I’ll have an old fashioned. So things are going well but since getting back into shape I feel like I have to get my
Money in order, but I don’t know if I should date while doing it. I have a tendency to focus on my relationships more than my finances when I’m in a committed relationship. I don’t want to make that mistake again but I am pretty lonely. I also have no interest in one night shit, for one, I don’t use Tinder and want to get married one day soon.
Part of me knows money is the right answer, but I really want to share my life with someone special right now because when something great happens it’s just me.
I just want to be happy with a girl but because I've been watching porn since I was a teen, my brain will always expect an 8/10 at least.
The damage the porn industry causes is massively underplayed.
>The damage the porn industry causes is massively overplayed
Pretty much. You can break the effect though, just abstain long enough that normal girls do it for you
Can't even wank off to porn at this point, like 95% of porn is women doing ridiculously unrealistic faces and noises which is an instant turn off
Like it's just super bad acting
I'm coming down from a psilocybin microdose, which makes me feel slightly better about this, but I've never felt this alone in my life. I still miss her after more than a year bros. I'm 27 and I'm afraid I'll never feel like I felt when I was 21. I'm afraid I won't make enough money to survive the great reset. I'm afraid I'll never regain my social capabilities, that my depression will just get gradually worse until there is nothing left and that I'll end up like my dad. I'm scared that I won't be able to take care of my mom and brother, and I sure af don't want to be a burden.
My friends are getting more detached as they see me going full tinfoil hat, even though I don't even know what to believe in anymore. I just really love entertaining ideas and searching for a truth in this life, and live according to my principles to reduce suffering for everyone around me. Haven't been to work in two weeks now because I've never felt this down in my life. It just feels like everything is falling apart and that there won't be any sunshine if this storm would ever come to an end.
Can I get a whiskey on the rocks please?
This week has been pretty shitty, not because things were going wrong but because I havent been taking care of myself as well as I could be, but I'm determined to get back on the right path.
Its cliche and you hear this shit all the time but you only live once afterall, and I'd rather look back on a life of hardwork and dedication in meaningful things than drowning myself in instant gratification
I’m making low 6 figures at a remote tech job and just bought a house, thinking about going back to college for a meme degree (philosophy) just to make myself more well rounded in classical literature and the ancient thinkers.
But then I think it’s kind of cringe and completely unnecessary, as well as extremely expensive and I second guess myself.
I also pull 6 figs and bought a house at 24 doing business consulting.
Philosophy departments vary quite a lot in terms of quality. There's a good chance that you'll be paying $40k a year to hear how straight white men are evil.
Just read some books yourself and you'll get as good or better of an education.
Tbh if I was a girl I'd pretend to be interested in a dude to get his money. I completely understand why they do it. It's also why I'm a massive israelite on dates. It's like the old reddit story about the girl that broke up with her bf because she thought he was poor and content with being so, until finding out from friends of friends that he inherited massive oil money but didn't want to spend it.
THEY ALWAYS MAKE SURE TO MENTION THEIR SALARY, usually first, because thats what they think is important.
Tbh if I was a girl I'd pretend to be interested in a dude to get his money. I completely understand why they do it. It's also why I'm a massive israelite on dates. It's like the old reddit story about the girl that broke up with her bf because she thought he was poor and content with being so, until finding out from friends of friends that he inherited massive oil money but didn't want to spend it.
Bitter poorgays absolutely seething that there are more intelligent people making 10x what they do with half the effort kek
I'll take a Jack and Coke, thanks. I'm so fricking lonely bros, I forgot how much being single sucks when you have no friends. I see decent chicks with average, lame dudes who look poor and bummy yet I can't even get anything more than a couple of glances or stares. I use this feeling for lifting motivation, so I can get strong enough to beat the shit out of these gay feelings I got. That's my rant for now.
I feel like this is going to go nowhere but I have to ask someone
For months now, and it's been getting worse I've had something like jock itch. Antifungals don't do anything. I've been moisturizing with aquaphor but my body just rejects it and I end up really itchy and scratching away all the dead skin and lotion.
I'll wake up in the middle of the night to me scratching my wiener and balls. After it happens my skin gets red, blotchy, and starts bleeding/weeping.
I'm going back to the doctor to ask about it but I'm out of fricking options here. I'm basically scratching my dick off and I don't know how to fix it.
If anyone, ANYONE here knows what I can do to stop this from happening, let me know. Not scratching isn't really an option since I keep doing it while sleeping anyway
It may sound stupid, but try eating two cloves of garlic before bedtime + a clove of pic related for a week. It should work both as an antifungal and as a natural antibiotic. Crush the garlic and let it rest 5min before eating.
Drink tea during the day with (preferably raw) honey, half a ts up to one ts of tumeric + black pepper and squeeze half a lemon in it as well. Just make sure the water is not boiling hot when you add the turmeric. That should fight inflammation and heal your skin.
they're cloves, they taste good and kill parasite eggs in your body. I eat them when doing parasite cleanses. operation smell like a fricking paki is a go
Cloves. Chew on one of them carefully for a couple minutes. They taste horrific at first, but you'll get used to it and they're good for you. It should also improve your sleep and they are good for your teeth as well. good luck bro
Struggling to get through the days. Every morning this past month has been hell, I just lie in bed suffering until the pain from hunger forces me to get up and eat a bit, then back to bed. It's awful and I miss her and I wish I could hate her but I can't.
im holding it down in most areas in life but still tfw no gf >in uni >people outgoing >willing to chat mostly >usually chill vibes >post uni >people my age dont give a shit >single women uptight >people in my city I moved to just plan on being there for a year for resume build >they dont want to hang or know anyone >bad vibes
I have a similar issue.
I can get girls' numbers, but they text me and tell me they don't want to go on a date with me. Why don't they just not give me their number?
Detox day 5, been working harder and eating healthier than I've ever done in my life and feel amazing, I used to pop xanax and drink alcohol to cope with my insecurities but since ~2 weeks when I said "frick it can't keep going through the cycle of wasting most my money on drugs, running out and going through hellish withdrawals", went from feeling like a grandpa to feeling 18 again, just seeing my jawline and cheekbones is massive motivation to stay away from alcohol and junk food and the spare cash and how depressed and miserable I get when I run out of xans is motivation enough to stay away from poisonous bs
>went to rock climbing gym alone today as usual >late afternoon/early evening >its basically empty >theres one girl climbing near me with a really nice face, smile, and brapper >shes super bubbly and hyper >encouraging me when im climbing >i fail on the very last move >she strikes up a conversation with me, with words of encouragement, saying Ill get it next time >"yeah next time haha" >she attempts it and completes it, makes it look easy, clearly above my skill level >go again and fail again >tell her I cant do it and go upstairs to the other bouldering wall >Im the only one up there >theres no AC in the building so I take my shirt off >she comes up about 15 minutes later, walks past me >she does a boulder that is far below her skill level >she walks past me again >we make eye contact, she gives me a big smile >I give this autistic smile where Im basically staring emotionless but then slightly raising one side of my mouth >dont turn and look at her as she walks past me, stare dead ahead in the complete opposite direction >continue climbing alone for 20 more minutes >exhausted now >on my way out, shes talking to the girl at the front desk >its only me and them two remaining in the gym >autistically stare dead ahead again on my way out, dont look at any of them
Im so fricking moronic bros I hate myself
>>on my way out, shes talking to the girl at the front desk >>its only me and them two remaining in the gym
stare dead ahead again on my way out, dont look at any of them >Im so fricking moronic bros I hate myself
"Hey, I had to run for [make something up] the other day so I didn't get a chance to ask, do you want to get coffee after this?"
I drink coffee
Just get tea or something, I don't drink it either. You can invite her to "drinks" but that usually implies alcohol at night. I think I actually had this discussion with a girl after inviting her to coffee once. Idk worst she can do is say no. I asked out a girl at my gym after not seeing her for like 6 months
You are an autistic homosexual anon, but you are just like me, honestly I used to be worse. >at uni library studying >walk out to grab a coffee >cute latina shortstack standing at the weird carousel vending machine >"hey sorry, do you think you could help me with this?" >"maybe" >trying to get her snack out but the door is stuck >"hey I think I've seen you before, you also spend a lot of time on floor 2, right?" >"m-maybe idk" >"I just got here for my year abroad and I haven't been able to meet too many people, I'm goblina what about you?" >"door stuck" >"what?" >"door stuck" >walk away
Istg anon if I can get better so can you. Social skills are skills and they CAN be learned. You won't go full womanizer you see her next time, but you will get a little less autistic each time you talk to a girl.
