i have no job, am addicted to cannabis, addicted to masturbation, have body dysmorphia, social anxiety, no gf, few friends, and i'm pretty sure i'm infertile.
That's not a confession. That's a plea for pity. Your real confession should be that you have poor discipline, but it's obvious you don't focus on that. Maybe you aren't even aware.
I am a narcissist and take control of every situation I find myself in and and deem myself the leader of it internally and will get incredibly confrontational if someone tries to step in and tell me what they want to do. I have no plans to change as I'm very smart but stubborn and have yet to see a problem with my way of living and thinking.
This is a non confession as well. Your real confession should be your lack of humility. I'll bet more than a handful of your acquaintances think you're incompetent, but just obstinate enough to get things done. You won't win friends that way.
I’m so lonely
You're a coward.
I dont actually care about weightlifting all that much anymore. It feels like a hollow pursuit if you're not training for a sport, for work, or for war.
You are at war. Your enemies would love to see you as fat cattle. Rebel.
>You are at war. Your enemies would love to see you as fat cattle. Rebel.
I still work out idiot I just dont like feeling like i have no outlet for the body Ive given myself
I am a narcissist and take control of every situation I find myself in and and deem myself the leader of it internally and will get incredibly confrontational if someone tries to step in and tell me what they want to do. I have no plans to change as I'm very smart but stubborn and have yet to see a problem with my way of living and thinking.
>have yet to see a problem with my way of living
I am similar. It's an advantage to have the will to dominate in business, that mindset will bring you success.
However if you can't turn it off your family life will be shit. I know because my father is the same, very successful business owner, but he wants to win ALL THE TIME. He can't turn it off, which means he's a dick even to his own family.
The older I get the more I notice myself becoming like him, a smart and ruthless c**t who wants to win at all cost.
I dont actually care about weightlifting all that much anymore. It feels like a hollow pursuit if you're not training for a sport, for work, or for war.
I agree. For some reason I just stopped really caring about exercise a year ago when I started law school and finished college (where I was a student athlete). Now it sometimes feels like a pointless waste of time to exercise.
I started lifting because I wanted a girlfriend. Then I realised I didn't want a girlfriend because I want someone to spend time with but because its something that a normal person must do and its another thing that I must "have"
I had lost 100 lbs since last february, and was 215, I'm now 220 and have never had a harder time losing weight. I feel like I went soft and will never be able to reach my weight goals.
>together with gf for half a year >she can be quite emotional sometimes >this makes it so arguments become impossible at time >had an argument yesterday and i was slowly boiling inside >she kept being petty and poking at me knowing i was mad >hasn’t been as affectionate towards me and generally pissy >decide to grab my burner phone >take a hot girl as my pic and craft a message saying how she missed me and how i’ve been >leave my phone on the bed and go to my bathroom >text myself and wait a few minutes before returning >she doesn’t say a thing but i grab my phone and the message is gone >bit later she starts straddling me and it turned into a pornstar bj >this morning exact same thing happened and she has been incredibly loving
i didn’t even know she could access my phone but she managed to delete the convo. yes i am manipulative and bad.
Based manipulator. But I would not wife your girlfriend.
Her mind is weak and dominated by emotions.
She is willing to deceive you (access your phone and delete your messages), is a coward (did not confront you about the other girl).
If you have kids with her there's a risk they inherit her weakness.
Am I the only person here who has become a better person since they started lifting? I used to be a compulsive liar, used to shrug away responsibility towards a sick family member and used to be a unhappy low moral person overall. Ever since I started lifting I have stopped lying even by omission, started taking more responsibility and started being a better person. Family member tell me I have "grown up" (I'm 27). The change was gradual and not sudden.
I have no idea why the change came. I just realised one day "wow I sure have changed haven't I?"
Update: the pizza had bacon, carmelized onions and balsamic on it. It was good. The beer was witbier and then a fruited blonde ale. We also had a small serving of ribs before dinner.
I got below 200 lbs which was my first goal weight and was really excited. I posted on here and felt like I had accomplished something big. That in combination with a health issue and I stopped my diet for a couple months. I've now gone up to 204 lbs. I feel shitty because I'm going to have to work hard again just to get to where I was (like 197). I could have been breaking a new weight instead. Bummer.
