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Feels Bar is Open
Saturday night, IST. The Feels Bar is open for business.
As always, pull up a chair, order a drink and tell us what’s on your mind.
It's All Fucked Shirt $22.14 |
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YOU GUYS ARE ALL A BUNCH OF EMOTIONAL CRYBABY homosexualS
GET A HAIRCUT, GET A JOB, AND DO SOMETHING YOU FRICKING PANSYS
I'll have 2 bud lights, 1 for me and 1 for my friend here
easy to say when you dont know any of us. calm down friend
You'll never live like common people, you'll never do whatever common people do
jack on the rocks, dirty, straight up, plenty of rocks, neat with a twist hold the lemon. got a provisional offer for a job today. no criminal history is i good sign i hope
im sub 5... its over
Much uglier guys than you have gfs and get laid. Your problem is that you are insecure.
get money -> asian massage parlor -> have sex
Someone was racist to me on IST.
I know what you mean, brother. I'm trans and get abuse here constantly.
Black person
ywnbaw
stfu and lift homosexuals
I fricked up my heel some how and gimping around. Can't even do basic chores, let alone workout.
What's the point?
to suffer
Based. It’s crazy how like 80% of the population suffers through the week only to do it again next week and then retire at 67. Wtfff.
To find meaning in the struggle.
To see the destruction of the illegitimate state of Israel.
I don't even feel the need for companionship anymore. It's like loneliness has been this phantom pain for so long, I've learnt to ignore it.
I'm not worthy of a partner yet. I'll be thinner, prettier, kinder, more quiet and successful, less bitter, and then a guy I appreciate will actually have a reason to like me. It's irrational expecting being desired without anything to offer.
Getting closer to half marathon. All things except running are going awfully. Sleep deprivation delusions are near, maybe I'll manage to enjoy them.
gay
I finally found a girlfriend and I've been so motivated to lose weight and go to the gym, it's ridiculous.
Immabouttolasermychest
are there some books you guys like that hit them feels just right or idk teaches you something?
Meditations by Aurelius.
seconded marcus was a good dude with issues just like everyone else. pretty cool to see how a roman emperor felt about the human condition
Mein Kampf
Whiskey.
Why do people hate sirs so much? I go in some random thread and see some c**t, probably a troon, shitting on us for no reason. It's not even just here, you can see it anywhere on the internet or irl. Only way to cope is to be physically larger than the other person.
Dostoevsky is the go to for me. I have 0 real knowledge of Christianity other than Jesus good and israelites bad, but his simple yet evocative prose and knowledge of the human psyche made me feel like I understood many things about the shared experience of the species. And also that there might be potential for love to exist in the world, if we allow ourselves to. Brothers Karamazov hit the feels in many ways, and I even teared up at points. Though I might still be doomed to a life of shallow materialism thanks to how I am. Oh well.
Good luck. It's gonna be rare to find women that aren't experienced since I hear they tend to get snagged younger, but I think it's possible to beat the odds. Don't settle for less than you deserve, and since you're on here, you're someone with big potential. Try not to stay a khhv too long, I'm older than you and it's not ideal.
The Road by Cormac McCarthy. Brutal, soul crushing, painful but so incredibly deep. Its insane how much he can do with such little and simple dialogue. Its a story that at its core is about the love between fathers and their sons. My dad and I go at it pretty often but the book helped me to see the love he has for me and I hope to have for my own children one day. Also some other recs:
Blood Meridian by Cormac McCarthy
> Violent cowboy western about the rule of power
Between Two Fires by Christopher Buehlman
> Gothic horror story set in plague ridden France where literal demons try to stop a man on his holy quest to deliver an orphan girl to the pope in Avignon
Ileum by Dan Simmons
> The most unique sci fi premise I've ever encountered. It is literally the Iliad in space. Robots, super powerful humans, Greek battles, and a humanity devoid of purpose fighting to find its soul
Roadside Picnic by Arkady and Boris Strugatsky
> The book that inspired the stalker game series. Found it difficult to read but still an impactful piece. Was almost like you could feel the spirit of the USSR in the time it was written. The future is uncertain and foreboding and you are struggling to find your place
Got some other recs if youre interested. Did some reading over the last year.
The Book of the New Sun by Gene Wolfe
FREE HOLIDAY
I was lucky and won a 3 day / 2 night all inclusive holiday for free at the end of the year. What should I do with it?
>Go there with a friend
>Go there with older woman who's into me
>Try finding a Zoomer girl to go there with me to have fun
>Actually try finding a gf in the next few weeks and offer her the trip as a surprise at the end of the year
>Other ideas?
Work on getting a gf and keep the milf as a backup plan.
I'm picky and I'd love a pretty 16 year old gf that hasn't had her first romantic bond yet, no clue where to find one tho 🙁
There's plenty of 20 somethings that haven't had any experience yet.
I'm not 20 yet anon and even if I were, I hardly have ever seen a girl over 15 without a body count, I feel like 16-17 is gonna be a standard range to look into. Plus I want someone that hasn't had experience despite their looks, not because of them, so it's unrealistic they'd be untouched for that long :0
Usually I'd agree but in the recent years he's lost a good chunk of respect for me because we drifted apart in terms of political standings. I didn't mind but he seems to feel morally superior in a lot of discussions so I kinda feel like I'm only fueling his superiority complex by offering him a free holiday.
No, but I've played it. Currently I just do lifting, badminton and soccer tho. Why?
do you play basketball?
This is a Christian board and that's illegal.
I'm 19 anon, it's very legal.
don't take the milf, it'll make her even more into you and she might push harder for a relationship.
You might think you would never wife her up, but I've seen one too many people keep a girl as a frickbuddy while they looked for someone better, only to never find someone better because they're kind of complacent with the constant sex... so they settle for their frickbuddy. Seen a few friends married that way.
I say take a friend and go hunting for poon. A good bro will be with you for life, long after any sidepieces have disappeared
it's Memorial day weekend and it's finally sunny in the rainy city. I feel like I should go outside and hang out with my friends - they're probably hitting up the bars and enjoying the evening. Maybe they're even talking to wimmen.
But it's so cozy inside and I need to continue my summer cut. If I stay at home I save money, don't risk getting in trouble, don't feel like shit tomorrow, and get to play vidya all night (Battletech is fun).
I imagine this is how someone ends up 40 and still single. Oh well, I'm sure I'll change... tomorrow
What about just trying to set a limit on the time you're out with your m8s? You should at least take a walk in the sun anon. It'll do you good.
I swear if you are clan scum I'll kill you
Green tea, as per usual.
Well my dudes, it turns out I'm my own worst fricking enemy when it comes to my quest to regain the tomboy side of my wife. The dieting, lifting and general healthiness has boosted my T pretty good, and now I'm seeing cute tomboys fricking EVERYWHERE. My wife and I are pretty comfortable with pointing out when someone is hot, but apparently I did it one to many times today and genuinely pissed her off and made her jealous. It didn't last terribly long but she is getting concerned with my increased interest in other women, and she voiced her frustrations earlier. One apology later and it all worked out, but now I'm worried I might have accidentally torpedoed the entire operation, that she isn't going to see me getting fit as a sign for her to change, but as proof that I'm going to cheat on her (I'm not), and in so doing worsen her depression and kill any hope of her trying to improve.
I have to handle the next few days with fricking razor precision, because if I frick this up I'm gonna hate myself for a very, very long time.
Dedicate yourself to your wife and stop looking at other women
If you want her to try another style, or to be more active together, stop being a butthole and communicate that like an adult
>Dedicate yourself to your wife and stop looking at other women
Dude you say this like I'm actively planning on sleeping around and abandoning my wife. Did you not read the part where she and I literally do this shit all the time? The reason it worried me is because she's never expressed jealousy before, so this was a new reaction I wasn't expecting. Obviously I'm not going to mention when other women catch my eye to her for a while after this, but one unexpected slip-up does not mean I am unfaithful.
>If you want her to try another style, or to be more active together, stop being a butthole and communicate that like an adult.
I do communicate with her. I've encouraged her to work out and get in shape again, but she thinks she's "too old" or "too tired" to do so. That is the entire impetus for my reasoning to save her, because I want to prove that we aren't too "old" or "tired" to change our ways and get fit.
This. Your moronic for not just telling her this directly and scheming like an autist instead.
the "pointing out other hot people" game is a shit test women play, playing the game with her is failing the test.
I’ll take an old fashioned.
Been seeing this Latina for a few months. She was the best girlfriend I had in years. Sexy as frick. Crazy in the sheets. Whenever she called me “Mi amor” my heart would melt. Well, she went out of town for work a few weeks ago and I had planned to go visit her this weekend. We text each other everyday and she was relay excited to see me.
Until Wednesday. She texted me saying she forgot I was coming and couldn’t get work off. I was furious. She told me to cancel my trip because she wouldn’t have time to see me. Haven’t spoken to her since. Worst of all, she posted a pic with some guy in her Instagram today. Guess she didn’t love me after all.
At least I got a full refund on my hotel and flight.
Latinas are prostitutes unless they grow up Catholic (even then, you gotta deal with muh rebellion). She was probably already into that dude for a while anon. Sorry
>Worst of all, she posted a pic with some guy in her Instagram today
IDK this could be a shit test and she isn't really cheating on you. Being that public about hanging out with another guy when people know you are seeing each other probably means she just wants to see how you handle her being b***hy before she decides to get more serious with you.
I'm so glad i grew up a Hispanic and get to watch you gays sweat latina women so much. They are beautiful up until their 30s. Then they get extremely fat and are very likely going to cheat on you with a bum. Then they turn into crazy c**ts.