Just relax and take it easy. She was obviously interested in you, so try to at least say hi to her next time, maybe mention how you were stressed last time and had to go. Just have some normal chatter with her, ask her about how long she's been climbing, compliment her on her technique or something. Just make it a steady progression, like you would with climbing or something.
I would kill to get a cute climber gf, so do your best.
Whenever I feel like skipping the gym I put on gym clothes until I feel so silly for not being at the gym that I go. Hope that helps
It's not so much that I feel silly, but that there's something about wearing jeans that makes you not feel ready to workout (of course because you don't work out in jeans), but being dressed to work out at all times (or at least when not doing anything else) has you feel ready.
> Buy cheap baby weight barbell at home (max £100, incl. weight) > Lift until stronk. > Go to gym > Realise still weak as frick > Get over it quickly 'cause you've already paid for the gym membership.
This is what I did, it worked out well. Now the gym is "the workout zone" for me.
Start small. Just go and spend time of the treadmill at different times of the day. There are generally loads of them and no one cares if they are busy. Then you can figure out what times the gym is quieter, from there you can branch out and start using the other gear without feeling like people are watching.
Last week was pretty damn good but this week might be rock bottom. I've just been staring at my wall and occasionally crying. My father told me today that I am a disgrace and that he is ashamed of me. I can't bring myself to do anything I enjoy. I have all this bad shit swirling about in my brain and I just want it to stop. I am surrounded by people yet feel so alone. Wtf is happening to me bros I don't like it
>GF dumps him after 9 years >99% chance that she bounced on another wiener, enjoyed it, and switched partners >Good old female monkey branching >But she would never have done this if Anon had married her >Despite the fact that if they were married she could've got many more benefits from divorce than a simple breakup
Yeah, totally Anon's fault.
Get married Anons, preferentially without a prenump, your wife totally ain't gonna monkey branch on you as she will if you just remain unmarried.
Which pretty much proves my point that marrying her wouldn't have stopped her from monkey branching (to a woman instead of another man because she's bi apparently).
Therefore,
> Has gf for 9 years > Doesn't marry her > Surprised she dumps him
t. autist
This is true >I know one big booty milf at work >she constantly talks about how she put her husband in the dog house >how she has him by the balls and if she wants to she would just divorce him take his house and get dicked down by a younger man >how the younger man would give it to her good
Too bad for him she is already miring me and I hope to be that young man
I think I am just living for my family and friends at this point, my dreams just seem to far to reach at times. Im not complaining in a sense cause I love them all and that should be good enough a reason as any to continue
>5 pm
oh look, another saturday where i did literally nothing but sit in my room wasting my life on the computer not even doing anything interesting or useful, literally just hours and hours of staring at the internet screen. my life is complete and utter shit, no success in any aspect of life, no skills nothing despite being nearly three decades into life, i am completely miserable and despondent because of it, and this is what i do with my free time.
I feel you all
Its 2:30am where i am and im feeling that special kind of loneliness (prompted by finishing cowboy bebop) but reading your posts kinda helps, my situation has something in common with all of you
We’re gonna carry that weight but we’re all gmi
Im embracing myself anons. Im 28 yo and for the first time in my life Im being myself. I accepted that im not a normie, Im a moron/weird boy. enjoy being funny and getting excited about mundane shit. I love manga and animation in general (not only anime). For years I denied liking videogames, but you know, who cares, just dont be obssesed, having friends to play vidya is fricking awesome. I love meeting new people, I love electronic music and raves. I fricking started posting moronic stuff on instagram that no one will get, I doesnt matter if people think im the weird guy, frick em, frick the World. Im being honest with what I like, whats funny to me, whats cool to me. WAGMI bros. For real.
Hey anon, dont feel alone! Wahy dont you watch Samurai Champloo (better than CB)? We can discuss it the next weekend.
>girl I've been seeing has the sole personality trait of "did you see this thing on twitter?"
Now I'm not a catch and I don't think I have a great personality but almost all of our conversations are "anon did you see this tweet? Here's what some people replied. *bluecheckmark I've never heard of* said XYZ, can you believe it?"
It's driving me insane. But literally no one else wants to spend time with me.
Its my 28th birthday today. I have barely thought about my birthday, but its just a fact that its now.
I want to quit my vices. I want to quit smoking and drinking. But i dont want to quit the people i smoke and drink with. I know i cant have both. Its a shame but thats life.
I work so hard but my efforts are unrewarded often. It is punishing but at least i am focused.
I love her. But i dont think i will get her. I let great women go before, i am sure she will join the list.
Life is good. Its so good. I achieved so much that i wanted out of my personal/life goals. But i care about so few of those things.
I wish i lived a more outdoors/active life. But wishing isnt enough you have to do.
I should stop talking with strangers on the internet. Ive been doing this sporadically since i was 14. Might never stop.
Happy birthday, man. Just tell the people you engage in vices with that you're not up for it anymore. If they're your real friends, they won't let it get in the way of your relationship.
You should work hard for yourself, not external factors. If not you'll always be dissatisfied.
You can start living more outdoorsy by hiking at your local state park or gardening.
Wish you more years to come, keep pushing.
Just water please, drinking put me in this situation.
I went camping with a couple friends last weekend. One of them isn't in the best shape so we didn't do as much hiking as I would have liked, but it was still fun. I hadn't been camping in four or five years so it was good to get back out to the mountains for more than a day trip, have a campfire, smores, etc. In the evening one of my friends said she wanted to go down to the river and stargaze a little, so I went with her. I don't remember all of the conversation, we'd all been drinking for a couple hours at that point, but I remember that I asked her if things could have been different between us if I had made a move a couple years back. Stupid. We've been going hiking together just about every week for the past few months, but now shes too busy and keeps pushing back any of the trips we'd planned. STUPID. She just moved in with her boyfriend, and I basically confessed that I still have feelings for her. Now I feel like I fricked up the friendship, and i'm back to hiking by myself.
Water, with apple cider vinegar, please.
My relief for work (security cuck) was late and I had to stay. My private training session had to be pushed back until my relief came in.
I'm realizing how important it is to take initiative with my time, but worry I'll always be too passive and put up with this type of thing in future endeavors.
On the plus side, I've been making strides in my career and am training for a competition soon. Just need to work on social skills more often.
I made my own burger buns and patties. It was fun and tasty. Wish I had someone to eat food with sometimes. I spend all my weekends cooking good food and eating it alone in front of the computer. Sometimes I share with my family but not as often as I would like
i'll take a dark and stormy. make it a double. my girlfriend left me this week, told me she needs some space. she has been putting my wants ahead of her own for years and she finally had an existential crisis. she said she considers everything I say as the truth. we were together for 5 years, I haven't felt like this before.
25. I want a ton of kids but it seems like nobody my age wants any. Something I casually talk to female friends about but even my male friends look at me weird when I talk about raising a family
Finally met someone on hinge, thought we hit it off, a few dates, talking nonstop for about 2 months. Ghosted.
Bros...I can't go on like this. Realistically it wasn't serious. 2 months is nothing in the grand scheme of things but i'm a 30 KHV wizard, my confidence is crushed.
I'm having a hard time just moving forward, demoralized. Is this all modern dating is?
I've reached out to her twice and no response but I do like her. How big of a massive simp move is it to text her again for dinner? Should I just accept it and move on or keep pursuing her?
Ill take a bottle of Bulleit Bourbon.
Im tored of watching everything unfold in this world and nobody is being punished.
I want to rape Joe Biden and every other homosexual Black person loving politician, but no one will help me.
