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  1. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    (Paraphrased from a different thread about zoomers’ love of ass eating)

    I’m 25 and my friends never shut the frick up about how much they love eating ass and how they’re obsessed with anal sex and giant ass (me and my friends are white, by the way). They complain that their girlfriends’ asses aren’t big enough and that their gfs won’t do anal, etc. but they all gleefully tell stories about eating girl-ass. I’m not into this stuff at all myself and I don’t know where they got it from.

    The thing is, a few weeks ago I went on a date with a girl, and two mornings later I wake up to see that she sent me a whole bunch of texts at 4AM about how she’s stuck on the toilet shitting a lot. Now, I just thought this was really gross and unnecessary, but after reading this thread I do wonder: is there any chance she thought I would find it sexy? She also went on a bizarre “I’m not racist, but…” rant about why she would never date a black guy a few nights earlier, and that also seemed like she was trying to signal something.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      seems kind of based

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      >I’m 25 and my friends never shut the frick up about how much they love eating ass and how they’re obsessed with anal sex and giant ass (me and my friends are white, by the way)
      Just because you have white skin doesn't mean you're white

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Kinda based. Idk, my ex always wanted to eat my ass and I always felt self-conscious because that's where my poop comes out of (I would never eat hers, and she never asked)

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      I really hope she wasn't trying to be sexy.
      Ass to mouth is how you get intestinal parasites and pink eye. It's a moronic fricking meme.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Checked based Hitler dubs, yes she was definitely trying to read you out on several things here. Expect her to see how tf you behave around her feet also.

      Don't listen to her about the race thing, again, she's just trying to read you

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Never eat ass.
      ...Eat the ass.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      She's making room for you.

  2. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    had a fricking hell of a ride this week

    1. Got a call back from the school I interviewed at, they loved me and want me to teach there. I've never taught in an affluent area, always low income schools, and I didn't expect them to even give me a second look, hell I went in thinking it would be good interview practice.
    2. Looked up ex, she's covered in tats up to her neck now and she looks dejected and disillusioned. I feel guilty about it, as if though I caused it, even though she left me and I found out she cheated.
    3. I found out I didn't pass my teacher credential assessment and now I don't know if that's going to impact the job offer I got. I had put in my resume and application that I was applying in May for my credential, but I still hadn't passed the assessment.

    I went from an incredible high to now feeling even worse than before the previous week

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      >she left you
      >she cheated
      Having regrets are like carrying around a bag if rocks. You've just got to let that shit go. There is no better motivation to continue to improve yourself when you see the carwreck of the lives of former friends and lovers after they leave your orbit. She may still find a way to sabotage you yet just you wait.

      Congrats on the job. Sounds like you deserve it. Credential assessment sounds like a formailty. Can't you just take the test again?

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        I guess I'm just having trouble because I was months from proposing to her. Its been 5 months since the break up, but I do know the woman I loved is long gone.

        I can retake it, but I've taken it 3 times and I keep failing. I looked up to see if I could get tutoring but its $2300 for 1 session. I have to revise and submit it by next Thursday to get my results in July. I think its bullshit because even though they grade based on a rubric, its very subjective.

  3. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I feel really guilty for accidentally overserving a customer and she wound up getting way too drunk spending all day at our bar. I know what they really need is water/food but I find it difficult to look a person who is drowning in loneliness in the eyes and tell them what they need without coming across as suddenly cold. I’m really hoping this weekend goes smoothly because the whole incident has left me feeling sour. I need to do better, I can do better, it’s just hard for me to think in the moment.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      She's an adult woman who made her own decisions. You did nothing wrong.

      gf getting less attractive, she isn't caring much about hair, nails or skin anymore, she's been trying to lose weight for around 4 months now because she had a bit of a tummy and it's honestly getting worse. The other day she told me I'm walking a fine line between encouraging and body shaming. Women have it so easy too. Just saw some nudes from last year and she honestly looks so hot and way better compared to now. Has anyone else been in a similar situation?

      Tell her she's walking a fine line between frickable and single.

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        >she’s walking a fine line between frickable and single
        Fricking kek. Unfathomably based.

  4. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    gf getting less attractive, she isn't caring much about hair, nails or skin anymore, she's been trying to lose weight for around 4 months now because she had a bit of a tummy and it's honestly getting worse. The other day she told me I'm walking a fine line between encouraging and body shaming. Women have it so easy too. Just saw some nudes from last year and she honestly looks so hot and way better compared to now. Has anyone else been in a similar situation?

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      She also went from really wanting a DUI setting up the appointment and everything to becoming mostly uninterested and "prioritizing other things" which I just find odd. I guess she's just stressed from graduating and getting her degree (psychologist yikes) but it does still annoy me and she knows it

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Get her to do some fun, light work outs with you anon, maybe the endorphins will change her mind and she’ll get back into working out more often. People forget how much they enjoy exercise when they’ve been out of it for awhile. On days when I don’t work out I feel less happy/motivated overall.

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          She goes to the gym like 4 or 5 times a week, it's not her lack of exercise it's her apperant inability to eat at a deficit. I taught her how to count calories and walked her through high protein high fiber for the first few days to not feel hunger (at a 300 cal deficit lol) but after going to the nutritionist she decided to just follow what the nutri said without counting. I know I'm sounding like a huge crying b***h right now but it's just so tiresome at this point

          • 2 years ago
            Anonymous

            Well for one the vagus nerve linked to our stomachs is a piece of shit, it takes awhile for it to realize how full we are and it can make our appetite roar out of control. A chick I know lost weight by making sure to hydrate more during/between meals, helped her feel more full after meals.

            • 2 years ago
              Anonymous

              Yeah that makes sense I drink a lot of water on a cut too. I'm not sure how much she drinks and honestly don't remember if I told her to just drink more to eat less, I'll give it a shot. Thanks anon

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Just leave her. Her comment is basically saying if you don't encourage her to stay fat and ugly then you're the bad guy. It's only going to keep getting worse until you're with some 300lbs cow you don't recognize.

  5. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Water with apple cider vinegar, please.
    I fumbled a video interview earlier. Complete word salad when the manager asked why I was interested in working for the company and I ended up tripping over my words.
    I went out and did sprints barefooted to get my mind off it. I'm on night shift tonight which sucks. Yardwork, kickboxing and work again tomorrow. Might catch a UFC stream during my shift.
    Nothing particularly BAD going on in life right now., but I feel like manchild spinning his wheels. Stuck and still trying to figure out how to move forward.

  6. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I started at a new workplace a few weeks ago, but i have a really hard time bonding with people who are my age or younger. I know i guess it doesn't matter, i just feel like a boomer even though i'm only 26.

  7. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Still fat, still single, nothing has changed there. I'll stay in the thread and read all of your guys' posts.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Have you tried lifting weights, keto, and talking to girls?

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        yes
        no
        yes

  8. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    finally getting myself to join the gym after a horrible and sedimentary routine of crash dieting->recovering->normal dieting cycle. right now my body is sitting at a firm average, and i know that i have the drive to obsessively gymcel 5x a week, it's just a matter of how embarrassed i'll feel trying out the weight stuff instead of holding onto cardio every time i go in. even though i'm lonely, i'm glad to be living through another week. hope all is well with you anons

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Using the weights at the gym is fun! Don't be embarassed just grab a set of dumbells off the rack and do some curls or bench press with them until you feel comfortable. The machines are even better if you are a beginner or too shy to use the free weights.