>months
A bad month can do much more damage to a diet than 4lbs. Good on you for keeping the backslide small over that period of time. You can get under 200 again no problem.
kek same here, went from 88kg to 80,5kg and had a large pizza, cola, later a double chili cheeseburger and large chocoshake from burger king. next day weigh 82,5kg again
I keep thinking that I can outlift my shitty diet.
I'm /fat/ but I can lift heavy weights, I keep coping by saying that I'm strong but I look like garbage. >why dont you cut moron?
Food is an addiction to me. It's pathetic but it's true.
It happened again... Went outside for a walk, saw couples my age (early 20) and got fueled with rage. I simply can't control it.
Lifting isn't enough anymore, i feel good for one hour after the pump then the misery comes back
I’m 30 with zero life accomplishments and completely despondent. I look at the 30+ fit thread that has 350 replies and how successful everyone on this board is with their top careers, own homes, married, etc. and get even more angry sad and despondent about myself but still can’t use this for any motivation, I just feel like everything is even more hopeless and helpless. I can’t take living anymore
Same. As stupid as it is to give up because it just means misery until I die; I don't picture a better future. I've been spinning my wheels for far too long.
Same. As stupid as it is to give up because it just means misery until I die; I don't picture a better future. I've been spinning my wheels for far too long.
Same lads. I think its too late for me to "make it". The other day my dad said to me "This isn't the life I pictured for you"
I ate 4 Mcdonalds cheeseburgers, 6pc mcnuggets and large fries and iced tea today, I feel super bad about it because I was already getting very toned. I was tempted after watching all the dumb cooking videos online, I wanna kms so bad, but in all honesty I just want to skip leg day
I will eat fried chicken and I will get my face covered in grease. Forgive me but it must be done father. Ive been waiting to eat this shit for a month.
I am convinced that /cbt/ is created by and for depraved homosexuals, as such I lurk there from time to time and trash anybody with tattoos. I also tell people who post before and after pics that their before pics look better.
I am well aware that my behavior is destructive but I have no plans of stopping anytime soon.
You are good enough, but you have to believe it and push through when they pretend to reject you. The fact you give up after one no shows weakness. Show some pride and arrogance.
I quit my trade cuck job on Tuesday. I have no plan for the future. I am unemployed and NEET. I want to die tbqh. My life is a wreck and I hate how unfair things are. If you see me IRL, just please, fricking shoot me. God I hope I have the balls, the strength to slit my fricking wrists soon.
My gf is trad but I would consider her face a 7/10, at certain angles even a 6/10. Sometimes I wonder if I should settle with her. I don't wanna leave her but sometimes I wish she would had a prettier face.
Let quarantine ruin me. Couldn’t gym, got depressed and drunk daily, let my social life dissipate, haven’t gone back since. Probably only haven’t roped myself because I at least get my kicks off watching bad shit happen to people that fricked me over in the past
>anything to confess, anon?
I am morbidly obese and only come here to lurk, troll, and shitpost. I post fake shit about working out all the time. You are all shit heads.
Anonymous, the fact that you came here means that somewhere in your heart, you want to change and you don't want to stay fat and weak. You got this, believe in yourself and start now
i referee water polo and the high school season is starting this week. it actually depresses me to do it though because a lot of the boys (the good ones at least) are always very fit and muscular, and the girls are almost always hot and also wear suits that ride up their asses and have their asscheeks fully hanging out all the time, so it brings me back to when i was in high school and was a complete loser
>Married >wife has big bubble butt literally 10/10 ass, but small breasts (I love big breasts). >The other day I got hit on by an early 20 year old at the gym with huge once-in-a-lifetime breasts >She later looked me up on instagram, then asked me outright if I was down to become gym+frickbuddies
I won't, don't worry. It's fricked but It just feels good to have the opportunity to if I wanted, if you know what I mean. I feel like I'm finally being properly 'mired.
I'm gonna go eat a marzipan cake slice now even though I'm currently on a cut.
I ate too much for dinner, but then 4 hours later I lifted hard for two hours, and while I usually have some sort of snack afterwards I didn't. I probably evened out on calories, but if I'd just not eat so much I could cut better.