I'm not even one of those bluepill guys that thinks women are the most important thing for a fulfilling life nor do I have stupid romantic ideas about love and relationships
I just want to experience how it is to have regular sex
>listening to music, Goodbye Horses comes on >go to take a shower, start mirin self in mirror >realize i am mirin myself in the mirror while Goodbye Horses is playing >stop the music
would you frick me
i'd frick me
I’ll have whatever cures Covid because for the 4th day in a row I have the same symptoms and I cannot work out or leave my room until I am Covid free.
I swear I am even no longer 100% anti vax. Now only 90%. It just won’t get better anons
I'm pretty scared of driving even though I have a license. I've t boned a tuktuk and been hit by a scooter while reversing on the back
How do i get better bros, i literally drive at 20km/hr
I hate the passage of time. Everything I know and love has crumbled. I don't miss being a kid because life sucked then and it sucks now but at least as an adult I have rights and money. I hate physically growing older. I peaked at 15-16 and it's been downhill ever since. One day I'm going to be all alone and old.
I've gotten an average of probably 2.5 hours of sleep each night this entire week bros. Finally caving and getting drunk tonight in hopes it helps me finally sleep. I had barely any drinks in the last 2 months which was really good for me.
My life has been pure hell for 7 years now due to OCD and anxiety and I'm not sure if it will ever get better, I'm determined to face all my worst social fears when I finally get a good night's sleep just for the hope that this all finally ends because idk what's really causing this horrific constant panic.
Frick bros, anyone else have problems with elbow and wrist when lifting. Feel like those are my weak link currently. So damn close to 1pl8 ohp. Im failing on traditional overhand grip for deadlift as well.
Lads I really really think I'm going to make it this time. Before, around a year ago, I was doing nothing and horribly depressed and manic thanks to bipolar. Also had a seriously bad period in my life with death and heartbreak. However now: >lifting 4x a week. Still duel but making gains >walking every day >quit most drugs (amphetamines, benzos, opiates (not many but still), drinking too much) I have some weed but only higher cbd stuff with THC >play guitar >reading daily >studying IT for a job (been VERY lazy about this until recently >facemaxxing, looking much better >about to get new wardrobe >casually laboring for money, will get a more steady stream of work
A few things I can't remember. Holy shit I'm happy. I'm going to make it.
Bros, I'm just tired. I don't want to exercise, I don't want to work, I don't want to play vidya, I don't even want to browse IST, I just wanna sleep, or cease existing entirely. I'm already in treatment for anxiety and depression, and while I feel better than I did before, I simply don't wanna bother with anything. I don't wanna have friends or a girlfriend, I don't want get out of the house and do anything. I feel exausted, life is not even bad right now, but I remember back in HS when I was getting bullied on the daily, I had more will to live, I just had to get through another day, same goes for college, but I was just isolated instead of bullied, I just had to finish it and get my degree and everything would be better, and it is better, but now what? Sure I can get a better paying job with some effort, and then what? Do what with the money? My entire youth is gone and other than a shitty degree on a shitty college, I have nothing to show for, I'm not special in anyway to anyone, my parents are disapointed at me for reaons I'm not even aware of, extended family lives away and have their own shit to worry about. Honestly I don't even know what I want or what would make this bad feeling go away.
all the same feelings as me but somehow i have lived until 30, i figure youre younger than me. man i wish i had killed myself when i graduated from high school.
Going through a several-month existential meditation bros. Recently I realised the problem of my lonliness
I asked myself, "How do I want to live? And what stops that?"
The answer was: morally/honorably, passionately, gloriously. So far so good.
But then the reason for my depression and loneliness was evident: this world has fricked up values, basically opposite to mine -- so with whom can I live morally? And the world is dead, everyone mocks and lives meaningless passionless consoom lives -- with whom can I share the passion of a wholesome natural life? As for glory, the world is upside down. I play guitar and want to git gud, i cliff climb and want to go without support, I want to keep pushing everything until Im a hero and satisfied with my achievement -- hopefully never (insatiable).
But the world venerates fat c**ts, Black folk, all the worst qualities of everything. Who would even appreciate my glory? This isnt the 90s no more.
The world is dead and externalities are bringing me down. It's affected my lifting.
Not trying to whine, seeing the problem must come before fixing it. Problem is: I cant think of a solution. There just arent people like me anywhere near me in the world, so it looks like I just have to stay lonely and depressed and be self sufficient in that state.
If that's your conclusion then you read it all wrong brother, or read too much into what you think I didnt say or something. I am anything but a hedoniat
Went on a date, did not have sex, but she did say she had a fun time and would like to be friends. I'm not really attracted to her anyway but still stings a bit. Also I stepped into some dog shit and almost got my car rear ended. Give me 3 shots of vodka
> still stings a bit
I know this feel but follow my advice: never take rejection to heart. Become a duck and let women's approval be water off your back.
Starting to realize that I won't ever be with another girl again.
Don't get me wrong, I've had girlfriends in the past, but there was only one girl for whom my affection came from a deep recess of my soul: a close female friend who left the state once we went our separate ways for college before immediately getting a boyfriend and breaking off all contact with me. It feels almost like that deep recess only had that specific amount of affection to give to anyone, for there has not been another one since whose character has related so much to my own, who's made me proud of my masculine energy. Every avenue I've tried to find one through has been utterly fruitless, and the stories of anons here getting mired by girls have begun to pain me given that not one has regarded me the same way, not even if I'm in the gym busting out 5pl8 deadlifts for reps.
On paper, my life is otherwise perfect. Six-figure job, own house, dense circle of good friends, extraordinarily well-travelled, musician, applying for grad school in quantitative finance. On the inside, though, my heart wonders how I let one stupid girl ruin all the fun with the opposite sex I could have been having
>tore a leg muscle >caused all hip and glute muscles to become tight >loosened them up to discover I had an inflamed piriformis muscle >healed to discover I have lower back pain
away at grad school, met a beautiful woman that has me captivated. She legit intimidates me, I can't stop smiling and blushing around her when we talk. Danced with her at our school party tonight, lots of smiles, winks, giggles and getting close, my gay friend found out she has a boyfriend of 4 years. I feel defeated, don't know how I'm going to manage being around her the rest of the summer. I fell for her hard, knew the instant we made eye contact and she smiled it was going to be bad news.
>dances with another guy despite being in a relationship
She's a cheating prostitute dude. That means if she was your GF she would have no problem flirting with another dude behind your back.
No you moron, that’s what people do when they have a good time together
Cucks.
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Oh no le based LAW OF ATTRACTION sigma has entered the thread
Oh noooo everyone hide your girls before they go dancing with him… God forbid they wink…!
I know, that's why I'm crushed about it. Thought she might have been single, figured that was the case because of our interactions. We had great conversations and her long time friend, a roommate of mine here in the dorms, told me to go for it. Would feel wrong if I pursue it further, but I know I'm going to be tempted especially if we continue to connect the way we have.
Don't care, the are sick fricks in the FPH tryna frick every chubby chick they set their eyes on. Then there are those who think the perfect woman has a BMI half that of Eugina Cooney. I'm the normal one.
>go to party with friend and her group of friends >feel left out so I break off the group >keep staring at this tall germanic looking woman, probably 6 foot tall without heels >the type of woman I want to impregnate someday >completely bewitched >she sees me staring and calls me over >we talk about whatever and flirt >She's a decade older than me >that means she won't resist a young buck chasing her right? >rejects me twice using her family as an excuse >didn't get contacts, not even a surname
I'm so stupid. How the frick do I get rejected by late 30s woman? I don't think I read it wrong as she actually told me she was interested.
>ran into my highschool crush >she didn’t get fat have kids or get married surprisingly >I look different now so she didn’t recognise me >still don’t know if made the right call not talking to her
I don’t know if I should if ever see her
So I've always been a bit of a Russophile. Russia is my favorite European country, in terms of literature and art and culture. I am feeling gloomy because of the war and the collapse of Russo-American relations. It is likely I will never get to see Moscow or St. Petersburg irl. People online take quite the pleasure in calling Russians "orcs" and denigrating the Russian language and culture, or cheering on the deaths of Russian soldiers. I think the whole thing is quite tragic. We are now enemies of a people I admire.
I'm Russian living in America and literally nobody under 40 gives a shit about Ukraine here. Maybe no direct flights for a while but you can always travel via a neutral country, same way you get to Cuba now. As for getting visas... I have no idea.
