Finance anon here... money isn’t worth the long hours and stress. You realize you waste your youth making boomers rich rather than settling down with a trad qt and have a family
I don't give a frick about any of that. I want to work downtown, work 14 hour days, frick twinks and gracefully die of a stress induced heart attack at the ripe age of 35, wearing a gold watch and dressed in a $5000 suit
I'm starting a new job here on the first of August.
The girl I like ended up traveling to Florida for work (used to work together, shes known that I have a thing for her for a few months) so I figured why not go there as well, she's letting me stay in the same room in the same bed. Hell, I'm typing this as she sleeps next to me right now.
The relationship she was in recentley turned south in a big way, so I thought at the very least, I could keep her company and try to help keep her mind off of things. I genuinely care about her as a friend and she's one of very very few people I can really open up to, but I really want more out of my relationship with her.
I know I'm not in a place to be in a relationship, and I don't think she really is either right now. I care about her alot, but I'm really unsure if she'll ever feel the same way about me. When I told her I had a thing for her she said that she was flattered and that in the future it was a possibility. I could be wrong but I know she has a fair amount of guys who are definitely after her, and it does make me jealous when I know she's talking to them or whatever.
Maybe I'm just being stupid, maybe I'm being a bit desperate, but frick me, I care about this girl alot. Her smile fricking destroys me, her perspective on things really puts a smile on my face, and I feel fricking giddy just being around her.
So what am I doing this weekend? I'm laying in a bed in Florida with a girl that I'm probably in love with at this point for the next week, wondering what the frick is wrong with me that she doesn't feel same. Wondering what I have to do to be more appealing. Wondering if anything will ever come of knowing her. I don't want to ruin a friendship, but I also hate where I'm at mentally in regards to her.
I'm spending this next week playing mental gymnastics.
Have you had sex with her yet? Sorry to break it to you, but if she doesn't immediately reciprocate your emotions with an emphatic "Yes!" then you're wasting your time. It sucks and you'll feel terrible for the next few months, but you need to cut your losses and find someone who loves you back.
Also - you're sleeping in the same bed as her while she's in a relationship? That's fricking obscene. You wouldn't be comfortable with your GF sleeping in the same bed as another man.
She's just another stupid b***h. Wake the frick up and reclaim your balls already. You don't understand how women work. People have been going over this shit in the PUA/manosphere/whatever spaces for over a decade now. Figure it out you pathetic c**t.
Bro. If you dont make her yours. Somebody else will. And when somebody else has her. She will spend more and more time with him. And less time with you. Shes gonna get railed every night. While you are at home thinking about her. I see this ending badly for you unless you make her yours quick.
Same, I have a professional licensure exam tomorrow and just got absolutely wrecked by my oneitis crush, so now I can't concentrate for shit. My mind is pretty much made up that if I don't end up passing I'm just gonna end it all. Frick this gay life.
Yeah, I'll just have to wait another 45 days to take it again. Can't really work in my field until then though. And yeah, I know oneitis fades with time, last one took like 10 years though. I'm too old and moronic to wait that long again tbh.
>last one took like 10 years though.
Frick, alright that sucks man. Yeah you gotta try and meet someone new even though this one's still in your head, I guess.
I know that no cares but heres an update. Passed the oral exam with a mediocre grade and now i feel like shit. Grade is not good enough to be happy about it but also not bad enough to be upset about it. Whatever i try i am always just okay or good but never great at anything. I feel like l am a 3 star character in a gacha game.
Travelling to another state to be with a girl who will never feel the same. You will reap what you sow, but it gets better after that. Don't worry bro.
I just realized that I'll most likely die alone, so why even do all this shit? Why do I even bust my ass wagecucking? Doing overtime, ever? I don't need to buy a house or a fancy car or ever worry about having a family or a partner of any kind, so why bother? Who am I doing this shit for?
I'll just live in my small room and put heavy things up and down till the day I die, maybe work just part time enough to get my needed calories and that's it. It's actually kind of liberating
Man. I used to relate to this way more than I'd like to admit.
