Hell ya. Its been good so far. Im not any more motivated, but my ability and interest to get shit done is all front losded to the beginning of my day, which I appreciate. Plus I wake up at the same time, which Ive never done in my life. Its like forced me into being normal
Hell ya. Its been good so far. Im not any more motivated, but my ability and interest to get shit done is all front losded to the beginning of my day, which I appreciate. Plus I wake up at the same time, which Ive never done in my life. Its like forced me into being normal
I always feel good and only ocassionally play video games from that list, I only really feel bad when i listen to romantic music and remember the love of my life and how i am don't know where i am going anymore and nothing makes sense without her.
Honestly? Listen to more classical music. I know it seems trite and/or pretentious, but just do it and see how it makes you feel. I recently became obsessed with tracking down the song Dies Irae (tracking down in the sense I've heard it my entire life but had no idea what it was called or who composed it). I listened to it a couple of times, and then just let shuffle and the algorithm do all the work, since then it's basically all I've been listening to and I just feel good all the time.
I don't know what it is. I don't think I'm better than anyone else for suddenly being able to appreciate classical music, I think having that attitude might actually detract from the experience. If I had to guess I'd say it's either because it's so ubiquitous in our culture that we tend to tune it out, so listening to it intentionally creates this perfect combination of subconscious familiarity and conscious novelty. Either that or music was just better before it was a commodity. I dunno. I still like contemporary music, but I'm telling you this classical shit works.
>out there busy
very true. thats what i should be doing.
i overthink shit a lot. i dont abuse this drug at all but i cant stop thinking about how weird it is or society or psychs, idk. i didnt even know what "focus" was supposed to be but really what it makes me feel is calm and collected, and that helps me "focus" my abilities. i keep forgetting that i got on this to help me move out and do something with my life. like i said in op, ill just forget to eat and end up getting depressed and dumb and cant help myself for days. i was doing that before the addys but it compounds the problem.
i only take half what im perscribed cause i dont want to be dependent but i really wonder if itll be better for me to just shut the frick up and do the thing, so to speak
This is the great thing about medication, all those productivity and self-help advices/systems/tools/etc. now actually have a chance to work. You need to learn about using things like calendars, journaling, planning, etc.
>now actually have a chance to work
exactly. its crazy to me. i dont know what i was doing wrong before
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I use Ritalin, Adderall isn't available in my country for some reason to anyone whos had both how would you compare them
i thought i would get ritilan because i have tourettes and methylphenidate is apparently a better choice, but i hear people get too blunted on it. adderall makes me feel like im more present in the world but also slightly tired/chill both mentally and physically. i dont feel like fricking with everything i see or just shaking my body
addy has a more passive effect in my experience
i definitely feel numb or like a zombie on ritalin sometimes i havent taken addy enough to know if it does that
i never used it legally or illegally because I feel like I would develop an addiction, and feel like I need drugs to do anything, esp do work. I already abuse weed.
I met some friend playing basketball who's told me he abused adderall and other drugs and would stay up, and developed psychosis and can't really remember much from that time.
stims arent really addictive
or maybe i just dont like stims
but i got laced with meth while trying to take black market adderall in high school to study and still hated it and once i passed the test i got it for didnt ever want to do it again and meth is addictive supposedly
or maybe its very different person to person i dont know
>stims arent really addictive
that's not really true. In fact, that's even less true than saying 'weed isn't addictive' (ppl who say this are morons)
IF stims make you feel good, and they are accessible, they are habit forming and become addictive. >meth
Its good you didn't get addicted, it actually takes effort and many bad decisions to become addicted to something. Some people say theyve done heroin several times and never liked it, chemistry and brains are different. Consider yourself lucky. I thank God he's kept that stuff away from me, same w coke and heroin.