Maybe we are in different circles. On social media I follow, people are still glued to the war.
>Maybe no direct flights for a while but you can always travel via a neutral country, same way you get to Cuba now.
Huh, it's literally illegal to go to Cuba for tourism if you're American. I don't wanna go to jail bc I went to see classic cars in Havana.
i agree, frick the american media narratives demonizing russian people as a whole because of the actions of their leader. shit is ridiculous. we dont call north koreans subhuman orcs because they have a crazed leader yet american media thinks nothing of doing this towards russians (and in turn other slavs because americans think all slavs are the same as russians)
I think it's literally boomers in the State Department who haven't realized Russia isn't communist anymore. They're still stuck in the Cold War. Meanwhile an actually communist China is about to kick our asses to kingdom come
Actually yes
Especially during the first month of the war
My manager repeatedly insulted a Russian guest at hotel I work
Saying boo putin
This fat frick never even met the dude they just told him he was russian
It's possible but officially you might need to tell them you're there to support the Cuban people or something. Cuba doesn't give a shit, they'll happily take your dollars. https://cu.usembassy.gov/u-s-citizen-services/local-resources-of-u-s-citizens/traveling-to-cuba/
I don't know, I live in Seattle and nobody I talk to irl has given me shit for being Russian, even when I get a little too drunk and start Zposting irl. As for the government, at the expense of sounding /misc/ tier there are a few reasons >Russia is a good enemy. Not people of color, on the surface we don't rely on them too much like say China >Politicians in both parties set up grift operations in Ukraine post-2014. Most notably Biden but others too >Many of the israelites who are in our government came here from the Pale of Settlement and have a grudge against Russia. Compare to israelites who came here in the 70s like Brin (hated the Soviets but don't hate Russians as a people) >Specifically in Canada there is a huge Ukrainian diaspora from the (Russophobic) west of the country, whose history is tied more to Austria and Poland than Russia
i agree, frick the american media narratives demonizing russian people as a whole because of the actions of their leader. shit is ridiculous. we dont call north koreans subhuman orcs because they have a crazed leader yet american media thinks nothing of doing this towards russians (and in turn other slavs because americans think all slavs are the same as russians)
Me too
I have been studying Russian for years now
Met many friend from Russia
I hate the fact the same people who hate Russia now couldn’t find Ukraine on a map
> be me > match with chick on bumble > she is really nice, a doctor, tall, 11/10 ass > wanna play it right > 3rd date > we kiss > she puts her hand down my pants, signaling she wants the d > go to my bedroom > cant get it up
im 38 and this has happened 2-3 times to me. Always with women I really liked. I think im unloveable and will never be happy now. I can frick b***hes I dont care about until they tell me they cant go on no more and I have to kinda speed finish to get off... I was kinda nonchalant about it and think she'd like to see me again but right now im just so much in my head that I cant get hard even just to whack off. I really hate myself.
Dude, get some dick pills, best thing I've ever done regarding sex. Happens to the best and it's no shame in buying them, the clerk isn't gonna remember you anyways. When you take them you will feel your dick getting hard regardless, your mind will instantly switch from worrying (which kills the dick even more) to "let's goooo" and you WILL have fun. You can also take them to get your dick in overdrive even if you don't have ED problems anymore, to get 200% performance and frick her longer eg. over a weekend trip. If you go to the gym there's also the side effect of getting better pumps as the pills generally lower blood pressure and you will see more vascularity/feel more pumped when you lift. Go get them, bro, save yourself the pain.
Turns out the supermajority of testicular cancer is benign and statistically and historically normal for men. Having benign teste cancer removed is a 70s meme and I am 100% not kidding mate
My DOCTOR told me this and another confirmed it in a roundabout way. Then I checked: its true.
The point is to literally not worry if (read: WHEN) we show positive to cancer in the testes, something about the cell/fibre type is predisposed to cancerous presence but real malignant cancer is extremely rare. My doctor's exact words were "dont even check, forget about it."
Checking for and worrying about cancer detection in the balls is -- again -- literally a 70s throwback. I don't blame them for overreacting, but if you look it up most health problems are post surgery. Benign (diagnosed) has a small rate of turning malignant.
I'll take a daiquiri with extra lime. It's a pretty boring sunday tbh but I'll enjoy some vidya now I guess. I only train monday/tuesday and then thursday/friday so this week is already done for me. Any of you gays good at mobility/flexibility? I want to learn how to high kick but I currently can't get my foot above abdominal level. How do I do this shit?
Vs legs up against the wall back to the floor. Get your V to max stretch -- your feet at facing up, initial max takes about a minute. Stay there for 10 minutes letting gravity be the only force keeping the stretch. Through that 10 minutes your strings will loosen and you have to keep gaining the inches as your legs allow
When you're done you will be amazed how hard it is to close your legs, it's slow and this process will work. Do this morning and night bruh. Knew a few boys in other gyms with silly complicated half hour stretch routines, this alone got me an overhead kid when I was a lad
The older guy that got me into working out is moving away next week. He's had a positive influence on my life even beyond lifting. I want to thank him properly, but I don't know how without it coming off as gay or sappy.
>be me in mid-20s >girl in her early 30s that I know irl always flirts with me >ask her out >says I'm too young >the only several good dates I had from online dating apps always stop replying eventually despite me not doing anything wrong >most dates are as interesting as canned tuna >want to date but burn out from OLD >don't know anyone else irl I would date >haven't gotten laid in practically two years >broke up with my LTR almost a year ago (last year of which was long-distance, hence no intercourse)
Kinda considering just giving up and going celibate at this point
I’ll have an old fashioned. So things are going well but since getting back into shape I feel like I have to get my
Money in order, but I don’t know if I should date while doing it. I have a tendency to focus on my relationships more than my finances when I’m in a committed relationship. I don’t want to make that mistake again but I am pretty lonely. I also have no interest in one night shit, for one, I don’t use Tinder and want to get married one day soon.
Part of me knows money is the right answer, but I really want to share my life with someone special right now because when something great happens it’s just me.
I just want to be happy with a girl but because I've been watching porn since I was a teen, my brain will always expect an 8/10 at least.
The damage the porn industry causes is massively underplayed.
stop watching porn and stop jerking it for at least a month or two
>The damage the porn industry causes is massively overplayed
Pretty much. You can break the effect though, just abstain long enough that normal girls do it for you
So take charge of your life and cut that shit outta your life
Can't even wank off to porn at this point, like 95% of porn is women doing ridiculously unrealistic faces and noises which is an instant turn off
Like it's just super bad acting
It's all about looks, money and status. Enjoy the ride.
Medicore looks
Mediocre money
Mediocre status
Where the mediocre b***hes at
I'm coming down from a psilocybin microdose, which makes me feel slightly better about this, but I've never felt this alone in my life. I still miss her after more than a year bros. I'm 27 and I'm afraid I'll never feel like I felt when I was 21. I'm afraid I won't make enough money to survive the great reset. I'm afraid I'll never regain my social capabilities, that my depression will just get gradually worse until there is nothing left and that I'll end up like my dad. I'm scared that I won't be able to take care of my mom and brother, and I sure af don't want to be a burden.
My friends are getting more detached as they see me going full tinfoil hat, even though I don't even know what to believe in anymore. I just really love entertaining ideas and searching for a truth in this life, and live according to my principles to reduce suffering for everyone around me. Haven't been to work in two weeks now because I've never felt this down in my life. It just feels like everything is falling apart and that there won't be any sunshine if this storm would ever come to an end.
>coming down from a psilocybin microdose
Microdosing is sub-perceptual, so there is nothing to come down from.
Can I get a whiskey on the rocks please?
This week has been pretty shitty, not because things were going wrong but because I havent been taking care of myself as well as I could be, but I'm determined to get back on the right path.
Its cliche and you hear this shit all the time but you only live once afterall, and I'd rather look back on a life of hardwork and dedication in meaningful things than drowning myself in instant gratification
I’m making low 6 figures at a remote tech job and just bought a house, thinking about going back to college for a meme degree (philosophy) just to make myself more well rounded in classical literature and the ancient thinkers.