Have them all bros! I insist. The good ones are extremely far and few in between and they get snatched up quickly. After seeing my family of spanish women I grew up with I never want to date one.
This is why I as a white man go for Indian women.
GOOD MORNING SIR
PLEASE DO THE NEEDFUL
based and same. it's white women only for me hermano
When does the contentment begin? Is it after losing 50 lbs? The next 30 lbs? 20 more after that? 5 more lbs just to make sure? Is that when you can finally be happy with your body and have your shirt off or feel comfortable in your skin at the least? Oh look, my lower stomach still has fat and my face looks fat at certain angles in a selfie - should I keep losing until I don't see bodyfat anymore?
What about strength? Is it okay to feel strong at finally hitting a couple pl8s on the bench? 3 plates? 4 plates? The most at your gym? At what point do you feel strong? Should you just inject steroids to get even bigger to get rid of that nagging voice?
When the frick does the happiness come? Why does it seem like it's a never ending descent into a personal hell that brings up even more self loathing and insecurities the more we improve?
>When the frick does the happiness come?
>expecting satisfaction from extrinsic sources
You'll never get it anon. true satisfaction comes from within
Maybe I never will. I don't see how anybody can legitimately have contentment being overweight or not in great shape.
Imagine if you got hit by a car and had to live the rest of your life in a wheelchair, how would you find happiness then.
I wouldn't. I'd be in a fricking wheelchair.
That's a b***hmade way of thinking about things.
I think it's b***hmade to pretend to be happy in a shitty existence. I'd rather be real than cope.
You're not pretending to be happy though.
>Maybe I never will.
oh boo fricking hoo
you are the master of your own feelings and desires. You can literally choose to be contented at this very moment but you have chosen not to. the reason is that you seem to expect this satisfaction from external sources which is the wrong way of thinking. it comes from within you. your desires, your actions, your thought processes all have created the person you are and you're obviously unhappy with that simple fact
you chose to be like this. you can also choose not to be like this. but whining on an anonymous mongolian basket weaving forum will not help your case
its over...
either frick off or get on board. your choice m8
>Or get on board
With what, homosexual? Pretending to be happy? I'd rather not live in delusion while telling myself everything will be alright. I don't need your fricking sympathy, I'm exercising my right to speak like everyone else here. Suck my wiener.
>I don't need your fricking sympathy
you obviously do as you posted this whiny mess
and get on board with understanding that things suck but you can make them not suck and you are the one who needs to do that. you just don't want to put the effort in and that's nobody's fault but your own. accept it.
>living in denial
life is what you make it, homosexual. and I'm sure as shit happier than anyone b***hing about shit they can change
I put in as much effort as any mother fricker here if not more than a lot of people here. Don't assume shit about me, gay. have a nice day after getting off the high horse you're thinking you're riding because you apparently have everything figured out with your endless knowledge and life lessons. You aren't better than anyone else here.
I'm sorry am I the one b***hing about how everything sucks? didn't think so
fellate a shotgun or quit acting like a b***h and take responsibility. it's still your choice, as I've been saying
You've been saying nothing of value besides trying to act high and mighty. Frick off and die. Don't you have some perfect life to go live, champ? You seem to have it all figured out.
and you've been doing nothing but whining about how sad you are because you can't figure it out. cry like a baby some more or man the frick up and take responsibility for your own satisfaction. again, it's your choice and yet here you are, making the shitty choice
have fun with your gay little pity party, jackass
Gentlemen, this is a board for adults. As grown men we shouldn't be resolving our disputes with hurtful language, but with physical violence.
>Hurr hurr man up, be like me because I'm a big strong man without any weaknesses or faults.
You're still typing nonsense, you fricking simpleton mongoloid.
You're entire philosophy is living in denial about your own life and calling it "choosing to be happy".
You need to shift your perspective. Lifting and fitness should not be the goal in and of itself. By becoming a healthier, more fit, aesthetic person you are allowing yourself to have more opportunities in your life. You are opening doors for yourself. When I see people who are unhappy with their position I try to tell them to try to do good for others. I dont mean find happiness in others and look for a gf or something. I mean make yourself useful. Be a positive force in the world around you. What are you passionate about? Animals? Nature? Education? Go get involved. Volunteer. Make a difference. Its hard to stay all fricked up and unhappy about yourself when you are bringing good into the world.
I am literally pic rel and getting to this level of fitness isn't what makes me feel happiness. Haven't even had a gf since 2017 when I was 18. Fortunately found a career path I feel passion for again (lost it for a bit). Find purpose in your mission, not yourself or others.
Cold glass of water please
>autistic gay moron with nothing but good grades growing up
>farthest I've went with women is hugging
>enter college with a good degree in something I dont want to do
fast forward 5 years:
>le 23 y/o self improover
>shitty job at a huge but good company
>lifting + boxing consistently
>self-teaching to career pivot
>want GF but no idea where to start and made 0 progress in college due to scamdemic + inherent pussiness
Feels like there's a thousand different things I have to do with only so much time I can dedicate to each area without taking away from something else.
The best thing would be to do multiple things simultaneously (get girls at work or gym/boxing) but I'm surrounded purely by annoying boomers at work and the gym doesn't seem like a place women want to be approached at.
Any older anons with some wisdom to share?
>Whiskey rocks please sir
I was raised by idiot parents who generically/environmentally gave me uncontrollable anxiety/ panic attacks.
They were also poor and gave me an obsession with saving money, staying home and doing nothing.
Now im 30 and single. Not a virgin and ive had plenty of girls that liked/loved/lusted for me. Im not short nor ugly. Have money now and a pretty decent body with low bodyfat, lifting since i was 18. Great cardio and overall fitness.
Yet i dont feel good enough. Im kind of autistic but learned social skills through youtube . When I’m out everyone thinks I’m some social introvert, attractive successful fun and happy guy. People love hanging out with me and inviting me out. All this is fake though. I actually hate being around normies and normie small talk. I put on a mask and do it because its required to be successful at life.
Really all i want to do is workout, play vidya, stay home, invest and make more money, cook eat and sleep. Im happy like this, simple lifestyle with simple pleasures.
What makes me unhappy is that i dont think ill meet a girl in 2023 who would be happy and live like this with me. I also have trouble making REAL friends who I genuinely enjoy being around. I think my lifestyle is pretty boring, vidya and lifting. But i can have fun and enjoy doing pretty much anything. People always say I’m a fun guy but really I’m extremely anxious and depressed.
When i was 15 i felt 30, having to manage my shitty household situation, and now I’m 30 i feel like an underdeveloped child. I feel like ill never truely fit in, but i hide it really well. Oh well, at least I’m not fat and poor right? I dont know. Maybe ill be alone in my apartment forever.
Thanks for reading anons have a good night
>captcha: KMS48 …
You got the tism anon
Yup. High functioning autism. Should i keep hiding it and act normie ? Its exhausting pretending to fit in all the time even if it works so well
Too much stigma anon. Keep hiding it and just avoid shit that triggers it. Normies will never understand no matter how simple you put it. I’m basically known as the guy who’s always doing something or too busy to hangout, when in reality I’m at home, drunkposting because going out in social scenarios makes me very uncomfortable.
>t. also tistic
Yeah, hiding it is probably the best way not to get ridiculed. Its exhausting though always wearing a mask. Sometimes i let my guard down and some of it slips out. People just laugh and call me weird because I’m already so accepted.
I wish i could just be myself. Im home alone now too because its the only place i CAN be myself. I rather be alone and genuine than surrounded at a bar with a bunch if people that think I’m someone else, having to fake shit all night . I get one night stands but dating never lasts longer than the beginning with me because I’m scared to show who i really am. I also just pretend to be busy or look busy. Women assume i dont reply because I’m out with another girl, but i’m here on a saturday night lol
I managed a gf but once I came out of the autism closet after 5 months she said “wow anon, that actually explains alot” we ended up having a 4 hour discussion about our relationship before she left. Haven’t seen her since.
LMAO FRICK bro thats rough. This is why i think ill always be alone. I don’t think i have it in me to always act like a normie and laugh at normie things and make normie small talk. I want to brain splurge about information i spent hours and hours reading, and have deep conversations and get good points or views from others. I have to hide my spastic behaviors and repress my emotional expression when im outside normally. I need some nerdy autistic gf. Where to find.
>Where to find.
Tech jobs
Bro you are literally me. I just turned 30 this year and I feel exactly the same way you do. Allow me to offer some advice.
One thing that helped me was traveling. Growing up, my family never had money to go on vacations because my alcoholic father blew it all on booze, so my view of the world was limited to my hometown. Now that im an adult with money I have been out traveling and it has been the best times of my life.
Meeting so many interesting people in other countries really expanded my horizons and views of the world. Also, women in other countries totally swoon over me. The problem is not you, it’s your surroundings. Take a trip to some of the places I’ve been and you will understand.
>Japan
>Italy
>Greece
>Brazil
>Australia
>Philippines
>Thailand
>Kenya
>South Africa
>Hong Kong
>South Korea
>UK
>Sweden
>Germany
>Argentina
>Colombia
Currently applying and interviewing for a 100% remote job so I can get the frick out of this shithole they call the states. We’re all gonna make it bros. Don’t give up
Ive heard this bit of advice a lot. I really want to just drop everything and travel the world for a year. Im trying to fix my relationship with my mother now since shes really old, and shes much better now and has changed. Its really my father thats a useless fake alpha cuck.
Maybe this is really the best advice. Travel the world. America is kind of a shithole filled with consuming. Thanks anon. Will look into it. Hope you are doing well too.
>Im kind of autistic but learned social skills through youtube
Got any channel recs? I don't care if its autistic, I need to up my social game.
