Routine has taken over every single aspect of my life. There is no danger or risk in anything anymore, and therefore no potential reward or crazy unexpected events waiting for me down the road. I can live out the rest of my days in autopilot and experience nothing but slow, steady decay.
Fitness was originally my attempt to escape this feeling, something I could still surprise myself at, but it seems like that too has turned into a matter of programming, of maintaining what I have rather than making huge leaps of progress like I used to.
I don't know what to do now. Is this the point in life where you decide to climb or swim something moronic, just throw yourself at some pointlessly risky endeavor that will at least challenge you and make you feel glad to be alive at the end?
Please don't reply this is a stupid thread
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what do you do when you're not working, lifting, eating, sleeping? surely that doesn't fill 24 hours of a day.
Browsing IST with YouTube videos playing in the background sometimes play vidya
touch grass.
Hits too close to home.
sadly, it literally does fill about 23 hours of my time
then you need to reconsider the life decisions that landed you there.
Sounds like this is less about routine and more about a lack of goals and enjoyment. Are you striving for anything? Do you have fun doing anything?
I'm so fricking tired bros...
Life doesn't matter anymore and it has become very obvious everywhere you go.
You can feel it when you are out in public, no one gives a frick about anything anymore. Even normies are blackpilled husks now.
I go to work and basically just do nothing. I don't give a shit if they fire me, it literally doesn't matter at this point. I'm poor if I'm NEETing and poor if I work full time. This society is pointless.
No community, no property, no families, no future. Where the frick do we even go from here?
>You can feel it when you are out in public, no one gives a frick about anything anymore
im not disagreeing with you or saying its not true, but be aware that your own mood and mindset is gonna shade your perception of people you see everyday
More or less....
>Where the frick do we even go from here?
Really wish there was a place where Im at with rollerblade disco tho....would defiantly go....
https://soundcloud.com/undersoundlondon/pabie-undersound-podcast-35
>31:37 the bass like oh my god
imagine shaiden rogue doing this
>rollerblading disco gf with no gag reflex
yas!
https://soundcloud.com/dimensionsfestival/dim276-sugar-free
36:10
1:03:00
*sweating emoji* till infinity
is the cup half full or half empty?
positive mental attitude.
your perspective on a situation will change the outcome.
>I don't know what to do now. Is this the point in life where you decide to climb or swim something moronic, just throw yourself at some pointlessly risky endeavor that will at least challenge you and make you feel glad to be alive at the end?
sorta. if you do something enough, itll become routine no matter how fun or exciting it is. this is why a lot of people, as they get older, try new things. new foods, activities or hobbies, travel and stuff. even if you end up not liking them, itll break or slow down that "steady decay".
a new job can also have a similar effect but might not be applicable to your situation if you have a career already
It's bad for brain health never to go out of your comfort zone, never facing new things. Early Alzheimer bad. I'd suggest any collective in person activity.
find a women and let her frick every thing up
it will be very exciting and then very painful
so much this
shouldve never cared about women bros
Being married and having children would be great to a kind hearted woman with a good soul, modest, well raised, soft spoken, loving and pretty.
Sadly only about 1-2% of women are like this nowadays and they get scooped up fast in high school and college.
I like that pic , if thats googling guy or whatever... its a nice pic , love the aesthetic ... that kitchen tho...
>window open
>coffee
>cigs
oh my god....
What you're feeling is normal. This is some Jordan Peterson shit: your life is completely ordered, which means you have your shit together. But you need a little chaos in your life to grow as a person and lead an interesting life. Chaos isn't always "bad." In your ordered life, chaos may pop up in the form of illness, death of someone close to you, car trouble, etc. However you need to deliberately introduce "good" chaos to put yourself into unfamiliar situations:
- Are you setting short/long term goals that allow you to challenge yourself in the gym or in your career/school? If you don't have concrete goals for yourself, set some. If you don't know how to create measurable goals, google it.