I'm drinking ~600ml of my girlfriends piss every day
I hope that the extra intake of female hormones will crank up my body's production of test
It also makes my dick instahard and leak drips of cum instantly, it's one hell of an aphrodisiac
I hate that there are no studies or reliable informations about long time, high volume piss consumption out there so I will just pioneer that shit
my gf wants to get married and have kids, the girl I'm having sex with wants a relationship, and probably marriage and kids too.
Why are women like this?
Decided to shit in the top of the toilet tank at my gym. Black guy went in after me and came out screaming. Had to run ro my car and speed away sitting I'm dollar tree parking lot typing this out.
I have been undergoing severe depression due to a horrific incident at work. I am a first responder and had to perform CPR on a month old infant that didn't survive. I've been eating horribly and stopped my weight loss. I've gained several pounds, haven't worked out and feeling like killing myself everyday. I have no motivation to do anything except work. Can't bring myself to set foot in a gym.
It wasn't your fault and depression is a totally reasonable response to something that was genuinely traumatic.
However, wanting to have a nice day is an internally selfish, and downright cowardly reaction. You did what you could and you're whining about it. If I were hearing that crap in person I would be compelled to give you a beating.
I’ve been on here maybe 30 times, and I’ll stay for maybe 30 minutes, an hour, bang my head at the sticky, get immediately doompilled about myself, leave depressed that I won’t ever change and spend the night in an awful funk until I either go to bed or fap and then go to bed.
It’s the same with /ic/, my mind is just so ready to assume everything I’ve done makes me irredeemable, and the knowledge that that is bullshit just shoves me down further, because I’m so ready to hate myself I hate myself for being aware I’m hating myself
Therapist advice doesn’t stick, and the last one I cussed out and blocked so he sent cops to my house over suicidal ideation. I’m a fricked up fatty who only forgets about it when I’m back imagining and doodling the fun AU ideas for tv series I like
And the worst part is you guys use one of my greentexts to motivate yourself. People always cheer it, no I’m not gonna tell you which one I don’t want to ruin it for people, because when I read it, the words don’t do anything for me. I relate to the mistakes but I don’t improve. I wonder if this is what preachers questioning their faith feel like, watching people enchanted by words that feel hollow to the men saying it. Don’t get it twisted, I don’t associate myself with some man of God thing, I just sort of walked into a good writing idea as I was ranting…
Anyway, wrap it up, constant fat as fat ass, 315, gut and deep cycles of depression escaped only with toku and westaboo cartoons. Never improving, always boohooing, and the big irony is my writing inspires some of YOU.
IST has HORRIFIC crab bucket mentality. All these young doomer zoomers trying to convince each other that they suck and should stay inside all day, it's genuinely poisonous for your soul. Get what you need and get out.
I began my fitness journey in large part for my wife, to get healthy and fit for her to inspire her to do the same. Partly for altruistic reasons (we had our first child a year ago and I want her to grow up knowing what a healthy lifestyle looks like), but my bigger reason was because I want my tomboy wife to be lean and toned because that is what I find most attractive.
My confession is that three months into this journey, I'm beginning to lose hope that she'll actually do it.
Part of my brain wants sex, badly. I dream about it, I fantastize about it, the works. But my body doesn't seem to be on board, I hardly get horny anymore despite genuinely craving sex mentally. Is this a low-test thing? Do I need to get this checked out?
I tapped out of society recently. I stopped going places and rarely spend money on anything. I don't watch or read news, and I actively refuse to engage with troony, gays or whatever other mental health bullshit I'm supposed to tolerate unless it threatens my ez mode job then I go full chameleon.
My average day consists of waking up, logging in work and answering a dozen emails, going to the gym, coming home, a dozen more emails, maybe a meeting and then napping on the couch.
My work place is now offering me a pay rise and I'm thinking about starting a new hobby.
Comparatively my work colleagues are struggling. Some financial others mental health wise, and I just pretend to care and say I'm on the same boat as them. Then log off and play fighting games.
My biggest fricking problem is that I struggle to eat enough calories to actually gain weight when working out, making my recovery super long and feeling like the whole thing is pointless. Why isn't it easier to find calorically dense, healthy food?
>anything to confess, anon?
I sometimes feel bad for fat people
Forgive me
LOL!!
HAHAHA!!!!!!!