But then I think it’s kind of cringe and completely unnecessary, as well as extremely expensive and I second guess myself.
Kys tech bro gay no one gives a shit about your problems
>another tech homosexual starting off with I MAKE SIX FIGURES AND BOUGHT A HOUSE
I also pull 6 figs and bought a house at 24 doing business consulting.
Philosophy departments vary quite a lot in terms of quality. There's a good chance that you'll be paying $40k a year to hear how straight white men are evil.
Just read some books yourself and you'll get as good or better of an education.
>I also pull 6 figs and bought a house at 24 doing business consulting.
congratulations rich anon
>all these 6 figure earners
>still complete degen losers
pottery
THEY ALWAYS MAKE SURE TO MENTION THEIR SALARY, usually first, because thats what they think is important.
Tbh if I was a girl I'd pretend to be interested in a dude to get his money. I completely understand why they do it. It's also why I'm a massive israelite on dates. It's like the old reddit story about the girl that broke up with her bf because she thought he was poor and content with being so, until finding out from friends of friends that he inherited massive oil money but didn't want to spend it.
Bitter poorgays absolutely seething that there are more intelligent people making 10x what they do with half the effort kek
I'll take a Jack and Coke, thanks. I'm so fricking lonely bros, I forgot how much being single sucks when you have no friends. I see decent chicks with average, lame dudes who look poor and bummy yet I can't even get anything more than a couple of glances or stares. I use this feeling for lifting motivation, so I can get strong enough to beat the shit out of these gay feelings I got. That's my rant for now.
I feel like this is going to go nowhere but I have to ask someone
For months now, and it's been getting worse I've had something like jock itch. Antifungals don't do anything. I've been moisturizing with aquaphor but my body just rejects it and I end up really itchy and scratching away all the dead skin and lotion.
I'll wake up in the middle of the night to me scratching my wiener and balls. After it happens my skin gets red, blotchy, and starts bleeding/weeping.
I'm going back to the doctor to ask about it but I'm out of fricking options here. I'm basically scratching my dick off and I don't know how to fix it.
If anyone, ANYONE here knows what I can do to stop this from happening, let me know. Not scratching isn't really an option since I keep doing it while sleeping anyway
Oh and its not an std.
It may sound stupid, but try eating two cloves of garlic before bedtime + a clove of pic related for a week. It should work both as an antifungal and as a natural antibiotic. Crush the garlic and let it rest 5min before eating.
Drink tea during the day with (preferably raw) honey, half a ts up to one ts of tumeric + black pepper and squeeze half a lemon in it as well. Just make sure the water is not boiling hot when you add the turmeric. That should fight inflammation and heal your skin.
I'm with you, I just need to know what pic related is
they're cloves, they taste good and kill parasite eggs in your body. I eat them when doing parasite cleanses. operation smell like a fricking paki is a go
Cloves. Chew on one of them carefully for a couple minutes. They taste horrific at first, but you'll get used to it and they're good for you. It should also improve your sleep and they are good for your teeth as well. good luck bro
its possible you have inverse psoriasis.
>t. has inverse psoriasis
buy some psoriasin and see if that helps. go to the dermatologist
I will derm your mum homosexual
Right in your mums pussy, knickers half down. Psoriasis THAT.
Yeah you heard me
no I didn't could you repeat the question
Beer.
Struggling to get through the days. Every morning this past month has been hell, I just lie in bed suffering until the pain from hunger forces me to get up and eat a bit, then back to bed. It's awful and I miss her and I wish I could hate her but I can't.
im holding it down in most areas in life but still tfw no gf
>in uni
>people outgoing
>willing to chat mostly
>usually chill vibes
>post uni
>people my age dont give a shit
>single women uptight
>people in my city I moved to just plan on being there for a year for resume build
>they dont want to hang or know anyone
>bad vibes
I can talk to women easily. I can't ask them out. I need help
“Hey want to grab dinner this weekend?”
Can't frickin do it
I have a similar issue.
I can get girls' numbers, but they text me and tell me they don't want to go on a date with me. Why don't they just not give me their number?
Women go great lengths to avoid confrontation
Detox day 5, been working harder and eating healthier than I've ever done in my life and feel amazing, I used to pop xanax and drink alcohol to cope with my insecurities but since ~2 weeks when I said "frick it can't keep going through the cycle of wasting most my money on drugs, running out and going through hellish withdrawals", went from feeling like a grandpa to feeling 18 again, just seeing my jawline and cheekbones is massive motivation to stay away from alcohol and junk food and the spare cash and how depressed and miserable I get when I run out of xans is motivation enough to stay away from poisonous bs
You’ll relapse without a design for living that includes a higher power. I’d look into it
>went to rock climbing gym alone today as usual
>late afternoon/early evening
>its basically empty
>theres one girl climbing near me with a really nice face, smile, and brapper
>shes super bubbly and hyper
>encouraging me when im climbing
>i fail on the very last move
>she strikes up a conversation with me, with words of encouragement, saying Ill get it next time
>"yeah next time haha"
>she attempts it and completes it, makes it look easy, clearly above my skill level
>go again and fail again
>tell her I cant do it and go upstairs to the other bouldering wall
>Im the only one up there
>theres no AC in the building so I take my shirt off
>she comes up about 15 minutes later, walks past me
>she does a boulder that is far below her skill level
>she walks past me again
>we make eye contact, she gives me a big smile
>I give this autistic smile where Im basically staring emotionless but then slightly raising one side of my mouth
>dont turn and look at her as she walks past me, stare dead ahead in the complete opposite direction
>continue climbing alone for 20 more minutes
>exhausted now
>on my way out, shes talking to the girl at the front desk
>its only me and them two remaining in the gym
>autistically stare dead ahead again on my way out, dont look at any of them
Im so fricking moronic bros I hate myself
You’re there to climb bro, I’d better see you solving that climb next time you’re at the wall
>>on my way out, shes talking to the girl at the front desk
>>its only me and them two remaining in the gym
stare dead ahead again on my way out, dont look at any of them
>Im so fricking moronic bros I hate myself
"Hey, I had to run for [make something up] the other day so I didn't get a chance to ask, do you want to get coffee after this?"
>Implying I'll ever see her again
>Implying she won't meet anyone new by then, or think I'm a complete moron by now
>Implying I drink coffee
I drink coffee
Just get tea or something, I don't drink it either. You can invite her to "drinks" but that usually implies alcohol at night. I think I actually had this discussion with a girl after inviting her to coffee once. Idk worst she can do is say no. I asked out a girl at my gym after not seeing her for like 6 months
You are an autistic homosexual anon, but you are just like me, honestly I used to be worse.
>at uni library studying
>walk out to grab a coffee
>cute latina shortstack standing at the weird carousel vending machine
>"hey sorry, do you think you could help me with this?"
>"maybe"
>trying to get her snack out but the door is stuck
>"hey I think I've seen you before, you also spend a lot of time on floor 2, right?"
>"m-maybe idk"
>"I just got here for my year abroad and I haven't been able to meet too many people, I'm goblina what about you?"
>"door stuck"
>"what?"
>"door stuck"
>walk away
Istg anon if I can get better so can you. Social skills are skills and they CAN be learned. You won't go full womanizer you see her next time, but you will get a little less autistic each time you talk to a girl.
Just relax and take it easy. She was obviously interested in you, so try to at least say hi to her next time, maybe mention how you were stressed last time and had to go. Just have some normal chatter with her, ask her about how long she's been climbing, compliment her on her technique or something. Just make it a steady progression, like you would with climbing or something.
I would kill to get a cute climber gf, so do your best.
I want to get fit but I'm afraid of the gym
Whenever I feel like skipping the gym I put on gym clothes until I feel so silly for not being at the gym that I go. Hope that helps
That's genius, thank you!
I actually second this
It's not so much that I feel silly, but that there's something about wearing jeans that makes you not feel ready to workout (of course because you don't work out in jeans), but being dressed to work out at all times (or at least when not doing anything else) has you feel ready.
> Buy cheap baby weight barbell at home (max £100, incl. weight)
> Lift until stronk.