- Take a weekend trip to somewhere you've never been. Go on your trip with no concrete plans other than to show up at your destination.
- Take up a new hobby you know nothing about. Even better if its something outside of the house or you could learn in a group setting with others.
- Strike up conversations with strangers, and I don't just mean attractive women.
- Join a social group or club.
Always be looking for things to introduce yourself to new situations.
>Take a weekend trip to somewhere you've never been. Go on your trip with no concrete plans other than to show up at your destination.
100% this. I've done this, feels like an adventure, it's really fun.
inb4 OP goes along and starts putting all his money into shitcoins to get a high
It works for sure, but not really sure if that's what you want...
that's what I do
what a ride
This sounds moronic as frick, but go fight somebody
>never been in a fight
>life is boring, job is unfulfilling
>bounce between hobbies, start off enamored with hobby of the week but interest soon fades into apathy
>always tired and yawning throughout the day
>not even interested in women due to chronic oneitis in highschool
>get into two fights over the span of a month, win one but lose the other
>never felt move alive or awake than then
>could feel my blood pumping for the first time in forever
I literally couldn't stop myself from smiling either time and I look back on the memories fondly.
this is terrible advice, and you should be put down like the rabid dog you are.
Don't be like that anon, it's not like I attack random people or instigate. I'd go to prison in a jiffy if that was the case
>I DINDU MUFFIN
I'm white though, is liking to fight really that bad?
if you actually wanted to fight you would play a fighting sport.
you're just a Black person otherwise.
If I get into a fighting sport I'm worried it'll ruin the fun for me. Kind of like eating a slice of cake every day vs only on your birthday you know? If you eat it every day it goes from being a special treat to just a normal food item
how do you get into fights tho?
I journey to the local ghetto and yell that henessy causes higher estrogen when you drink it.
thats it?
thats fricking hilarious
but might actually work lmao
I'm the actual guy, the last guy I fought was a friend of a friend that brought his gf to an outing
>she is clearly not interested in me, just making small talk
>guy can't accept other people talking to his girlfriend
>keeps saying mildly threatening things to me like "we're both old enough that I can beat the shit out of you without going to jail" and "I know mma"
>ask him if he wants to fight
>"No"
>"Then why do you keep threatening me?"
>"If you keep talking like I'm the bad guy Imma split your eyebrow"
>get into fight
>eyebrow is still in one piece
>his pride is not
The other guy is a family friend that beat me up for farting at the dinner table. I haven't found a foolproof plan to get into fights, but I will try going into the ghetto like
and maybe say something about Newports as well as Hennessy
>The other guy is a family friend that beat me up for farting at the dinner table.
you're moronic and i hate you but this is genuinely hilarious
I'm also imagining him just suddenly throttling you and landing a few good punches but every time he does you fart because you had more loaded up and all that does is just make him more pissed off
>Please don't reply this is a stupid thread
you have the curse of the high performer
unironically play golf
it's incredibly challenging and as a lifter it'll humble you significantly because you'll need to learn to dial down the power and actually become mentally disciplined rather than programming the shit out of your life
also meditate. a programmed life makes a man stagnant
stop doing this
read and go outside
don't interact with the internet and stop playing video games
That's pretty much what happened tbh
>always have to shit immediately after eating
>shit is usually heralded by farts
>fart at the dinner table with another one about to come out
>"That's disgusting anon, if you fart again I'll beat your ass up"
>second fart was already halfway out by the time he was done
>"If you do it again I'll beat your ass up"
>farted again
>he gets up and comes at me
>grabs my collar while I elbow him in the eye
>just holds me by the neck while punching me with his other while I try not to shit myself
>stops after like 5 punches
>go take a shit
Is this normal in your family?
