It's easy to move to this board from the rest of this shit website and deep down they know they can fix themselves and want to confirm whatever biases they have, whether that's that they really can fix themselves or that [insert lard cope here].
Did you know fit guys have shit personalities, or don't get any pussy anyway, or that it's all just genetics? That sort of bullshit.
Not that anon, but is that really all there is to this? Ego stroking and aspiration for a woman? Don't get me wrong I'm not some nihilist doomer who doesn't think we shouldn't embrace life or the struggle (happy sisyphus), but damn out of the infinite possibilities in the universe is this all we as humans got going for us? I'm not looking a gift horse in the mouth... But just makes you wonder
Yes. Leave the city. Get off the internet. Nature brings happiness because that’s where we’re meant to be. Until we can alter our emotions on a whim, humans do not belong in massive cities where you sit in a box and go to work. You need natural connection
I attempted suicide once but the bullet had a light primer strike. I knew then that quantum immortality was real and I was doomed to being the oldest person in the world. I plan on shooting myself if I don’t win the powerball when it reaches $1b next time to prove this and will live my life in luxury
Same should have died from OD at 14 but puked and was magically fine. I took such a large dose that it should have nuked my liver. I feel bad for the version of my mom that lost her son, but she should have made better decisions in her and my life.
Life is a joke anyway and I have to remind myself to not take it seriously
>quantum immortality is real >merely win the runner up prize of several million dollars >shoot self >survive but with severe mental impairment and inability to control one's own body >family decides not to cut life support >live to old age >quantum immortality is real so evade all fatal disease >live for hundreds of years as a retarded crippled vegetable
Because giving up means I become a weaker man. Becoming a weaker man (physically, mentally, spiritually, all of which are very exercise linked) makes me less capable of performing in life to take care of those I love and owe. Anyone who comes between my obligations and the people I care for is my enemy. Logically they're then an enemy of my gains. If I stop making my gains, the enemy wins, and if you let that happen, you have completely and utterly failed your mission in life. Don't let anyone come between you and your mission. Don't let anyone come between you and your gains. I don't care who you are or where you're at. Take my hand and let's get to work.
I am 27 and my body is deteriorating
I started lifting 1.5 years ago and finally started seeing progress when everything started to hurt
My shoulder, my shins, my hip flexors
I can hardly do anything but ride the stationary bike or use light resistance bands
I understand that I am disliked by more than I am liked, and a part of what keeps me going is my living in spite of their dislike. The other aspect is faith in myself and my abilities to provide a worthwhile future for myself and loved ones. I understand that present day is hard and I often 'fall', but picking myself back up again is the only right option
I like going to the gym with my gf. She really got into being more muscular and a high protein diet without all the meme shit (she trains the excact same programm as i do). She also sends me the videos of her dance group and how she mogs all the other girls. And she likes Grizzley
Tldr. It's fun cause i'm there with a friend
I found it every difficult to understand because it's very "poetic" I guess would be the best world. I read a New American Bible with annotations and for verses that are very inspiring or confusing I cross check on Bible Hub
There is some great stuff in life that I want to keep experiencing. Great art, good food, time spent with friends & family, beautiful weather, the sense of progress and accomplishment, etc. I could go on and on because there are many experiences in life that bring me joy.
Of course, life sometimes fucking sucks tremendously. Maybe even most of the time. But I still have hope that there are good days coming. They always come.
I've been posting off topic for past week and this time Jannies didn't ban me like usual , I need some explanations and a time off from this place , I lack self control , im starting to think Jannies work for the devil.
Travelling is too munch fun, drugs are way too nice of an experience, I am also a people pleaser I love to see others being happy because of me.
There are dark times and I thought about ending it all, to just quiet everything out and make it stop.
When I start thinking like that, it’s time for a trip helps me focus again, leaving my comfort zone to appreciate life a little bit more again
>trying to be IST
Because I will unironically kill myself be it through alcoholism or shooting myself
>in general
I dont think that mankind would be able to experience depression as I've felt it without being also being able to feel hope. Literally every human desire has a means to fulfill it, for hunger there is food, for lust there is sex, if you are shivering then you can find heat. I don't think that happiness is any different and thats why I don't think that depression is meaningless. I could make the same argument for the longing for "god" and all the adjacent feelings and ideas but It should be self explanatory.
What’s the alternative? Slash my wrists like some pussy assed moron? Rope myself like a coward?
ONLY YOU HOLD THE KEYS TO IMPROVING YOUR FUTURE. UNLOCK THAT SHIT BY BEING A SIKKUNT AND NOT REFLECTING ON THE TEMPTATIONS OF CYNICISM AND PITY FOR YOURSELF. WAGFMI BRAHS.
Duty I suppose. I was offered extra work today when it's actually my friday off and took it, because my apartment has felt lonely and haunted since she moved out yesterday. I couldn't run today either because rain is quite literally pussing down, and it's my rest day from gym. I can't but booze and drink because I'm a high functioning alcoholic, which is why she left, and why my other ex left. If I drink it just lands me in shit. I also think I have low test because aside from my high sex drive, and being fairly jacked I meet the symptoms. My friend runs 200 mg Test E a week and he swears it has helped a ton. Currently just wanna work, lift, and continue taking courses in philosophy at various colleges, online ofc.