On meth, people may feel, better than normal, and they think that can schedule and use responsibly, its cheap too. Or they will feel its amazing and just go off the rails. But so so many people will tell you meth will take your soul and turn you into a husk. What goes up must come down, and long term use is extremely risky. Frankly, weed has already done enough damage, so I know what they're talking about.
when im on adderall, im completely normal, but at the end of the day i am dead pan staring at the wall. i think some of it is just nutrition
>but at the end of the day i am dead pan staring at the wall
By practicing 0 self control, and abusing weed and alcohol consistently, this is how I feel often times during the day (im unemployed).
I'll just stare off into space, thinking, what am i supposed to do now. I'll get depressed and just lie in bed staring at a wall letting anxious thoughts run free. My brain is slow and screwed up and my thoughts are sticky and congested. Just say no to drugs kids.
Okay, im off to go to the bar with a high concentrated weed vape in pocket.
>weed >high concentrated weed vape
FRICK. i gotta quit smoking
and distillate carts are fricking horrible dangerous things. im actually going to throw that shit away
ive just been realizing that weed is definitely an escape for me at this point. im still at home and i smoke in the middle of the day to no benefit to me. those carts are terrible cause they make me dumb as frick when really i just want to feel less stressed
>use your highs productively
i agree with this and also have realized that comfort > worry. dont waste time worrying if its just gonna stress me out, its never a net positive.
>feel like I need drugs to do anything, esp do work
That's a myth. I take Adderall for ADHD and if anything I actually feel more capable than ever before to do work even when I run out of it. The medication helps you build up systems, good working habits and techniques, and even just sheer confidence that still work even when you are not medicated. You still have ADHD even when you are on Adderall or any medication, it doesn't magically go away, but your brain finally has the bandwidth to compensate for it if you apply yourself properly, meaning the medicated you has the ability to make life easier for unmedicated you
>I actually feel more capable than ever before to do work even when I run out of it.
that's very very good for you. I don't trust myself, and i'd rather do all that natty... that statement may be cope, I'm honestly not against drugs, just very cautious and respectful of the dangers.
>helps you build up systems, good working habits and techniques >that still works even when you are not medicated
were you writing earlier in the thread? this is all very accurate to what i expirience. not just confidence, but having the new perspective of what a functional me looks like. the momentum of improving not just your physical realm but your mental realm, the decisions you make in the day and how you choose to react, compounds to a more positive place than before taking a drug.
to be honest ive been the most coping bitter weirdo about "adhd" and i still really dont think its a neurological "brain chemistry" thing, but i do think its a common pattern of behaviors that easily and rapidly degrades you, especially as you get older and lose old structures like school and family.
>I actually feel more capable than ever before to do work even when I run out of it.
that's very very good for you. I don't trust myself, and i'd rather do all that natty... that statement may be cope, I'm honestly not against drugs, just very cautious and respectful of the dangers.
you dont really feel anything that crazy or anything i found addicting. its vaguely like the feeling of when youre really into an activity or if youve ever fasted for a long time.
>were you writing earlier in the thread?
Yeah, this is me
This is the great thing about medication, all those productivity and self-help advices/systems/tools/etc. now actually have a chance to work. You need to learn about using things like calendars, journaling, planning, etc.
This is because people with ADHD have poor executive function, but their ability to build habits is still intact. If you can build good habits while on medication there's a good chance they'll stick while you're not on them. But it's not true for everybody, some people have it really bad and can't do much without medication no matter what
I used OCD to cure my ADHD. Everything has to be performed in a ridiculously meticulous and consistent way which means that my skill and execution of everything I do is on an insane level even though if just left to my own devices without this structure I flounder completely and can't do anything but get high and jack off.
I've tried every every prescription phenidate/amphetamine and can't escape this symptom, nor the vasoconstriction causing cold hands and feet. It sucks because I actually need them for severe ADHD. I fricking hate stims and the way they effect me, and I always feel tempted to eat some of my valium or xanax when coming down, but it's a waste.