      We were all where you are once.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      > sedimentary
      sedentary*

  9. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I think I've found a very cute girl to make my gf, but I still wanted to frick around and bawd it up some more before getting in a relationship, it just seems to be going that way quite intensely. I know, a very privileged life right now after being alone for so long, but I still want to spray my seed in the guts of a few dating app prostitutes. I even feel like I'm emotionally cheating by speaking to them still FRICK

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      >I still want to spray my seed in the guts of a few dating app prostitutes
      why?

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        I like women

  10. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >can't stop thinking about her

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      It never stops, unfortunately. Only the interval between the thought increases.
      One day you will wake up and realise that you haven't thought about her for a whole day prior. This is the moment that I realised that I'm gonna be fine.

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Me too buddy.

        It's been like a month and it's still every time I do anything. I used to share everything I liked with them and now I can't.
        >See meme that's funny, save, remember I cant send it to her
        >Here good song, find it on YouTube, copy link, remember I cant send it to her
        >Hear about a local spot to chill, get the address, remember I cant send it to her
        >Hear about a cool movie, cent send it to her, watch it alone, think about her the whole time
        It's truly fricking suffering bros.

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          cringe. one chance at existence, waste it obsessing over one of billions of women on the planet

          don't waste any more precious time

          • 2 years ago
            Anonymous

            Based

  11. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I've just been in the dumps and I can't shake it. I'm getting bored of my job, I feel like my friends don't want me around (although that might be in my head), and I'm frustrated at my failed attempts at dating.
    Also I'm getting kinda fat (22% bodyfat) but I haven't reached my goals on the weights yet, so I don't know if I want to cut just yet, but I feel fat and gross.
    Also I'm bald.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      I kidded myself for a long time, but it hit me: I thought I was a "powerlifter" when I was truly a fat frick. You'll be happier and healthier and a lower body fat, and if you cut right the numbers will be about the same.

      I also believe that too much body fat contributes to feeling sluggish and stuck in a rut. It's like the weight has a psychological way of anchoring you and not letting you move on.

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Thanks. I dont consider myself a powerlifter, I started lifting because I want to look aesthetic. I haven't even hit 1/2/3/4 yet so I'm not sure i'd look good if I cut now anyway. I certainly dont want to be fat though.

  12. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >the lower percent body fat I get, the fatter the chicks I'm into
    >the stronger I get the more I want to be dommed
    Why does this happen?

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      wanting to be dom as you get stronger is a pretty common patern, you feel the power, you feel invincible and sometime, you just want to let it go and not being in charge for once, just to release the pressure like an instant pot, no thought, no will, just be a good boy and obey the orders to please you mistress. Nothing really weird about it, getting praised and pet on the head is a pretty damned good reward

      But i hate to say this to you, fat chicks makes bad dom, you can't expect someone to be good about discipline if they arent very strict with themselve, plus being a dom is a pretty intensive task, takes a lot of stamina to bring a buffy guy broken, painting and absolulty exhausted on the flood

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Kek I think we had this exact conversation two months ago. I haven't changed a bit, and as much as I agree with you I'm still looking

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          there are very few people like me, especially around here on a portuguese house building imageboard, but i'm pretty sure there are many dudes in the exact same situation as you, so don't worry, you are not weird, just a little special.

          hope you'll find someone that will match your tastes , but please Honey, do something about fatties, you deserve better than that, it's not healthy for you.

          • 2 years ago
            Anonymous

            I don't know what it is. Maybe it's part of the dom thing. I like large women (in any dimension).

  13. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    How do I frick ladies on dating apps, baldbros?
    Feeling pretty demoralized after my last attempt. Is there hope?

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Uninstall the dating app and go outside, unironically.

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        That doesn't answer my question, but ok. How do I frick ladies "outside" then?

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          You want sum fuk? Go to a club and dance around women until one decides to move towards you instead of away from you, ezpzp

          • 2 years ago
            Anonymous

            That's it. It's quite easy, really

  14. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    no real complaints this week; tough month last month (real estate gay here) but good pay and now an easy month ahead with 5-digit check totals still. The problem is I haven't made any real progress to grow my business and in a rut. My goal is at least $25,000/month in income and build to at least owning 10 houses to sell off once/year for early retirement, take the cash and leave ameristan by 45 but hate myself because I get too in the weeds to work towards it. at least my weight loss is going well but, because of that, no drinks for me, barkeep

  15. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Water, too scared to drink anything else

    I have had hemorrhoids for 2 whole weeks now, I am losing my grip on reality

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      hemorrhoids are a b***h, I got a pretty nasty one, just after a broken bone finished healing. getting old is starting to get rough, I'm bracing for a life of perpetual pain, and with it more alcohol. it's hard to go more than a few days without any booze

  16. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Well, got married about two weeks ago... And my wife is afraid and reluctant to have sex. Not to mention that many of her habits on the house grind my gears. I guess I have to give her time, but the fact that she is extremely afraid of sex is a damper. Also, she overthinks too much and way too far in the future, hence she gets stricken by fear on doing that, I feel like I'm gonna get dragged down to a miserable place. In other news, I finally reached a healthy weight according to BMI, so there's that. Building more muscle from now on. Bourbon, please.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Was she not afraid to have sex before you got married? Or were you saving it till marriage?

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Saving until marriage.

        Did you not have sex before marriage? Why don't you already know about her habits before you marry her? Jesus christ man.

        I knew a bit and I pushed for her to improve on that front, specifically on the house making side of things and taking care of herself, yet here we are. I'm this close to frick off to the mountains and that's it.

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          sexual compatibility is key in a relationship.. and you just rolled the die

          kind of deserve what you get tbqh anon

          • 2 years ago
            Anonymous

            Honestly, you are right. I was a fool on that front,even though I was respecting tradition. 3 years of dating and now this. I'm gonna give it some time, given that it is a massive change for her. But even my patience has limits.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Did you not have sex before marriage? Why don't you already know about her habits before you marry her? Jesus christ man.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Virgins are always afraid of sex. You've got to help her relax. Why don't you go to the bookstore and get a book on foreplay? Good job on waiting to have sex before marriage, very wholesome.

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        You know what. I will do that. Sorry, the sexual frustration is getting on my nerves.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      >all the guy about here are about '' i want a virgin qt waifu because roasties are disgusting prostitute"
      >anon get a virgin and marries her
      >still no sex because she's afraid of it

      jesus christ you must be kidding me

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        God gives his silliest battles to the his funniest clowns. Regardless. I will give it time and help her relax for the time being. But if the reluctance and fear is still there that's gonna be a massive issue.

        I'm getting obesessed with gut bacteria, intestinal flora, leart about candida, fiber, pro and prebiotics, I'm on a paraguard softgel deworming program right now

        I drank kefir and took probiotics for months, didn't do shit.

        I drank kefir for a month and I was shitting every single day and I lost weight. I guess my gut flora was busted.

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          how old are you both and how the frick you you manage to date for 3 years without sex ? i'm really curious

          • 2 years ago
            Anonymous

            I'm 29 and she is 28. I managed by simply focusing on improving myself and taking care of my health, and helping a homie to write a massive guide for some university courses he is currently dictating. As well, helping her around with the relationship with her parents, mostly her mother because his dad tapped out on having a decent relationship with her years ago; he is still with her mother, just can't be arsed to have a decent conversation with her daughter.

            How many strains of bacteria was the probiotic? did it included pre-biotic? were you fasting? I'm doing intermitent fasting of 15 hours or so

            [...]
            same as anon above, how many strains or different types of bacteria?

            did any of you 2 anons tried apple cider vinager diluted in water?