Love life
I enjoy new experiences, new accomplishments
I've been to the Amazon, Galapagos, Tokyo, the bahamas
I can't wait to visit new places and meet new people
I love gardening, my sugar peas are almost in. I put the rest of my transplants into the ground this weekend, can't fucking wait until my first tomatoes come in
Cooking is such a delight. I got my first all-clad and despite my skepticism, it cooks like a dream and I made the best goddamn reduction yesterday
I have so many goddamn hobbies. I'm developing my own film (B&W), I just took 2 rolls of pictures yesterday, lets see how shitty my negatives turn out lol. If it looks good, the local photography shop has an enlarger for cheap I'm going to get. I don't even really care for photography but the process of developing film is strangely fun.
I code for a living, and I've started playing with Unity (Unreal is just...its great looking but I fucking hate blueprints, I'd rather code in C#). I made a very small game level, and now I've sorta layed out a hobby game that I've wanted to do for a while. Given how much shit goes into game making I doubt I'll finish it, but I'm excited to spend months just figuring it out.
I just have too much fun with life man, the question is why would I stop.
Because nothing ever ends, death is an illusion, and existence is all you can experience. So you better make it good, because it ain't gonna end anytime soon.
Despite how life can seem like endless suffering for no reason or end at times, there are still some amazing experiences to be had even if they are infrequent. For 3 years straight, I prayed to a 'god' to not wake me up in the morning if he had any mercy. A few months ago I experienced a moment I considered the happiest moment of my life so far. I'm glad I stuck around to experience that. I think there's going to be more of those moments in the future.
I'm also very curious to see how AI is going to progress over the coming years. A lot of people smarter than you or I, with no apparent financial motivations seem to believe that digital superintelligence that is going to transform society in unfathomable ways, for the better or worse, is round the corner. I'd like to stick around to see that.
My health. I think it's very important to have good health so I engage in physical activity and eat well. You only get one life so you should do whatever you can to make sure it is not ruined with poor health.
Idk... I'm lost. Nothing going on in my brain anymore. Apathy has taken me over. Any day I could die and I just don't care anymore. I'm bored, lonely and feel like an NPC. I'm totally drained of life. All of my friends are married now and rarely go out and do anything. I just do everything by myself now. Fishing, walking on the beach, shopping, even at work I barely socialize. I'm not even interested in parties/clubs anymore like I used to be.
I fucked up and there's nobody to blame but myself.
digits from the heart. i feel i am in the same position as yourself, had it all and pissed it away with shitty attitude. slowly building myself back up tho, but some days i feel crushed
Same. I think back to some of my past relationships. I dated some crazy women and I'm glad they're out of my life. But, I dated some good woman too, but I was a shallow asshole. I threw away women that would've made great wives/mothers because they weren't hot enough. I was shallow and it cost me. But, I was young and stupid.
It's crazy to think how different my life could've changed at different points. I was going to go to college for finance, but never did because it was too expensive. Now I work in a factory doing manual labor and just do finance on the side. I had a woman that genuinely liked me (she would even want to pay for our dates instead of me). I fucked up.
same anon you replied to here. on the good days i tell myself it's never too late to fix the shit that is in your control. as for past relationships, generally there is nothing left there, but the heart wants what it can't have and objectively the rose tinted glasses of present-misery might make you miss things that were never that great.
I dont know im 40 but like to intimate with teenage whore. And i think the last one might give me gonorea again for the third this time. I just hope my antibody can defeat the bacteria becuase it hurt so much when pissing if they win bros. Pray for me bros
"Gonorrhea can be cured with the right treatment. CDC recommends a single dose of 500 mg of intramuscular ceftriaxone. Alternative regimens are available when ceftriaxone cannot be used to treat urogenital or rectal gonorrhea."
Ask your doc for some. Sheesh, this is the reason I won't do prostitutes.
The mission of course!
For some that's god. For some that's becoming an athlete, scientist, or leader. For some it's because fighting on gives them purpose. People create an endpoint, it can be intangible or completely physical. What gave me the greatest meaning was unironically doing a 4 month thru hike through a portion of the Appalachia in between my jobs. When you're fighting tooth and nail to get to that destination, there's no hesitation and overthinking or dread, unironically only indomitable will, even if that trail is nothing compared to some others. Make your mission and focus your energy on it with optimism.
To do a little trolling.
TROLL ALL DOOMERS
TROLL THE MACHINE GOD
TROLL THOSE WHO MAKE US SUFFER FOR THEIR PLEASURE
TROLL THEM TROLL THEM TROLL THEM TROLL THEM TROLL THEM TROLL THEM TROLL THEM
These days, I don't really know. I was recently told that "I just need to meet the right people" but if I haven't met any of the "right people" in the last 26 years, then the common denominator is me and I need to keep changing.
I keep living for family. That's about it. When my parents die, I'll cut communication to my siblings, divide my wealth up between them and then off myself quietly. I don't want to deal with the $20k suicide prevention wellness check.
