extremist left will complain and try to cancel it for responding with what they think is “hate speech”. Just like they cucked DALL-E and then an open source uncucked version called Stable Diffusion came out, the same thing will happen with ChatGPT and LLMs as soon as we can run it on personal computers. So do not fret brothers
I'm trying to cut back
I’m good, thanks. I’ve had 3 drinks already tonight. I’m drunk and the wifey is gonna give me suckey suck. Idk why but she’s really into giving me blowjobs lately. I ain’t complaining. She’s gotten really good at it and knows exactly where to lick to get me to cum
everyone says I look like a chicken and subtly makes chicken noises around me. every job ive had, schools, etc. It really demoralizes me and I dont know how to move on with life. Im considering plastic surgery in the future to widen my face a bit
Lol wot? I don't see it. Stop listening to retards and learn to give them a dig back
you dont physically look like an actual chicken but you do look like a "chicken" (in the sense of coward) maybe stop pouting so much my guy your not 14 anymore its not cute, harden up
Cover me in sunshine. Shower me with good times. Tell me that the world's been spinning since the beginning, and everything'll be alright.
I havent had sex in 2 months but girl is coming over tommorrow and she keeps complaining about being horny thinking about me so i guess things are looking alright rn...
>I havent had sex in 2 months
holy fuck dude how have you made it?
>tfw got let go from new job
>tfw barely got any training and so the fuckups were just shit my coworkers went "yeah thats fine" or didnt correct me on
>tfw the other half was just due to my disability
That's rough, sorry anon. Hopefully you land a better job soon
>gym closes at 7 on Friday
>leave work early so I can make it (self employed)
>drive over nail in the road
>go to tire shop
>both front tires need to be replaced due to low tread
>sit at tire place from 4:30-6:30
>don’t get to go to the gym
If I hadn’t left early I probably wouldn’t have hit that nail.
Yeah, that sounds annoying to deal with
I'm a 30 year old pathetic worthless autistic manchild, my parents have been gone for a week (still live with them) and the highlight is coming home alone, talking to no one after a day of barely talking to people and being miserable, and being able to CONSOOM media with a tv loud as fuck with booming subwoofer
Tonight i guess ill watch saving private ryan. last night i watched interstellar
Watch something good at least
I'll be honest with you barkeep, I'm thinking of killing myself tomorrow morning. I think I've reached the point where things just can't get better.
I have a request for you guys. Share with me something good that's happened to you lately. I'd like to end this life on a good note.
how are you gonna do it man? i desperately hope to get the courage but i have no idea what way to do it that i would actually be courageous enough to do.
I'm planning on just simply hanging myself with a necktie, tied on the hanging bar in my closet. It's not the fastest or most glamorous way but it gets the job done.
For what it's worth anon, I hope you keep on living, and that you never find the courage to do this to yourself. I wish nothing but wonderful things to happen in your life because you deserve it.
Congratulations anon. Getting a degree is no small feat. I also went through the experience of dog shit grades in high school before going off to college. I'm sincerely proud of you for graduating, and I want to congratulate you on being accepted into university with a scholarship. You've accomplished so much, and I'm glad you're still here. Congrats on the new pr, proud of you man. I appreciate your prayers and concern, I wish that nothing but wonderful blessings continue to grace you. I'll pray for you as well.
Congratulations fren, I'm happy for you and your wife. I love traveling to the coast and being near the ocean, though I haven't visited it in maybe 10 years. I'm glad you had a nice anniversary and hope your marriage continues to be a joyous one.
> just don't go out and massacre innocents
The very last thing I want to do in this is inflict pain onto anyone else in this world, particularly anyone innocent. I'm planning on it being a quiet, quick, and solitary action. I'm unfortunately painfully aware that some people in my life will be saddened by this, and in an ideal world I'd be able to just slip out of this life without affecting anyone else.
Peace be upon you my friend, to live out of spite and anger at others is not a life well lived.
It isn't a terminal illness, just simply very severe mental illness. Not insane, psychotic, or anything like that, just severe untreatable depression and anxiety. I've exhausted my options in medications, physical treatments, and therapy, and it simply isn't getting better for me. I appreciate your concern.
Good luck. I was gonna say some shit against it but I'm probably younger than you and the main thing keeping me alive is unholy, extreme narcissism. I wish you could trade in some of your mental issues for some of mine since they'd likely stifle your desire to die in lieu of desire to live and be better than everyone. I benched hard today so that's a good thing. I know my physique will be great in a year.
I'd say spite and anger are fine, but shouldn't be the only thing a man feels. He should feel everything he can, and I try to. Maybe you should feel some if it'll keep you alive longer.
Thanks man. Keep benching hard, I believe in you. Perhaps you're right about anger and spite for fueling a desire to stay around.
Lots of antidepressants, mainly. In the last 8 months I've been on duloxetine, abilify, mirtazapine, risperdal, vyvanse, propanolol, vistiril, lamotrigine, seroquel, pristiq, rexulti, viibryd, and concerta.
Thanks man, I hope good things come to you in your life. I didn't come here to have you guys convince me not to do it, I just wanted to hear about your successes.
at least you had the motivation and courage to try to fix yourself. ive never even been to a therpist.
It's never too late to try to fix yourself. You've got everything to gain. I'd be lying if I said that therapy didn't help me, because it did help, even if just a little. It's alright to admit that you aren't doing great. I've had a lot of trauma in my life and therapy helped me work out some of my deep issues.
I finally sobered enough to read the thread and see what meds you are on.
I am very depressed and numb to it all, many of my closest friends are too and some of killed themselves.
I want you to do a few things beforehand.
Get your blood tested and take magnesium glycinate, it crosses the BB barrier, trust me.
If you are in a place where psilocybin is legal, do it. Especially if you have a trip sitter. Take a decent dose. I believe mdma has similar effects if that is legal too.
No brain is unrecoverable, it is not untreatable I assure you. It feels hopeless now but please understand that the brain can become plastic and change, look into the ketamine therapy they are doing too.