I learned everything i know about social skills and how to give value/be charismatic from those RSD guys
>Real social dynamics
>tyler
>julien
Also unironically r/seduction but from a decade ago before they shut down. New seddit is meh
Sadly rsd no longer teaches inner game pickup and has moved to a scammy self improvement model as im sure it makes more money and less cancel culture. I tried to find the old tyler videos about
>giving value
>strong frame
>inner game
>charisma
>passing shit tests
But they took it all down and now its behind some pay wall. That was some real good content back in the day
Looked up one of Julien's vids from 8 years ago about reframing. Good stuff.
Which video? I cant find any of his old stuff anymore lol. Julien is fricking based. He used to be an autism gamer , but hes tall as frick and has amazing chrisma. If you wattch his CNN interviews, bro is absolutely BASED lmao. Hes not like the b***h bot PUA guys nowadays. He used to have the BEST infield with tyler where he makes fun of his bald friend and his friend makes fun of him back and then they both pull.
Share me the video anon i miss that guy. Those two guys taught me everything my dad never taught me as a kid. I legit went from autistic awkward loser who had no social awareness, to now, 10 years later, still applying those things i learned very successfully. Literally social butterfly when i apply it. They had so much Amazon content i almost considered paying 500$ to get their old content back. They hid it cause of cancel culture i think
Julien has an amazingly strong frame
for me, it's an emergen-c and collagen powder shot with an orange vanilla Polar chaser
knees are getting better but still hurt, love my job but worried that I won't be able to keep doing it that much longer and may never get to the level I want to
feels familiar man
I've enjoyed extended trips abroad but I wouldn't say they were life-changing. I will say that affordable, legal p4p is nice, although no substitute for actual meaningful having-a-place-in-the-world sex.
>Really all i want to do is workout, play vidya, stay home, invest and make more money, cook eat and sleep. Im happy like this, simple lifestyle with simple pleasures.
are you literally me? unironically?
everything applies to me too
>that i dont think ill meet a girl in 2023 who would be happy and live like this with me
literally the fricking same jesus.... and im 32
Happier than ever
I quit drinking and probably will never touch that in my life looking back on how it ruined my life and kept me from moving forward with no benefits
I only took it as a cope from a breakup
It quit vaping as well am about to start school and all that is missing is for me to find another job to start dating again
I feel so light now that I don’t hold anymore grudges towards anyone
I just accepted what ever I had done it has happened in the past and regretting it for years never changed anything about it and it only kept me from moving forward
I look back at the complete mess of a man I used to be with complete horror
No wonder I was so miserable
I’m feeling pretty lost. Im 27, don’t have anything to show for myself. I was once on track, on top of everything. I was doing this bad as a teen and snapped and got my shit in order at the end of HS. Lost a ton of fat, gained muscle, forced myself to socialize. So I had a much better experience in college. Then around 23 idk what happened, I got super anxious and depressed and dropped out just stopped and became a neet shut in.
Worked on and off since then. This is currently my longest stretch of being neet/jobless.
Last year I dated a girl I had met back in college, I was single for 5 years before we got together. She turned out to be pretty crappy and I ended it early. Since then Ive been trying to pick myself up and get my shit in order but failing repeatedly and making no real progress.
I was finally getting on track doing the right things daily and she texted me again, spent the last 2 weeks back in a hole.
My father was in the hospital for the last few days. He’s okay now but it scared the frick out of me and it occurred to me I really don’t have any time to frick off. I’m getting too old, so is he. I feel like the rolls are starting to reverse. I have to get my shit somewhat in order. Even just getting a job and moving out.
All I truly need to accomplish is
Job, move out.
Cut, get gains back.
Doesnt help that most jobs where I am only offer $15 at best in my area and the minimum to get by is more like $20/hr.
Then theres the fact Id have to go back to school, finish my associates(1 class), then get a bachelors so I can get a career and leave wagecuckery. And I just don’t know how I’d juggle full time work + school.
One step at a time. I guess for now I focus on getting back into my routine and cutting while I job hunt. After a few months of progress I can figure out whether I can make ends meet on that pay or if I need to find something better. I can worry about figuring school out after I’m moved out, and preferably after I’m in shape again.
I am in a similar situation
I was getting pretty comfy living my neet lifestyle
>wake up
>lift
>play vidya
>maybe try some programming when I was bored of vidya
It was all great but then
I remember that one day I matched with this fricking unicorn of girl and was embarrassed of being a neet that lives with his mom and didn’t even have had money so I needed to ask my mom for it
Now I am just happy to finally leave the neet shell and start living life
If only I could of matched with her right now when i gotten a a better hold of my situation
God I really regret messing that up
For me it was
>frick around in college and barely get credits
>meet the girl of my dreams
>now i have to scramble to finish college as quickly as possible so that i can get a job and be with her
>i could have been done with college this year but it looks like i'll be taking another semester at least, also i'll have to write my thesis while working
i'm a fricking moron
Omg I know your pain
>frick around in life not caring out money or career
>get my first girlfriend late in life
>we break up and I decided to fix my self
>secretly wanting her back for few months
>start becoming a alcoholic to cope with finding out she cheated on me with a fat trust fund baby(I don’t even know why I wanted her back at the time)
>start downloading tinder hoping to get a 30 year old decent looking single mother
>I was completely broke after losing my job due to my alcoholism
>I had to ask my mother for gas money
What I matched with left me in complete shock
>a fricking hot young emo thot that I shared so much in common with
>she messaged first and we hit it off
>but being completely embarrassed about my situation i self sabotaged
God I am a moron and god damm I hate alcohol now
Now I am better honestly my school is about to start and haven’t so much as touched a bottle in month’s
At least I know that a better future is always possible and that is what makes me happy
Good shit on staying clean. We're all going to make it.
Keep the cope up. You'll back to drinking soon, don't worry.
Check out "Rational Recovery" by Jack Trimpey if you're having difficulty with staying sober.
Google "avrt basics" and "rational recovery" and you can get the jist of it (and start applying its methods) right now, for free. I recommend the full book though.
There ARE some boomerisms about "bro just stop being traumatized" but you can safely ignore those and you'll still be able to stay clean despite whatever pain you've got.
I don’t have any difficulties being sober
I was only drinking to get away from the pain of my ex having sex with a fat man she didn’t like for money
But that wasn’t the answer it was just a cope
Now I have seen that b***h yesterday and was completely indifferent towards her
I don’t regret what I have done
reminds me of porn, she probably did it because she saw it in porn too, monkey see monkey do.
sorry, that' shitty.
Bitches really do be nothin but tricks and hoes.
She did it for money
She was nothing more than a fancy overpriced prostitute
She also has serious depression due to this
She has to carry those burdens for the rest of her life while that Apple Watch becomes obsolete in 2 years
I guess, but in my experience some girls are emotionally masochistic. With the easy available resources out there now, there's no reason to prostitute yourself these days. I was homeless for years because a minimum wage job was not worth my time. being homeless is dangerous, especially for a woman, but it costs 35$ to get a can of bear spray and a mini motion detector with an alarm for when you sleep. There's no end to assistance for homeless women to get help too. There ain't no reason to be a prostitute these days save for your gumption and character.
She did you favor cutting you out of her life before you got deeper into it with her.
Glad I don’t have to carry any burdens of sleeping with people I don’t like
Some older gay dude offered me money to sleep with him while
I was just walking to the store
Those Burdens stay with you till you die but that money will be gone
So I am glad to be able to walk free unlike her who will likely suffer from depression for the rest of her life
the last thing you want in your bloodline is prostitute genetics.
If you an actual girl
I am actually amazed by your integrity
You would rather live miserably
Then abandon your honor
Ultimately knowing those burdens will weigh heavily on your soul
Same gayging here
But I found reading dokkodo by miyamoto musashi to do the trick
It actually got me over all my trauma not just my ex or my bully that nearly got me killed years ago
I just sort of stopped dwelling on my mistakes and continued life completely unburden by any of it
Makes all those homosexuals who use a bad child hood as excuse to do crime to be actually weak individuals
I'll check out that book and I'm glad you moved past your trauma but I don't think it's "being a weak homosexual" to be unable to cope healthily when you haven't learned how.
That’s another (smaller) reason why I’m planning to go back to school. If I can go back, be ripped again (or at least jot a fat frick), and have my own place I’m more than sure I’ll be able to meet a girl who it actually works out with. Part of me feels it didn’t workout with the ex because I didn’t have my shit together. I’m sure it was part of why it didn’t, hence the anxiety I have to get it in order, but part of me feels she was genuinely just not the one.
I want to man up, get my life started, be proud of myself and happy. Maybe meet a good woman. All before my father passes. Idk how long he has. His health isn’t the best. This recent hospital stay was stomach bleeding, which he’s had his entire life. But it really put it into perspective he will pass one day and idk how long I have left. I at least want him to pass knowing I’m capable and happy with myself.
I am actually happy about being forced to look for a job
Now I can date without being embarrassed
Just have to find a job that fits in my schedule
I won’t feel like a loser since
I will be working and going back to school for a better career
Why couldn’t I have match with that 10/10 emo thot right now that I am not at rock bottom
>match with a girl on a dating app
>unicorn
Nah if shes on a dating app shes just another worthless b***h I assure you. Its a bunch of low value b***hes/bawds larping as trad wives on those things, you arent missing out.
in the us maybe
The west*
Hey bro. Im 30 and telling you it gets better. Keep working at it. Dont let others judge you. Do what YOU want and follow your vision. Save your money. Cook at home. Get enough money to do THAT THING you dont.
Dont stress over women. She probably wasnt right for you. Women in 2023 fricking suck ass. All consuming and posting on social media with 30 simps inflating their ego.