Not family, just family friend. I hadn't met him until a few years ago though and yeah he's pretty much always like that, he's an electrician and he'll always tell stories about him getting into fights and beating people up. I kinda want to challenge him to a fight next time he's over while I don't need to shit
I've actually been meaning to watch fight club but nobody wants to talk about it for some reason. Jokes aside, this is likely just going to be my next hobby of the week until I lose interest but I hope it sticks around. I haven't felt this much passion in years, it's like colors are suddenly more vibrant like one of those "how life feels after x" memes
my sides
he's actually right, but you wouldn't know since you never fought
>brown hands typed this post
>non-american detected
Ehh I feel like OP and also agree with the other anon
I always wanted to fight and defeat a dog, since i hate these frickers being leashless everywhere, maybe its time to duel..
Yeah dude I know you just watched fight club for the first time,not even mad I was just like you a few years ago.
Learn something new then NIGGUH, fricking go after it stop being complacent
Congrats, you just made it to your 30's.
This is where you maintain your physique and put 100% of your will and effort into starting a family and working upwards in you career (i.e. becoming a high status male).
>and put 100% of your will and effort into starting a family and working upwards in you career
This is exactly how you end up with this existential dread btw
I'm in my mid 30's and married
is right
there's no point in becoming "high status" or whatever the frick, if 100% of your time is devoted to materialism and desire
even with the way you've phrased your OP, you're talking about ADDING things. you think that if you could just find the right thing to ADD, you'd be happy
you need to remove. take video games, internet, youtube, all of that meaningless shit, and remove it from your life and replace it with something that requires intention
I mentioned golf because it's a sport that will grow with you, keeps you outside, and is as much of a mental exercise as a physical one. delete staring at a screen from your life play a full round of walking golf every weekend and I guarantee that your life will improve measurably
you're doing everything that you do, but doing it without intent, expecting a benefit
you come on IST expecting to get useful information and scour the site daily thinking that you'll find a nugget of novelty that will make your life better, not because you're specifically looking for something.
you watch youtube and play video games expecting for your attention and need for novelty to be satisfied, not because the need for something drove you to interact with them.
stop doing things expecting a purpose to appear, and start creating purpose that requires you to do things.
basically what I'm saying is that you've filled your life and time with things that have no explicit purpose, and your motivation to do those things comes from the things themselves, not from within you.
you need to do things where your motivation to do them comes from an explicit, defined purpose.
"I want to shoot 90 at golf" is a goal that will give you drive and satisfaction, far beyond "I go on IST hoping for novelty" or "I play video games because they help me pass the time"
Good post man, Doing things and expecting a purpose to appear describes my entire life. I have no purpose otherwise. I just do a lot of random shit and still feel empty.
golf pisses me off, i raged hard the last time i played it. but that was years ago.
>golf pisses me off, i raged hard the last time i played it
lmao thats the point
it's one of the only sports where strength doesn't matter at all until you've gotten to an appropriate skill level to use it. geriatric boomer losers will smoke the shit out of you until you get your swing right, then you get to piss them off driving it 40 yards past them
for me it's a fun challenge because I can get up to like 105-110 swing speed but the second I try to apply all of that power I'm slicing the frick out of it 305 yards about 50 yards right of my point of aim
yea i would always slice the frick out of my drive, but my short game was really good. also sometimes when you swing and hit the top of the ball and it rolls in front of you 3 feet, god damn that would piss me off
>also sometimes when you swing and hit the top of the ball and it rolls in front of you 3 feet, god damn that would piss me off
whenever you get angry at golf or feel bad about how you play, remember that there was an LPGA tour pro that shanked her drive into the crowd two sequential times, hitting the same woman TWICE
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What is the point of this thread? You already know the answer to your problem.
fuark I'll take a drag
Nah if you're eating you'll put on easily 1-2lbs of actual muscle every month if you're hitting everything when the muscle is recovered. You'll burn yourself out in like 2-4 months but still it's worth it.