> Go to gym
> Realise still weak as frick
> Get over it quickly 'cause you've already paid for the gym membership.
This is what I did, it worked out well. Now the gym is "the workout zone" for me.
Start small. Just go and spend time of the treadmill at different times of the day. There are generally loads of them and no one cares if they are busy. Then you can figure out what times the gym is quieter, from there you can branch out and start using the other gear without feeling like people are watching.
Last week was pretty damn good but this week might be rock bottom. I've just been staring at my wall and occasionally crying. My father told me today that I am a disgrace and that he is ashamed of me. I can't bring myself to do anything I enjoy. I have all this bad shit swirling about in my brain and I just want it to stop. I am surrounded by people yet feel so alone. Wtf is happening to me bros I don't like it
Read Frankl and Nietzsche and get a job. Your life is more than an Azeri flyfishing forum.
>~~*Frankl*~~
No
>Drinking Famous Grouse and coke
>recently dumped by GF of 9 years
>frick life
>just want it to be tomorrow so I can go back to the gym
> Has gf for 9 years
> Doesn't marry her
> Surprised she dumps him
t. autist
>GF dumps him after 9 years
>99% chance that she bounced on another wiener, enjoyed it, and switched partners
>Good old female monkey branching
>But she would never have done this if Anon had married her
>Despite the fact that if they were married she could've got many more benefits from divorce than a simple breakup
Yeah, totally Anon's fault.
Get married Anons, preferentially without a prenump, your wife totally ain't gonna monkey branch on you as she will if you just remain unmarried.
She thinks marriage is an outdated concept, and she didn't jump on a wiener, she dived face first into a c**t.
Which pretty much proves my point that marrying her wouldn't have stopped her from monkey branching (to a woman instead of another man because she's bi apparently).
Therefore,
is an idiot.
Why were you with her 9 years if she thinks marriage is an outdated concept?
Jesus christ thats even worse.
This is true
>I know one big booty milf at work
>she constantly talks about how she put her husband in the dog house
>how she has him by the balls and if she wants to she would just divorce him take his house and get dicked down by a younger man
>how the younger man would give it to her good
Too bad for him she is already miring me and I hope to be that young man
why did she leave m8
what age did you two meet at
This just happened to me too, really should have just married her.
I honestly dont know why i go on anymore.
I think I am just living for my family and friends at this point, my dreams just seem to far to reach at times. Im not complaining in a sense cause I love them all and that should be good enough a reason as any to continue
>5 pm
oh look, another saturday where i did literally nothing but sit in my room wasting my life on the computer not even doing anything interesting or useful, literally just hours and hours of staring at the internet screen. my life is complete and utter shit, no success in any aspect of life, no skills nothing despite being nearly three decades into life, i am completely miserable and despondent because of it, and this is what i do with my free time.
i am so severely mentally ill
Almost went to frick a troony and lose my virginity to it. Fricking gosh bros why am I such a moron why can't I just be normal
Was he hot?
>what's on your mind.
Everything.
I feel you all
Its 2:30am where i am and im feeling that special kind of loneliness (prompted by finishing cowboy bebop) but reading your posts kinda helps, my situation has something in common with all of you
We’re gonna carry that weight but we’re all gmi
Im embracing myself anons. Im 28 yo and for the first time in my life Im being myself. I accepted that im not a normie, Im a moron/weird boy. enjoy being funny and getting excited about mundane shit. I love manga and animation in general (not only anime). For years I denied liking videogames, but you know, who cares, just dont be obssesed, having friends to play vidya is fricking awesome. I love meeting new people, I love electronic music and raves. I fricking started posting moronic stuff on instagram that no one will get, I doesnt matter if people think im the weird guy, frick em, frick the World. Im being honest with what I like, whats funny to me, whats cool to me. WAGMI bros. For real.
Hey anon, dont feel alone! Wahy dont you watch Samurai Champloo (better than CB)? We can discuss it the next weekend.
Yep its on the list as well, but ima watch the bebop movie before, I fell asleep while watching it earlier
Thanks for the encouragement btw bro
>girl I've been seeing has the sole personality trait of "did you see this thing on twitter?"
Now I'm not a catch and I don't think I have a great personality but almost all of our conversations are "anon did you see this tweet? Here's what some people replied. *bluecheckmark I've never heard of* said XYZ, can you believe it?"
It's driving me insane. But literally no one else wants to spend time with me.
Its my 28th birthday today. I have barely thought about my birthday, but its just a fact that its now.
I want to quit my vices. I want to quit smoking and drinking. But i dont want to quit the people i smoke and drink with. I know i cant have both. Its a shame but thats life.
I work so hard but my efforts are unrewarded often. It is punishing but at least i am focused.
I love her. But i dont think i will get her. I let great women go before, i am sure she will join the list.
Life is good. Its so good. I achieved so much that i wanted out of my personal/life goals. But i care about so few of those things.
I wish i lived a more outdoors/active life. But wishing isnt enough you have to do.
I should stop talking with strangers on the internet. Ive been doing this sporadically since i was 14. Might never stop.
Happy birthday anon
Happy birthday anon
Happy birthday bro. You're here forever don't forget.
Happy birthday, man. Just tell the people you engage in vices with that you're not up for it anymore. If they're your real friends, they won't let it get in the way of your relationship.
You should work hard for yourself, not external factors. If not you'll always be dissatisfied.
You can start living more outdoorsy by hiking at your local state park or gardening.
Wish you more years to come, keep pushing.
Just water please, drinking put me in this situation.
I went camping with a couple friends last weekend. One of them isn't in the best shape so we didn't do as much hiking as I would have liked, but it was still fun. I hadn't been camping in four or five years so it was good to get back out to the mountains for more than a day trip, have a campfire, smores, etc. In the evening one of my friends said she wanted to go down to the river and stargaze a little, so I went with her. I don't remember all of the conversation, we'd all been drinking for a couple hours at that point, but I remember that I asked her if things could have been different between us if I had made a move a couple years back. Stupid. We've been going hiking together just about every week for the past few months, but now shes too busy and keeps pushing back any of the trips we'd planned. STUPID. She just moved in with her boyfriend, and I basically confessed that I still have feelings for her. Now I feel like I fricked up the friendship, and i'm back to hiking by myself.
You can't have women friends as an adult man
>B-but!
No!
Silly goose
Water, with apple cider vinegar, please.
My relief for work (security cuck) was late and I had to stay. My private training session had to be pushed back until my relief came in.
I'm realizing how important it is to take initiative with my time, but worry I'll always be too passive and put up with this type of thing in future endeavors.
On the plus side, I've been making strides in my career and am training for a competition soon. Just need to work on social skills more often.
I made my own burger buns and patties. It was fun and tasty. Wish I had someone to eat food with sometimes. I spend all my weekends cooking good food and eating it alone in front of the computer. Sometimes I share with my family but not as often as I would like
Good job, that sounds nice bro. Hope you find a cute girlfriend
i'll take a dark and stormy. make it a double. my girlfriend left me this week, told me she needs some space. she has been putting my wants ahead of her own for years and she finally had an existential crisis. she said she considers everything I say as the truth. we were together for 5 years, I haven't felt like this before.
25. I want a ton of kids but it seems like nobody my age wants any. Something I casually talk to female friends about but even my male friends look at me weird when I talk about raising a family
Finally met someone on hinge, thought we hit it off, a few dates, talking nonstop for about 2 months. Ghosted.
Bros...I can't go on like this. Realistically it wasn't serious. 2 months is nothing in the grand scheme of things but i'm a 30 KHV wizard, my confidence is crushed.
I'm having a hard time just moving forward, demoralized. Is this all modern dating is?
Yes. The gamification of relationships is just another nail in the coffin that is our dystopian society
Live by the app, die by the app. Generally better if you meet them irl since they'll at least make something up or say "I'm just not that into you"
I've reached out to her twice and no response but I do like her. How big of a massive simp move is it to text her again for dinner? Should I just accept it and move on or keep pursuing her?
If she didn't respond the first two times, what makes you think she'll respond if you text her again?
Ill take a bottle of Bulleit Bourbon.
Im tored of watching everything unfold in this world and nobody is being punished.