Work on yourself and it will get better. Soon youll look back and be like
>wow i came really far
Even if the end of the tunnel isnt anywhere in sight, keep walking forward. Meditate and try to not let the negative thoughts wear you down.
Im also at the age my parents are getting old and now i need to take care of THEM. Its hard. But thats life.
Reading what you wrote, i think you have potential. I believe in you anon but you need to believe in yourself
Thank you friend. This is what I needed. I saved your post. I will keep moving forward.
I'm in a pretty similar spit like you in life 27 as well. I've enlisted in the military because it always felt like my calling. I reccomend you take some time to sit and listen to yourself about what you want out of life. I'm a follower of christ and so I just spoke with him and went from there.
>27
>I've enlisted in the military because it always felt like my calling.
>follower of christ
youre fricking moronic, arent ya?
I feel the worst I have felt in years right now
I have been exercising, studying, got the job, got the hobbies, got the style. It doesn't matter because I am still alone.
At the end of the day my whole life is fricking worthless because no one loves me and I'm tired of pretending that's not the case. All that self improvement bullshit is just a means to get someone to actually care about you. And no one does. And I do not have the mental capacity to make someone like me.
Even if I got this far I'm already so fricking ruined by wasting away my entire youth unfricked and unloved. How can I ever feel secure in a relationship if I'm always behind and inferior.
Everything's so fricked I just feel like ending it all.
The machine some refer to as "the system" is dying. do what you want with your life, everyone dies eventually.
>Yo bro, you brush your teeth yet?
>Nah, I'll do it later
>You won't tho, you never do unless I tell you to, you just go to sleep. Just do it now and chill later.
>Nah, I wanna finish this on my phone
>I'm taking away your phone until you do then
*insert mom joining in the conversation utterly screeching about letting him do whatever he wants*
My parents have, despite wealth and free time, very little care for themselves in terms of health and hygiene and project that onto their children as well. I'm trying to fill that gap my parents leave on my siblings, but they get pissed at me telling them what to do or trying to discipline them in any way.
i'll take whatever the brand the chuds hate because there was a rainbow on the can or whatever
You are a gay
Drinking an old fashioned.
Life is actually really great bros. Got a beautiful wife and we just had our first child, a son. He’s so amazing, I just wanna be a good role model for him and a part of that is staying in shape.
I hope everyone is doing well out there.
Walked home with a girl yesterday. About half an hour, and just as friends, but I'm really happy that I managed to have a half-hour conversation with anyone, much less a girl. Things really might just be on the up
Good anon. Simple things like this are sweet. Try not to obsess over it too much. Treat her like a normal person. I wish i had a nice girl to just chat with
Thanks, anon. I would have said the same thing as you a while ago about having someone to chat with. I guess the solution is to just be proactive and not just expect others to always initiate
Also consider working on your tonality when talking. Notice how when julien talks, theres emotions and tone in his words. He emphasizes specific words that emphasizes his point. Using your voice properly is HUGE. Its like body language but for your voice. If youve ever heard people say “its not what you say its how you say it” its all this. Try to imitate how well he and tyler speaks. In some of his conventions he brings people up and has them talk, you can see they are restrained. Relax and speak from inside, dont hold back and people will love listening to you talk. That is “chrisma” a lot of people speak so monotone and emotionless they dont even know. Speak slowly and emphasize your point. They really like using screaming to let go and not feel embarassed
You got friendzoned. Congrats.
Had protected sex in an amp
What is this red mark?
it's over
Frick's sake
I'm starting to lose all motivation
Definitely getting tested next week
homie you got GigaAids lmao it’s over
Wait a second....
Why don't we just give the AIDS virus the AIDS-2 virus to kill the AIDS virus?
I'm a dermatologist and an oncologist. I actually ran in a US Senate race in Pennsylvania too, on a platform of treating exactly this kind of ailment.
I'm sorry but you have prions presenting in your skin and there is no cure. Google Kreutzfeldt-Jakob syndrome. What you have will be much more painful because your skin will be unravelled slowly as the prions work their way up to your brain.
Pregnancy
I feel your itch, anon. I've got this area on my ballsack that is itchy. I've applied creams, anti fungal, coconut oil & tree tea oil, even had antibiotics. Still itchy.
I'm pretty embarrassed to go in person to have somebody look at my balls.
It's not itchy or anything but I'm still freaking out it came out of nowhere and it's been 10 days since I went to the amp
Going in ASAP cause frick this sketch shit
The hot girl at my church wants to have a talk with me after service tomorrow, she has been flirting with me and giving me the look for over a month. She is either going to try and get me to ask her out or ask if I am gay. Really tempted to do the ladder for laughter gains.
>Two separate first dates last week
>Both ended in a makeout session
>setup second date for both and they both eagerly accept
This week
>send them a heads up about the upcoming date and plans
>both agree
Day before dates
>one of them text's saying they are not ready for a relationship.
>the other texted saying after reflecting I am more of a friend.
>womp womp womp
Yesterday
>Dad had heart failure and had to go to the hospital.
It feels like I am just stepping on rakes every time I start feeling like things are turning in a positive direction. But such is life, I have to jump back in and deal with life's new challenges
>Dad had heart failure and had to go to the hospital
I'm sorry he didn't die immediately, anon. My condolences. Keep us updated if he does croak.
top thanks
k
No girl will get serious with a guy who makes out on the first date. They both judged you to be a man-bawd.
#deserved
Are good feels ok? Because I'm in a great mood.
Walked 18 holes at noon. Shot 89. Drank 5 beers which was excessive but nof a huge deal.
Now I'm watching the Celts claw their way past the Heat. Probably not going to have a beer since I had some earlier.
>wagmi
>5 letter captcha no slider.
I should go for a round next week
I didn't play at all last year and I've really got no excuse
No excuse not to. I've only played twice this year. Looking to get out at least 8 more times by fall.
I said watching, not playing
>golf
>basketball
what race are you
Cannot fricking REST with this thing on my thigh
This is seriously ruining my fricking weekend
Frick
>no gf
>date girls occasionally off apps or friends friends but its rare and doesnt work out for one reason or another
>dont enjoy bars or anything in the nightlife category especially on my own
>work from home but not alot of women at my job anyway
>really only leave house for gym or occasional rock climbing
whats going on anons
already figured out that nobody wants to know me after uni but the isolation is getting to me
Go outside dude
I've tried that too for a while but it's just all kind of feels like what's the point
A lot of life kind of feels that way right now, but I seem to go in a cycle of giving new things a shot, having novelty wear off, then being pissed and disappointed again
>water as always
instead of studying i spend the fricking day jerking off, eating crap and playing video games.
Usually im not like that, but sometimes i act like a good damn mother fricking homosexual..
i get it anon, just accept the rest day and strive to better next saturday
Limited by my janky cheap Chinese homegym setup
The bar is basically non-existent in weight and I have 2 45s, 2 20s, 4 15s, 6 10s, and 2 5s, not every weight will fit on the bar, the last 4 10s and the 2 5s won't, maybe I can carve them out a bit to get over the stopper? I don't know but it saddens me as I'm trying to bench 3pl but I only own 260lbs anyway
Here it is de lids
Fricking depressing
It's just fricking OVER
My wiener is too big for most women.
T.cervix smasher
I’ll delete this post, no one wants to respond.
Need to finish some work I procrastinated on all week
This cut is killing my energy
Next week will be a way lighter workload thankfully
Gonna have a no calorie red bull and get this stuff done
Just lost some games on krunker.io (poor man's Csgo) and am feeling very anxious now. I really wanna watch some hypno porn now
Slide me a diet coke, barkeep and let me air out some of my woes.
wife is annoying as ever. I cleaned up her mess in the living room, she'd covered 2/3 of the couch with her bullshit, trash, knitting stuff...
Got a big box, one of those costco fruit boxes... fit PERFECTLY in the space next to the couch after i threw away trash and shit that was on the floor there.
What does she do? Complain. b***h and moan.
took a nap on the other couch after my post-lawn mowing shower w no shirt on.
She still hasn't said a peep about my current level of fitness or my visible abs.
She's also clearly embarrassed of her fatness, but does nothing to correct it. God knows when the last time she showered was.
I was very horny the other night and messaged some 6/10 on Tinder “wyd”
>10 minutes later she’s on her way over
>she’s cuter in person
>we sit down on the couch, I say she must be really horny
>she says yeah let’s just go to the bedroom
>get her naked, fake breasts but they’re nice
>she sucks my wiener
>asks me what my favorite position is
>throw her on the bed and start going missionary
>kissing the whole time, she cums
>tell her to ride me, bout to bust
>cum in her
>we start pillow talking about bullshit
>she mentions her roommates friend is trans
>tell her trannies wig me out
>I’m playing with her pussy about to start round 2
>her clit is huge
>her whole vegana looks…unique
>ask if she’s trans
>”Yes. Is this the part where you start crying then strangle me?”
>tell “her I thought she was a chick the whole time, she passes well, good frick, obligatory no homo
>we fist bump and she leaves
I will never share this story with anyone in real life.
no words anon
So you fricked a FtM troony? With a vegana? And she still looked like a girl?
Or are you claiming a post-op MtF one tricked you?
MtF post-op. It felt exactly like a real pussy but once she said that I realized it was a water based lubricant. At first glance it looked like an innie pussy with a wide clit, only if you looked closely could you tell it was a surgical job. I just got on top and started pounding away, didn’t feel the need to check after rubbing her pussy and feeling she was wet. I was tricked but I really don’t mind
I like your attitude.
Part of me thinks sexuality is weird. Like on some level it's just the sexual act which is erotic.
And is it not true that most of us have been jacking off most of our lives? playin w dicks, and making them cum... hell, hand jobs can suck if it's not a pro because they're just not as good at jacking off as you are.