We are in the game adderall bros. Time to go clean, study, and be normal and successful
Hell ya. Its been good so far. Im not any more motivated, but my ability and interest to get shit done is all front losded to the beginning of my day, which I appreciate. Plus I wake up at the same time, which Ive never done in my life. Its like forced me into being normal
sup addy bros, I love winning non-stop
I always feel good and only ocassionally play video games from that list, I only really feel bad when i listen to romantic music and remember the love of my life and how i am don't know where i am going anymore and nothing makes sense without her.
Honestly? Listen to more classical music. I know it seems trite and/or pretentious, but just do it and see how it makes you feel. I recently became obsessed with tracking down the song Dies Irae (tracking down in the sense I've heard it my entire life but had no idea what it was called or who composed it). I listened to it a couple of times, and then just let shuffle and the algorithm do all the work, since then it's basically all I've been listening to and I just feel good all the time.
I don't know what it is. I don't think I'm better than anyone else for suddenly being able to appreciate classical music, I think having that attitude might actually detract from the experience. If I had to guess I'd say it's either because it's so ubiquitous in our culture that we tend to tune it out, so listening to it intentionally creates this perfect combination of subconscious familiarity and conscious novelty. Either that or music was just better before it was a commodity. I dunno. I still like contemporary music, but I'm telling you this classical shit works.
talk about my favourite drug plz.
i want to give everyone amphetamines just to see how they react
Not much to talk about and not too many people around to do it, they're mostly out there busy winning at life.
>out there busy
very true. thats what i should be doing.
i overthink shit a lot. i dont abuse this drug at all but i cant stop thinking about how weird it is or society or psychs, idk. i didnt even know what "focus" was supposed to be but really what it makes me feel is calm and collected, and that helps me "focus" my abilities. i keep forgetting that i got on this to help me move out and do something with my life. like i said in op, ill just forget to eat and end up getting depressed and dumb and cant help myself for days. i was doing that before the addys but it compounds the problem.
i only take half what im perscribed cause i dont want to be dependent but i really wonder if itll be better for me to just shut the frick up and do the thing, so to speak
This is the great thing about medication, all those productivity and self-help advices/systems/tools/etc. now actually have a chance to work. You need to learn about using things like calendars, journaling, planning, etc.
>now actually have a chance to work
exactly. its crazy to me. i dont know what i was doing wrong before
i thought i would get ritilan because i have tourettes and methylphenidate is apparently a better choice, but i hear people get too blunted on it. adderall makes me feel like im more present in the world but also slightly tired/chill both mentally and physically. i dont feel like fricking with everything i see or just shaking my body
stims are cringe if youre too pussy to enjoy benzos at least enjoy dissos or something
i always pass out on downers. even an ibuprofen will make me drowsy af
I use Ritalin, Adderall isn't available in my country for some reason to anyone whos had both how would you compare them
addy has a more passive effect in my experience
i definitely feel numb or like a zombie on ritalin sometimes i havent taken addy enough to know if it does that
when im on adderall, im completely normal, but at the end of the day i am dead pan staring at the wall. i think some of it is just nutrition
the stimulant comedown is brutal sometimes
its like a depression multiplier where all i do is lay down and hate myself
adderall is so much better
ritalin made me anxious as hell
its better then nothing but the difference is day and night
Ritalin gave me constant headaches and tinnitus. It was the most hellish experience of my life. Adderall didn't so I guess that's a plus.
Post this shit in your containment thread you moronic junkie
this is the druggie containment board sorry incel
i never used it legally or illegally because I feel like I would develop an addiction, and feel like I need drugs to do anything, esp do work. I already abuse weed.
I met some friend playing basketball who's told me he abused adderall and other drugs and would stay up, and developed psychosis and can't really remember much from that time.
stims arent really addictive
or maybe i just dont like stims
but i got laced with meth while trying to take black market adderall in high school to study and still hated it and once i passed the test i got it for didnt ever want to do it again and meth is addictive supposedly
or maybe its very different person to person i dont know
>stims arent really addictive
that's not really true. In fact, that's even less true than saying 'weed isn't addictive' (ppl who say this are morons)
IF stims make you feel good, and they are accessible, they are habit forming and become addictive.