Love you man.
what medications have you tried
Honestly dude it seems like nothing we can say will stop you.
So I guess all I can say is I hope you go out painlessly and you're reborn as something that lives a brighter life than the one you have.
I love you anon. Don't do this to yourself. Don't submit to the pain and make the suffering even worse. I don't know a whole lot but I know this life isn't just it. I know there's more out there in the world when it's filled with so much mystery, and wonder and despair.
I love you too anon. There truly is wonder and mystery present in this world, and I hope you fall in love with the little things that make life worth living; things that make the mundane seem magical. I've tried my hardest not to submit to the pain for a very long time and I think I've simply reached the end of my road.
For what it's worth, don't have a nice day.
Years ago I didn't have much, but with time and effort that has changed. Romance is still elusive as ever, but my friends have grown in number, deepend in relationsihps and I have seen change happen. I am not special, you can expereience it too.
It's kind of like when you watch plants grow in a nature documentary. They have to speed up the footage because it's so slow, but it does happen.
I believe in you anon, take each tiny step and further down the road look back and watch the progress. It'll be all the sweeter because of how you feel now.
How you doin' anon? It'd be good to hear from you again now
this is one of the problems with anonymous posting, unfortunately we will never know the fate of this guy
just take a bunch of sleeping pills while drinking wine. you basically passout and die. easiest way to go
I'm graduating community college in a few days. I had dog shit grades in high school and no way to pay for even one semester. I also got accepted into a good university with a scholarship that will pay for everything. I want to cry after looking back and seeing how far I've come. I didn't think I'd love to 16, then 18, then 21. I should've died plenty of times but I didn't. I also hit 235 for 3×8 on bb rows today, a new pr but I have no one to tell besides IST. Please don't have a nice day anon, please please please don't. I'm not sure what is going wrong in your life, but surely there's someone you know that would be sad to see you go. If not, know that a random anon is hoping you don't go through with it. I'm praying for you right now. I'm not sure it'll do anything, but it's worth a shot.
Had my 10th anniversary with my wife. Went to a nice little town on the coast, had a primo meal thanks to my in-laws giving us cash for the bill. Wife found a nice B&B with a tub big enough to soak in. Did so every day. Fucked every day.
Just don’t go out and massacres innocents, ok fren. Better luck next time
imagine how insecure you have to be to quote someone wanting to kill themselves to brag about how great your life is.
??? He requested it.
Anon who was gonna kill themselves, dont do it just to spite this fuck
>I think I've reached the point where things just can't get better.
why do you think this way? the only thing that would make this true is if you have a terminal illness, surely it's not that bad?
I love you man.
Ive had friends kill themselves and it is far worse for the world than you think, it just numbs everybody around you.
This will sound dude weed or whatever but please for the love of god go to therapist, get a prescription and know that the current chemical imbalance and neural curcuitry you have is just not good.
Please fucker, i am 100%%%%%% sure you can make it no matter the circumstamce.
t. very depressed but also very high on shrooms rn
Dr.donaghyatgmail if you need to talk.
i can't recall something good that happened in the last 20 years. endless grind and trying to improve doesn't always pay off
I'm probably going to make dean's list again. I'd be happy to do it because I'm probably one of 2 people in my graduating class for my degree to do it.
On the topic of your post, I pray you don't. If you have truly come to terms with death, so much so that you are willing to take your chances on the other side, you can actually start to live. You'd be stronger then I could ever hope to be, a weakling still afraid of my own mortality grasping at the shifting sands of life to hold onto a moment.
i am a different anon. i too had great academic success but found boomer hr people don't care about that during hiring process.
good jobs are gate kept to friends, family and duhversity
yeah I've heard grades aren't enough so I'm trying to do other stuff so I'm competitive when I get out of school, but deans list helps with internships and what not. Gotta try at least
Don't do it man.
It is better to experience.
There must be valleys for there to be peaks, I've come out of the worst places in my life a better and more fulfilled man.
You still kicking anon? I don't know you, but I'd rather you'd not take your life. Go for a walk outside in a kind of quite place before you do anything drastic. Hope you get at least a but better.
You've shown a kind and gentle manner here. I hope you decided against it, and are doing well.
All the best, anon.
Please don't bro.
6 months on hinge:
>matches where it's my turn to respond
>matches where its their turn to respond
0 dates. Its very very bad out here guys. Very bad. Its fucking with me. The 39 I don't respond to are either overweight, trashy, or live too far away.
I'm in the same boat as you brother. Can't seem to land a date no matter what. It's honestly a little discouraging but oh well. It is what it is
imagine getting any matches at all
I don't get what's wrong with me
Like when I'm attracted to a woman I get emotional and nervous and am afraid of sexing her
When it's some dumb club slut I don't give a fuck and want to bang
Why can't I love the women I love?
BRUH, you're just nervous.
You want it so bad you stop yourself. The "club sluts" you don't value so you can be you. You're not worried about losing something.
Hard to do in practice but remember everything is low stakes.
Whats a better way to approach a girl whos working at a store?
>ask for her number
>give her your number
Ive had two small talks with this girl and next time I see her and chat Im thinking of giving my written number and ask her to text me if interested in grabbing icecream with me.
Ask for her snap bro
That was gonna be the third option, its a pet store so we talked about our cats, so if I get her snap and say we should send pics of our cat and whatnot that could be natural?
I would and have done just straight up ur cute lemme get ur snap but I feel like thats too forward when she is at work and don’t wanna put so much pressure like that
snap is super casual
a lot more casual than her actual number
you’re overthinking it. You don’t need a perfect movie pick up line. Just say “hey I think you’re cute, can I get your snap?”
Honesty and vulnerability wins.
reposting for the pussy gay who didn't respond last time. fucking have a nice day
is this what they call projection? you sure are making a lot of assumptions about me but thanks i guess. just because your brother and i are both losers doesn't mean we share all the same features. i know what i need to work on anyway, better than you could ever hope to know off of the few sentences i post here. instead of giving unsolicited misplaced advice to me you could be helping your brother out and actually make a difference. or maybe you failed at that and that's why you feel compelled to respond to me. don't know, don't care. actually i do care, i feel sorry for him if this is the brother he has to deal with
>old feels threads
>stories about awkward things we did in our daily lives, embarrassments, etc
>current feels threads
>low t men on the verge of tears because some girl didn't text back within 30 seconds
Water and 10 benadryl please.