DON'T YOU N MEAN """***PEOPLE"""!!!????
LOL LMAO
I would actually murder that kfc poster. Seriously I would strangle his neck until he was deceased. Frick that guy
i have no job, am addicted to cannabis, addicted to masturbation, have body dysmorphia, social anxiety, no gf, few friends, and i'm pretty sure i'm infertile.
That's not a confession. That's a plea for pity. Your real confession should be that you have poor discipline, but it's obvious you don't focus on that. Maybe you aren't even aware.
This is a non confession as well. Your real confession should be your lack of humility. I'll bet more than a handful of your acquaintances think you're incompetent, but just obstinate enough to get things done. You won't win friends that way.
You're a coward.
You are at war. Your enemies would love to see you as fat cattle. Rebel.
You all make me SICK.
I confess i fricked this anon's little sister
>You are at war. Your enemies would love to see you as fat cattle. Rebel.
I still work out idiot I just dont like feeling like i have no outlet for the body Ive given myself
I am more powerful than you
You got frens at least bro I got none
I am a narcissist and take control of every situation I find myself in and and deem myself the leader of it internally and will get incredibly confrontational if someone tries to step in and tell me what they want to do. I have no plans to change as I'm very smart but stubborn and have yet to see a problem with my way of living and thinking.
>have yet to see a problem with my way of living
I am similar. It's an advantage to have the will to dominate in business, that mindset will bring you success.
However if you can't turn it off your family life will be shit. I know because my father is the same, very successful business owner, but he wants to win ALL THE TIME. He can't turn it off, which means he's a dick even to his own family.
The older I get the more I notice myself becoming like him, a smart and ruthless c**t who wants to win at all cost.
>anything to confess, anon?
I used to have breasts
troony or fatfrick?
I don't like the taste of eggs. They make me gag and hard boiled eggs are hard to eat. My hands are sticky after peeling them.
Eat hard boiled eggs w mayo
have a nice day.
Shhh don't tell them, eggs are in short supply already.
I’m so lonely
I am recomping well and I can see it visibly but I am grumpy because Ive stalled on my weight loss for over a week now
I keep mogging the zoomers at my gym... I don't regret it just thought you should know.
I dont actually care about weightlifting all that much anymore. It feels like a hollow pursuit if you're not training for a sport, for work, or for war.
>or for war.
>he doesn't know what's coming
Comfy times are coming to an end in the next decade, you should be able to defend you and yours
I agree. For some reason I just stopped really caring about exercise a year ago when I started law school and finished college (where I was a student athlete). Now it sometimes feels like a pointless waste of time to exercise.
Same here. I played rugby in college, but now I just can't seem to care anymore.
You're still cruising on youth gains.
When you hit 30 it will become painfully relevant.
I should be working on my thesis but I'm not.
I started lifting because I wanted a girlfriend. Then I realised I didn't want a girlfriend because I want someone to spend time with but because its something that a normal person must do and its another thing that I must "have"
I had lost 100 lbs since last february, and was 215, I'm now 220 and have never had a harder time losing weight. I feel like I went soft and will never be able to reach my weight goals.
yeah i did something pretty bad
>together with gf for half a year
>she can be quite emotional sometimes
>this makes it so arguments become impossible at time
>had an argument yesterday and i was slowly boiling inside
>she kept being petty and poking at me knowing i was mad
>hasn’t been as affectionate towards me and generally pissy
>decide to grab my burner phone
>take a hot girl as my pic and craft a message saying how she missed me and how i’ve been
>leave my phone on the bed and go to my bathroom
>text myself and wait a few minutes before returning
>she doesn’t say a thing but i grab my phone and the message is gone
>bit later she starts straddling me and it turned into a pornstar bj
>this morning exact same thing happened and she has been incredibly loving
i didn’t even know she could access my phone but she managed to delete the convo. yes i am manipulative and bad.
That is incredible. Well played. I want to try the same thing. Did you do this on WhatsApp?
yep whatsapp, the profile pic shows in the notification centre. i didn’t know for sure how she would react though, i think it’s a dangerous game.
Based manipulator. But I would not wife your girlfriend.
Her mind is weak and dominated by emotions.
She is willing to deceive you (access your phone and delete your messages), is a coward (did not confront you about the other girl).