            If I remember correctly, around 17~23. I don't remember the exact amount. During that time, every single morning I would just shit my bowels out in a single log. Impressive as it sounds, and I was never in pain of anything.
            >Apple cider vinegar
            I tried it did nothing much. I did something, however, when I diluted it on water, with a bit of lemon juice and sea salt. That tanked my gut to hell and back.

            • 2 years ago
              Anonymous

              I'm t.mexigay in burgerland, what is to "tank the gut"?

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                I think he means to toughen it up, make it more resilient

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                Pretty much what [...] but after a massive shitting storm that lasted 3 days. Toilet paper was a godsend during that time.

                [...]
                Honestly, I think so too, she express that subconsciously. Specially that she's scared of becoming like her mother or her father. We both respect the sanctity of marriage, hence we waited until marriage for start living together. But boy, there's an overlaying issue with the co-dependency that her parents have with each other, and that shows on her innate fear of "losing" me and going back to living alone. I'm just bummed by that.

                ahhh ok ok, thanks for definition anons, wagmi

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                Pretty much what

                I think he means to toughen it up, make it more resilient

                but after a massive shitting storm that lasted 3 days. Toilet paper was a godsend during that time.

                >As well, helping her around with the relationship with her parents, mostly her mother because his dad tapped out on having a decent relationship with her years ago; he is still with her mother, just can't be arsed to have a decent conversation with her daughter.
                if i may, i'd say this girl may not have the healthiest vision of mariage with parents like this

                Honestly, I think so too, she express that subconsciously. Specially that she's scared of becoming like her mother or her father. We both respect the sanctity of marriage, hence we waited until marriage for start living together. But boy, there's an overlaying issue with the co-dependency that her parents have with each other, and that shows on her innate fear of "losing" me and going back to living alone. I'm just bummed by that.

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                you really need to cut her off her parents for a while, she won't be able to leave the role of the daughter and will never be a woman and your wife if she stays in this dynamic with her parents

                Can't you move away for a couples of years for work or something ?

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                Well, here is the kicker. After she is done working, and I'm at retirement, she wants to return to the same city where her parents and the rest of her family lives. It is something I have talked with her time and time again, about her needing a time off from her parents and family but at the same time that I'm looking at work options in other states, she refuses to leave the state or even move to another state with heavy winter in the mix. What's worse, she wants to break free from her parents but wants to return their city EVERY SINGLE month to see them.

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                For the record, we reached an agreement to look for options in other state, but she is putting her foot down on not wanting to stay on said state when the winter hits and wants to go back to her parents' place during that time. At the time, that sounded like a plausible arrangement, but I'm not so sure now.

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                jesus how bad is winter in your state? or maybe it's just an excuse to go back to her parent's place because in reality she's just a child and feels confortable at her old folk's place ?

                i would understant if she was 20 or something but at 30 that's really not okay *

                you married a child anon, you know it ?

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                this marriage isn't going to work if you allow this lad, as I'm sure you already know.
                I think you need to sell her on a move, both by making it clear you really want it and removing objections (warm state?).
                You can sell her on every 6 months visiting her parents.
                I think you really need to break the physical proximity to her parents in some form, her being gone for 3+months of the year is unacceptable tbh, you'll divorce within a few years if you allow that

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                >(warm state?)
                Florida, which I really like as a state to live in, but I want to experience more of the other states (except California, DC and Washington) more so if they offer me more opportunities in my field.

                >this marriage isn't going to work if you allow this lad, as I'm sure you already know
                I know, man and it breaks me on the inside. I sell her on the move and visiting her parents once in a while during holidays, but she is putting her foot down, and wants to go there for Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's. And I told her that I want to get my own plot of land, around 4~5 acres, to have my own homestead and she says she wants to live in the suburbs. God, help me. I made a massive mistake.

                jesus how bad is winter in your state? or maybe it's just an excuse to go back to her parent's place because in reality she's just a child and feels confortable at her old folk's place ?

                i would understant if she was 20 or something but at 30 that's really not okay *

                you married a child anon, you know it ?

                It isn't bad. It is a minor inconvenience and I have faced worse winters when I was living in Delaware.

                >or maybe it's just an excuse to go back to her parent's place because in reality she's just a child and feels confortable at her old folk's place ?
                Again, she wants to break free but doesn't want to do it completely. She has been coddled too much and doesn't want to face hardships. She ping-pongs on what she wants for the future, more recently than before.

                >you married a child anon, you know it ?
                I'm coming to terms with that every single day.

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                >I sell her on the move and visiting her parents once in a while during holidays, but she is putting her foot down, and wants to go there for Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's.
                but...don"t you have your own family to visit sometimes ?

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                Anon, I... My family died when I was 21. My father stepped out of my life and my mother raised me by herself, with its ups and downs. Never met my mother's side of the family. When I reached 21, I mended every issue that I had with my mother and we were in great terms, almost like best friends. And then a DUI got her, and my father appeared again. So I don't have anyone.

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                i'm so sorry anon, now i realize how it must be paintfull for you to not be able to start your own family with your wife because she can't let go of her parents

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                as the other anon said, don't you have your own family? If you stayed a long weekend for all 3 that would be a start compared to your current situation. I know you're looking for some rational slam dunk but that's not how women work. This will have to be a multi stage project unfortunately.
                suburbs vs land you can probably hash out a compromise on for the moment

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                For now, I set the suburbs vs. land in the backburner. Still saving money for that, and still ironing out the issues on the moving to another state part.

                i'm so sorry anon, now i realize how it must be paintfull for you to not be able to start your own family with your wife because she can't let go of her parents

                Don't get me wrong, her family is tightly joined, hence why all of them live at ~5 minutes of each other. But if she is having that many issues, she needs a time off from her parents and family.

                >i'm so sorry anon, now i realize how it must be paintfull for you to not be able to start your own family with your wife because she can't let go of her parents
                On one hand, I understand her. But on the other, it pains me that I can't have my own family after all what happened with my mother and I. Shit breaks me down once in a while.

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                you are way too kind and understanding for your own good, i wonder if your wife realize how lucky she is to have you,

                I'm having huge issues with faith right now, because life hasn't be kind to me either, but i'll pray that you'll eventually find a way out of this and find happiness, godspeed anon

              • 2 years ago
                Anonymous

                You are definitely not the first one to say that to me. I just want to do the right thing regardless of the circumstances. But sometimes turns out that people don't like a good guy around.

                >i wonder if your wife realize how lucky she is to have you
                Sometimes she says that she doesn't deserve. And part of me wants to shout that sometimes you don't. But I shut it down to give her time to adapt.

                >I'm having huge issues with faith right now, because life hasn't be kind to me either, but i'll pray that you'll eventually find a way out of this and find happiness, godspeed anon
                Thanks, man. I will keep you in my prayers too. I read a study bible PDF but I will get the printed version soon enough. And going back to church.

            • 2 years ago
              Anonymous

              >As well, helping her around with the relationship with her parents, mostly her mother because his dad tapped out on having a decent relationship with her years ago; he is still with her mother, just can't be arsed to have a decent conversation with her daughter.
              if i may, i'd say this girl may not have the healthiest vision of mariage with parents like this

  17. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Hey, I know i will be rambling and sorry for blogposting.