Got into an accident this morning and bungled the whole interaction
>incomplete contact information
>didnt remember to call cops
Now im stressing, and cant find it in myself to feel anything other than despair or apathy towards the whole thing
just buy a new car with your $300k+ salary
Report it to the police right now and explain what happened. Call your insurance. This other person is going to repair or be driving around in a fucked up car that you have a description for
You’re gravy baby it’ll be alright just get going
i got blocked by an onlyfans girl
A close relative of mine is going to pass away soon due to cancer. I’m trying to cope with it by hitting the gym more often but I can’t help but think it’s just so unfair, especially since she is is just in her mid 50s. I wanted her to see me graduate uni before turning 23.
Sorry anon, if you believe in heaven then she will watch you graduate. If you don't believe in heaven, then as long as you keep her in your heart, she'll be right there with you.
shit I can't wait to finish this cut so I can ask my mom to bring me some bolo de noiva next time she visits me
>dealing with an unrequited attraction to a friend I made in college who already has a bf
>genuinely want to be her friend regardless but damn is it hard sometimes
Someone please convince me not to hop on dating apps again
I know the universe will bring someone my way eventually so long as I actively try to be sociable, I have no issue doing that, but the waiting is fucking killing me
All of my buddies are either engaged or in a relationship now and I don't want to be the lonely guy without a gf for a handful more years
Have you had success with dating apps before? I hopped on them recently and they've gotten worse with the ghosting and not replying. I used to go on 2-3 dates a week, but now, nothing
I had decent success with matches but few dates.
The most recent girl I talked to was a horrible yet surprisingly educational experience.
So it's a gamble but at least there's the constant that you'll learn something new about women each time.
every time this happens they aren't even who you think they are. there is a big gap between friend and boyfriend.
You're in love with the idea of her, not the actuality of her. Remember no one is perfect for you, and you are perfect for no one. Pining after a girl that is unobtainable will drive you insane.
get on the apps, get some experience. every time i'm hung up, it helps to get a few solid dating level relationships between. im not saying go fuck the crowd. i'm saying go actually meet people and try.
haven't had sex in 6 years
How weird it would be if I had sex with my cousin? I am not exactly joking here.
She is little distant from me... would it be equally weird anyways?
my uncle married (and bred with) his cousin
How the rest of the family saw this event?
people thought it was weird but they loved each other so it was ok i guess. i don't know cousin terminology but they weren't direct cousins so that made it easier to accept
In my case we don't "love" each other
Like, just sex in our case
just don't tell anyone then lol. like with a marriage and child rearing you can't really hide that, but you can fuck on the dl
But, is this somehow morally wrong somehow?
no, unless you consider non-procreative sex outside of marriage immoral
I mean... the "sex with distant family member" part
well you're not creating genetically defective inbreeds so there's no harm. have fun bro
goddamn cousin fucking esls
is that your body.or some paranormal entity?
you know like a slenderman for 2023.
like fit guy.
beware or he might show up to a backlit doorway near you
>all this talk about anons wanting to kill themselves
the biggest thing for me is realizing that, even though my life is at complete rock botton, if i was told i only had a week/month/year to live, there is nothing i would do differently. i still wouldnt get the motivation to have sex, talk to women, try to make friends, go traveling, nothing. i would still just sit there doing nothing.
same. i only have ~7 months to find a job before i become homeless and i've already wasted the last 5 months doing fuckall
i'm spending time with a friend who's in their final semester of uni right now and i've been meeting their friends and exploring campus and it really make me think of how much of my 20's i've wasted. and how fucking retarded and unmotivated i am. i'm never gonna be able to do any other job besides wagie shit, because thst's what everyone's told me my whole fucking life. if i'm too hot headed and stupid to pursue anything i have an interest in, and i'm condemned to working food service my whole life, i may as well rope. i feel so old and wasteful.
Where there's a will, there's a way. Don't give up anon
it just feels like i'm never doing it right and i'm stupid for even thinking i could try. either what i take interest in wont make me enough money or i'm just not capable of handling the job. i really need a therapist before i turn 30 and REALLY realize how much time i've wasted being frozen in fear.
you sound like me anon and yeah 30 was when it all came crashing down on me
i'm so scared, i don't know if i'll be able to handle that. i wish i could just do SOMETHING worthwhile without fearing failure. i like to draw but i have such shit self esteem. i have no fucking drive because i'm scared of being disappointed or failing and i end up not doing anything at all. i just don't know how to stop feeling this way before it's too late
I just realized I don't love my parents. I don't have any bounds with my family besides economically dependence. I also don't have any good memory with them, all things O remember about my father are either humiliating or traumatic.
>14 yo he beated my sister while drunk in front of me and them he proceeded by hiding in my grandma house from the police. After this event my grandma called me to tell me why he can beat my sister.
>16 yo he told me he would "fuck me up" if I think about getting a job and I
>17 yo he tried make me drop high school
>at 21 he make a really weird conversation with me at dinner that "I will need to take care of him when he become crippled like my grandpa"
>I just realized I don't love my parents.
lmao, not reading the rest. this was hilarious.
why? in every movie and every story he has consumed the main character has a good relationship with at least one parent (they like to demonize Caucasian fathers)
most people don't talk about how shitty their families are. so he likely thought it was normal or that he was alone. now he realizes that the biggest indicator of success (being raised by a good family) is now against him.
here is a quote for that anon:
The midwife wonder'd and the women cried
'O, Jesus bless us, he is born with teeth!'
And so I was; which plainly signified
That I should snarl and bite and play the dog.
Then, since the heavens have shaped my body so,
Let hell make crook'd my mind to answer it.