Also, butts.. I mean... it is the exact same body part. If you would pound a girl in the ass... what is really the difference between a hairless twink?
Aside from the possibility of catching HIV?
And when it comes to mtf, there's actually some deeper shit going on.
Matt McCusker has said some great stuff on the topic. He was on Joe Rogan not too long ago and spoke on it.
But yeah, most of the Ts don't come close to passing.
if loving to cum is wrong i don't want to be right.
homosexual
I 69d a cute asian girl today, anon. Am i still a homosexual?
It’s the sights and smells for me. I can hug my bros even after a long day of work and after that initial embrace the reality of being close to a sweaty smelly man sinks in and I’m disgusted. The hair is a big one, I fricked an Albanian girl one time and her arm hair was freaking me out. I don’t even like anal sex with girls who aren’t immaculately clean bevause the smell of shit is disgusting, shit is disgusting, only being able to stick your dick in a hole where shit comes from is disgusting. Disgusting to me, that is. Half of what I described as gross to me are sexual characteristics women seek out in male partners. I personally think the whole trans wave we’re experiencing right now is from all the endocrine disrupters fricking everyone’s shit up. Whatever dysphoria people are experiencing I think transitioning is a bad idea and only serves as an expensive cope. My horny ass getting tricked by the 1/10,000 trannies that passes is a one-off. Although what I would like is for a an actual hot biological woman to have the biological brain of a man so I could frick a hot woman who wasn’t a c**t and we actually got along. Maybe someday
rereading it and noticed
>fake breasts
it must be a mtf with all the surgeries. im disgusted beyond belief
i would've killed him
do you have a pic of him you could post here? i wanna see the face atleast. never seen one past
>her
>she
lol
pass*
Nah posting a picture would only serve to give you guys a laugh at my expense. Even as a biological female she wouldn’t be one to brag to the homies about. I just thought she was a bit homely and possibly had autism. No Adam’s apple, no hair anywhere except her head and above her pussy. Great body. Dude must have been the prince of twinks before starting hormones and getting surgeries. I always thought the surgeries resulted in horrid abominations but I fricked one sober without even realizing. Using the she/her pronouns to avoid explicitly admitting I fricked a dude pretending to be a woman, understand? I intended to frick a woman and fricked what I thought was a woman who appeared to be a woman. No regrets but I’m not doing it again
i must know
kek that image
You fricked a wound carved into a man's gooch
My body dysmorphia is stopping me from slaying pussy.
I got complimented on my looks 4x last night (two were chicks, one was a gay guy, another was a guy being nice) still don't believe I look good.
well, you do if you're getting compliments.
I got a 'you're handome' and 'nice wiener' today.
I get told I look good all the time, but never treated like it.
I have a homosexual office job where everyone is an hipocrite, everyone sure love to make a big deal out of me and how good i am but no one has the decency to go out with me for drinks, after avoiding me everyone go out behind my back pictures and all, i keep telling myself that im in it for the money but besides that everyday is just solving problems and i feel like an idiot, i wish i could go for a manual labor job but then ill have no money. Modern society is a joke, or maybe im the joke for being such a little b***h
I've been losing my mind lately. I keep it together at work, but generally just a complete loss of rational perspective, emotional control, ideas of normalcy, complete delusions. I dunno. Everything. Least I'm still lifting daily though.
Same exact boat as you. Blaming it on by cut. Everything you just listed is the same for me but also my sex drive is crushed. Fricking sucks.
Yeah I'm not on a cut so can't blame it on that unfortunatel, just life experience. I'm 30 too and futuresight is just compounding it.
I feel you bro.
The pandemic seems to have fricked with me. I became more blackpilled than ever.
I've got a complete lack of ambition in part because I feel like everything could fall to shit tomorrow, so why even bother.
Still at the gym every day making gains there... but I've got most of the rest of life on cruise control.
Man i just went through a lot of different feels at the end of that. Maybe not as many as the guy that fricked a mtf though.
>Derrick White Power > Playoff Jimmy
ya know what, y'all drove me to drink. I was going to settle for a diet coke and you made me pull out the ol eezy jeezy.
Fricking homosexual wienersucker
>self esteem so far in the gutter that I didn't take the chance with another girl
>this lowers my self esteem even more
The cycle keeps happening. Any anons know any decent way to actually improve self confidence and image? I keep self sabotaging because my brain is just repeating that I'm not good enough for anything.
Just blocked my BPD "girlfriend" who constantly broke me down mentally, trying to convince me that I was an evil toxic piece of shit that was abusing her, my sense of reality was fading away
It took every ounce of my energy to finally do it
I got advice from a lot of IST tards so thanks to whoever might have helped
Hang in there, bro.
Bpd sex
Is insane it’s like your penis is golden or something
>dude muh BPD
My Bpd had massive breasts
Like crazy huge breasts
I regret nothing because of those milkers
I had unlimited access to those milkers I sucked them at Marshall’s and the state fair
%3D
They usually get their hooks in pretty deep
If you start to think maybe she wasn't so bad, or maybe if you just said that one right thing - just remember how she chose to treat you.
Regardless of where the issue actually was, remember how much effort (I'm guessing close to none) she put into implementing a solution to what was obviously relationship ending problem. A healthy relationship, and basic respect, requires both sides putting in effort, and pouting that things are bad is not effort.
> my sense of reality was fading away
I remember the "Your argument doesn't follow human logic to the point that I genuinely feel like the world doesn't make sense" feeling like yesterday
Welcome to the otherside
>pouting that things are bad is not effort
this was my BPD ex. she constantly said i needed therapy and i wasn't trying hard enough. but no matter what i did it, she just wanted more from me.
Mine said she needed therapy but when I followed up with
>I think that's a great idea, in fact I'm going to start going
She suddenly had a revelation that she didn't believe in therapy and I was terrible for implying she needed it
Ironically a couple months later I had a discussion in therapy about how I always hated my job, and how I couldn't be satisfied despite everyone else getting by.
But then I found my current job which is pretty good. It's not perfect, but I don't really think about the flaws. it's just a base level of satisfied that I hope keeps on getting better.
The point was I can be satisfied, maybe I have high standards, but there is a point where things are right and I didn't feel any need for anything to change.
I broke up with her shortly after that conversation
>remember how much effort (I'm guessing close to none) she put into implementing a solution
yep lol exactly how she was
constant blaming, i would always accept and apologize for my mistakes, she never accepted or apologized for hers
thankfully it was only 3 months so she didnt have full control of me
Water for me bartender.
This is just a reminder your time is limited here on Earth. You will do something for the last time, and you won’t even realize it until it’s too late. Live your life, but realize how precious it is.
My gf of 3.5 years left me today not sure if she's coming back maybe she realizes in 17 y older than her and it's now a problem oh well
I am in a relationship with a girl I love , the thing is that she got chubby and want to have kids, I am 25 and I don’t feel ready at all , she he’s a lawyer and make good money and all and even paid for date. But I am getting in good shape and younger girls (especially a hot blond one who’s my best friend , friend ) are getting on me and if I go out one night at a bar or club lot of girl want to frick me , I don’t know should I go to the serious relationship or dumb her and frick ?? Need help
you should just tell her how you feel about being unsure to have kids. it's valid to value your sex life. banging prostitutes in the club is fun but it's not very fulfilling. also it's reasonable to wait to have kids
Yeah that’s what I tough too , not a fan of banging hoe , but I found her unattractive compare to the other girl I could frick and don’t know , maybe I could found better
i could use a diet mt dew about now
>3 year relationship with qt latina goes south
>she has BPD and acts out at me
>i get hurt but she never apologized
>start acting out and playing games with her roommate. never cheated but wasn't always appropriate.
>she keeps sending me mixed messages--simultaneously wants me to never leave but im never enough for her.
>cut my losses and end it to avoid misery of being in love with someone who treats me poorly and only wants sex once a month at most
ff 5 months and I've lost 20 lbs, get mires from qts, reconnect with old friends, and have gotten laid a few times. the keys to my success have been gyming at least 5 times a week, inviting friends to the gym with me, and watching One Piece
Was at a festival and grinded, danced, and made out with a girl for 40 minutes
She ran off before I could seal the deal
I'm not mad just kind of disappointed since I haven't gotten laid in a bit
I'm starting to think I'm just fricking up
I've never really had trouble getting women, but I rarely ever feel anything for them, especially the ones I dated off of tinder or bumble or hinge. All my life, I have fallen for just three women. The first was my high school crush, who I loved for three years and was close friends with but never really tried to pursue until it was too late; the second was a woman I met my freshman year of college, who rejected me once and then, when we repaired the friendship, played me for a fool just to reject me again. The third is a woman I met through a job recently, and I went out of my way to make a good impression and get close to her, and we get along just as well as I could have wanted. But it doesn't matter - a mutual friend found out she's a lesbian, so I never had a chance with her from the moment I was born a man.
I don't know what the point of all this self improvement is, bros. I want to give myself to someone completely and absolutely. I want to spend the rest of my life waking up to the same face. I want to grow old with someone, to have a family. But a love like that always comes at first sight for me, and it only comes once in a blue moon, just to end with heartbreak every time. It feels like God has decided that I am never to love and be loved simultaneously, and while loving has left me with a hole in my chest, dating people who I feel nothing for has made me feel entirely hollow. I feel alone.
We were refereeing in an adult soccer tournament today and one of the referees in his 70s got headbutted by a player. Unfortunately the referee did not want to get the police involved.