Why do you feel you must seperate yourself from others? Does connecting with others and bringing each other joy not worth it for you? Or have you been burned too much in the past, and are twice shy?
Either way. It's not way to live. The loneliness and suffering will eat you up bit by bit until you're so far gone you may never recover emotionally. I came close - but climbed my way out.
When life seems meaningless - remember that we are all experiencing this reality together. Bringing joy, peace, and awareness to others is the most fundamental thing we can do to add meaning.
Not that poster, feel pretty much the same though.
I have a hard time relating to other people, and there's not really anything I ever feel like talking about. I can hold conversations, but I don't feel like I get anything out of it. As a result, I seldom take initiative to approach new people if I don't have to because there's just no natural prompts that pop up. I'm not shy or anxious, there's just nothing to say.
Can't really do games (don't like how it feel like someone trying to jerk off your brain) or movies (just never feel invested) anymore either.
Have a few old friends I still see sometimes, but I don't really feel any different when I've met them, or that anything we did really mattered.
People in general tend to feel something off about me, and though I don't harbour any ill wishes for anyone I don't feel any inclination to spend much effort to bring joy to people who talk behind your back when they think you don't hear.
Only thing I actually feel some drive towards is getting to cuddle someone again, but then I know that might just be a mirage as well, seeing as my darkest and lowest periods have actually been when I had a GF.
Lifting keeps me from feeling I am some kind of floating spectre.
The sucky part is, weed fixes me. Makes me temporarily emotionally able to be invested and curious about people, feel connection. But it is illegal where I live, and it'd be both too risky and expensive to maintain a habit regular enough to let me live a normal life. And also, I'd feel a bit weird about me becoming half plant, so to speak.
i assume youre asking about doing IST related shit. Even if youre questioning, dont stop. I was close, down to 180lbs, then the nihilism set in with failed dates and the potential to lose my job, fear of being alone. Booze and fast food took over and in less than a year im 230. Do not stop, do not be like me.
>turned 22 in march >feel like I'm just aimlessly wandering through life >almost no friends, no gf >decided to do what I wanted since I was a kid >joined a conservatory last year >prof tells me I got talent and that I should've joined years ago >frick it, gonna stay there for at least 2 years and go to uni >broke as af >no license, no car >living with parents >trying to go back to liftin' >gonna leave my wack ass office job at a hotel in 2 weeks to fully focus
Let's see what the future brings me
>switched jobs just over a year ago, got a ~40% raise, new job is better in every regard >met a woman last winter, we started dating and have now been together for over half a year, my first real relationship >we discussed moving in together next spring
I haven't made any real gains in the gym in forever though, I'm really unmotivated and I have no energy when I'm there.
looks to me you posted on IST/fit/, my dude
idk, what are you doing?
We browse IST too much. It's a waste of life, really. We just got to stay busy. I can understand the gays at IST
Air your frickin gear out you plug
I just want land and a wife, that's it
You won’t trick me satan.
Good luck, Satan
Thats cool and reasonable goal what are you doing to attain those?
nothing
And 6 kids
I'm going through this rn and all I want is
> land
Trad larper confirmed
get a job then Black person
I wish I was an investment banker. That way I could be busy with work literally 24/7 and not have to think about how miserable I am
Finance anon here... money isn’t worth the long hours and stress. You realize you waste your youth making boomers rich rather than settling down with a trad qt and have a family
I don't give a frick about any of that. I want to work downtown, work 14 hour days, frick twinks and gracefully die of a stress induced heart attack at the ripe age of 35, wearing a gold watch and dressed in a $5000 suit
>dressed in a $5000 suit
So as a poorgay.
The average poorgay doesn't even own a off the rack suit. That's besides the point.
Cringe and incelpilled
>Cringe and incelpilled
>Iiiim not a loser
>Posts soijak
Pottery
You deserve none of those things moron. Glad iBanking doesn’t want you either
stay coping. I'm well on my way into an associates program
Whatever you say larping 4chinner
I'm in the same boat
I'm starting a new job here on the first of August.