Because i said i wouldn't kill myself. I'm not going to allow male to live a shitty life with a deteriorating body. If I'm going to live life by god ill give it my best
Because I'm a 45 year old turbo-autismo, ex-schizo, kissless, hugless, handholdless, asocial, virgin. I could or should have stopped decades ago, but I didn't, so I keep on going out of spite and regret.
And, yes, I lift and I'm in pretty good shape for my age (never had any medical exam, not even a blood test, if you exclude my terminal autism and schizo tendencies I have very good genetics that were more or less wasted due to my abnormal brain) despite starting relatively recently due to my schizo past and I'm still getting gains. I hit the gym 5 days a week and give it everything, it's the only thing that gives me joy.
Honestly? Most days I don't know. I only really keep going because I want to see what happens, if I can ultimately make it or not. (Spoiler alert: I probably fucking won't)
tonight it was the third time I noticed my friend's GF is tacking pics of me. I feel this bitch is going to be the reason I will lose a friend and I don't have many but the attention I get from women is like a drug
I must play my part as the bridge between man and ubermensch. I'm going to make my character, and by extension my life, as great as it can possibly be.
You only get one, might as well make it great.
I am blessed with intellect and health and financial means and I will not let it go to waste.
I am rich, my parents are rich, and even if everything starts to crash and burn right fucking now, I have 2 houses and lot of money saved, and will inherit millions, and have good health.
there is nothing that can stop me from living a fantastic life, full of memories with loved ones, giving back to my community by being a good and hardworking person, and becoming the best version of myself
I will die, peacefully, in my own bed, surrounded by loved ones, each wondering what I will leave them with some shameful yet well deserved excitement, but still sad I'm nevertheless passing
IM FUCKIN YOUR MOM RITE NOW AND SHE SAYS HER KEKLORD SON IS OUT OF THE WILL BRO WE'RE BOTH BROWSING FIT TOGETHER AND SHES LAUGHING WITH MY NUTS IN HER MOUTH
>Be me >spoiled cunt >get assburgers diagnosed at 18 >Mom gives up on me at 24 >"DONT YOU WANT TO CONTRIBUTE TO THIS HOUSE ANON?! ALL YOU DO IS SLEEP" >she has never worked a day in her life and literally does the exact same >because spergburger she just puts up with it. >at 27 random bout of motivation to get a job after almost a decade of being unemployed >min wage literally is 32k a year before taxes (26~ after) >save enough to move out >am now 30 >stable wageslave,braindead low effort job, 1k a month in savings cause I don't buy unnecessary shit or go out >spend all my weekends in Adderall fueled jerkoff sessions >life is good
It's like a ritual at this point. I feel extremely productive after a workout and actually go and get shit done. The days I don't work out feel long and there's this creeping dread in the back of my mind. Those days I waste playing Diablo and Elder Scrolls Online without doing anything productive
Why do you have the trip? This isn’t Reddit my friend. Considering the nature of this thread I won’t come down on you too hard (even though I should and you deserve it) but you really shouldn’t be doing that shit come on. Also post boobs or ass gay.
I’m have no reason to anymore. I’m 31 with zero to show for my life outside of lifting. Socially, financially, career, hobbies. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I allowed this to happen to me through my 20s and now it’s too late. It’s over. It doesn’t matter. There’s no point anymore. It’s irredeemable being this age this far in life with zero accomplishments.
I am going to begin researching suicide methods. Right now I am very scared at the thought of having to do it myself and I fear I will never get the courage to and will just continue living in this abject misery. But I have to eventually get the courage. I cannot take this anymore.
Brother, you're only 31. If you stay healthy, with modern tech you'll probably live to 100+. Go take up a trade or learn a skill over the internet; there's no reason to give up.
1. God created Truth
2. Truth is the most important thing; above all else
3. I must kill the inferior self (repent)
4. I must defeat the evil in this world
Because I know for a fact I have so much more to offer the world. Autism and addiction got in the way. But it doesn't have to be like this. A single man can change the world.
1. we all die anyways and B) nobody knows what happens afterwards (except the people that had NDE or were dead and came back and reported of things like Heaven and Hell)
This picture and classical music.
I have already acknowledged the fact that I will never know happiness in this life, it is simply impossible due to the limited nature of the human experience. Everything is a cope, every single thing you do, achieve, say, think, act, it's all a cope to deal with the shortcomings of having been born human. You yearn to get back to Paradise and so you cope hard.
I know life is flawed, I don't focus on it. I focus on salvation
True happiness is letting go of all that is actual social experience, for society is fuelled by negativity/sin. Virtue is the only way to achive true happiness but living im virtue among sinners is, almost, impossible.
I was one of the few lucky to be born into dysfunctional family and I've learnt, that all that is human is a mere act humans do to make themselves look superior.
Society cannot bring happiness nor anything close to. It merely makes us depend on it, like junkies are drugs/alcohol/cigs dependant.
I walk my path and see mostly people led by addictions and desire to be accepted, they do not seek happiness nor peace, just social acceptance.
I found a way to achive happiness and peace of mind, so desired by many, me included. The road is rough and being constantly made smaller by society.