It's over
Just water
I don't want to be bitter and jaded, but I also feel like I'm too naïve and hopeful. It feels like guys get their heart broken in their late teens/early 20's and then become so jaded that they only play around with girls and don't feel like getting serious and settling down until well in their 30's or 40's and even then not really. They never want to emotionally connect with a woman again, just buy her body for sex and having kids and have nothing to offer besides money. How do I know that a guy actually likes me for me and he's not just playing me to try to get into my pants? It's not like they'll ever succeed, because I want to wait until marriage, but either way it's disheartening. Some of these guys who are younger than me seem pretty mature and seriously interested in me, way more serious and mature than guys a decade older than them. Though maybe they're just trying to play me too and think it's funny that a girl older than them is falling for it. Even though I'm not falling for it, since I'm keeping it in the back of my mind that it could be a trick. I've still never been in a relationship and I feel like it might never happen, since everybody just wants something casual. Chad wants to bang me desperately and will never get to and nobody wants to actually seriously date me, except nonwhites (disgusting), guys far from being my looksmatch and rich dudes who want to buy my virginity.
Are these younger guys the real deal? Just autistic and haven't been heartbroken by a girl yet? If this isn't just a new strategy that dropped to dupe girls, I'll totally just scoop one up before some other girl can ruin them, break their heart and turn them into a manprostitute or paranoid af. I don't care about status or wealth and they'll start making enough money to support a family anyway soon enough, that's all that really matters in that regard. I just want a real connection and to fall in love and have lots of kids.
What I've seen is that most people - men and women - are scared of committing to just one person forever. Those younger guys will probably end up realizing that sex is great, but these other girls are hot too, and they'll decide they want to frick around. At the same time, most people who are both looking for and actually capable of commitment aren't going to be single after 25 unless they get betrayed by their partner, so it's natural that most single 30-year-olds are fricking around just like they did in college. You'll only know they are who they claim to be if they stick around long enough to actually see it through; just don't put yourself in a situation where a man is desperate to marry you just to finally frick you. If you can't objectively quantify the authenticity of your connection with shared interests and beliefs, good chemistry, and selfless support and communication from both sides, don't accept his ring.
That said, YMMV, I'm a 22-year-old guy and my understanding is limited to what I've learned about myself and others through the failures of my own relationships.
>If you can't objectively quantify the authenticity of your connection with shared interests and beliefs, good chemistry, and selfless support and communication from both sides, don't accept his ring.
Yep agreed. I just want a real connection and make sure he likes me for who I am and that our morals, values and beliefs line up pretty well. Someone I know I would be able to support and be loyal to for life. Other wise it's not worth it to me. I don't want to get into something that is bound for divorce. I'm not afraid of committing to one guy forever if I think he's attractive, we have an emotional connection, we are basically each other's best friends and I can imagine myself growing old with him and going through all possible difficult situations together and persevering. I don't care about doing any casual shit anyway, never have and would rather just stay perma virgin and celibate instead of trapped in unhappy marriage.
>At the same time, most people who are both looking for and actually capable of commitment aren't going to be single after 25 unless they get betrayed by their partner
Way more girls want to commit than guys do. Most guys who want to commit just do so because they don't think they're attractive enough to frick around or they're objectively not attractive and getting into a serious relationship might be the only way for them to ever have sex. The only guys I've noticed who have any seemingly genuine interest in commitment are autistic (which I prefer anyway) or they have extreme political views and are very religious (which is great too). Though they're rare in a progressive liberal country.
>would desperately date a (probably) disgusting looking prostitute like you (even though you're a troony)
Chad wants to desperately bang me, but doesn't get to. I'm far from disgusting, if I wanted to I could easily ride the wiener carousel. I'm somehow a prostitute while being a voluntary virgin? Okay I guess. Yup just aspergers, but not severely.
YWNBA
Also I'm tall (6'3), white (pure genes), decently good-looking, exceptionally intelligent and would desperately date a (probably) disgusting looking prostitute like you (even though you're a troony).
Anyways, there is no world in which a woman who knows of and uses the words 'looksmatch' and 'Chad' unironically isn't either a fat disgusting land whale, a troony (your case), or severely, severely autistic. In other words, either lose a lot of weight, have a nice day, or tough luck.
Let's pretend that everything you imply is truth, that you are an attractive, racist woman who wants to wait for marriage with a chad to have sex.
Why Chad would marry you? In these feminist times of "sexual liberation", Chad has access to thousands of girls prettier than you who are completely willing to frick.
For marry, either go for a one level less lookmatch guy with a good job (wanting the guy to be pretty is pretty stupid for women), or some very religious guy.
>Why Chad would marry you? In these feminist times of "sexual liberation", Chad has access to thousands of girls prettier than you who are completely willing to frick.
Yeah I completely get that, which is why I know it's pretty likely I'll just stay a perma virgin, celibate and will probably join a convent.
>(wanting the guy to be pretty is pretty stupid for women)
Why is it stupid? Why should I go frick a guy forever who I'm not even attracted to? Would be better off staying celibate then. I'd be a horrible wife and just constantly pretend that I have a headache and do anything I can to avoid having sex. I'd much rather marry a guy I'm actually attracted to and actually gives enough of a shit to take care of his appearance. And it's never that a guy is just "one level" less, because as long as a guy is above 5/10 he can just easily sleep around. It's always the sub 5's who want to commit just because they cannot have sex other wise. You wonder why women never want to have sex with their husbands and can never orgasm? Because they meme themselves into thinking looks don't matter and then spend the rest of their marriage avoiding sex and instead jerk off to finally get off. Plus most women have responsive desire instead of spontaneous. I have spontaneous and I don't want a husband who is literally just a walking turnoff.
>with a good job
I don't give a shit about that. I don't care about status, I don't have to brag to muh girlfriends about how he's such a catch because he can buy me materialistic shit. He just needs to earn enough money so we can afford having kids and that can be worked on. I really don't give a shit about materialism or buying stuff or fancy vacations and outings. I'd much rather marry a guy who earns decently through manual labor than some fatso/skelly corporate office drone.
>or some very religious guy
I'm religious, so it would be a plus if he's religious too, but I live in an atheist majority country.
Nope just aspergers
think you got a bit of the 'tardation too
you need to get off of IST femanon unironically, met a girl from this site and she was just like you minus being a virgin
this whole "chad stacy" mindset is fricking with your head more than you think
Okay, but for clarification: I don't necessarily want to marry "confident Chad" or whatever, which seems to be what most of you got from what I've written? I just brought up the Chad thing, because the assumptions here is that if a girl is still a virgin, she must be too ugly for anyone to want to frick, because the concept of voluntary celibacy seems to be lost on everyone.
I just want a guy with a personality I like, who I'm attracted to (or at least has any motivation to get fit and doesn't act like a feminist all "you can't ever expect me to self improve", but meanwhile think they deserve someone who works hard in the gym to stay fit and constantly self improves) who's a little autistic like me because I have trouble connecting with normie guys (they prefer a girl with typical "hobbies" and interests who enjoys partying) and has similar morals, values and outlook on life (it's never going to work between me and a lib, male feminist, antinatalist, hardcore atheist, antiracist or whatever), will be a good future father to future kids and is 100% white. I don't care about height (just be taller than me), I don't care about money or status etc. I'm never going to be able to be memed into liking the same things as other girls and just be happy with using some poor guy as a beta male provider I have no connection with and having begrudging sex with him and just make myself happy by buying shit I don't need (I don't get happy from buying stuff). I wasn't raised that way.
You're probably right that this place isn't great for me, but I was also raised by a father who could've fit in here just right, so it runs a lot deeper. He's also the one who gave me ridiculously high standards I guess, though to me it doesn't feel like such high standards to just want someone I actually can have a connection with, be attracted to, have similar morals and values, that he's a good masculine man who will make a good father etc.
good old daddy issues then
It's daddy issues that I have a good racist natsoc father who I have always been able to depend on and that he instilled good morals and values in me and that I listen to his advice and still obey his rules even in adulthood and that I tell him everything? That I'm not allowed to date anyone and wouldn't even consider dating anyone, unless I'm sure my father would approve? That he warned me about what modern men are like and that I should be really careful? He often worries about my future and always says that I wouldn't have had a problem finding a husband if it were the 40's, but that I'm better off just being single forever nowadays. I'm less blackpilled than him and still have some hope.
you need to talk to someone professional femanon, i mean this in the most sincere way, you won't find answers here
Most professionals are liberal feminists and will just try to change my politics, religion and will tell me to just go sleep around and do what everyone else is doing. I appreciate your concern though. I know you're right.
>liberal feminists
femanon you need to get off of IST especially pol
I haven't been on /misc/ in years. The stuff you guys only came across once you found imageboards, I was raised with from a young age.
LARP
Nope lol, just see it as a view into your future if you ever end up having any daughters. This is the consequence. Yeah she'd rather kill herself than frick a Black person and will listen and obey, but she'll probably be just as autistic as you and will struggle finding a husband, because she's only appealing to guys with the same interests, politics and autism as you.
jesus christ woman
Hey I've reached the point of annoyance that you realize I'm being for real and that I'm neither a LARP nor a troony. I take that as a win.
do you even lift or are you a 400 pound whale
Yes I lift, started as underweight, now healthy weight and I already explained upthread that I'm voluntarily celibate and that the guys who you consider "Chad" desperately want to bang me, but I want to wait till marriage and don't want to do anything casual. Sometimes I seem to kinda get to them and they respect or even admire my choice, but I also consider that it's probably just a trick and they are telling me what I want to hear.
My ass is good enough that they want to pretend to put up with my autism for a while, but usually they back off once I made it really clear that I'm not like the girls who just say they don't want anything casual and then still end up doing it anyway, but that I actually mean it. The only guys who continue to talk to me either way and genuinely seem to respect it are autists too, which again, I've already said I prefer anyway. Though still makes me wonder whether I'm being tricked. It's so rare for a guy to actually attempt to get to know me and actually likes my personality, instead of just falling for my looks and then projecting all kinds of shit on me or only wanting to bang.
well maybe start by dropping IST talk and the racism?