The girl I like ended up traveling to Florida for work (used to work together, shes known that I have a thing for her for a few months) so I figured why not go there as well, she's letting me stay in the same room in the same bed. Hell, I'm typing this as she sleeps next to me right now.
The relationship she was in recentley turned south in a big way, so I thought at the very least, I could keep her company and try to help keep her mind off of things. I genuinely care about her as a friend and she's one of very very few people I can really open up to, but I really want more out of my relationship with her.
I know I'm not in a place to be in a relationship, and I don't think she really is either right now. I care about her alot, but I'm really unsure if she'll ever feel the same way about me. When I told her I had a thing for her she said that she was flattered and that in the future it was a possibility. I could be wrong but I know she has a fair amount of guys who are definitely after her, and it does make me jealous when I know she's talking to them or whatever.
Maybe I'm just being stupid, maybe I'm being a bit desperate, but frick me, I care about this girl alot. Her smile fricking destroys me, her perspective on things really puts a smile on my face, and I feel fricking giddy just being around her.
So what am I doing this weekend? I'm laying in a bed in Florida with a girl that I'm probably in love with at this point for the next week, wondering what the frick is wrong with me that she doesn't feel same. Wondering what I have to do to be more appealing. Wondering if anything will ever come of knowing her. I don't want to ruin a friendship, but I also hate where I'm at mentally in regards to her.
I'm spending this next week playing mental gymnastics.
Live your life Op.
Sad beta cuck
Have you had sex with her yet? Sorry to break it to you, but if she doesn't immediately reciprocate your emotions with an emphatic "Yes!" then you're wasting your time. It sucks and you'll feel terrible for the next few months, but you need to cut your losses and find someone who loves you back.
Also - you're sleeping in the same bed as her while she's in a relationship? That's fricking obscene. You wouldn't be comfortable with your GF sleeping in the same bed as another man.
She's tamed you. It's over.
>he's literally sleeping in the same bed as her
Anon if you'd read someone else write this, what would you say? Honestly?
What kind of schitzo shit is this , just get a girl and knock her up. Its not compliant
She's just another stupid b***h. Wake the frick up and reclaim your balls already. You don't understand how women work. People have been going over this shit in the PUA/manosphere/whatever spaces for over a decade now. Figure it out you pathetic c**t.
Sounds like you're the average frustrated chump
>Sleeping in the same bed
>SAME BED
NGMI
hahaha I've gone to sleep next to chicks in the same bed and woken up doing it
Bro. If you dont make her yours. Somebody else will. And when somebody else has her. She will spend more and more time with him. And less time with you. Shes gonna get railed every night. While you are at home thinking about her. I see this ending badly for you unless you make her yours quick.
I wish I had a better job
what advice would you give to someone in your situation?
posting on IST.
I want to work in the nuclear industry
Its 12 pm where i live and i still have to memorize a shitload of information for a exam that is in 11 hours. It could be worse anon
Same, I have a professional licensure exam tomorrow and just got absolutely wrecked by my oneitis crush, so now I can't concentrate for shit. My mind is pretty much made up that if I don't end up passing I'm just gonna end it all. Frick this gay life.
If you fail can't you just try again later? And your oneitis feels will fade, it just takes time.
Yeah, I'll just have to wait another 45 days to take it again. Can't really work in my field until then though. And yeah, I know oneitis fades with time, last one took like 10 years though. I'm too old and moronic to wait that long again tbh.
>last one took like 10 years though.
Frick, alright that sucks man. Yeah you gotta try and meet someone new even though this one's still in your head, I guess.
Yup, just hoping I can pass and find a good job that lets me take my mind off things and maybe meet some new people or something.