>meth
Its good you didn't get addicted, it actually takes effort and many bad decisions to become addicted to something. Some people say theyve done heroin several times and never liked it, chemistry and brains are different. Consider yourself lucky. I thank God he's kept that stuff away from me, same w coke and heroin.
On meth, people may feel, better than normal, and they think that can schedule and use responsibly, its cheap too. Or they will feel its amazing and just go off the rails. But so so many people will tell you meth will take your soul and turn you into a husk. What goes up must come down, and long term use is extremely risky. Frankly, weed has already done enough damage, so I know what they're talking about.
me
>but at the end of the day i am dead pan staring at the wall
By practicing 0 self control, and abusing weed and alcohol consistently, this is how I feel often times during the day (im unemployed).
I'll just stare off into space, thinking, what am i supposed to do now. I'll get depressed and just lie in bed staring at a wall letting anxious thoughts run free. My brain is slow and screwed up and my thoughts are sticky and congested. Just say no to drugs kids.
Okay, im off to go to the bar with a high concentrated weed vape in pocket.
>weed
>high concentrated weed vape
FRICK. i gotta quit smoking
and distillate carts are fricking horrible dangerous things. im actually going to throw that shit away
Its not that bad a habit if you use your highs productively like with exercise.
My life has greatly improved from this.
ive just been realizing that weed is definitely an escape for me at this point. im still at home and i smoke in the middle of the day to no benefit to me. those carts are terrible cause they make me dumb as frick when really i just want to feel less stressed
>use your highs productively
i agree with this and also have realized that comfort > worry. dont waste time worrying if its just gonna stress me out, its never a net positive.
>feel like I need drugs to do anything, esp do work
That's a myth. I take Adderall for ADHD and if anything I actually feel more capable than ever before to do work even when I run out of it. The medication helps you build up systems, good working habits and techniques, and even just sheer confidence that still work even when you are not medicated. You still have ADHD even when you are on Adderall or any medication, it doesn't magically go away, but your brain finally has the bandwidth to compensate for it if you apply yourself properly, meaning the medicated you has the ability to make life easier for unmedicated you
>I actually feel more capable than ever before to do work even when I run out of it.
that's very very good for you. I don't trust myself, and i'd rather do all that natty... that statement may be cope, I'm honestly not against drugs, just very cautious and respectful of the dangers.
>helps you build up systems, good working habits and techniques
>that still works even when you are not medicated
were you writing earlier in the thread? this is all very accurate to what i expirience. not just confidence, but having the new perspective of what a functional me looks like. the momentum of improving not just your physical realm but your mental realm, the decisions you make in the day and how you choose to react, compounds to a more positive place than before taking a drug.
to be honest ive been the most coping bitter weirdo about "adhd" and i still really dont think its a neurological "brain chemistry" thing, but i do think its a common pattern of behaviors that easily and rapidly degrades you, especially as you get older and lose old structures like school and family.
you dont really feel anything that crazy or anything i found addicting. its vaguely like the feeling of when youre really into an activity or if youve ever fasted for a long time.
>were you writing earlier in the thread?
Yeah, this is me
This is because people with ADHD have poor executive function, but their ability to build habits is still intact. If you can build good habits while on medication there's a good chance they'll stick while you're not on them. But it's not true for everybody, some people have it really bad and can't do much without medication no matter what
I used OCD to cure my ADHD. Everything has to be performed in a ridiculously meticulous and consistent way which means that my skill and execution of everything I do is on an insane level even though if just left to my own devices without this structure I flounder completely and can't do anything but get high and jack off.
I've tried every every prescription phenidate/amphetamine and can't escape this symptom, nor the vasoconstriction causing cold hands and feet. It sucks because I actually need them for severe ADHD. I fricking hate stims and the way they effect me, and I always feel tempted to eat some of my valium or xanax when coming down, but it's a waste.
Try guanfacine, clonidine or an Snri. The cold hands and feet could be Raynauds