If you have kids with her there's a risk they inherit her weakness.
You setting up a face Convo and she snooping into your phone "without" you knowing is some Spy v Spy shit.
You deserve each other for better and worse.
Am I the only person here who has become a better person since they started lifting? I used to be a compulsive liar, used to shrug away responsibility towards a sick family member and used to be a unhappy low moral person overall. Ever since I started lifting I have stopped lying even by omission, started taking more responsibility and started being a better person. Family member tell me I have "grown up" (I'm 27). The change was gradual and not sudden.
I have no idea why the change came. I just realised one day "wow I sure have changed haven't I?"
Sounds like you became more a man who takes responsibility for his actions.
I am going to get pizza and beer tonight. I ate three bowls of chili yesterday.
Update: the pizza had bacon, carmelized onions and balsamic on it. It was good. The beer was witbier and then a fruited blonde ale. We also had a small serving of ribs before dinner.
I got below 200 lbs which was my first goal weight and was really excited. I posted on here and felt like I had accomplished something big. That in combination with a health issue and I stopped my diet for a couple months. I've now gone up to 204 lbs. I feel shitty because I'm going to have to work hard again just to get to where I was (like 197). I could have been breaking a new weight instead. Bummer.
>months
A bad month can do much more damage to a diet than 4lbs. Good on you for keeping the backslide small over that period of time. You can get under 200 again no problem.
kek same here, went from 88kg to 80,5kg and had a large pizza, cola, later a double chili cheeseburger and large chocoshake from burger king. next day weigh 82,5kg again
I keep thinking that I can outlift my shitty diet.
I'm /fat/ but I can lift heavy weights, I keep coping by saying that I'm strong but I look like garbage.
>why dont you cut moron?
Food is an addiction to me. It's pathetic but it's true.
I workout to basically feel like I'm doing something with my life eventhough I know nothing is really gonna come from it
I drove 20 miles blacked out drunk and have no memory of doing so, I could have killed myself or others, I am no longer drinking from that point on
It happened again... Went outside for a walk, saw couples my age (early 20) and got fueled with rage. I simply can't control it.
Lifting isn't enough anymore, i feel good for one hour after the pump then the misery comes back
I ate fast food a couple days ago. Don't worry, God has punished me with food poisoning.
I’m 30 with zero life accomplishments and completely despondent. I look at the 30+ fit thread that has 350 replies and how successful everyone on this board is with their top careers, own homes, married, etc. and get even more angry sad and despondent about myself but still can’t use this for any motivation, I just feel like everything is even more hopeless and helpless. I can’t take living anymore
Same. As stupid as it is to give up because it just means misery until I die; I don't picture a better future. I've been spinning my wheels for far too long.
Same lads. I think its too late for me to "make it". The other day my dad said to me "This isn't the life I pictured for you"
I ate 4 Mcdonalds cheeseburgers, 6pc mcnuggets and large fries and iced tea today, I feel super bad about it because I was already getting very toned. I was tempted after watching all the dumb cooking videos online, I wanna kms so bad, but in all honesty I just want to skip leg day
i have a trash diet so i workout
i workout so I have a trash diet
s 265
b 255
d 405
I will eat fried chicken and I will get my face covered in grease. Forgive me but it must be done father. Ive been waiting to eat this shit for a month.
fried chicken is super healthy except for the breading
I overate and threw it up like I used to. I guess I relapsed into my bulimia lol
I'm addicted to chubby girls shitters.
I keep finding new reasons to not do things I really want and need to do.
Ate a large bag of chips
Now I feel sick
I had Korean fried chicken today
Shit was delicious
Lord forgive me
I am convinced that /cbt/ is created by and for depraved homosexuals, as such I lurk there from time to time and trash anybody with tattoos. I also tell people who post before and after pics that their before pics look better.
I am well aware that my behavior is destructive but I have no plans of stopping anytime soon.
>I am convinced that /cbt/ is created by and for depraved homosexuals
You are projecting your own self hatred
I don't always go to full depth on squats.
I'm probably going to drink tonight. It's been a week I should just keep going but I would like to drink.
I'm not good enough for a woman to like me. I fear I may never be.
You are good enough, but you have to believe it and push through when they pretend to reject you. The fact you give up after one no shows weakness. Show some pride and arrogance.