    I'll be 25 in a couple of weeks in a post soviet country. Currently I live and feel like shit. I'm living with my brother in the capital, in a one bedroom flat, where he sleeps on the bed and i on the floor, but it will change soon, after i get a rented flat of my own. I've started in my a company a month ago, and I've been liking my job, nothing hard, but I can put my thoughts and things into the job and the overall mentality is more western like, for example they are actually nice and not dickheads to the workers, so i like this job.
    I used to be a kind of hermit both during and before covid, pushing away friends and people that were close to me, since i was and will be never satisfied with myself, therefor i couldn't understand what people could like about me.
    Loneliness hit hard nowadays, and i have no idea what to do against it. I've tried tonight to go to a mixer, where international people meet and get to know each other. I've got completely ignored and people talked over me and pushed me out of the talk I was having one on one with guys, don't even get me started on girls. I've left soon, and went to a bar, where i had one drink, and since i was alone, i didn't even had a chance to start talking with people. This happened like 20 minutes ago, and i'm home now.
    It's been a year since i've started to get into IST, was auschwitz and now something that resembles normalcy, but still look like shit in all perspective. I have a face of a serial killer, and since i'm the furthest from someone whom you could call talkative, I have the same vibe as a serial killer. I know I got myself into this mess, but I have no idea where to start to fix my shit. My best idea is to just keep grinding for a year or two, both on the workplace and the gym and get to a place where I might be more confident in myself.

    If you have and friends, please treasure them, anon, since that is something I really want and don't have.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Start off by leading in your workplace since those are people who will be a constant in your life and being the guy who everyone goes to for help.
      What this means is you will need to apply yourself. You will stretch yourself thin and question yourself but to learn how to be approachable and to have conversations with others you have to be able to listen and talk with others.
      Even if you are a sperg, people get that you have off days but just remind yourself that shit things happen but people respect you based on how you deal with things.
      Take it slow and easy, good things take time.

  18. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    No complaints at all. Been continuing summer college classes and getting big in the gym. The only thing is that I don’t spend anytime with my friends. But got new betta fish to make me happy

  19. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >move old lady from her room to several exams in the morning
    >pick her up to bring her to surgery later
    >talk her anxieties down and help her feel a bit less anxious before it
    >tell her I'll be wishing her all the best during it
    >go pick her up from surgery later
    >she's crying a little and tells me I was right and she thanks me for making it go better for her
    I love my job sometimes. Too bad the rest of the day was insufferable

  20. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I'm getting obesessed with gut bacteria, intestinal flora, leart about candida, fiber, pro and prebiotics, I'm on a paraguard softgel deworming program right now

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      I drank kefir and took probiotics for months, didn't do shit.

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        How many strains of bacteria was the probiotic? did it included pre-biotic? were you fasting? I'm doing intermitent fasting of 15 hours or so

        God gives his silliest battles to the his funniest clowns. Regardless. I will give it time and help her relax for the time being. But if the reluctance and fear is still there that's gonna be a massive issue.

        [...]
        [...]
        I drank kefir for a month and I was shitting every single day and I lost weight. I guess my gut flora was busted.

        same as anon above, how many strains or different types of bacteria?

        did any of you 2 anons tried apple cider vinager diluted in water?

  21. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >match with a really attractive and nice-seeming girl on hinge after months and months
    >we talk for days, exchange hundreds of messages. she's one of the keenest girls I've talked to so far on the apps
    >find out she dumped her BF of 5 years because she 'got bored'
    >find out her friend was trying to set her up with another dude for years during the relationship
    >made fun of how some dude spent $200 on drinks on their last date

    IDK man these flags seem pretty red to me. Am I overthinking things here or should I cut my losses?

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      >Exchange hundreds of messages

      ????
      You should've asked her out.

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        I am certain she would say yes if I asked her on a date. But I don't know if I want to invest in a girl who brags about a guy spending money on her

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          Ask her out. Make her pay for drinks. ezpz

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          >But I don't know if I want to invest in a girl who brags about a guy spending money on her
          That's a massive red flag, lad.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      The breaking up with bf because she got bored is the bigger red flag imo

  22. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    how do you actually make friends after college? Is it just work gym home with the people you know for the rest of your life?

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      >make friends at the gym
      >make friends at work (in the hall or parking lot, or anywhere else people go when they're not busy)
      >find things you enjoy doing after hours
      >think about how to do those things in the presence of other people, and then make friends with those people
      >if someone invites you somewhere, be sure to go if you're able
      >if nobody invites you to anything, invite people yourself
      Repeat until no longer alone

  23. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >lost 30kg or something like 8 years ago
    >skinny fat then
    >never manage to do anything about skinny fat mode
    >have phases where i try and phases where i dont
    >after corona back in the gym
    >trying the exact same shit i did like 8 times before
    >working out consistently, cutting, eating the exact same as all the times before
    >this time it works
    bruh i dont how to feel. Its bullshit. Its always been bullshit that im not fricking jacked. It shouldve worked the first, second, third etc time
    i was stronger, more consistent and at it longer than this time, yet i look the best ive ever done now but i guess im happy but man frick this

  24. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I confessed to her that I think she's important to me and that I really like her. She was overwhelmed by it and said she currently has too many issues to deal with and can't havd the extra stress.

    We really fit perfectly together and now my self worth literally nearly crashed. It certainly got lower but I'm still a confident, I just think about it a lot. I don't even kniw myself if I just like her and think she is cool or if I really love her.

    Also I somehow believe that I am not attractive enough in terms of look even tho people tell me I don't look bad :/

  25. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I really just want my goal body already. I am seeing gains in the gym and do look a lot different now, but I just want ot be there already. I want girls in the gym to actually mire to the point it's obvious. I don't know it's just weird, I like the grind I just want to do it ALREADY at the ending point.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      It is a marathon, not a sprint. Everlasting changes take time to sink in.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      >I want girls in the gym to actually mire to the point it's obvious.
      you'll never get that, even if you become the buffest roidest mother fricker around, and you know it, girls don't really care about muscles in the end

      also, don't be hasty, the journey never really end

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        I'm not trying to be the biggest fricker in the gym as I actually do sports so I'll never be able to get that big due to all the conditioning. I just mmm I think it's more of the fact that I think I have all the tools by normie standards to actually be drowning in pussy yet I'm not
        >6 foot in flats
        >long thick hair to shoulders
        >face very taken care of
        >lowering bodyfat % to the point I am starting to see the outline of ALL my abs only the top two are visibible right now which i know means nothing yet
        >actually look thick solid tight

        I just ehh I don't know, I just want my phone rining with a harem I think ehh.

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          have you considered that all the thing you've been reading here about '' what are chad and why they are drowning in pussies'' might not be true and that F E M O I D S might be a little more complicated species than you think ?

          • 2 years ago
            Anonymous

            I'm too ignorant in women to have an actual answer to that. I think I need to have the 'problem,' of too many girls and learning about the problems of having too much before actually being able to know how to deal or understand them.

            • 2 years ago
              Anonymous

              here's something to for you to think about anon,

              in reality women don't really give a frick about low bodyfat, they like '' the muscles thingy that makes a v shape on you belly'' but have no idea it's not actually a muscle, all the thing you listed are good points but they aren't everything, just a very few girl into fitness and bodybuilding will really appreciate all your effort and the works you've done so far, but it's not enough to have you phone overheat with constant messaging

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        >you'll never get that
        It happens
        >the journey never really end
        This,

        I really just want my goal body already. I am seeing gains in the gym and do look a lot different now, but I just want ot be there already. I want girls in the gym to actually mire to the point it's obvious. I don't know it's just weird, I like the grind I just want to do it ALREADY at the ending point.

        welcome to being forever small

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Same. Lifting for 8 years. I'm closer to the starting line than where I want to be.