The path I walk is the path of individual spiritualism. The only one I can trust.
God was told to me by humans.
Devil was told to me by humans.
So was Buddha, dharma etc etc.
All spoken by the very selfish sinners we can't trust.
Trust yourselves, anons. Check everything yourself. You will fail. More times than not. There is a lot of wrong ways to do something but only one way to do something right.
Good luck anons. May our paths cross again.
I don't really know at this point, I've had a miserable life the day I was born, never had a father figure, family and parents only made my depression worse. >manlet >poor >3rd worlder >average face >virgin
I guess the reason I don't kill myself is because I don't want to cause more problems for my mom personally but she also had some guilt in me growing up as an absolute failure, I only lift for myself and I'm extremely selfish because years of rejection and being a NEET really killed all emotions I had for people.
I'm 25 now and just started to try fixing things now, not sure how much longer I can keep going for. The only "happiness" I had was playing WoW with my NA/EU friends throughout the years.
Wish I could give better advice but for a problem that broad all I can say is become stronger and educated yourself, you'll feel more in capable even though you think it shouldn't directly translate. I might not be explaining it well but all things get better when you become more capable even if only in a few areas
This is the exact problem I have. I have a life more pathetic than you can imagine and I desperately want to die and kill myself, but the severe anxiety I have (that has been a major part in why my life has ended up like this) also carries over to death and suicide. I am terrified of the thought of having to kill myself.
I am not a genetic failure. I reproduced and have responsibilities outside of pulling my own penis to cartoons or gnomish rape videos. Having a family doesn't fix you, but it forces you to grow up and think of others.
My kids will look after when I'm old, and parts of my genes will still exist in 4 billion years, somewhere in the galaxy.
because im a sick cunt
amen brother, chad here. Chads neva quit
Get well soon
This post smells like a disgusting fatty made it. Keep going grease ball or forever remain a huge lard of fat no woman will ever love
why are they even on here? I'm honestly curious
It's easy to move to this board from the rest of this shit website and deep down they know they can fix themselves and want to confirm whatever biases they have, whether that's that they really can fix themselves or that [insert lard cope here].
Did you know fit guys have shit personalities, or don't get any pussy anyway, or that it's all just genetics? That sort of bullshit.
Not that anon, but is that really all there is to this? Ego stroking and aspiration for a woman? Don't get me wrong I'm not some nihilist doomer who doesn't think we shouldn't embrace life or the struggle (happy sisyphus), but damn out of the infinite possibilities in the universe is this all we as humans got going for us? I'm not looking a gift horse in the mouth... But just makes you wonder
You were never meant for more than fucking, eating and killing. Your unhappiness is a result of Industrial sickness
Yes. Leave the city. Get off the internet. Nature brings happiness because that’s where we’re meant to be. Until we can alter our emotions on a whim, humans do not belong in massive cities where you sit in a box and go to work. You need natural connection
I'm racist
dont want to make parent cry
tate told me to keep going
its ok zoom zoom. you might drop andrew taint when you reach 18
You have to be 13+ to be here
What other choice do I have?
Either kys right now or keep going, moron.
havent been in 2 years
i never give up
because if i dont then the dark thoughts come back
yeah this. sounds like reddit but i get all glum and shitty if i skip more than a couple days.
I attempted suicide once but the bullet had a light primer strike. I knew then that quantum immortality was real and I was doomed to being the oldest person in the world. I plan on shooting myself if I don’t win the powerball when it reaches $1b next time to prove this and will live my life in luxury
>I plan on shooting myself if I don’t win the powerball
please be real please be real please be real
You bought some shitty ammo friend how about you chalk it up to that
>get saved by sheer cosmic coincidence
>decide to have a nice day again anyways
please reconsider
My greatest fear is becoming immortal. If I do not make it I will live this nightmare.
Do not try to have a nice day again, suffer instead.
Same should have died from OD at 14 but puked and was magically fine. I took such a large dose that it should have nuked my liver. I feel bad for the version of my mom that lost her son, but she should have made better decisions in her and my life.
Life is a joke anyway and I have to remind myself to not take it seriously
>powerball comes
>don't get jackpot, only win 10s of millions
>have to have a nice day anyway
interdasting
report back when you win maybe I'll be in that version
well if quantum immportality is real you're lucky you live in a timeline where the gun misfired instead of a timeline where you shot but survived
>quantum immortality is real
>merely win the runner up prize of several million dollars
>shoot self
>survive but with severe mental impairment and inability to control one's own body
>family decides not to cut life support
>live to old age
>quantum immortality is real so evade all fatal disease
>live for hundreds of years as a retarded crippled vegetable
Because giving up means I become a weaker man. Becoming a weaker man (physically, mentally, spiritually, all of which are very exercise linked) makes me less capable of performing in life to take care of those I love and owe. Anyone who comes between my obligations and the people I care for is my enemy. Logically they're then an enemy of my gains. If I stop making my gains, the enemy wins, and if you let that happen, you have completely and utterly failed your mission in life. Don't let anyone come between you and your mission. Don't let anyone come between you and your gains. I don't care who you are or where you're at. Take my hand and let's get to work.