>I'm better off just being single forever nowadays. I'm less blackpilled than him and still have some hope.
You live somewhere that's devoid of actual men?
If you're someone who could be a proper wife and a mother and a part of a community without going schizo with nazi shit in front of other people, I can't see why it would be hard to find a suitable husband.
>You live somewhere that's devoid of actual men?
Basically, yes. Some areas in Western Europe are really really fricked. I'm planning on moving countries to better my chances. Sometimes I do seem to come across a decent man, but then the conservative thing is a LARP and really he did buy into all the memes and ruined himself with unapologetic proud pornsickness and just seems to have a fetish for corrupting pure girls.
I've caved in and tried Hinge and I've talked to a younger obviously autistic fit guy who seems really masculine and has good morals and values and seems to appreciate my 'tism and special interests in history and fitness. He's not religious, but he's not an annoying reddit tier atheist either. But then again, I don't know if I'm being duped and he's just telling me what I want to hear.
>without going schizo with nazi shit in front of other people
I can keep that to myself, other wise surviving in a western liberal country would be impossible, but I don't want to also have to hide it from my future husband.
>well maybe start by dropping IST talk and the racism?
It's not like I lead with that, but I cannot drop the racism and go date a mutt, my father would never approve. I want the guy to be racist too, other wise my father would never approve and we'd not be compatible. Plus I do code switching and what you consider IST talk is also just regular conservative natsoc talk. Just my special interests in history, fitness, martial arts, baking, homesteading, video games, movies, books, ethology etc. are enough to be off-putting. Most guys would rather have a girl who just watches Netflix and follows a routine from Instagram, with no real hobby's or interests, who just wants to party.
>Some areas in Western Europe are really really fricked
as in?
>but then the conservative thing is a LARP and really he did buy into all the memes and ruined himself with unapologetic proud pornsickness and just seems to have a fetish for corrupting pure girls
Yeah this shit is a LARP gtfo way too much pol bullshit in your posts anon go get a grip on life
Nope it unironically happened. Everything seemed to go well and then it came out that he basically has a manprostitute past, and in his own words is badly porn addicted and unwilling to ever give it up. He basically admitted that he wants a virgin or low body count girl and that he'd expect her to have a progressive feminist mindset anyway and willing to try anything just for him which he's seen in porn or done with prostitutes in the past and that she's not allowed to have any hard limits. That you're not allowed to say no to anything without trying it first. I appreciate that he was at least honest so I could avoid him from then on, but it was sad, because he genuinely seemed like the perfect man up until then and seemed very respectful.
Alright. Trying to find out what kind of family and friends the man has could provide signs if he's good material. And of course, if he lives away from the city, so he most likely has the right skills, and your skills in homesteading come in handy.
Best of luck to you.
>Alright. Trying to find out what kind of family and friends the man has could provide signs if he's good material
Thank you I'll try that!
>And of course, if he lives away from the city, so he most likely has the right skills, and your skills in homesteading come in handy.
He even lives a little outside of a village, meanwhile I live in a village. Homesteading would be difficult here due to the political circumstances around farming, so would have to move either way, whether I find someone here or not, which is annoying, but not an impossible obstacle to overcome.
>Best of luck to you.
Thank you anon!
Oh also I've added meme to explain the issue I tend to have with normies, in case anyone asks again.
>pic
I had a date with a slightly autistic girl, where we drove around for 6 hours simply talking about all the shit no one else knows or cares about. Best date so far.
So don't worry too much about it. You'll find someone who can indulge you, while directing the conversation if needed (in case you start rambling endlessly or something)
Do you havea BPD?
Water because cutting
>lifelong fatass
>started lifting 3 years ago
>appearance improoved a lot but definitely still chubby
>week 7 of cut
>down 13ish lbs
>side love handles that I've had forever are pretty much gone
>just lower back handles, stomach pouch, and some outer chest fat remain
I'm almost there
I will never fill the pit inside me that craves acceptance, adoration and self love.
I have a girlfriend that loves me unconditionally. Not enough.
I have a lovely clean house, two stupid cats and a interesting job with supportive colleagues. Not enough.
My close family loves me. Not enough.
I had sex with the roomate I have lived with and had feelings for for over a year. Not enough.
I am a nasty selfish frickup and I try so hard to be grateful for a life that from both the outside and inside is pretty great. I just want to fill that fricking hole lads, I lift a few times a week and do MMA/BJJ, I read decent books constantly and I'm also studying at University as a mature age student so I can get into a different industry.
I am worried that nothing will ever make me feel whole and content.
Please call me a gay now, after reading through all of that I feel like a massive whinger and deserve to be berated for being so ungrateful.
you cheated on your gf or is she your roommate
Havent had sex/agf for over 5 years now
Also am on a 6 week cut and im starting to look and feel small send help
how the frick, did i score a girl from this godforsaken board?
I like my job but its a b***h to eat enough due to the shift patterns and finding time to cook all my meals
goyslop was designed for this exact situation
I think that will just worsen my metabolic health
friend had his gf of 5 years break up with him
not that I dont understand people splitting up, happens all the time, but she had a new boyfriend a week later meaning she probably already had someone while she was still with my friend
like jesus christ woman at least give it some time, feels like she just jumped ship first chance she could and that she would do it to the new guy too if a better option came along
Yup had that happen to me, fricks with you more than you'd think
im going to try to get him to go on vacation with a few of our mutual friends, hopefully he doesnt just just stay fricked up all summer
Good idea, he will me in a mopy mood, maybe get a couple drinks in him but not too much and maybe enforce a no mobile phone rule at least for the day out
water - frick alci
I had a period where I had sex with tinder girls who were way below my level. At that time I had nothing going on for me except tinder hoes. My life was boring and I had a shit job. The validation I got from the girls felt amazing. Now I feel disgusted about myself, I gave my body to some ugly motherfrickers. Thank God I rejected some of them, otherwise my body count would be higher and filled with uglies. I focus on lifting and education now, but I feel extremely bad about myself. I can't hate on fapping tb.h without it I would be so illegally horny I would download the app and date more ugly and fat hoes. The post-nut clarity is a godsend to me
It's over. Don't get fat bros.
I'll take a Weizen.
I wrote to an old Girlfriend of mine, just wanted to know how she's been doing. I'm not getting a response.
And I'm stuck in a cycle of
>feel shit
>distract myself
>don't get work done
>feel guilty over not having done it
sometime I'll run out of fat in my timetable to finish my undergrad in time
I managed to lay down for maybe 2 hours last night
Actual time asleep was probably like 30 minutes
Fricking insomnia, I've got shit to do today
>went through a short courses for wagie
>50% of the class are girls
>they mentioned how much they drink and go out every day in class
good morning
good morning, sir.
>everyone around me moving in with their SO
>ive been single for 5+ years now
weird feeling.......
>hit 31
>mom turned 71 this year
>realized there's a solid chance she won't live long enough to see any grandkids from me
>dating life still a failure
>love my job, but it's "low status" and I'll never break out of middle class
u me? mom's getting old with 62 now too and she asked if she will ever see grandchildren, have no gf
>>love my job, but it's "low status" and I'll never break out of middle class
unironically literally me
its comfy, i could climb up the ladder but that would mean less time for life....
I have nothing to say but shared misery?
Hit 28 last week. Last relationship over a year ago.
Just got (effectively) DEMOTED at work. Never heard of that happening to anyone but I can't even say I don't deserve it because I kind of do.
You're still gonna make it.
I....i ordered some burritos and the delivery guy literally mogged me
Had way more muscle mass
Im feeling bad with cutting, i dont even look half as muscly as the guy
Damnit
>running rest day
>gym is closed today
I need to exercise
>brother is a troony
>when he transition i thought i was supposed to be supportive because i was brainwashed into thinking it was legit
>he has done irreversible damage to his body, he has done hrt for years and his testosterone levels are at 6
>hes gotten huge fake breasts
>at first i thought that it was a legit thing but after interacting with him and his troony friends its so obvious that its all completely fake and delusional
>i wonder if hell ever reverse the surgery and hormones
>if he doesnt hell probably end up killing himself
I always thought i was supposed to be supportive but after 3 years of this shit he still doesnt pass. His voice doesnt even sound remotely close to a girl's and its so fricking obvious that hes just trying to raise the pitch of his voice. Its fricking pathetic. I want to talk to him about it but hes so knee deep in his delusion and has a cast of other troony rejects supporting his every self destructive move. I've had years to process the loss of my brother and it still doesnt feel enough.
this is somethin that unironically i only see in the US
Its ridiculous. Its my brother so i know him very well. It seems like he has de-matured over the years. Im in the discord with him and his troony friends (i tolerate them because i only have 1 brother, and even though hes mentally ill i still want to play games with him. I don't really spend too much time around his troony friends tho).
It is so obviously some fetishistic bullshit. Anyone in this thread who knows someone who is transitioning from male to female: know that it is almost entirely a sexual/fetish thing. Just yesterday they were making jokes about, loving little boys, I QUOTE "I love little boys how they're all undeveloped and boring"
I want to get her out of this but it seems like theres no turning back. He is pretty much dead to me and my mom, and the person we see now is kind of a shell of the old brother i once knew.
>"I love little boys how they're all undeveloped and boring"
That sounds more like a cope to be a pedo than anything, jesus
I live in a small town in Germany so we are always a bit "late" on societal trends but it's gonna come.