  26. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    i just paid 40euros for 1kg of creatine. i feel dead inside

  27. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Is it normal to want to bang every attractive girl I see on the spot regardless of their personality?

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Of course

  28. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >be 2011-2013 IST oldgay
    >burnout from working out every 6-8 months
    >take 6 months to a year off every time, repeat

    >get married in 2018
    >realize quickly i fricked up, relationship is shit
    >dont love wife
    >divorce her in March of this year
    >download Hinge in May to feel out the market
    >meet cute 29 year old, brilliant
    >my perfect type, infatuated with her beyond reason
    >go on 3 dates
    >she texts me this morning saying she wasnt feeling me

    >look at myself in the mirror
    >fat
    >balding
    >36 years old
    >no family
    >infinitely small dating pool
    >feel like theres no hope for me
    >break down

    Just now lifted and ran for the first time in a year, but my mental is absolutely broken. One day at a time.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Good job moron. How does it feel to know you’re either going to die alone or with a washed up prostitute

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      1 year of
      >gym and diet
      >finasteride/minox
      >hair transplant
      >style-maxxing

      You'll be a new man. Question is, are you an undisciplined homosexual who's about to let his peak of life be behind him, or will you commit and reach higher peaks in the years to come?

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Good job moron. How does it feel to know you’re either going to die alone or with a washed up prostitute

        I have a genuine question. Do you guys feel qualified to talk to a 36yo man like that? Im assuming youre early 20s, since that seems fit average age.
        I dont even mean it aggressive or dismissive. I'm 31 and i feel/felt very strange on both sides.
        When I was 2x those would just be adults and i cant relate anyway so why post.
        Now im 3x and I cant take most posts seriously cause those are kids and they cant relate anyway.

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          IDK man, just trying to help the poor gay see there's more ahead of him. I'm late 20s, don't think there's any qualifications needed to see that people have pulled themselves out of deeper holes at older ages

    • 2 years ago
      Cheekie

      If you can pull girls on a dating app you're gonna be fine.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Damn. No close friends?
      Do you have a comfortable living place at least?

  29. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    This is something that’s messing with me and that is entirely true.
    >have stepsister growing up, when I was about 14 and she was 12 my pops split from her mom and I never saw or heard from her again
    >ffw to 21 years old, I became a chad. 6’2” 205 lean, lots of friends and getting laid constantly complete opposite of my HS experience so I loved it
    >occasionally bring new people into my social circles
    >see girl I recognize from HS
    >never knew her beyond a face I would see in passing between classes but she always stuck out in the background
    >she’s really fricking hot now, huge ass nice breasts super pale with freckles
    >go talk to her
    >Hey, you went to [highschool name] right?
    >get to talking, introduce her to group
    >we hit it off really well and become best friends
    >hang out often, tell each other about our hookups, she gives me advice for the girls I’m dating sometimes I give her advice about the guys she’s dating too
    >dont even see her as a sexual option at this point, it’s like she’s a bro but she has breasts and an ass but I never oogle at her or anything just occasionally look
    >one day it’s 6 of my bros and her chilling
    >she has on track shorts with her big ass hanging out
    >everyone crashes at friends house
    >her and I fall asleep together on the couch, end up cuddling, then spooning
    >entire night she has her ass on my dick but I never do anything
    >we never talk about this
    >ffw few months
    >get drunk and high, everyone crashes and it’s 3am
    >start texting her
    >when I used to get drunk I really liked to mess with everyone
    >start hitting on her
    >she gets annoyed and doesn’t take me seriously knows how I am drunk and I’m fricking with her
    >I persist anyways
    >eventually she says she’s down
    >meet up
    >blows me and throats me in my friends car, swallows
    >still rock hard, end up fricking her and cumming in her pussy twice
    >week later we hang, smoke weed, I make her squirt and scream, then give her a facial
    CONTINUED

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      >later that night she tells me she met up with her bf immediately after and he saw my cum in her hair
      >next day she blocks me and the whole social circle on all media, figure she’s serious about her bf and is doing what she thinks is best, and move on
      Fast forward several years to last night I was bored and looking at old friends social media, stumbled upon hers and she posted a “then vs now” pic where the old one she’s like 10 and the current one is her now. The girl in the old pic is my stepsister. Guys I fricked my long lost stepsister and had no clue. I’m not even coom posting or larping. It’s not the sex that has me feeling this way, it’s that I reconnected with a sibling and had no fricking idea. Did she know? She had to, I don’t have a common name at all. She at least does which is why I didn’t realize. I haven’t even thought about my stepsister since I was a teen but seeing that pic… holy shit what do I do?

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Find God buddy

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Nice.

  30. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    learning japanese lads. halfway through learning katakana now, then kanji. then learn vocabulary. hope to be reading raw mangas soon. my ereader with stylus should be here soon then i'll be able to practice writing as well. do you guys ever feel stagnant when you're not doing anything productive? like you could be doing so much more with your life? or do i just have a toxic relationship with productivity in general?

  31. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Not gonna turn my depression on other people anymore. Gonna turn it in to more anger for myself at the gym. I'll be in those plates when I'm lifting them. I'll be in every vessel of blood pumping. No more cigarettes either I'm going back on the snus.

  32. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    T H R E A D T H E M E

    Broken ice still melts in the sun
    And times that are broken can often be one again
    We're soul alone
    And soul really matters to me

  33. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Hey bros. I'm the married guy who developed feelings for this coworker, some might remember me from last thread.
    Just wanted to update you guys: I only texted her once last Sunday, then spent the whole week without talking to her even once. She's gotta be mad at me, which kinda hurts my heart, but it's a victory anyway in my book.
    I'm now back to my regular life, which is sad for me, but it's for the best. Let's hope I don't relapse.

  34. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Kek everyone in these threads told you to live with her several months before marriage and you didnt pay attention.
    You know who you are.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Talk to as many girls as possible and don't tell any of them. Only reason to talk to a single girl is if your dating her.

  35. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    How are you supposed to get into a girl's DMs? I looked at some guides online and they say if you share something (workplace, uni etc) you should start with that but that never worked for me and seems like simp behavior, it always fizzles out.
    On the other hand being super straightforward with someone I share a social circle with might give me bad rep, right? Especially if I act cringy.
    Cold approaching I have more success with being direct, I can't get into the PUA idea of convincing girls.
    Also is it a mistake to talk to a girl in my class if I'm already talking to another one? This brings me back to my first point, should I maintain plausible deniability to not seem like a man prostitute.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Stop overthinking and go for it. If shes interested she wont give a frick how do you contact her. if she isnt interested even if you arrive in a lambo she wont pay attention to you.

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        >Stop overthinking
        Haha yeah. Some gay guy told me a lot of girls are interested in me but i literally have no idea

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          Really bro dont think, you have suffered a million scenarios in your head that will never happen. Just do it

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          Just shoot. Better to try and fail than regretting never trying.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      >On the other hand being super straightforward with someone I share a social circle with might give me bad rep, right?
      No
      >Also is it a mistake to talk to a girl in my class if I'm already talking to another one?
      Not unless one of them is your girlfriend

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Well she didn't even read it yet
      Frick

  36. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Ah nothing like friday evening, where I can break the days fast with a couple cold ones. Cheers lads, wagmi!