I know that no cares but heres an update. Passed the oral exam with a mediocre grade and now i feel like shit. Grade is not good enough to be happy about it but also not bad enough to be upset about it. Whatever i try i am always just okay or good but never great at anything. I feel like l am a 3 star character in a gacha game.
you sound like a whining woman, beyond embarrassing
who gives a frick
Travelling to another state to be with a girl who will never feel the same. You will reap what you sow, but it gets better after that. Don't worry bro.
I just realized that I'll most likely die alone, so why even do all this shit? Why do I even bust my ass wagecucking? Doing overtime, ever? I don't need to buy a house or a fancy car or ever worry about having a family or a partner of any kind, so why bother? Who am I doing this shit for?
I'll just live in my small room and put heavy things up and down till the day I die, maybe work just part time enough to get my needed calories and that's it. It's actually kind of liberating
Same. I just do what I want and am happy. Had this revelation 3 years ago.
Man. I used to relate to this way more than I'd like to admit.
Why do you feel you must seperate yourself from others? Does connecting with others and bringing each other joy not worth it for you? Or have you been burned too much in the past, and are twice shy?
Either way. It's not way to live. The loneliness and suffering will eat you up bit by bit until you're so far gone you may never recover emotionally. I came close - but climbed my way out.
When life seems meaningless - remember that we are all experiencing this reality together. Bringing joy, peace, and awareness to others is the most fundamental thing we can do to add meaning.
Good luck, anon.
Not that poster, feel pretty much the same though.
I have a hard time relating to other people, and there's not really anything I ever feel like talking about. I can hold conversations, but I don't feel like I get anything out of it. As a result, I seldom take initiative to approach new people if I don't have to because there's just no natural prompts that pop up. I'm not shy or anxious, there's just nothing to say.
Can't really do games (don't like how it feel like someone trying to jerk off your brain) or movies (just never feel invested) anymore either.
Have a few old friends I still see sometimes, but I don't really feel any different when I've met them, or that anything we did really mattered.
People in general tend to feel something off about me, and though I don't harbour any ill wishes for anyone I don't feel any inclination to spend much effort to bring joy to people who talk behind your back when they think you don't hear.
Only thing I actually feel some drive towards is getting to cuddle someone again, but then I know that might just be a mirage as well, seeing as my darkest and lowest periods have actually been when I had a GF.
Lifting keeps me from feeling I am some kind of floating spectre.
The sucky part is, weed fixes me. Makes me temporarily emotionally able to be invested and curious about people, feel connection. But it is illegal where I live, and it'd be both too risky and expensive to maintain a habit regular enough to let me live a normal life. And also, I'd feel a bit weird about me becoming half plant, so to speak.
You have ADHD-PI
I feel the same, also have ADHD-PI. Adderal helped a lot.
i assume youre asking about doing IST related shit. Even if youre questioning, dont stop. I was close, down to 180lbs, then the nihilism set in with failed dates and the potential to lose my job, fear of being alone. Booze and fast food took over and in less than a year im 230. Do not stop, do not be like me.
being sad that i am lonely while at the same time refusing to go socialize
How's your self esteem?
/life/ thread?
>turned 22 in march
>feel like I'm just aimlessly wandering through life
>almost no friends, no gf
>decided to do what I wanted since I was a kid
>joined a conservatory last year
>prof tells me I got talent and that I should've joined years ago
>frick it, gonna stay there for at least 2 years and go to uni
>broke as af
>no license, no car
>living with parents
>trying to go back to liftin'
>gonna leave my wack ass office job at a hotel in 2 weeks to fully focus
Let's see what the future brings me
what are the soiboi dyels even doing? I ask myself everyday.
>switched jobs just over a year ago, got a ~40% raise, new job is better in every regard
>met a woman last winter, we started dating and have now been together for over half a year, my first real relationship
>we discussed moving in together next spring
I haven't made any real gains in the gym in forever though, I'm really unmotivated and I have no energy when I'm there.
best thread on IST right now, hands down
This pic is sad because the guy doesn't have a normal comfy couch, like what the frick is he sitting on??