For e-bois, and for the possibility of someday witnessing total moron death with my own eyes.
great post
Because I'm going to die and even if I lose all hope there's no point just sitting back and letting it happen without making something of myself
Who's gonna carry the boat?
Keep grinding king
I am 27 and my body is deteriorating
I started lifting 1.5 years ago and finally started seeing progress when everything started to hurt
My shoulder, my shins, my hip flexors
I can hardly do anything but ride the stationary bike or use light resistance bands
Idk man
But you only have one life, and it will end eventually no matter what so you might as well try to make the best of it
So I can root hookers in Thailand when I am 80
Because God has not yet allowed me to die so therefore I MUST keep going and I MUST keep being the very best I can be.
OK, you win
So I can keep fucking blonde 18 ups
t. 30 yo
how do you meet them
I can tell from the back-side of her face that she is at best a 5.
post more
I understand that I am disliked by more than I am liked, and a part of what keeps me going is my living in spite of their dislike. The other aspect is faith in myself and my abilities to provide a worthwhile future for myself and loved ones. I understand that present day is hard and I often 'fall', but picking myself back up again is the only right option
based
im not him, but im also 30 and for me, tinder is the answer. i simply dont believe these girls fuck guys their own age.
I like going to the gym with my gf. She really got into being more muscular and a high protein diet without all the meme shit (she trains the excact same programm as i do). She also sends me the videos of her dance group and how she mogs all the other girls. And she likes Grizzley
Tldr. It's fun cause i'm there with a friend
What else am I supposed to do?
If I die the world explodes
In my darkest times it was because me suffering is preferable to my little sister losing her big brother.
Now it is because I got better.
I don't know any different
Which version should i read? KJ?
KJV is more a word for word translation while NKJV is a more a thought for thought translation. Personally I like KJV more
>while NKJV is a more a thought for thought translation
explain more pls
I found it every difficult to understand because it's very "poetic" I guess would be the best world. I read a New American Bible with annotations and for verses that are very inspiring or confusing I cross check on Bible Hub
dunno
to spite the people that dont believe in me
God wants me to
There is some great stuff in life that I want to keep experiencing. Great art, good food, time spent with friends & family, beautiful weather, the sense of progress and accomplishment, etc. I could go on and on because there are many experiences in life that bring me joy.
Of course, life sometimes fucking sucks tremendously. Maybe even most of the time. But I still have hope that there are good days coming. They always come.
What do?I can still make posts,but i get this message when i try to make threads?I didn't do nuffin
They rangebanned my whole country because people were ip stealing and I cant post any pictures now :/
I've been posting off topic for past week and this time Jannies didn't ban me like usual , I need some explanations and a time off from this place , I lack self control , im starting to think Jannies work for the devil.
if i dont then you all cease to exist because you are all figments of my imagination
i suffer for you bros
WHY IS THIS SO MOTIVATING FUCK YOU AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Travelling is too munch fun, drugs are way too nice of an experience, I am also a people pleaser I love to see others being happy because of me.
There are dark times and I thought about ending it all, to just quiet everything out and make it stop.
When I start thinking like that, it’s time for a trip helps me focus again, leaving my comfort zone to appreciate life a little bit more again
Post tits
“It is not worth the bother of killing yourself, since you always have a nice day too late.”
- most optimistic Romanian
I'm not dead..yet
So I can look and feel good
There is no alternative
Keep going?
>trying to be IST
Because I will unironically kill myself be it through alcoholism or shooting myself
>in general
I dont think that mankind would be able to experience depression as I've felt it without being also being able to feel hope. Literally every human desire has a means to fulfill it, for hunger there is food, for lust there is sex, if you are shivering then you can find heat. I don't think that happiness is any different and thats why I don't think that depression is meaningless. I could make the same argument for the longing for "god" and all the adjacent feelings and ideas but It should be self explanatory.
What’s the alternative? Slash my wrists like some pussy assed moron? Rope myself like a coward?
ONLY YOU HOLD THE KEYS TO IMPROVING YOUR FUTURE. UNLOCK THAT SHIT BY BEING A SIKKUNT AND NOT REFLECTING ON THE TEMPTATIONS OF CYNICISM AND PITY FOR YOURSELF. WAGFMI BRAHS.
Duty I suppose. I was offered extra work today when it's actually my friday off and took it, because my apartment has felt lonely and haunted since she moved out yesterday. I couldn't run today either because rain is quite literally pussing down, and it's my rest day from gym. I can't but booze and drink because I'm a high functioning alcoholic, which is why she left, and why my other ex left. If I drink it just lands me in shit. I also think I have low test because aside from my high sex drive, and being fairly jacked I meet the symptoms. My friend runs 200 mg Test E a week and he swears it has helped a ton. Currently just wanna work, lift, and continue taking courses in philosophy at various colleges, online ofc.
I'm 25.