I want to rape Joe Biden and every other homosexual Black person loving politician, but no one will help me.
I have exactly two friends and they are both physically disabled and dont call often. Im so lonely I'm seriously not coping well.
I wasn't a normie pre pandemic but I got regular dates and went out often with non frens. All my old frens are druggos.
Lonely hurts
Where are you? If your personality isn't horrible and if you are in my city, I wouldn't mind reaching out.
>If your personality isn't horrible
>posts on fit
I really, really need to get a girlfriend.
I'm not even one of those bluepill guys that thinks women are the most important thing for a fulfilling life nor do I have stupid romantic ideas about love and relationships
I just want to experience how it is to have regular sex
>listening to music, Goodbye Horses comes on
>go to take a shower, start mirin self in mirror
>realize i am mirin myself in the mirror while Goodbye Horses is playing
>stop the music
would you frick me
i'd frick me
Bros uncle anon’s vpn stays undefeated. Has he OOOR she knows what they use?
I’ll have whatever cures Covid because for the 4th day in a row I have the same symptoms and I cannot work out or leave my room until I am Covid free.
I swear I am even no longer 100% anti vax. Now only 90%. It just won’t get better anons
It'll probably take about 3 more days anon.
On the bright side you got the strain that's weaker at this point.
You will be fine it took me 2 weeks to fully recover had a shit diet and exercise routine back then though
I'm pretty scared of driving even though I have a license. I've t boned a tuktuk and been hit by a scooter while reversing on the back
How do i get better bros, i literally drive at 20km/hr
I hate the passage of time. Everything I know and love has crumbled. I don't miss being a kid because life sucked then and it sucks now but at least as an adult I have rights and money. I hate physically growing older. I peaked at 15-16 and it's been downhill ever since. One day I'm going to be all alone and old.
I've gotten an average of probably 2.5 hours of sleep each night this entire week bros. Finally caving and getting drunk tonight in hopes it helps me finally sleep. I had barely any drinks in the last 2 months which was really good for me.
My life has been pure hell for 7 years now due to OCD and anxiety and I'm not sure if it will ever get better, I'm determined to face all my worst social fears when I finally get a good night's sleep just for the hope that this all finally ends because idk what's really causing this horrific constant panic.
Frick bros, anyone else have problems with elbow and wrist when lifting. Feel like those are my weak link currently. So damn close to 1pl8 ohp. Im failing on traditional overhand grip for deadlift as well.
Lads I really really think I'm going to make it this time. Before, around a year ago, I was doing nothing and horribly depressed and manic thanks to bipolar. Also had a seriously bad period in my life with death and heartbreak. However now:
>lifting 4x a week. Still duel but making gains
>walking every day
>quit most drugs (amphetamines, benzos, opiates (not many but still), drinking too much) I have some weed but only higher cbd stuff with THC
>play guitar
>reading daily
>studying IT for a job (been VERY lazy about this until recently
>facemaxxing, looking much better
>about to get new wardrobe
>casually laboring for money, will get a more steady stream of work
A few things I can't remember. Holy shit I'm happy. I'm going to make it.
Bros, I'm just tired. I don't want to exercise, I don't want to work, I don't want to play vidya, I don't even want to browse IST, I just wanna sleep, or cease existing entirely. I'm already in treatment for anxiety and depression, and while I feel better than I did before, I simply don't wanna bother with anything. I don't wanna have friends or a girlfriend, I don't want get out of the house and do anything. I feel exausted, life is not even bad right now, but I remember back in HS when I was getting bullied on the daily, I had more will to live, I just had to get through another day, same goes for college, but I was just isolated instead of bullied, I just had to finish it and get my degree and everything would be better, and it is better, but now what? Sure I can get a better paying job with some effort, and then what? Do what with the money? My entire youth is gone and other than a shitty degree on a shitty college, I have nothing to show for, I'm not special in anyway to anyone, my parents are disapointed at me for reaons I'm not even aware of, extended family lives away and have their own shit to worry about. Honestly I don't even know what I want or what would make this bad feeling go away.
all the same feelings as me but somehow i have lived until 30, i figure youre younger than me. man i wish i had killed myself when i graduated from high school.
Unironically test bro. Literally the best thing you could do. Also no porn and masturbation so normal things feel pleasurable again
Going through a several-month existential meditation bros. Recently I realised the problem of my lonliness
I asked myself, "How do I want to live? And what stops that?"
The answer was: morally/honorably, passionately, gloriously. So far so good.
But then the reason for my depression and loneliness was evident: this world has fricked up values, basically opposite to mine -- so with whom can I live morally? And the world is dead, everyone mocks and lives meaningless passionless consoom lives -- with whom can I share the passion of a wholesome natural life? As for glory, the world is upside down. I play guitar and want to git gud, i cliff climb and want to go without support, I want to keep pushing everything until Im a hero and satisfied with my achievement -- hopefully never (insatiable).
But the world venerates fat c**ts, Black folk, all the worst qualities of everything. Who would even appreciate my glory? This isnt the 90s no more.
The world is dead and externalities are bringing me down. It's affected my lifting.
Not trying to whine, seeing the problem must come before fixing it. Problem is: I cant think of a solution. There just arent people like me anywhere near me in the world, so it looks like I just have to stay lonely and depressed and be self sufficient in that state.
Lol, you read what you wrtie? You are just a hedonist c**t. Nothing glorious or morally or venerable in the way you think.
If that's your conclusion then you read it all wrong brother, or read too much into what you think I didnt say or something. I am anything but a hedoniat
> just now realizes the purple hair Black persontroonypocalypse means old world conservatives feel alone
How was life on mars?
Went on a date, did not have sex, but she did say she had a fun time and would like to be friends. I'm not really attracted to her anyway but still stings a bit. Also I stepped into some dog shit and almost got my car rear ended. Give me 3 shots of vodka
> still stings a bit
I know this feel but follow my advice: never take rejection to heart. Become a duck and let women's approval be water off your back.
Take care son
Starting to realize that I won't ever be with another girl again.
Don't get me wrong, I've had girlfriends in the past, but there was only one girl for whom my affection came from a deep recess of my soul: a close female friend who left the state once we went our separate ways for college before immediately getting a boyfriend and breaking off all contact with me. It feels almost like that deep recess only had that specific amount of affection to give to anyone, for there has not been another one since whose character has related so much to my own, who's made me proud of my masculine energy. Every avenue I've tried to find one through has been utterly fruitless, and the stories of anons here getting mired by girls have begun to pain me given that not one has regarded me the same way, not even if I'm in the gym busting out 5pl8 deadlifts for reps.
On paper, my life is otherwise perfect. Six-figure job, own house, dense circle of good friends, extraordinarily well-travelled, musician, applying for grad school in quantitative finance. On the inside, though, my heart wonders how I let one stupid girl ruin all the fun with the opposite sex I could have been having
>tore a leg muscle
>caused all hip and glute muscles to become tight
>loosened them up to discover I had an inflamed piriformis muscle
>healed to discover I have lower back pain
When will this wild ride to recovery end
away at grad school, met a beautiful woman that has me captivated. She legit intimidates me, I can't stop smiling and blushing around her when we talk. Danced with her at our school party tonight, lots of smiles, winks, giggles and getting close, my gay friend found out she has a boyfriend of 4 years. I feel defeated, don't know how I'm going to manage being around her the rest of the summer. I fell for her hard, knew the instant we made eye contact and she smiled it was going to be bad news.
I'll take 2 shots of Casamigos
>dances with another guy despite being in a relationship
She's a cheating prostitute dude. That means if she was your GF she would have no problem flirting with another dude behind your back.
Dancing with someone else, provided the dance wasn't of a sexual nature, isn't cheating or even anywhere close to implying cheating
>lots of smiles, winks, giggles and getting close
You wouldn't call this flirting? Flirting is cheating.
if a woman in a relationship talks to another man its cheating
Cucks.
Oh no le based LAW OF ATTRACTION sigma has entered the thread
Oh noooo everyone hide your girls before they go dancing with him… God forbid they wink…!