  37. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I have to go back into braces so that's cool. I know there's far worse problems but man I am not happy. I have to wear them for 6 months until I can do the jaw surgery I need to have done

    Also a girl at my work has been flirting and I have no interest. Granted I think I have myself to blame because I think she thinks me joking around with her is flirting. I was walking behind her and went move your in my way

    So she smacked my ass in front of the world. There's some others but that was the big thing. She also gets really obsessive about men to the point she has a restraining order against her

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      I wore braces nearly 3 years during hs, and some hs friends had it during the whole 5 yrs

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      >So she smacked my ass in front of the world. There's some others but that was the big thing.
      >She also gets really obsessive about men to the point she has a restraining order against her
      Pilot do not engage, DO NOT ENGAGE

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      >She also gets really obsessive about men to the point she has a restraining order against her
      DO NOT ENGAGE. SHOT HER DOWN AND WALK AWAY!

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Firing HWD torpedo...

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          NO THAT TORPEDO, ANON! NOOOOOOOOO!

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      give that woman a nice fricking to give her something to obsess about

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      how did you not file for sexual harassment? she'd be fired and obsessed over you after that, not to mention you could make some cash out of it

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Not him but as a dude I don’t give a frick about ladies getting gropey with me. Most molesty it got was this one chick came up behind me while I was kneeling down and put her hands up my shirt to squeeze my pecs. I laughed it off like I was ticklish but made a mental note to never be alone in a room with her.

        I've had around four women slap my ass in front of others. Is that a good sign? One was in front of her boyfriend (lol)

        Yes, they like your ass and think you’re attractive. Ass smacking is the closest to a girl hitting on you as you can get without her having to open her mouth.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      I've had around four women slap my ass in front of others. Is that a good sign? One was in front of her boyfriend (lol)

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Sometimes they cant help it, i know fatasses who are overweight who get ass slapped just because it looks "meaty" on certain pants. I guess its just woman nature

  38. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >tfw just want to move to a hut in the woods and Kaczynskimaxx but can't afford shit nevermind land

  39. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I'm doing great

    https://www.forbes.com/sites/olliebarder/2022/06/09/berserk-manga-will-continue-on-following-kentaro-miuras-death/?sh=76de01635583

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Anon..you have no idea how this news is a miracle, truly, im so happy, i have no idea how guts is truly gonna make it'

  40. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Well the good news is I finally don't miss my ex. The bad news is that everytime I have sex with a girl I pretty much always fantasize that I'm fricking my ex. Not even doing it on purpose and it's basically forcing me to be a volcel.

    So yeah I guess I'll take a double of Jack

  41. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Same shit as usual. Lifting, studying (taking some summer classes so I don't gotta deal with them during fall/spring), been playing some Metal Gear Solid in my free time too.
    For whatever reason the loneliness has really been hitting me hard lately. Idk why. I actually started to enjoy the loneliness earlier this year but lately I'm back to hating it. Been over 3 years since my last relationship. I know that I am the one who has to make advances though. Idk what is stopping me from finding a woman, especially since there are many qt3.14s at my school. Think I'm just worried that I'll get Title IX'd or some shit. I'm not even ugly or anything, I just don't trust women at all.

  42. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >match with gorgeous girl on hinge
    >snap for a week
    >ask out on date, she’s away
    >week later, ask out on date, it’s her sisters birthday so she can’t
    >week later, says she can’t cause of work
    >give up and ghost her
    >fast forward a week
    >she matches me on tinder today (id swiped right on her like a month ago before we matched on hinge)

    Why are b***hes so fricking annoying. Do you wanna do something or not? I wanna have pride and not say anything or try to connect again but she’s also built like my prototype waifu. Some sort of euro/Hispanic mutt. Frick bros. Probably just gonna drink until I convince myself I have nothing to lose by trying again and then get curved a 4th time.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      bawds like that are just keeping orbiters, she'd only ever flake of you actually set a date up

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Just unmatch and move on, she's only doing it for the attention

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      that sign of showing so little interest in making time to go out should tell you enough, man. Don't let her take, or even worse, waste your time.

  43. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I relapsed on self harm after like 2 years of not hurting myself. But I also have been getting bigger and can bench 150lbs now and ohp 105 so I'm happy.

  44. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >meet girl
    >Get her number
    >Talking to her for a bit
    >She's being real nice
    >Talks about how awesome I am for minor things
    >Talks about wanting to grab dinner
    >Invites me to the beach then is like "I hope that's not weird!"
    >I ask her out for dinner
    >She doesn't reply for a week
    >Couple of more weeks pass
    >Once again she's talking about meeting up
    >Invite her out, again

    >Never hear from her ever again

    ffs anons why can't things just work out?

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      If you really want to have fun, call her out on it. Be as cheeky as possible so you don't sound butthurt

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Have fricking standards, man. If she didn't bother replying for an entire week why do you go back to date planning instead of rejecting her? Are you so thirsty that you will let any random female walk all over you? Smh

  45. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    42. Broke up w/ GF of 3-years in March. Had to move into friends house, he's married w/ 3 kids. Have a job I'm hating more and more every day. Everyone is fake, it's all BS. I can't stop thinking about her. I just want to move on.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Get some shrooms, seriously. I went from a broken hearted, low functioning, depressed wreck to happy and motivated/revitalized about life in the span of 3 light doses separated by a week and a half each. I wrote down what I wanted to change about myself/my life and had some really introspective inner dialogues.
      Seriously changed my life for the better, at my lowest I wasn’t suicidal but all the writers I was reading and related to committed suicide.

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Not that anon, but I might try that. I need to sort out my mental situation with that mess of marriage.

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          It’s great for sort of rewiring your brain to help you get your mind off of whatever that past situation was and to refocus on your present, future, and your ability to shape it. There’s spore mailing/sharing communities out there so you can grow your own too. Just be sure to follow directions with regard to sanitizing your growing jars beforehand.

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        I've never done shrooms before, but at this point I'd try almost anything. I've called the suicide hotline a few times just to talk to someone. Working with wedding events is brutal, seeing these beautiful people having fun all the time whilst I'm stuck living in this cespool of self loathing and despair. Counseling isn't really helping either, I need some relief, I don't want to feel this way anymore.

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          I was very much the same. Working at an upscale date night spot and feeling dead inside after I was broken up with. My real wakeup call was when I got way too drunk and nearly fell on my head, I live alone too so any serious head injury when you’re drunk and can’t catch yourself could’ve be the death of me if I hit the wrong spot.

          • 2 years ago
            Anonymous

            I've given up drinking and have never been a big drinker. Hitting the gym is about the only thins that helps ease the pain. I need to get over her to focus on myself and personal growth and so I can't my ass out of my friends house. Is there nowhere to just buy already grown mushrooms?

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          Bro i was exactly like you, and what changed me was "stoicism" i used to dismiss idealogies just as another religious mambo jambo, but alot of roman frens were stoic. Read the source books of stoicism, with an open mind. Please try

          • 2 years ago
            Anonymous

            I was reading some Marcus A. just before I started dating my ex, but that stopped as my focus was her and her happiness. I will revisit some stoic books on Audible. Thanks Fren.