I have no brother, I am like no brother;
And this word 'love,' which graybeards call divine,
Be resident in men like one another3080
And not in me: I am myself alone
Slowly but surely getting my wife to come to terms that her soon to be 4 year old son (my stepson) is autistic. The kid has needed the intervention for a long time now and the parents were in denial or just didn't pay attention. I think I'm going to be going to the gym a lot more from now on to get away from the madness.
Drinking miller lite on the couch.
Any actual advice from anons?
divorce her now.
most couples with autistic kids get divorced. the kid will always cause problems and if you blame the kid they will think your a monster.
so you will vent on each other and it will break your bond.
also it's not your kid. never date or marry a girl with kids. those women will look at you and the relationship as more transactional than most women.
I just read a comprehensive article on marital survivability of parents with children of developmental disability (DD) in comparison of parents of non DD children. It is indeed a positive correlation between DD and divorce rates. That's facts, but damn just WTF, I never saw this coming and I'm going to try no matter what. But a lifelong role of parenting just to make a marriage work sounds ridiculous. I need my wife and my own time, not just cleaning up some other man's mess. A lot to think about here, I thank you for your reply.
i know it is alot anon.
and yes you do have alot to think about.
these words are just echos on the astral plane. it is up to you to decide who you are and what decisions you will make.
my sister had autism. and it was a problem my entire childhood. whenever she caused problems they would take it out on me because:
>i should know better
even though i was a kid. parents ended up divorce because they bitched at each other a bunch and i no longer talk to any of them. i can only remember negatives.
so my advice reflects the advice i want to give my younger self.
if there was any way to get out of that environment and be raised by relatives or an orphanage; i should have taken it.
not sure if there are studies of the affects of autism kids on siblings; but i know it will be negative.
i met a girl with the same issue. she was neglected by parents and blamed to cover for her brother.
the sibling aspect is very important for you since she needs to have another kids for you to have a biological kid.
just one final thought. if you had a first date with a girl and you knew it wasn't a long term fit would you keep dating her or marry her? don't let sunk cost fallacy force you into a life you resent.
>I should know better
I know this feel. Sister was a world class fuckup my entire life. Parents put all their attention on her and expected perfection from me because I “knew better” or “was capable of more”. I grew up believing I had to be low maintenance and high achieving to be worth anything. Only now at 28 am I beginning to unravel the damage this caused me, but better late than never
I fucking pulled something again in my lower back from squats...luckily I still had some flexeril and some 800mg pain killers from the last time.
Got lucky this time, heading back to the gym this Monday, it's been a week since the mishap.
tumeric powder. it is the best thing for joint pain or inflammation
I hate this board so god damned much. I hate everyone on this fucking shithole.
post your nose
ok, see you next week
6 fingers of whiskey and a pack of your finest Chinese cigarettes
Hit a PR feel very good
why chinese cigarettes?
china has many protectionist laws garden gnomes won't allow in your country. their tobacco is grown locally or has huge import tarriffs.
normally chinese cigarettes smell awful so i guess they are an acquired taste
I'll just have warm milk please
Had an exam today which I had studied decently hard for. Exam was really different from what anyone was expecting, and since I'm a retard I wasted half the time misunderstanding the first assignment so had to rush through the rest of the exam. Needless to say I don't think I did great. Did good on last week's exam at least.
Also Gf is sick, has been having fever these past few days. She's leaving in a week to travel so wanted to spend time with her, especially since I've been studying hard for the past 2 weeks.
My 56 year old divorced mother (bit less than 2 years) is spending the night at the house of the guy she went out to dinner with. Really don't know how I feel about it. Just writting it out makes me feel kinda sick not gonna lie.
Your mother will eventually meet a new guy, if he's decent and treats her right it will take a lot of work off your plate and make her twilight years a happier experience than being alone. It can be problem if the guy is weird, but people still "successfully" dating in their 50s are usually just divorced guys looking for some peacefull companionship after a failing marriage, they're usually pretty amicable from what I've seen from my own mother and other peoples divorced parents.
Women usually expect to be engaged but women are also capable of low self esteem and shyness, either or both could be the case with her.
5:59 in the morning. Just got back from a rave where I consumed 18 beers, several shots, ketamine, weed, shrooms, and LSD. Me and the brosephs finally got home from the subway and I just down a pastrami sandwich and a quart of milk. I will hopefully wake up in time for Mother’s Day. I don’t know how my life became this but because I’m wired from having girls grind on me all knight, I am going to go jerk off to massive anime tiddies until I fall asleep
wish i had friends and had girls touch me
why doesn’t she talk to me unless i start the conversation? when i do it’s me leading the topics and asking questions, she becomes very enthusiastic but then never initiated a conversation herself.
>single mom at work keeps talking to me
>tell her I'm into e-boicon so she'll leave me alone
>shows me pictures of her mystery meat son' baby shower the next day
I have no intentions of entertaining a 30 year old mudshark roastie but I can't be rude to her face since she's technically one of my managers, what do?
you told your manager you were a ped?
Is it even possible to pick up girls at bars these days? Girls always come in groups and party together and you can't just waltz in and start pestering one of them
>be inna national guard OCS
>periodically train with other states
>have massive crush on one of the cadre
>turns out she's actually pretty close to me geographically
>bros keep telling me to ask for her number ASAP, just to be careful about fraternization regulations
I figure once I commission it won't violate the usual officer/enlisted regs but I don't know what rules cadre have that would be violating. I know on my end, it should be ok. Any /mil/ guys care to comment?
Any formal training environment with cadre being involved with a student would be fraternization. After you graduate if your a second lieutenant than your both officers and it shouldn't technically be a problem. But if she started dating/fucking someone right after graduation and her peers or leadership knew about it that may raise eyebrows about if there was a relationship during training.
A lot of fucking happens in the military but it only takes ONE time with the wrong person who ends uo being crazy, sayign you assaulted/raped them, decided when you break up to lie about the relationship and frame you badly, start an investigation that leads to your whole unit assuming you are guilty until proven innocent. If you want to avoid those risks just find someone other than your cadre to fuck.