No you moron, that’s what people do when they have a good time together
I know, that's why I'm crushed about it. Thought she might have been single, figured that was the case because of our interactions. We had great conversations and her long time friend, a roommate of mine here in the dorms, told me to go for it. Would feel wrong if I pursue it further, but I know I'm going to be tempted especially if we continue to connect the way we have.
My lifting numbers have gone up after watching mlp
any p/sci/cology gays want to explain why?
>what's on your mind?
I want to impregnate Anya Taylor Joy
She looks like that trannie from euphoria
Don't care, the are sick fricks in the FPH tryna frick every chubby chick they set their eyes on. Then there are those who think the perfect woman has a BMI half that of Eugina Cooney. I'm the normal one.
Who's that?
No she doesn't, lol. Anya looks like a deer woman. Your favorite troon looks like a 90's surfer dude
i want to impregnate joy taylor
>go to party with friend and her group of friends
>feel left out so I break off the group
>keep staring at this tall germanic looking woman, probably 6 foot tall without heels
>the type of woman I want to impregnate someday
>completely bewitched
>she sees me staring and calls me over
>we talk about whatever and flirt
>She's a decade older than me
>that means she won't resist a young buck chasing her right?
>rejects me twice using her family as an excuse
>didn't get contacts, not even a surname
I'm so stupid. How the frick do I get rejected by late 30s woman? I don't think I read it wrong as she actually told me she was interested.
>ran into my highschool crush
>she didn’t get fat have kids or get married surprisingly
>I look different now so she didn’t recognise me
>still don’t know if made the right call not talking to her
I don’t know if I should if ever see her
Sunday morning. Lifting day. Kill me.
So I've always been a bit of a Russophile. Russia is my favorite European country, in terms of literature and art and culture. I am feeling gloomy because of the war and the collapse of Russo-American relations. It is likely I will never get to see Moscow or St. Petersburg irl. People online take quite the pleasure in calling Russians "orcs" and denigrating the Russian language and culture, or cheering on the deaths of Russian soldiers. I think the whole thing is quite tragic. We are now enemies of a people I admire.
I'm Russian living in America and literally nobody under 40 gives a shit about Ukraine here. Maybe no direct flights for a while but you can always travel via a neutral country, same way you get to Cuba now. As for getting visas... I have no idea.
Maybe we are in different circles. On social media I follow, people are still glued to the war.
>Maybe no direct flights for a while but you can always travel via a neutral country, same way you get to Cuba now.
Huh, it's literally illegal to go to Cuba for tourism if you're American. I don't wanna go to jail bc I went to see classic cars in Havana.
I think it's literally boomers in the State Department who haven't realized Russia isn't communist anymore. They're still stuck in the Cold War. Meanwhile an actually communist China is about to kick our asses to kingdom come
Actually yes
Especially during the first month of the war
My manager repeatedly insulted a Russian guest at hotel I work
Saying boo putin
This fat frick never even met the dude they just told him he was russian
It's possible but officially you might need to tell them you're there to support the Cuban people or something. Cuba doesn't give a shit, they'll happily take your dollars. https://cu.usembassy.gov/u-s-citizen-services/local-resources-of-u-s-citizens/traveling-to-cuba/
I don't know, I live in Seattle and nobody I talk to irl has given me shit for being Russian, even when I get a little too drunk and start Zposting irl. As for the government, at the expense of sounding /misc/ tier there are a few reasons
>Russia is a good enemy. Not people of color, on the surface we don't rely on them too much like say China
>Politicians in both parties set up grift operations in Ukraine post-2014. Most notably Biden but others too
>Many of the israelites who are in our government came here from the Pale of Settlement and have a grudge against Russia. Compare to israelites who came here in the 70s like Brin (hated the Soviets but don't hate Russians as a people)
>Specifically in Canada there is a huge Ukrainian diaspora from the (Russophobic) west of the country, whose history is tied more to Austria and Poland than Russia
i agree, frick the american media narratives demonizing russian people as a whole because of the actions of their leader. shit is ridiculous. we dont call north koreans subhuman orcs because they have a crazed leader yet american media thinks nothing of doing this towards russians (and in turn other slavs because americans think all slavs are the same as russians)
Me too
I have been studying Russian for years now
Met many friend from Russia
I hate the fact the same people who hate Russia now couldn’t find Ukraine on a map
>people I admire
Don't come here.
> be me
> match with chick on bumble
> she is really nice, a doctor, tall, 11/10 ass
> wanna play it right
> 3rd date
> we kiss
> she puts her hand down my pants, signaling she wants the d
> go to my bedroom
> cant get it up
im 38 and this has happened 2-3 times to me. Always with women I really liked. I think im unloveable and will never be happy now. I can frick b***hes I dont care about until they tell me they cant go on no more and I have to kinda speed finish to get off... I was kinda nonchalant about it and think she'd like to see me again but right now im just so much in my head that I cant get hard even just to whack off. I really hate myself.
are you on fin?
just get some viagra bro
it happens to the best. tell her you are nervous in the beginning and that it eventually gets better. she's a doc ffs, she will understand.
Dude, get some dick pills, best thing I've ever done regarding sex. Happens to the best and it's no shame in buying them, the clerk isn't gonna remember you anyways. When you take them you will feel your dick getting hard regardless, your mind will instantly switch from worrying (which kills the dick even more) to "let's goooo" and you WILL have fun. You can also take them to get your dick in overdrive even if you don't have ED problems anymore, to get 200% performance and frick her longer eg. over a weekend trip. If you go to the gym there's also the side effect of getting better pumps as the pills generally lower blood pressure and you will see more vascularity/feel more pumped when you lift. Go get them, bro, save yourself the pain.
Tell her you got nervous and you like her. If she doesn't understnad, she ain't worth it boyo.
I got both testicles removed due to cancer. I don't even know what to do.
Bro you're still alive.
Cherish that, life can be more than just sex, make of it as you will.
Turns out the supermajority of testicular cancer is benign and statistically and historically normal for men. Having benign teste cancer removed is a 70s meme and I am 100% not kidding mate
My DOCTOR told me this and another confirmed it in a roundabout way. Then I checked: its true.
How can you check for testi cancer at home, like check for lumps on your testies or something?
The point is to literally not worry if (read: WHEN) we show positive to cancer in the testes, something about the cell/fibre type is predisposed to cancerous presence but real malignant cancer is extremely rare. My doctor's exact words were "dont even check, forget about it."
Checking for and worrying about cancer detection in the balls is -- again -- literally a 70s throwback. I don't blame them for overreacting, but if you look it up most health problems are post surgery. Benign (diagnosed) has a small rate of turning malignant.
So i no longer worry about it.
Deload week, just finished my workout. There was a girl in blue yoga pants there and her ass was amazing.
God bless gym thots.
I'll take a daiquiri with extra lime. It's a pretty boring sunday tbh but I'll enjoy some vidya now I guess. I only train monday/tuesday and then thursday/friday so this week is already done for me. Any of you gays good at mobility/flexibility? I want to learn how to high kick but I currently can't get my foot above abdominal level. How do I do this shit?
Stretching mate. Former kickboxer.
You got a routine you can recommend?
Vs legs up against the wall back to the floor. Get your V to max stretch -- your feet at facing up, initial max takes about a minute. Stay there for 10 minutes letting gravity be the only force keeping the stretch. Through that 10 minutes your strings will loosen and you have to keep gaining the inches as your legs allow
When you're done you will be amazed how hard it is to close your legs, it's slow and this process will work. Do this morning and night bruh. Knew a few boys in other gyms with silly complicated half hour stretch routines, this alone got me an overhead kid when I was a lad
The older guy that got me into working out is moving away next week. He's had a positive influence on my life even beyond lifting. I want to thank him properly, but I don't know how without it coming off as gay or sappy.
>be me in mid-20s
>girl in her early 30s that I know irl always flirts with me
>ask her out
>says I'm too young
>the only several good dates I had from online dating apps always stop replying eventually despite me not doing anything wrong
>most dates are as interesting as canned tuna
>want to date but burn out from OLD
>don't know anyone else irl I would date
>haven't gotten laid in practically two years
>broke up with my LTR almost a year ago (last year of which was long-distance, hence no intercourse)
Kinda considering just giving up and going celibate at this point