  46. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    fat neet. alone most of the time. no friends. should i get a job or what? not sure how to fix my turd of a life

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Slow and steady bro. I started fixing my room, waking up and sleeping At the same hour everyday, eating 2100 calories, fixing my bed every morning, exercising 30 mins in the park. etc etc etc. Small Discipline stuff little by little add up

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Forgot to mention selling useless shit from my room, and unneded stuff helped me change. Leave only the necessary

  47. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I met a girl and she offered me to vacation with me in a little bit. Is this what making it is like? And before you say she is using me she is covering almost everything even for me

  48. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    /fit/, I... I...
    ... I can explain...
    I read a paper on how the fight/flight response was signaled through the amygdala and I know from my prior studies that training the amygdala is possible through 'cute' sensory inputs...
    Oh IST I made a terrible mistake... I mean it works I get terribly aggressive or flighty nowadays at the smallest provocation; I'm a natural warrior. But my sensory input... it started with a youtube algorithm recommendation and I watched it as a joke I swear it was just a joke it was not supposed to end like this but one thing led to another and now I'm a walking global rule 15 violation...
    Oh God

  49. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Today as well as yesterday I have been all day alone at home. Both days I managed to take my antidepressants and mood stabilizers (inb4 big pharma), take a bath and eat. But that's it. Been terminally bored and coping with the sadness.
    Hope monday comes fast so I can probably get given some work for quick bucks and go to the gym. I don't like how my life is going, everything feels out of my control and I have no one to pass the time with.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      sounds like me on my days off of my godawful job. even sadder is that im 30. but i dont take pharma drugs even though i should if you saw how miserable my life is.

  50. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >fell for the "be stoic and take responsibility" meme
    >now my widow sister and her son live with me
    >Paying my fathers rent on top of my own
    >had to get a second job
    >have no more free time, if I'm not working I'm sleeping, 4-5 hours a night, barely any time to work out anymore

    I hate it. So much.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      you don't take responsability of a woman other than your own blood mother, raising mother, and their mothers, your grandmothers, if you can not fornicate a woman you don't take care of her, you are cucking out, helping your father is respectable though, he raised you and gave you life.

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        >it's respectable to help your loser father who can't afford his own rent at an old age(pathetic) but not your sister
        lol. The respectable thing to do would be to leave them both

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          Doesn't matter. One day the man will die and you'll never pay for his rent again. At that point you have to ask yourself if keeping this 'loser' above the water for the last stages of his life was worth it?

          • 2 years ago
            Anonymous

            You're confused that loser is not my father. My dad lived like a man and knew how to plan and take care of his finances. You're responding to the wrong person.

  51. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I have a deep bruise on my shin bone that is getting more painful every day but I'm scared of doctors, what do I do

  52. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Out of town at a bowling tournament with friends and I don't want to be here.

    I'm reminded of how I hid in a room my whole life playing video games while others were out having life experiences and socializing. Even though I blend in and feel like part of the group all that goes through my mind is the anger I feel towards myself.

    Until a month ago I quelled the anger by the usual; drinking, smoking weed and playing video games. One day I realized I was drugging myself everyday one way or the other and my real self was inside screaming.

    Now I'm just angry most of the day and working out is all I want to do. I'd rather be at home running around my neighborhood or lifting than enjoying a weekend with friends because I hate myself.

    I'm praying this pic is accurate.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      how successful are you with socializing with them

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Very. We all laugh together, I have some good lines like everyone else, it helps that I'm by far the best bowler in our group. I just can't help but hate how much I missed out on by not socializing the first 25 out of 30 years of my life. The feeling is overwhelming and inescapable. If I don't utilize it while it's anger it turns to sadness.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      About to turn 25 and honestly I feel the same. Even worse, missing out on current major events gives me physical pain

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        >current major events
        like what

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          You know, the majors, Roland Garros, Wimbledon.

          t. roger federer

          • 2 years ago
            Anonymous

            hello roger. novax is better

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      I got invited to a concert since they had a second ticket and no one else could go. I enjoy the band, but honestly....I just didn't feel comfortable there. Surrounded by normies where this is the norm for them and I just felt on edge the entire time. I'm not an introvert but damn I just hated the entire experience. I would have rather been home, alone like you said running around my yard in the dark at night than interacting with people.

  53. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Met a nice girl. I'd like to be with her all day long, but I can't. She only considers me a friend. Kind of hard to forget, if it was only sexual attraction it'd be easy to get over.

  54. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I have serious anger problems after my mom died. I hate it. Whenever I study I get super angry about being unable to concentrate, almost to the point of crying. Been so angry I wanted to hang myself. I don't get directly angry at people publicly, but privately seethe at everybody who's done me wrong. Daily. It's not cool at all, it's pathetic.

  55. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Water please. Just gonna go ahead vent and blogpost don’t really care anymore. 27 y/o 5’9 on a good day with no prospective women in sight. I still live at home and don’t have a job anymore although I’ve been working on a business and will have 3 clients starting this Monday. Mom has been kind of pressuring me with marriage, and in our culture those things are typically arranged. Recently found out that our neighbors are moving to AZ. This sucks because my sister baby sits their two kids, one of them being a 1.5 year old, and everytime I get home from the gym, the little tyke is there and he runs up to me and gives me a giant hug. Cute little dude too. My lifts have been going up, but none of this shit matters unless I’ve got someone to share it with. I want to be a dad so fricking bad bros. The little guy leaves at the end of this month and outside of family, he’s the only one that runs up to me and gives me a giant hug and I guess appreciates me for me. Also running low on money but that won’t be a problem much longer. I don’t care about meaningless sex, or spending money on frivolous shit. I just want to retire my mom, put my lil sis through school and start my own family. How did you guys do it? I’m pretty sure I’m depressed and once I get 3 more clients for my business(it’s pretty self sustaining and really only needs about 2/3 hours per day just to check on things) I plan on getting another big boy job since I haven’t worked in a year and 3 months. Planning on SWE, that being said, do people still want C++ devs or do I gotta go study something like Python and Java? Anyways it’s 9pm here, pretty sad as I lay in bed, haven’t spoken to my friends in about a month or so. Kinda socially aimless.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      being a good uncle is a very valuable thing anon, good luck with that.
      meeting women while you live with your mum will be rough, I would focus on your career for now and try to move out.
      none of your friends able to hook you up with a date?

  56. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I started going to the gym again... and I'm actually going to try and take it easy this time. For the past few years, every time I started going, old injuries flared back up or I ended up hurting myself in some new way. Either my shoulder from benching, my knees from squatting, or my ankles from running... I always increased intensity too soon I guess. So this time, I'm just doing 20 minutes a day... 10 minutes of lifting, and then 10 minutes of jogging. For lifts, I'm doing 5x10, rotating between dumbbell bench, dumbbell squat, and seated row.
    Does this sound sensible?
    Other than that... company I work for did some layoffs this week, but I survived. A lot of people let go were here less than 6 months. So, not sure how much longer I want to stay... management seems like they might be fricking idiots.

  57. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Doing okay. Hitting gym everyday, losing some strength because I'm cutting, but at least not bloatmaxx.
    Little sad because just graduated school and out of my close friend circle, I'm the few that didn't land a $205k job. But happy that I found a job. Get my foot in the door I suppose.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Lord help me if I was mogged that hard by a woman like that at the gym, I'd probably just cum my pants right there and whimper "Y-you too."

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Lord help me if I was mogged that hard by a woman like that at the gym, I'd probably just cum my pants right there and whimper "Y-you too."