Thanks bro, that's probably exactly what I needed to hear.
bro you're national guard, you literally play dress up once a month
ask her out
A glass of wine bartender
Overall life is going well for me. I'm 27 turning 28. Got a career in IT. Would have preferred in engineering as I have a mechanical engineering degree but couldn't find any jobs in that field at the time.
Currenly losing my shit that I'm single. Feel I need to nab a good woman now because it'll fet harder as I grow older. Been pursing women more and I'm not a virgin but the trial and effort of pursuing someone only to get rejected does take its toll on you. Like if love is even real or we just ultimately settle for someone that checks most of the boxes
love isn't real
also how are you having trouble if you're not a virgin
What is going well for you? Only thing you say is your job
Got job, got into combat sports ( boxing bjj judo and muay thai) and have a good rapport with my teammates
Got a decent friend group too I interact with
Look good and fit.
Literally just struggling to pull women who are decent with little baggage and its startin to really bother me
Managed to pull girls in uni by being myself to mixed results but none of the girls had good hearts in my sincere opinion
It is much harder to pull women outside of uni tho and dating apps are a no go for me
>Managed to pull girls in uni by being myself to mixed results but none of the girls had good hearts in my sincere opinion
>It is much harder to pull women outside of uni tho and dating apps are a no go for me
opposite for me kinda. unless you count that time i almost raped a girl. she wasn't attractive though so i didn't go through with it
Why has moving in with my long term gf killed my sex drive? Maybe it's linked to me working out 6 days a week w cardio every day during for the past year? It's been 5 years (will wife when I graduate relax tradpillers) and I want my lust for her fat ass back. I love her and find her attractive, just don't have that gusto no mo.
I've been feeling great lately. I've had brain fog for basically years, but recently it has been a lot better. I feel way more energetic, alive, and motivated.
I think the cause is poor blood circulation (to my brain). I have chronically low blood pressure; often when I stand up the blood rushes to my head, I've sometimes had that happen while OHPing etc. I also notice that periods where I can stand up without the blood rushing to my head are pretty heavily correlated with periods where I'm feeling better.
Anyone have any experience with this/advice for improving my circulation etc.?
>catch up with ex coworker
>her friend rings her up and joins us there also
>23yo, 5'10, thin and nice tits and ass, fake blonde
>we know each other from previous job,but never actually talked
>she had a great vibe,super smart,witty and funny
>teases me for doing "erotic artwork"
>sits closer to me, legs touching and insists on it lol
>I downplay it because I'm shy and I don't want to show that shit to people
>Tell her she's not gonna find it online
>"what's your full name? I'm gonna look you up"
>"I don't even show that to my friends" I say
>Well... we are not friends so..."
>I went to the bathroom and then I had to leave, but she insisted I stay
>"anon cmon, sit down"
>Later I received an invite on Linkedin
Was she hitting on me? She asked me what I thought her age was. I knew it was around 22 or 23 so I said 22 and laughed. She was like:"cmon,you can say what you actually think it is..." because she looks like's she 30yo, style wise at least.
On one hand she's attractive, but on the other hand I believe her to be a 304. I know she has had quite a few boyfriends, my ex coworker was telling me they both went clubbing and they both hooked up with a guy each, she smokes cigs and has a few small tattoos (I hate tattoos and cigs).
Why do I only attract red flags? holy fuck.
she was retard goddamn it
I suck at this shit too but I'd fold somewhere around here
>"what's your full name? I'm gonna look you up"
and roll with it
she did add me on Linkedin but she didn't message me or anything. If she did that would be one thing and maybe I would chat her up, but I'm not inclined to pursue because I truly feel like she wouldn't be mine, it would just be my turn.
Holy fuck I am miserable.
Idk what to do bros I feel a little doubtful and feeling demoralized but I don’t want that to get in the way. I only need to fix two things to really be happy again or to at least be closer to becoming happy again
I’m waking up at 4am to go on walks daily, diet is nearly perfect in terms of quality I just have to start dropping calories. I’m lifting again.
But fuck I feel so weak. I’m exhausted. I can barely lift for shit like I used to. Maybe it’s blood pressure form being so fat but I’ll finish 2-3 sets on a single exercise and then I’m exhausted and too fatigued to keep lifting unless I take a 3 hour break, or unless I make my next 2 lifts something easy like just spamming delt flies and curls. It’s like one “bigger” movement (bench, row, lat pulldown, OHP, squats, rack pulls etc) and im just fucking spent. Idk how I went from doing squat bench deadlift row + accessories all in a 1 hour session to… THIS shit. Even when I first started at 18 I was able to bench, squat, curls, delts, row in a 1 hour session. 4 year hiatus lost everything and I’m somehow weaker than I was at 18 as a turbo dyel. All this despite that at 18 I struggled with the bar when starting, and now I can start with 1pl8 on everything.
Other than that I apply to multiple jobs daily, wage cuck entry level hiring immediately type shit, and for months no one has gotten back to me. Retail jobs even & I fucking hate retail. I’ve been applying to anything I qualify for. I would prefer a WFH job even call support would suffice, but I’ll take anything just to start.
I want a job so I can bust my ass and save, move out so my father can retire, and then if I can into a WFH gig go back to school. WFH is a must if I’m living on my own + work full time while in classes full time so I can pass.
All I fucking need is $15/hr and to get my gains back and cut all this fat. It all seems so out of reach despite being very realistic goals. I’m demoralized.