I don't think theres anything wrong with using the mcdonalds app for $1 large fries or 2/1 for free cheeseburger deals. their food tastes good
I like, cookies and milk
I quit my trade cuck job on Tuesday. I have no plan for the future. I am unemployed and NEET. I want to die tbqh. My life is a wreck and I hate how unfair things are. If you see me IRL, just please, fricking shoot me. God I hope I have the balls, the strength to slit my fricking wrists soon.
My gf is trad but I would consider her face a 7/10, at certain angles even a 6/10. Sometimes I wonder if I should settle with her. I don't wanna leave her but sometimes I wish she would had a prettier face.
I have no motivation to workout or try to diet anymore. I've basically given up. I'm not even sure why.
What do I do?
Can't stop drinking coke and vaping.
Let quarantine ruin me. Couldn’t gym, got depressed and drunk daily, let my social life dissipate, haven’t gone back since. Probably only haven’t roped myself because I at least get my kicks off watching bad shit happen to people that fricked me over in the past
>anything to confess, anon?
I am morbidly obese and only come here to lurk, troll, and shitpost. I post fake shit about working out all the time. You are all shit heads.
Anonymous, the fact that you came here means that somewhere in your heart, you want to change and you don't want to stay fat and weak. You got this, believe in yourself and start now
i referee water polo and the high school season is starting this week. it actually depresses me to do it though because a lot of the boys (the good ones at least) are always very fit and muscular, and the girls are almost always hot and also wear suits that ride up their asses and have their asscheeks fully hanging out all the time, so it brings me back to when i was in high school and was a complete loser
i still think about my ex 24/7 even though she was terrible to me
The dolphins suck
i shouldnt have fricked my twinkish gymbro just because i was horny....
not as of my last failure, the fatty father got em. still going on
>Married
>wife has big bubble butt literally 10/10 ass, but small breasts (I love big breasts).
>The other day I got hit on by an early 20 year old at the gym with huge once-in-a-lifetime breasts
>She later looked me up on instagram, then asked me outright if I was down to become gym+frickbuddies
Oh lord god have mercy, is this a test?
Just do it. You're wife will probably understand. Take pic of breasts for her.
Life has offered you a gift. Be smart about it and everything will be fine
Bros, my morals are currently preventing me from doing it. I'm unironically having real inner turmoil over this shit.
Wtf is the inner turmoil kek? Don't cheat, you know it's wrong. I get you're tempted but you know what the right thing to do is
I won't, don't worry. It's fricked but It just feels good to have the opportunity to if I wanted, if you know what I mean. I feel like I'm finally being properly 'mired.
I'm gonna go eat a marzipan cake slice now even though I'm currently on a cut.
If you're a smart person and you can keep your mouth shut there's no problems.
You'll have a gymfrickbuddy for increased testosterone.
When you will be an old man you will curse yourself for letting such opportunities pass. There's no guarantee they will present themselves again.
Don't do it. You know it's wrong, so don't try to justify it.
>is this a test?
Sounds like you know it is. Don't fail it.
NOOO ANON ZONT
I am happier when I only focus on pleasing myself.
Going to the gym, eating well, getting outdoors and having good sleeps is all I truly care about.
I like my wifes tummy since she gained 5 kilos.
I ate too much for dinner, but then 4 hours later I lifted hard for two hours, and while I usually have some sort of snack afterwards I didn't. I probably evened out on calories, but if I'd just not eat so much I could cut better.
I'm drinking ~600ml of my girlfriends piss every day
I hope that the extra intake of female hormones will crank up my body's production of test
It also makes my dick instahard and leak drips of cum instantly, it's one hell of an aphrodisiac
I hate that there are no studies or reliable informations about long time, high volume piss consumption out there so I will just pioneer that shit
my gf wants to get married and have kids, the girl I'm having sex with wants a relationship, and probably marriage and kids too.
Why are women like this?
Decided to shit in the top of the toilet tank at my gym. Black guy went in after me and came out screaming. Had to run ro my car and speed away sitting I'm dollar tree parking lot typing this out.