I’ve been down for so long that it looks like up to me
Love life
I enjoy new experiences, new accomplishments
I've been to the Amazon, Galapagos, Tokyo, the bahamas
I can't wait to visit new places and meet new people
I love gardening, my sugar peas are almost in. I put the rest of my transplants into the ground this weekend, can't fucking wait until my first tomatoes come in
Cooking is such a delight. I got my first all-clad and despite my skepticism, it cooks like a dream and I made the best goddamn reduction yesterday
I have so many goddamn hobbies. I'm developing my own film (B&W), I just took 2 rolls of pictures yesterday, lets see how shitty my negatives turn out lol. If it looks good, the local photography shop has an enlarger for cheap I'm going to get. I don't even really care for photography but the process of developing film is strangely fun.
I code for a living, and I've started playing with Unity (Unreal is just...its great looking but I fucking hate blueprints, I'd rather code in C#). I made a very small game level, and now I've sorta layed out a hobby game that I've wanted to do for a while. Given how much shit goes into game making I doubt I'll finish it, but I'm excited to spend months just figuring it out.
I just have too much fun with life man, the question is why would I stop.
Despite being a friendless virgin grocery boy my life is not that bad. Im pretty good looking and lean year-round. Just need satisfaction…
If I don't keep going, how can I ever hope to defeat the demiurge?
Because nothing ever ends, death is an illusion, and existence is all you can experience. So you better make it good, because it ain't gonna end anytime soon.
So what happens at death then chief?
Idk, but probably a thing similar to the thing that happens right before birth.
Spite
Thats simple, because I choose to.
>Verification not required
Despite how life can seem like endless suffering for no reason or end at times, there are still some amazing experiences to be had even if they are infrequent. For 3 years straight, I prayed to a 'god' to not wake me up in the morning if he had any mercy. A few months ago I experienced a moment I considered the happiest moment of my life so far. I'm glad I stuck around to experience that. I think there's going to be more of those moments in the future.
I'm also very curious to see how AI is going to progress over the coming years. A lot of people smarter than you or I, with no apparent financial motivations seem to believe that digital superintelligence that is going to transform society in unfathomable ways, for the better or worse, is round the corner. I'd like to stick around to see that.
I keep going because its all I have left to do
When lost in utter darkness, there's no direction left but forwards.
This.
I’m increasingly confident I can take out the entire keto industry and get the grifters running it sued via class action lawsuits. It would be epic.
have a nice day moxyte, nobody likes you
when i actually try a little my life gets better
i feel like there is a lot of potential still
I have hope that things will be better, and I have lots to be thankful for despite the misery
My health. I think it's very important to have good health so I engage in physical activity and eat well. You only get one life so you should do whatever you can to make sure it is not ruined with poor health.
Idk... I'm lost. Nothing going on in my brain anymore. Apathy has taken me over. Any day I could die and I just don't care anymore. I'm bored, lonely and feel like an NPC. I'm totally drained of life. All of my friends are married now and rarely go out and do anything. I just do everything by myself now. Fishing, walking on the beach, shopping, even at work I barely socialize. I'm not even interested in parties/clubs anymore like I used to be.
I fucked up and there's nobody to blame but myself.
digits from the heart. i feel i am in the same position as yourself, had it all and pissed it away with shitty attitude. slowly building myself back up tho, but some days i feel crushed
Same. I think back to some of my past relationships. I dated some crazy women and I'm glad they're out of my life. But, I dated some good woman too, but I was a shallow asshole. I threw away women that would've made great wives/mothers because they weren't hot enough. I was shallow and it cost me. But, I was young and stupid.
It's crazy to think how different my life could've changed at different points. I was going to go to college for finance, but never did because it was too expensive. Now I work in a factory doing manual labor and just do finance on the side. I had a woman that genuinely liked me (she would even want to pay for our dates instead of me). I fucked up.
same anon you replied to here. on the good days i tell myself it's never too late to fix the shit that is in your control. as for past relationships, generally there is nothing left there, but the heart wants what it can't have and objectively the rose tinted glasses of present-misery might make you miss things that were never that great.
I feel the same. Just dead inside. Nothing really brings me joy anymore.
I'd rather deal with the pain of failure than the pain of quitting
Because I need to. I only find consolation in pushing myself. I don't know any other way to cope with everything I got going on.
Family
spite
because i enjoy anime and steroids
BECAUSE I'M FUCKING INSANE
its fun sometimes and i need a challenge
I dont know im 40 but like to intimate with teenage whore. And i think the last one might give me gonorea again for the third this time. I just hope my antibody can defeat the bacteria becuase it hurt so much when pissing if they win bros. Pray for me bros
"Gonorrhea can be cured with the right treatment. CDC recommends a single dose of 500 mg of intramuscular ceftriaxone. Alternative regimens are available when ceftriaxone cannot be used to treat urogenital or rectal gonorrhea."
Ask your doc for some. Sheesh, this is the reason I won't do prostitutes.
The mission of course!
For some that's god. For some that's becoming an athlete, scientist, or leader. For some it's because fighting on gives them purpose. People create an endpoint, it can be intangible or completely physical. What gave me the greatest meaning was unironically doing a 4 month thru hike through a portion of the Appalachia in between my jobs. When you're fighting tooth and nail to get to that destination, there's no hesitation and overthinking or dread, unironically only indomitable will, even if that trail is nothing compared to some others. Make your mission and focus your energy on it with optimism.
To do a little trolling.