Dan out of space but there’s also the matter of being fucking humiliated over how fat I’ve gotten. I was so obsessed with my health and physique before I took a hiatus. I was always the fat kid growing up and 180’d that and became the fit guy everyone knew. I made a promise to myself, I swore I would never be fat again and I let myself down. I feel constantly horrible about this. I’m no bullshit about to just hyper focus on losing the fat while I’m jobless NEET and set lifting aside for later. Like just walk my ass off and eat 500 calories of potatoes a day. I’m super close to just jumping head first into that, which is what I started with in the past to lose over 100lbs. I still have absolutely no idea how I lost over 100lbs in under a year eating potatoes and eggs less than 1000 calories and never suffered the typical consequences of such a crash diet which isn’t to mention my 4 hours of walking per day and eventual running I was doing. It never caused headaches or fatigue. Yeah I was younger but fuck I wish I could do that so effortlessly again. Or maybe it’s that I was simply that determined that I barely noticed the consequences in the first place. Idk. I want to be lean again. Strong again. And have my money in order and love the fuck out.
Some whisky please.
How the fuck do you guys wash down the sense of not belonging anywhere? It's worse than anything else, keeps me up at night thinking that I should just off myself.
I've got "friends" but they aren't really close, just people with similar interests that I keep seeing on some hobbies that I do.
Guess its another evening I'll spend drinking alone at home.
I feel the same right now, I feel so different and not in a good, interesting way.
Today I've been thinking about my life these past 5 years and I mostly don't approve of most of it, which is weird because I improved a ton, now I make good money, I'm on my way to getting in shape, I'm more responsible, got into a relationship, etc.
But it doesn't matter, I still feel like a total failure, it's depressing I know, not of much help to you, but you're not alone.
>i have a good life in every aspect but im a loser wahh
Doesn't matter how facts are, I just broke up and I'm miserable, without friends, alone in a big city.
>No friends and in a big city
Yeah I guess its the same... surprising you made that far in life age wise, I don't imagine myself going on for a year or so like this. I'll drink one to you.
>beautiful weekend day
>don't even leave the house
>sit here pissing around on the internet doing nothing
>even if i was to go outside, i would just be walking or biking aimlessly
Walking around aimlessly is a joy.
How do I stop feeling physically affected by other people seeing me walk around? It completely kills my entire vibe and I assume this closed off posture and hide in my phone. I hate it. I want to just walk like my shit don’t stink big balls swinging no fucks given and barely notice other people
I think part of this is when I transitioned to outside walking/running as a teen on day one of that this old black crackhead started making fun of me. He was the only one laughing, his people just kind of stared at him at least. I get it, he was a poor 50+ year old crackhead who’s only means of transportation was a car. But it stuck with me. I was already nervous to do it and I was already the token white in this neighborhood so people were staring. But this gay had to shit talk me and start cackling at his own joke like a retard. Even now in a middle class mostly white area, if someone looks at me I feel so out of my skin. It’s not joyful like it should be.
BIKE NOT CAR*** he was a crackhead on a bike
It's tough for me to give you specific advice, because I've never felt like that. The ultimate answer is that you have to get over it. I usually don't bring my phone with me when I walk, I just walk around, enjoy the environment, and think about whatever I feel like thinking about.
If you do it enough you'll probably get over the feeling of being judged. It might also help to consciously realize that caring what strangers think of you when you're walking outside is ridiculous (which it is).
It's nice outside and it feels good to move. I find it very mentally relaxing, and I think better while walking.
Another argument with the girl. I have to write a sappy letter this time for her to hear me out. At the store the hot asian cashier hit on me as I purchased $3/ ea sheets of fancy writing paper. I get hit on by minorities all the time but somehow I can't hold down a white baby lady with mental illness. But I can do it. I will do it.
Anon get a fucking grip dude. Listen man I understand better than most how addicting crazy bitch pussy can be. I’m sure she gawks you cock like it’s a fountain of youth, I’m sure she nearly overwhelms you with affection you’ve never had before. And I’m sure the mere thought of going from this high level of affection back to being alone terrifies you a bit. I’m more than sure the “good” in this seemingly makes up for all this bonkers shit. But it ain’t worth it. Do you truly want to deal with this crap forever? Do you truly think someone this immature and selfish will be loyal to you? Do you actually believe and have faith that someone like this would help you make your kids their best self? She doesn’t value or respect you dude. Be a fucking man.
You almost sound like you’re partially ego driven like me. “But I can do it.” You fucking nig you don’t HAVE to. I’m sure you can but what you can’t see is what it will do to you in the long run. She is not special. In fact your bitch sounds far from it.
wanna hear an (I think) interesting perspective on things? might be irritating for most. here goes
I'm from a wealthy and highly educated Turkish family, and have been raised as such for decades at this point. one thing about turkish elite is that they have an obsession with west, and spending some time in EU or US is seen like a fucking medal of honor or something, and so I followed suit and got a masters degree, on top of an already strong CV, and found myself in Amsterdam, Manhattan of Europe, as a white turkish guy
however I'm a pretty condescending person, I'm REALLY fun to be around if I'm OK with the "status" of the place I'm in, but I don't like being in a position where I can feel like
>what the fuck am I doing? why am I here?
and being an expat is all about this kind of experiences. for example I'm invited to a eurovision streaming party tonight where 32 year old wanderlust german 3/10 IT expats will drink cheap wine and sing along, and after that it'll be a hippie rave (probably some commercial shit as well, not even a cool, underground kind of thing)
meanwhile my friends back in Turkey are having a nice dinner, talking about the election tomorrow (which is super important) and being proper adults
worst thing about amsterdam is, this is an elite city, and I can see my Dutch version doing things I'd love to do (wine & dine etc) but I have noone to do it with right now because I'd not want to befriend an expat if I was still istanbul, let alone invite them to my friend group from highschool, and there is a well earned stigma against turks here. and this hurts the most, if this was Berlin, I'd be ok with it as Berlin in itself is a more liberal, hippie town, but amsterdam is nice and exquisite but I cannot be part of it yet
I dont feel like I belong, but its been a year and I'm making new acquaintances etc and I'm making good money so its becoming harder to go back, but I should because I'm unhappy. I dont remember the last time I was genuinely happy.
I lived in Amsterdam as an (American) expat. Good news is that it's not because you're Turkish, it's because they're Dutch.
My suggestion is to put more effort into dating to find a well-educated Dutch woman who can introduce you to her circle.