I cheated on Squats bc I wanted to reach 3pl8s as quickly as possible
I have been undergoing severe depression due to a horrific incident at work. I am a first responder and had to perform CPR on a month old infant that didn't survive. I've been eating horribly and stopped my weight loss. I've gained several pounds, haven't worked out and feeling like killing myself everyday. I have no motivation to do anything except work. Can't bring myself to set foot in a gym.
It wasn't your fault and depression is a totally reasonable response to something that was genuinely traumatic.
However, wanting to have a nice day is an internally selfish, and downright cowardly reaction. You did what you could and you're whining about it. If I were hearing that crap in person I would be compelled to give you a beating.
I’ve been on here maybe 30 times, and I’ll stay for maybe 30 minutes, an hour, bang my head at the sticky, get immediately doompilled about myself, leave depressed that I won’t ever change and spend the night in an awful funk until I either go to bed or fap and then go to bed.
It’s the same with /ic/, my mind is just so ready to assume everything I’ve done makes me irredeemable, and the knowledge that that is bullshit just shoves me down further, because I’m so ready to hate myself I hate myself for being aware I’m hating myself
Therapist advice doesn’t stick, and the last one I cussed out and blocked so he sent cops to my house over suicidal ideation. I’m a fricked up fatty who only forgets about it when I’m back imagining and doodling the fun AU ideas for tv series I like
And the worst part is you guys use one of my greentexts to motivate yourself. People always cheer it, no I’m not gonna tell you which one I don’t want to ruin it for people, because when I read it, the words don’t do anything for me. I relate to the mistakes but I don’t improve. I wonder if this is what preachers questioning their faith feel like, watching people enchanted by words that feel hollow to the men saying it. Don’t get it twisted, I don’t associate myself with some man of God thing, I just sort of walked into a good writing idea as I was ranting…
Anyway, wrap it up, constant fat as fat ass, 315, gut and deep cycles of depression escaped only with toku and westaboo cartoons. Never improving, always boohooing, and the big irony is my writing inspires some of YOU.
>Therapist advice doesn’t stick, and the last one I cussed out and blocked so he sent cops to my house over suicidal ideation
Wtf
I forget what specifically I said but I wanted to die, and he just ran with it.
IST has HORRIFIC crab bucket mentality. All these young doomer zoomers trying to convince each other that they suck and should stay inside all day, it's genuinely poisonous for your soul. Get what you need and get out.
I began my fitness journey in large part for my wife, to get healthy and fit for her to inspire her to do the same. Partly for altruistic reasons (we had our first child a year ago and I want her to grow up knowing what a healthy lifestyle looks like), but my bigger reason was because I want my tomboy wife to be lean and toned because that is what I find most attractive.
My confession is that three months into this journey, I'm beginning to lose hope that she'll actually do it.
Part of my brain wants sex, badly. I dream about it, I fantastize about it, the works. But my body doesn't seem to be on board, I hardly get horny anymore despite genuinely craving sex mentally. Is this a low-test thing? Do I need to get this checked out?
I tapped out of society recently. I stopped going places and rarely spend money on anything. I don't watch or read news, and I actively refuse to engage with troony, gays or whatever other mental health bullshit I'm supposed to tolerate unless it threatens my ez mode job then I go full chameleon.
My average day consists of waking up, logging in work and answering a dozen emails, going to the gym, coming home, a dozen more emails, maybe a meeting and then napping on the couch.
My work place is now offering me a pay rise and I'm thinking about starting a new hobby.
Comparatively my work colleagues are struggling. Some financial others mental health wise, and I just pretend to care and say I'm on the same boat as them. Then log off and play fighting games.
Don't know if I should feel bad or happy
what fightans do you play
Isn't this normal though ? I am like this too I don't give a frick about anything unless it threatens my finances or my health
I went to sleep last night instead of going to the gym. I was so tired anon...I was weak
My biggest fricking problem is that I struggle to eat enough calories to actually gain weight when working out, making my recovery super long and feeling like the whole thing is pointless. Why isn't it easier to find calorically dense, healthy food?
>Why isn't it easier to find calorically dense, healthy food?
Eat these nuts unironically
>Give me that fricking addy bro
I've actually started doing that a lot more and it's been helping. Nuts are fricking expensive as shit though unfortunately.
My dick is ginormous
Today is leg hypertrophy day and I'm trying to find an excuse.
i went to jail 🙁 I'm a bad seed