TROLL ALL DOOMERS
TROLL THE MACHINE GOD
TROLL THOSE WHO MAKE US SUFFER FOR THEIR PLEASURE
TROLL THEM TROLL THEM TROLL THEM TROLL THEM TROLL THEM TROLL THEM TROLL THEM
These days, I don't really know. I was recently told that "I just need to meet the right people" but if I haven't met any of the "right people" in the last 26 years, then the common denominator is me and I need to keep changing.
I keep living for family. That's about it. When my parents die, I'll cut communication to my siblings, divide my wealth up between them and then off myself quietly. I don't want to deal with the $20k suicide prevention wellness check.
Why would i not?
Because i said i wouldn't kill myself. I'm not going to allow male to live a shitty life with a deteriorating body. If I'm going to live life by god ill give it my best
I'd kill myself, but I'm afraid of the non-0% possibility of burning in hell for eternity. So I'll just stew in misery for 40 to 50 more years.
Because I'm a 45 year old turbo-autismo, ex-schizo, kissless, hugless, handholdless, asocial, virgin. I could or should have stopped decades ago, but I didn't, so I keep on going out of spite and regret.
And, yes, I lift and I'm in pretty good shape for my age (never had any medical exam, not even a blood test, if you exclude my terminal autism and schizo tendencies I have very good genetics that were more or less wasted due to my abnormal brain) despite starting relatively recently due to my schizo past and I'm still getting gains. I hit the gym 5 days a week and give it everything, it's the only thing that gives me joy.
dont have anything better to do, going through the motions but keeping my self at 15% and numbers still go up despite halfassing 70% of my lifts.
to make the garden gnomes seethe
My ancestors for whatever reason, kept going, who I am to deny the wisdom or ignorance of generations of my own kind?
I would honestly rather die than giving up
Honestly? Most days I don't know. I only really keep going because I want to see what happens, if I can ultimately make it or not. (Spoiler alert: I probably fucking won't)
Because if I stop then the people who hate me win
>verification not required
tonight it was the third time I noticed my friend's GF is tacking pics of me. I feel this bitch is going to be the reason I will lose a friend and I don't have many but the attention I get from women is like a drug
For the spoils of victory
Because of my UNENDING RAGE
sunk cost
I've worked out so much in my life that it'd be a shame to let it go to waste at this point
if i had a gun, id end it right now
I must play my part as the bridge between man and ubermensch. I'm going to make my character, and by extension my life, as great as it can possibly be.
You only get one, might as well make it great.
Because I’m not ready to kill myself
i've still got shit to do
>Why do you keep going
I must.
I am blessed with intellect and health and financial means and I will not let it go to waste.
I am rich, my parents are rich, and even if everything starts to crash and burn right fucking now, I have 2 houses and lot of money saved, and will inherit millions, and have good health.
there is nothing that can stop me from living a fantastic life, full of memories with loved ones, giving back to my community by being a good and hardworking person, and becoming the best version of myself
I will die, peacefully, in my own bed, surrounded by loved ones, each wondering what I will leave them with some shameful yet well deserved excitement, but still sad I'm nevertheless passing
IM FUCKIN YOUR MOM RITE NOW AND SHE SAYS HER KEKLORD SON IS OUT OF THE WILL BRO WE'RE BOTH BROWSING FIT TOGETHER AND SHES LAUGHING WITH MY NUTS IN HER MOUTH
Big if true
BLOODY BASTERD SIR DO NOT REDEEM NOW
Because persistence is key.
>Be me
>spoiled cunt
>get assburgers diagnosed at 18
>Mom gives up on me at 24
>"DONT YOU WANT TO CONTRIBUTE TO THIS HOUSE ANON?! ALL YOU DO IS SLEEP"
>she has never worked a day in her life and literally does the exact same
>because spergburger she just puts up with it.
>at 27 random bout of motivation to get a job after almost a decade of being unemployed
>min wage literally is 32k a year before taxes (26~ after)
>save enough to move out
>am now 30
>stable wageslave,braindead low effort job, 1k a month in savings cause I don't buy unnecessary shit or go out
>spend all my weekends in Adderall fueled jerkoff sessions
>life is good
>life is good
>life
Either massive cope or based as fuck.
>I don't buy unnecessary shit
>Adderall
>weekend long jerkoff sessions are unnecessary
sounds like limp dick cope, bro
Im kebabgirl pilled , so I don't
honestly I don't know. Better not think about it
It's like a ritual at this point. I feel extremely productive after a workout and actually go and get shit done. The days I don't work out feel long and there's this creeping dread in the back of my mind. Those days I waste playing Diablo and Elder Scrolls Online without doing anything productive
1. I want to bang the hottest bitchen and have them worship my cock and call me daddy
2. A family.
If it was not for these two, i would be fine being a NEET.
Hope that it'll all be for sometime
Take your trip off and next time make sure your sentence is coherent gay. Post boobs if woman or post ass if male and don’t fuck up again.
*something
Kys anon
Why do you have the trip? This isn’t Reddit my friend. Considering the nature of this thread I won’t come down on you too hard (even though I should and you deserve it) but you really shouldn’t be doing that shit come on. Also post boobs or ass gay.