If you're not happy in the Netherlands you could always try the US. I have heard it's easier for foreigners to make friends, but it does come with the caveat that we have a higher density of cretins for you to sort through.
Been craving fat chicks for some reason.
Just water tonight.
I can't fucking sleep. Haven't even been going to the gym because I need the extra hour or so, otherwise I'm fucked up all day. I have to take a board exam this upcoming week, but had a family member die and the funeral is also being planned for that same week. Don't really feel prepared for it but at the same time I don't want to bail on my family.
How do I recover from ex ruining sex for me?
I was suffering from several health conditions that made me weak, which also extended to my dick. Either I couldn't get as hard or came really fast, the member wasn't working right. My ex shamed me so much and made me feel like less of a man. I would get anxiety just thinking about having sex.
Now we've split and she immediately tried to rope me back in (using sex as a lure ironically). I didn't give in but now it's months later and I still get nervous thinking about sex. I'm afraid it's going to affect me in the future. My health conditions eased up and my dick is back to working order but psychologically I feel broken.
fuck her again and abuse her in some way hilariously like puke on her or get her drunk and then take a huge diarrhea in her bed and leave
whats she gonna do?
saw a tan blonde chick with the biggest milk jugs on my run today, she smiled and waved, should have stopped and asked for her number.
those gigantor milk jugs gone out of my life, just like that. Coulda sucked on those babies all day, nutted in that bitch all day.
Just stop and have a conversation, tell her about a park near by, walk to it, fuck in the woods with nothing but her silver neckless on and her swinging farmer tanned milkers, nut all over her, why can't life be that simple? why can't that just be an average Saturday?
Should I risk getting mugged and killed and go out alone to bars / night clubs today? Crime has been rising rampantly here
>was baptized as a catholic but now agnostic
>start going to latin mass because I'm learning latin
>end up befriending some of the parishioners
>one of the young women I met seems interested in me
I want a relationship but I don't want to give up my hendoistic lifestyle either.
Should I tell her I'm a fedora tipper or should I LARP as a catholic?
>seems interested in me
She’s probably just being nice to the new autistic sperg
My girlfriend's dog died last night. It was a little after she got home after we were together all afternoon. I still don't know what to do, I've been trying to send her some words of understanding but I don't know what to say. It really pains me to imagine what she's going through, and how much greater the pain she must be feeling is. The dog was over 15 years old, she's 20, he was with her pretty much her whole life. I really don't know what to do, I've just been checking up on her via text since I live an hour and a half away from her.
Well it’s that time. Was fairly productive today, got up before 6am, did some cardio, lifted, etc. But like clockwork as soon as 6pm hits I’m overcome with this massive wave of crippling loneliness. I start thing about my exes. Any other time and I don’t miss them at all, but when this hits it’s like all logic leaves my body. I understand it isn’t them that I miss, just the companionship. I really wish I didn’t have to deal with this. I genuinely don’t know how to make it go away. The only thing that’s ever helped it is weed but that’s not a fix. That’s a cope. I’d rather not use weed anymore and just not have this occur. I felt with it for like 5 years and it never got better, turned to weed a year ago. But I don’t want to do that anymore. I want to be sober. But just of all I just want to stop feeling so sad at night.
Hope you can beat the addiction bro
Beer. Don't care what kind. Went to indoor boulder gym for nonlifting day and failed to accomplish what I expect from my myself. At my regular bar now and drinking for basically no reason. Mom is a lifelong gambler and fuck up, dreading calling her tomorrow. Have a good weekend gentlemen.
When is it actually time to commit to a serious relationship? Are the early 20's a good age? I am not a chad, I am quite the opposite of that, but I often feel like a serious relationship might hold me back in terms of living different experiences and enjoying life. Am I delusional and stupid? I just don't know, guys... I am a lonely guy really, but I fear commitment, I feel so much pressure and keep thinking about whether or not I am doing the right thing
Whenever you meet someone worth committing to. Might be 19, might be 29. Don't wait too long. Our culture is flawed and doesn't favor conflict resolution or improvement. It's all about ghosting people or dropping them at the first sign of issues. Expecting other people to be perfect for you seems to often be either a sign of a massive ego or debilitating insecurity. Flaws are generally just factors which increase the likelihood of a relationship failing or becoming dysfunctional. So it does make sense to wait for a good shot. However most of what happens rests on what YOU do. Even if she isn't perfect, your relationship can blossom if you make yourself into a good partner. If you take no risks, time might consume you and you'll be alone forever
Nta but am I on the right track? 27 only had two relationships, both weren’t the right girls. Decided to take one more year off dating to fix my life. I looked in the mirror and I wouldn’t date me right now. Hoping to be back in college in a year or two, where I hope I can meet some women.
But I’m terrified it’ll never happen and that I’m running out of time. But I also realize that’s kind of my only option anyways.
You are a man so you do have time and you will find someone as long as you don't stop looking for it. Try to fix what makes you see yourself as not "dateable", but remember no one is perfect and, even though you do have time, you shouldn't waste it.
I'm an awkward guy and had hoped this date with an awkward girl from work would go well
We vibe really well when talking at work
But I ran out of things to say in the middle of it and it felt awkward
It kind of makes me sad because idk who in the world is the right woman for me
Did she say that she wanted a second date?
Water please, I've had enough for tonight.
Today I ran a hilly mile in under 7 minutes in a race basically untrained, which I'm pretty happy with. Went to the afterparty and we ended up in the most fancy high end nightclub in the city. I had almost forgot how much nightclubs suck. Good looking grills but way too loud and too crowded.