High IQ take. You suffer from lack of purpose. The background understimulation will only increase with age and culminates in losing the will to live, probably a biological cope for death. Cant help you with that as ive found no remedy. Secondly purpose. Without absolutism (religion, political fanatism) purpose keeps dissolving. You might have some degree of depression but thats totally normal. Either keep changing your purpose (hobbymaxxing) or accept not feeling satisfied. For me anything loses the glow. From hard drugs to pursuing a challenging career, exactly how you wrote auto pilot replaces the novelty. The only thing that keeps being worth waking up in the morning is loving and being loved. It really is that simple. Funny how cheesy it sounds but its true
Oh boy, all this talk about le hobbies and le weekend trips is getting stale as frick. I've been there, you getting a trip somewhere random over the weekend is just you changing your location, your mind and soul follows, but there is no substance. Just a change of scenery that gets extremely tiresome really fast. Man is not supposed to fill his precious time and energy chasing sceneries, it's the type of modern mind sinks that will only distract you for so long. You'll get to some amount of years old and all you'll have done is change sceneries, while leaving nothing behind.
Hear me this, try getting married
It's the type of "good chaos" that ole boomers used to talk about: wimmin, can't live with em, can't live without em. This is why God created Eve in the first place, I can imagine Adam being in your(my) shoes, with creation being completely and 100% under him, and God giving him everything to rule and name.
Anon you said it yourself, the void was there before you fixed your shit, and it's still there now. I can empathize as I wasted my 14-25 years because even when imagining the best case outcomes I would hate what I saw. Where did that get me? More limited in my potential. Even getting a loving gf who fricked me at least daily, never cheated, etc., couldn't keep the void at bay, so I left her.
Like these other anons are saying, you have to go out of your comfort zone. This isn't some midwit psychology advice either, existence is not what you (probably) think it is. You will never escape that void, and that's ok. You have to make peace with that, or you're in for a bad time. Manage working chaos into your schedule, or the universe WILL do it for you, and you probably won't like the way it choses to frick your shit up. It's all about balancing; too much routine or too much inconsistency is not possible.
Grasp what I'm trying to say and still hate it, shaking your fist at the abyss? Congrats, you understand the mindset that drives people to religion, esotericism, etc. You don't have to say, directly find Christ or something, you can pretty much choose whatever speaks to you most as any spiritual practice/philosophy/etc. worth its weight is talking about the exact same thing, just articulating it differently.
No, you can't ever get off Mr. Bone's Wild Ride, even when your physical body dies.
>Grasp what I'm trying to say and still hate it, shaking your fist at the abyss? Congrats, you understand the mindset that drives people to religion, esotericism, etc.
this entire world is predicated on the assumption that you will be sufficiently distracted by longing, materialism, and desire, that you will neglect to realize that your soul is not supposed to be here and that it's not so much a prison, but a waiting room that you keep forgetting to leave.
gnostic christianity, buddhism, and taoism are basically the same thing
if you can escape self-imposed tedium by figuring out your true spiritual desires rather than becoming distracted by the material, you will lead a very charmed life without much effort put in
the three questions you should ask yourself are:
>what am I not willing to die leaving undone?
>when I die, what would make me look back and smile on my time here?
>what can I do, today, that will help me achieve those two things
then you need to accept
>this life may not be exactly what I want and I may leave things undone, but there is no score kept and you don't take anything with you at the end of this, so there's no point in giving yourself grief when you could spend that time enjoying simple things that feed your spirit
Life is only as colorful as you make it.
Shit
almost weekend vibes
>I posted about my broski and I love him so much no homo
>will the LORD have mercy on us all
maybe we are different creatures
throughout my life, the more routined I was, the happier I was
this has just always been true for me. and it's true now. i'm doing well and being pretty autistic about my routine and it i slowly paying off.
maybe your routine itself is just the wrong routine.
> I don't know what to do now. Is this the point in life where you decide to climb or swim something moronic, just throw yourself at some pointlessly risky endeavor that will at least challenge you and make you feel glad to be alive at the end?
Yes.
t. trad climber
cool
>heinkein