It's already very much a thing in bigger cities like Munich or Berlin, even though it was barely a blip on the radar 5 years ago.
Believe me if the Americans do something dumb we are bound to imitate it. Never the good stuff. Only the moronic shit like trannies.
I saw troony stickers in my small village in the biblebelt in the Netherlands.
i too am german i have yet to see an actual real life troony
Op of these posts here. At this point im ranting. Yknow all of this just seems like hes gay. Or bi. I jack it to gay shit sometimes, doesnt mean im a woman. It's okay to be bi/gay or whatever, maybe not but at least its better than literally damaging your body to pursue some kind of futa ideal that does not exist. Id rather him just be fricking gay. But its not really my choice and its his life, best i can do is be as suppoprtive as i can. HOWEVER i am just realizing that being supportive does not always mean supporting his every move. Sometimes being supportive should be slapping him across the face and telling him to get his shit together. I wish i could have done that before this mess.
We are obviously under a massive psyop attack and there's nothing you can say to convince me otherwise.
My friend just called that his colon cancer has spread to both his liver and stomach. The doctors said that there is no operations to be done, only 3 rounds of chemo and then they’ll throw in the towel. He has about 9 months left.
I’ve never lost anyone from my inner circle of best friends. I don’t know how to cope.
I’m just going to lift today in his honour. The feels will probably hit in the shower afterwards.
I’m so sorry to read that anon. That must be difficult to cope with.
make sure you do your cardio
It must really suck losing a friend like this. Here's to hoping he can still overcome it. Or if not, at least have the time of his life.
Sorry about your mom bro. You did the right thing. And no, your youth is not even close to being over.
You're all going to make it.
cheers
I really have no reason not to do therapy, my job even provides 20 free sessions a year
I think I'm just afraid of letting loose emotions that I've bottled up for so many years
I'm doing college online for software engineering at the moment
mfw i have some weird lumps in my neck, had em for over 6 years now
too afraid to let it get checked at this point
Posted a few threads back about my mom being on hospice and near death. She died on the 19th at 11:50pm.
Cried a bit but not as much as I expected, mostly just back to life as usual at this point.
I have to find a new place to live because we live in a 55+ place and I was only accepted as her caretaker, now they're gonna kick me out.
Considering a new state since Florida is stupidly expensive (1700/mo for a studio).
Don't know what the hell I'm gonna do, I spent the last 3 years focusing on nothing but my mom and now I get to go out and live my own life at 25 but I feel like I've already missed out on what was left of my youth.
Also been considering therapy, feel like there's equal chance it helps a lot or does frick all.
Sorry to hear it man, but sounds like you did right as a son. Lost my dad two years ago in similar circumstances and it was a slow kind of sad.
Therapy's pretty chill, at minimum it's an hour each week to say whatever's in your head that wouldn't otherwise get aired out, and occasionally there's some insights there.
I'm really sorry to hear that, just take everything one step at a time. Do you have any education or certification?
anons there is no place I feel more alone than in a room full of people I do not know
I hate going to bars, grocery, sports event, etc
Gym is ok because we are all there to work on something and people treat me generally ok
I know that feel. I am working on a different project than everyone else on my floor at work, so I go to go into a room full of people I don't know and don't have anything to do with to work on something else 40 hours a week while eating lunch in my car.
>I go to go into a room full of people I don't know
For me though work is different also to a certain extent
If those people are all on the same project or something related to me it's ok
I want to be a likeable person and not a frickin bummer around everyone if it helps work suck less
>eating lunch in my car
lol I always eat in my isolated office
I cant go out to eat because I also feel that awful awkward while I am sitting in some goyslop place with too many other wagies
but if I am doing something I enjoy and I happen to be around people that really doesnt bother me
like nobody can question my purpose or I dont need people to really enjoy something for what it is itself
>awful awkward while I am sitting in some goyslop place
I go out to eat alone all the time. It isnt so bad. Plus female waitresses almost always hit on me, and it makes me feel good even if its just their job to do so. Eating out alone is based
>match with decent looking tinder babe
>decide to meet at local bar
>things going well
>go back to her place
>didn't tell me she has 5 cats
>smells like fricking cat shit
why are women like this
Doesn't cat shit make you insane?
t. cat owner
if her place smells like cat shit imagine how her pussy smells
going bald is mentally kicking my ass again, started in my teens and it makes me feel like I never had any youth, mind 20s now and short to boot (5'8")
Just take a death and reset your run.
serve the ruinous powers, baldy
Talking to this new girl, I’ve seen her 5 times and I’m already in love. She’s perfect personality wise, super cute etc etc. only one problem; she goes to school 4 states away from me (8 hour drive). After this summer is over and august comes a knocking she’ll be gone until next may. Im losing my mind over either
>her cutting me off when she goes back to school, “it can’t work, we’re both so far apart”, etc.
Or
>getting into an exclusive relationship (I’m already the only guy she talks to) and then constantly living in fear and paranoia that she’s cheating on me with college fraggots
Idk what to do bros. I’ve fricked plenty of sloots in my day but this is by far the closest I’ve gotten to a real, actual gf and it seems like the writing is on the fricking wall that she’s gonna break my heart, despite the fact that she’s amazing to be around and likes me a bunch.
Thats a short term fling if ive ever seen one
Had the same experience. Had this sort of romance movie amazing experience with a girl. Everything clicked from the start, we were both texting eachother all the time, she'd cling to me and look up to me with these lovey eyes, fricked like crazy, went out doing cute romantic shit. Never had that experience in my entire life before, where something just worked perfectly with someone, like perfect chemistry.
But, she went to a uni 4 hours away. Uni year started, she started texting back less and less. She told me she was super busy because of school. We made plans to meet up again around Thanksgiving, but then she stopped replying. A couple of weeks later she was posting pictures with some other guy on IG and set their relationship start date as some time when she was still texting me saying we'd meet up.
Haven't had that experience again since. This was 2021. Probably never will.
Not saying long distance can't work out, but sometimes I think girls don't have object permanence and once you're out of sight, you're out of mind.
Phew NTA but i had that too, very emotional explosion from the get go and got dropped like a hot potato
This. Keep in mind there is going to be tons of guys perving on your b***h. IF she really does like you she will make an effort to see you and keep up appearances. Otherwise she didnt take it seriously and wasnt worth your time.
I had this same thing happen but thankfully it was week 1 and we had just set up a date so I wasnt at all attatched. Women are moronic and demand for the guy to stay exclusive while they frick around with their girl"friends" and give other guys the time and day to make a move on them. Taught me to make sure I keep my options open because they do not at all play fair.
you got lovebombed son
either way its a lose/lose bc if you force a long-distance exclusive relationship while shes at school you'll drive her away. in fact, i can already smell your paranoia of her getting dicked down by Brad. So it's best to just make the most of the present, pocket her number, and hit her up if you're in the same city again.
Just a vodka tonic please. 2023 has been a wild ride so far. Girlfriend broke up with me but it was for the best. I treated her like shit because she lied to me so I should have ended it myself much sooner.
Physique is getting better and i completely fixed my diet.
My narcissist sexually abusive father "gifted" me a car a few years ago and I accepted it like a moron because I was broke. Now I have a job offer for 80k in Florida (I currently make 16/hr). My dad is refusing to sign the title over to me even though it was a "gift" meaning I wont be able to register it in Florida and will have to buy a new car even though this car is perfectly good. I only have 5k in savings but I havent eaten out or had "fun" in 4 months in order to save as much as possible.
Im thinking I should just keep saving as much as possible and get a car loan even though i hate paying interest, but with new income I should be able to pay it off early. Feeling stressed bros but things are definitely easier to deal with now that I have a good lifting routine and a clean diet.
>My narcissist sexually abusive father
sorry to hear that anon get as far away as you can from that frick, lift and eat a ton, mog him and fricking punch his face in in minecraft
thanks anon. Im like 165 right now but I already mog him. He is weak and sniveling. Back always arched and hands rubbing together like the happy merchant. Having a low T pedo as a dad is hard to come to terms with, but you gota keep lifting and moving forward.
damn cant imagine how hard your hcildhood mustve been anon, hope you could somehow g et through all that shit
heres to your dad getting aids, anon
Seconded, Hope that anon's dad dies a painfully slow death.
I've being struggling with suicidal thought for some days, I don't have money to therapy and I have no idea how to deal with it
anon there are ways to get therapy for $50-60 without insurance. Look up insurance free or cheap therapy in your state. Even if you can only afford to go once every 3 months its way better than not going at all. Good luck anon.
>female coworker openly told me she's been celibate for a over a year now
Water. Gym soon.
I recently relapsed and went to an AMP after 6 months of trying not to.
I'm in a 7 year long relationship. Been trying to do better by her. I only ever had HJs at the AMP. Obviously I'd never tell or admit it to her unless I want to completely ruin our relationship. The funny thing is I only started going to AMPs because we stopped having sex for 2 years back in 2020. I was fiending for physical intimacy without the emotional baggage of hooking up with a girl. Its not GF's fault I have a big sex drive.
The day of my recent relapse I deleted all my porn, wiped my history and bookmarks and swearing off fapping. I was introduced to porn at a young age and always crutched to it. Never admitting I have a dependency or addiction.
I'm trying to tell myself I'm not beyond redemption.
Week 7 of madcow's started well. I'm now at:
67.5kg x5 OHP
110kg x5 BP
110kg x5 PR
165kg x5 S
187.5kg x5 DL
With OHP +2.5kg and DL +5kg attempts on next Tuesday.
damn king
I'm finally getting in decent shape but the fat distribution on my body is very feminine, which makes my V shape more of an X shape.
When i am shirtless you can see the fat rings squeeze on my hips, otherwise i am relatively low bf
It pisses me off