      >another thread on IST right now talking about a guy who's afraid to go to the gym
      this is the EXACT reason i do not go. this right here is what would happen to me with my emaciated body. how are you supposed to deal with this humiliation. and dont give me the "dude everyone starts somewhere" bullshit

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Start at a commercial gym. There are plenty of dyels there. Idk why this weakling is doing at what seems like a relatively serious looking gym.... lest... crossfit

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Just go to the gym moron. I wasted a year lifting at home, with shitty equipment and lots of distractions, because I was too embarrassed to go lift the gym.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      What? No piss!?

  58. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Started going to the gym
    I feel stronger, more energetic and less depressed
    I think i'm going to do fine.

  59. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >can't stop thinking about my ex
    >Ended a 5 year relationship with me over text
    >It was a long time coming for various reasons but I still miss her
    >Don't even have the motivation to frick random bawds
    >Might just see a hooker
    >Can't even lift the sad away because I've got the fricking coof
    Pic related. She was just as moronic as me.

  60. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Life keeps getting better, but I feel the same. My land is nearly paid off, I'm fit and am leaving a job for one with a higher pay. On paper things are improving, but it all means nothing. Took a girl to dinner yesterday, told me near the end that she really enjoys my "energy". Not going to call her because it was exhausting even pretending to care about anything she said. I guess it's narcissism, I keep choosing loneliness when there are plenty of opportunities to hang out with and meet people. Seems like I'm either numb or extremely angry, and my outlets for frustration have stopped working. What a world.

  61. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I wrote myself a letter today. I was completely and 100% honest with myself. And bros, I was crying the whole time. My eyes are still sore, the back of my throat is dry. I didn't expect to have this reaction. The goal was to treat myself how I would treat a friend or someone who needs my help but it went beyond just that. It was so cathartic.

    I suggest everyone writes themselves a letter. Don't just joke around, don't just meme it up. Talk about yourself to yourself.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      might do that, been looking for new topics to write about, thanks for the recommendation.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      i plan to do that with a suicide note

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Based. I was the one shilling stoicism esrlier in the thread. Now imagine keeping up a journal everyday being 100% honest with yourself. It really lifts the mind.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      post it up my dude

  62. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    K

  63. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >met my future trad wife this week
    >WAGMI

  64. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    I know when there's nothing you can do about things outside of your control you're supposed to do what you can and appreciate what you have, but I'm getting real tired of looking to the future and seeing absolutely no hope.
    I remember just a few short years ago I was actually convinced I could save enough money to afford a decent down payment on a house, and that I would have decided on a career path I actually enjoyed instead of just settling for one I could tolerate. But now everything in the world has gone breasts up more than ever and it's only just beginning.
    Sometimes I resent the things that keep me tied to this earth and I feel terrible for it, namely my good friends that I've known for years. I feel like if I had no ties to this earth I could easily disappear and end it all within the space of a week, I'm really on the razor's edge here.
    I just hope in the afterlife I and many other anons and femanons who have suffered are rewarded with how we choose to spend our afterlife or how we're reincarnated. But that could just be me believing in the delusion that there's a fair and just balance to things in the universe, my deepest fear is that I'll be reborn without any memory of my previous suffering only to be subjected to the same or an even worse Wheel of Pain than before.
    But I digress, thanks for reading my blog.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      lmao

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      >my deepest fear is that I'll be reborn without any memory of my previous suffering only to be subjected to the same
      we're coming back and it's gonna be shit! wahey!

  65. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    >tfw good looking and buff but boring
    Personality trumps all
    My sociable and energetic friend steals the spotlight every time we go out
    Women are magnetized to his aura
    I can never channel even a single bit of his power

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      have you tried not being an NPC

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Ask him to help. He won't know strictly what it is about him that's magnetic, but if he knows you are trying to come out of your shell more it might help. Push yourself to be cheerier though. Seriously put in effort.

  66. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    Alright bros I could use some input here.

    Recently I got in touch with a someone I haven't talked with in years. When we first met through a mutual friend, I was a really fat guy in college and she was finishing high school. Fast forward a few years, I dropped a ton of weight and got fit while she got married and had a kid with some guy.

    So we started catching up, and one thing led to another and now we're sexting. Her initiative, not mine. She sends me nudes, I send her dick pics, you know the deal. She's also convinced I'm coming back from a business trip in September - when she will jump my wiener and ride me for hours.

    Now, there's two issues here. First; she's not divorced (even though the marriage has long ago fallen apart - they just didn't sign the divorce papers) and she has a kid with the dude - so on some level I really don't feel okay with doing this shit. Also, I know she cheated on him several times before.

    Second; I can't relax at all during sex - I was a fat guy for so long that now I'm convinced I look ugly no matter how much weight I lose, and that I can't sexually satisfy anyone I meet because I was a virgin until I hit 30. So now I have ED up the ass because I used to cope with porn, and now when the real thing is in front of me I freeze.

    So my question is: should I slowly cut things off, or should I go ahead with it?

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      For the first point, it depends on if her husband is sleeping around with other people too, but that doesn't seem likely and I wouldn't believe a word she says on the subject.
      Secondly, a woman and a mother who sleeps around while still married is extremely low value, and if your ED is horrible in general than this morally ambiguous situation is going to make it significantly worse. Your only option would be drugs.
      Personally I think you should ditch the FOMO and ghost her immediately, but you've seemingly dug yourself into a hole here. But keep in mind that if you do this she can use that against you at any given point, especially considering she's still married. I'd honestly give the husband some kind of tip about it if you could, you can do so much better than her and so can he.

      • 2 years ago
        Anonymous

        Yeah, I figured.

        I think that the best I can do is slowly cut things off; use work and traveling and other stuff as excuses why I can't go through with this. I can't ghost her immediately because she started asking that mutual friend about me as well - so now I need to navigate this shitstorm with both of them in it somehow.

        As for the husband, I don't know the guy. I know that he used to run a bar (she was a bartender there, that's when they hooked up) and that's it. And at the same time, I don't think I can just hit him up because I too am guilty in this stupid shit going on. If I didn't send her dick pics then yeah, I probably would do that.

        • 2 years ago
          Anonymous

          Fair points, I hope you make it out unscathed anon. But worst case it's better to be known as a tease than be framed for a homewrecker.

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      Don't call it off anon. What are you gonna do, just never try to have sex again because you're nervous?
      It's not your marriage, so don't worry about it. Sounds like she's going to frick somebody and it might as well be you.
      If you're really concerned about ED then just take a blue pill. You'll probably only need to do it once and then you'll relax around her.

  67. 2 years ago
    Anonymous

    so I was at this party last week and some girl I work with hooked up with a guy
    I got fricking mad jealous, I didn't say or do anything, but I got all agitated
    the thing is, I'm not interested in her romantically, I guess I thought about fricking her sometimes, but I never made a move on her even tho she's been making it clear to me she'd frick me, but most of the times I see her I don't have the desire
    so what is this? ego? some madonna/prostitute shit? why do I give a frick she fricked some guy. was I angry to find out she's a prostitute? why would I care. is this like the dog that wants all of the bones for himself. now I feel like I have to try and frick her. and still my libido is 0.
    it was the first time in years I've actually felt strong emotions
    what kind of person am I jesus fricking christ

    • 2 years ago
      Anonymous

      you are not interested in this girl, you just care about the possibility that something might happens and the fact that she made it clear it '' could happend if you wanted '', and seeing her hooking up with another dude ruined this idea for you.
      it's not about her, it's about the feeling and the confort that '' i could frick her if i wanted to....but i don't feel like it''

      >what kind of person am I jesus fricking christ
      a pretty feminine mindset if i might comment on this

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