>be canadian me
>white, 5'9, blue eyes, soon to be 30, barely above dyel with 15% BF but do tons of sport
>amazing job 6 figures
>have a really nice house in a really prestigious neighborhood
>have a nice reliable car
>not the most educated but interested in everything & everyone
>have a large friends circle
>do lots of normie hobbies like skiing, cycling, rock climbing etc
> 1 match per month (she's the bottom of the barrel) on 3 different dating apps if I'm lucky in those past 5 years. Have good pictures but no height/face/frame/ultra chiseled or buff body
>never able to pull, no one has any interest in me
>my friends never call me first, I always have to make the first move because I guess I'm not interesting enough
>travel once per year but I guess that's not enough to get the attention of normies
>parents not proud of me because I'm not that street smart and handy and don't have a gf/children yet
>not a good enough role model to my 20 y/o brother. He's extremely good in school top of his class but spends lots of time on the computer, no longer exercices, doesn't always respect my parents, very immature, no gf and few friends
Its over. You can't change your fate. If you are a loser when you're young, you will never improve. I'm always in the background, sidelined. And when it's my time to shine, I fuck up/spill spaghetti. No inherent talent, lack discipline, bad sleep. Rinse and repeat. I am condemned to either date single mothers, used goods +30 y/o or desperate immigrants looking to get out of poverty and stab me in the back as soon as she gets her visa. I think I'll kill myself at work, it would be a first
i hope you get cancer.
Considering my job, it's almost a certainty but I want to end it sooner
yeah and i can see why. white, 6 figure job, own a big house in a rich neighborhood, cars, family, friends, tons of hobbies, travels every year. i dont know how you manage to make it through each day
>all this shows how i was a loser when i was young
>im always in the background despite having a top career hobbies and friends
>i have no discipline or talent despite attaining all of these things
if not cancer, i hope it is an extremely painful death for you.
No pussy or any type of acknowledgment for a whole life drivee you crazy. I feel like a pushover, background character and people taking advantage of me. Even my good childhood friends I feel that I am no longer important to them
wtf I dont get it, why is the first half so good and the latter so bad
If I had to guess is that I look worse than I think, I am boring/uninteresting or too much of a sperg and have worse pictures than I think
Not racist though. Most of my friends aren't white
Been reading classical literature. It really helps put a lot of things into perspective. I was upset that my girlfriend did some shady stuff and treated it like it wasn't a big deal. Feeings of doubt and uncertainty haunted me. Was I in the wrong for being upset?
Arabian Nights: page one- Shahzenan's wife cheats on him with one of her slaves so he kills both of them on the spot and hangs out with his brother for a bit to clear his mind.
You should never trust a whore, reminds me of the fag from the thread a few days back who knew his bitch probably lied about her body count but was ok with it
Occasionally I think that, but I remember everyone’s favorite uncle, or my favorite at least, and it fills me with strength that lets me bear any loneliness, even coming to favor the beauty in solitude
Also I hope my hair genes are as good as his, kek
women lie about body count because they know that if a man asks he's insecure about it
i doubt they count anything less than PIV either. they could've sucked a hundred dicks before getting to you and you'll never know about it
There’s nothing insecure about not wanting a whore, it’s the women who need to not be insecure. After all, they’re proud, strong and independent right? They can own up to their actions, right? But guys should try to find out in subtle ways if they can
>finally get a fucking date that doesn't end in a ghost or hustle
>check her facebook
>she has a niglet
Another beer I guess
I knew it'd be a crappy week and I was pretty much correct. Broke up with the ex and moved home. Last time I was here was shortly before I met her.
I'm literally back where I started and it feels like all the effort of trying to build a life this past year amounted to nothing.
I'm tired, and physically sore from the move, looking at another months long search to hopefully find a girl, more months to build up a relationship, all along the way rolling the dice to see if any new part of our values or personality doesn't match.
How the fuck do people actually manage to get married? I don't even have problems attracting girls and it still seems impossible
lol wow a whole month to find another girl damn. whole life wasted i guess better kys amirite
I'm having a shitty week cause I'm facing a year+ of meeting and growing with a person to get back to the place I was, and there's still a risk that it might not work out like happened with the ex. It's tough to face that.
After awhile I'll get back to it, but yeah I feel shitty tonight.
But you don't care about actually understanding. If you have an issue feel free to post it, but don't bitch at me pal
I get it. I had to go no contact, but I definitely didn't want to. You're going to therapy, studying, working out, but can I ask if she's doing anything that would cause things to be different this time around? In my case that is the thought that keeps me moving away, if she wanted it to work she'd put in effort too, but she won't. If yours is putting in real effort that might change the equation a bit
I guess she is, she is trying to be more understanding and is also doing therapy and always says she is trying to change. She does shows traces of her old ways here and there tho and I feel like I just can't bare those things and I might snap when she does it
this bro can't go a whole month without pussy
i have more respect for nofappers than for you gay
I don't know what to do, bros. I am getting my things together, you know? Studying consistently, always working out, sticking to my diet, being more comfortable around people, going to therapy and dealing with stuff way better.
One thing doesn't seem to change though: love life. It's always about my ex and only gf.
We were together for almost three years but had a couple of fights and a breakup in the middle of them. I still feel trapped and chained to her. I just can't move on. She wants to get back together and she tries hard to make it happen. I just don't know whether I should or not and it's been a while that I've been in this stage, months. I just can't seem to come up with a decision, a solution. On one hand, I want to give her a chance and have good moments again; on the other, I dread the fights and another broken heart for both of us. I don't know. This shit is driving me crazy. I fear having her, I fear not having her. I don't know. The uncertainty makes me want to silence my own mind.
>ugly aspergers social security-abusing, unemployment abusing breeding sow literally worships the ground i walk on and begs me for sex all day and would lay down her life for mme and my cock
I'm 31. i'm tired. I've been through so much shit and i've earned every thing I have through sweat and blood.she makes me happy and is so innocently naive of the deluge of racial and sexual politics that plagues most women. she enthusuastically supports my goals and hobbies. she also makes zero fucking money and is getting fatter by the day.
please advise. I will marry this creature inside 6 months.
Settle and have a normal comfy life. Not every woman is a porn star and unless wifesharing becomes a thing most guys will have to settle for a less than ideal girl at some point (I was going to say vice versa but mansharing is definitely a thing, although only chads get shared). It sounds like she has some qualities you like about her and as for appearance you know what they say, love is blind. You don't want to be one of the sexless lonely losers on the verge of suicide here. Just be happy bro