VNR
Why do you?
Might as well succeed while we’re alive.
Mom would be sad
What else am I gonna do? Give up?
I’m have no reason to anymore. I’m 31 with zero to show for my life outside of lifting. Socially, financially, career, hobbies. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I allowed this to happen to me through my 20s and now it’s too late. It’s over. It doesn’t matter. There’s no point anymore. It’s irredeemable being this age this far in life with zero accomplishments.
I am going to begin researching suicide methods. Right now I am very scared at the thought of having to do it myself and I fear I will never get the courage to and will just continue living in this abject misery. But I have to eventually get the courage. I cannot take this anymore.
Never give up. You may as well have a nice day if you quit, because if you quit youll never even have the slightest of chance at victory.
Brother, you're only 31. If you stay healthy, with modern tech you'll probably live to 100+. Go take up a trade or learn a skill over the internet; there's no reason to give up.
1. God created Truth
2. Truth is the most important thing; above all else
3. I must kill the inferior self (repent)
4. I must defeat the evil in this world
God is Satan in disguise. He controls every side.
i lift for the lord and even He was jacked
For my wife
For my wife
Because I know for a fact I have so much more to offer the world. Autism and addiction got in the way. But it doesn't have to be like this. A single man can change the world.
World domination.
mankind hatred fuels me everyday.
I will earn my death.. will not give up and leave my family, cat and friends sad and sorrowful
because it gives me confidence
Why wouldn't I keep going?
Because I have a lot to live for. 🙂
Because it's fun seeing abs when I look in the mirror
I survived and I still have a chance
1. we all die anyways and B) nobody knows what happens afterwards (except the people that had NDE or were dead and came back and reported of things like Heaven and Hell)
The only joy I feel is when I PR.
This picture and classical music.
I have already acknowledged the fact that I will never know happiness in this life, it is simply impossible due to the limited nature of the human experience. Everything is a cope, every single thing you do, achieve, say, think, act, it's all a cope to deal with the shortcomings of having been born human. You yearn to get back to Paradise and so you cope hard.
I know life is flawed, I don't focus on it. I focus on salvation
True happiness is letting go of all that is actual social experience, for society is fuelled by negativity/sin. Virtue is the only way to achive true happiness but living im virtue among sinners is, almost, impossible.
I was one of the few lucky to be born into dysfunctional family and I've learnt, that all that is human is a mere act humans do to make themselves look superior.
Society cannot bring happiness nor anything close to. It merely makes us depend on it, like junkies are drugs/alcohol/cigs dependant.
I walk my path and see mostly people led by addictions and desire to be accepted, they do not seek happiness nor peace, just social acceptance.
I found a way to achive happiness and peace of mind, so desired by many, me included. The road is rough and being constantly made smaller by society.
The path I walk is the path of individual spiritualism. The only one I can trust.
God was told to me by humans.
Devil was told to me by humans.
So was Buddha, dharma etc etc.
All spoken by the very selfish sinners we can't trust.
Trust yourselves, anons. Check everything yourself. You will fail. More times than not. There is a lot of wrong ways to do something but only one way to do something right.
Good luck anons. May our paths cross again.
For the 6.5/10 girl i crazy about.
mood
Yeah, I fall really hard.
Im not fat fuck,177cm 79kg, but desk job make me an ugly skinnyfat.
Brother I'm ten kilos lighter at the same height and I still feel like I need another 10 kilos for my cut. I think you might just be fat.
Bro i might use wrong word but yeah my fat fuck = obese.
Fair enough. Hope your weightloss goes well fren.
I don't really know at this point, I've had a miserable life the day I was born, never had a father figure, family and parents only made my depression worse.
>manlet
>poor
>3rd worlder
>average face
>virgin
I guess the reason I don't kill myself is because I don't want to cause more problems for my mom personally but she also had some guilt in me growing up as an absolute failure, I only lift for myself and I'm extremely selfish because years of rejection and being a NEET really killed all emotions I had for people.
I'm 25 now and just started to try fixing things now, not sure how much longer I can keep going for. The only "happiness" I had was playing WoW with my NA/EU friends throughout the years.
I can't anymore I'm planning on ending my shit tonight, if I could stop being afraid of death. Fear controls me and I'm fucking tired of it
What are you afraid of besides death? What's bothering you?
I’m afraid of literally everything.
Wish I could give better advice but for a problem that broad all I can say is become stronger and educated yourself, you'll feel more in capable even though you think it shouldn't directly translate. I might not be explaining it well but all things get better when you become more capable even if only in a few areas
This is the exact problem I have. I have a life more pathetic than you can imagine and I desperately want to die and kill myself, but the severe anxiety I have (that has been a major part in why my life has ended up like this) also carries over to death and suicide. I am terrified of the thought of having to kill myself.
I am not a genetic failure. I reproduced and have responsibilities outside of pulling my own penis to cartoons or gnomish rape videos. Having a family doesn't fix you, but it forces you to grow up and think of others.
My kids will look after when I'm old, and parts of my genes will still exist in 4 billion years, somewhere in the galaxy.
Because I choose to