I'm dating this 30 year old virgin chick and i played with her a little bit and she is the wettest woman i ever been with but as i said, she is a virgin. I'm afraid her not having sex all those year she might be low sex drive, are my predictions correct? She told me she never fingered herself or mastrubated. Will fricking her make her crave dick more or im i doomed? I'm thinking of ghosting just because of this
I can't stop thinking about the Japanese girl. She hasn't texted back in a while but that's pretty normal for her. It's just worse now because I can't just go over and see her. The time zone difference makes her normal route of rarely/takes days to answer back feel bad.
I hope she never answers me back and doesn't just reply back to me a few days from now. So the feeling can go away and I can stop fantasizing about her.
homie you’re saving texts??? Please delete any and all evidence this is how men get caught and how women get away with it. I say this for the sake of your kids because if your wife found out and she divorced you they’re the ones who suffer.
Delete, block contact, remove any evidence. If she sent nudes put them in a secure location like a fake calculator app with a passcode. But frick dude don’t be texting this b***h, even if you think you know your wife she could go through your phone and a password means nothing she’ll discretely watch you unlock it if she really wants to snoop.
I thought the situation was a little based and funny but it’s getting bad man
I have a Samsung phone. We're using an app with another instance of wechat on a secure folder. No one but me knows It exists and my wife is an apple lover.
Nah, I don't have nudes of her nor did I ever ask for any. She's has Instagram pics that I saved on a secures folder though. I could always play those off to me having porn if my wife ever sees them since they looked proffesionals.
i don't know your story but if she isn't all over you already it's probably over brother. Just let it go. t. in a long distance relationship with a japanese girl who was lovey-dovey from the start and has continued
I say she's japanese but she's really only half Japanese and half Chinese. And she grew up in China. I think I still have a shot. I met my first fiance and my wife long distance too and we had a similar style of communication in terms of how long it took to respond.
The age gap we had didn't seem to bother her and she warned me before hand she hardly ever responded to text and it something her mother and friends complain about constantly.
That being said if it just ends here it might be an overall good thing.
Just had a family dinner and my fricking cousin has the audacity to bring his literal 10/10 gf.
He's like 140lbs soaking wet, constantly drunk and will talk for hours without shutting up and she looks at him like he's the king of the world.
Meanwhile I managed to say like 8 words before spilling my spaghetti and sitting in silence during the entire dinner.
Why did God have to curse me with this fricking terrible autism
t. talked to humans for the first time this week, misspoke at least 20 times
also frick off jannies, leave us alone
you'd think after 27 years I'd finally have enough experience to be a somewhat passable normie but it's like it's impossible to retain anything and every time I talk to someone I'm back at zero
The best I did was stop caring but I acted like a total fool. I pretended to be Johnny bravo and act like I was in love with myself like my shit didn’t stink and I was gods gifts to women. I did manage to have social circles and get laid doing that, but it wasn’t authentic. I’m your age now too and yeah it sucks. Every interaction ever word I speak feels choreographed and planned, unnatural and forced. Like I’m not even in the moment, I’m actively planning and strategizing choreographing IRL seconds before I speak.
I’m the jobless guy who had the ptsd ridden ex. That i fricked around with In december-january.
met her and her new bf the other day. My head has been messed up since, even tho i didn't want to get back together at any point after we split. But i'm still thinking about her way to often and it ruins my mood
Truly, social slowness and weirdness is the worst curse... especially when, like most men here, you are acutely aware of female beauty and feminine energy. Every time there is a big gathering and you underperform, you can feel the females there just be unimpressed and look at you as less capable. So brutal.
I’ve been struggling with this too man.
Last couple years I’ve been trying to do better, and I’ve definitely made some progress in productivity and not just rotting in bed all day. But it’s come and gone. Basically I’ll have a couple good weeks where daily I get stuff done, then back to a couple weeks where I have whole days I do nothing and drag my feet all week on chores that would only take an hour to get done.
Making lists (physical) helps, as does making the first item on the list something that isn’t work and I will do no matter what such as take my morning shit, just to scratch it off get a small dopamine boost and get the ball rolling. My autism also likes seeing the whole list blacked out so leaving one scratched and not the others fricks with me. Just for some advice. Keep the lists small, 1-5 things per day. Even stuff you wouldn’t normally do like spot clean the bathroom. Be consistent and progressive overload it gradually add in more difficult stuff.
I’m more productive on average but it’s still not great. I did laundry and went grocery shopping today. Cleaned my room a bit. Hey, I actually did more than I realized today without even having a list 😀
Make your lists man. Try what I suggested.
I just want to find a guy who I can tender and loving with that I'm attracted to that isn't a total prostitute. Why is this so hard? I try to stave off the negativity but it's hard. It's upsetting how at best- i am treated like a piece of meat or meal ticket.
I don't think cold approaching men would work out at ALL so I'm just stuck on these apps, biding my time. In a perfect world I just wouldn't care, I'd delete the apps, focus on myself. But I'm lonely. No friends or family. The most conversation I had today was two brief exchanges with a restaurant worker to took my pickup order
I'm gonna try put this unpleasantness out of mind at least temporarily and have a nice night.
Wierd thing is, I actually didn't do anything this time. Connected to a already banned I.P. Someone spammed their discord and got banned for a month. I had to reset it.
>Landlords are trying to jack my rent up an extra $500 a month >Will be paying $425 instead of $324 like i pay now >Showed them the rental downstairs in the same apartment building as mine is only $360 a week and is 10x better than my shithole >Offered them a increase of $10 a week. >Waiting to here back from them
>weather is pretty decent to go biking >but it's after lunch, so parents are about to go take a nap >anxious about leaving the house like that
You might want to see if you could move to that other rental at moment's notice. Your landlords might the type to cut expenses somewhere else if they agree to your terms.
>ywn be an Amazonian’s qt Femboy bf >ywn be reassured that you’re not just enough, but perfect in her eyes >ywn feel the motherly love and protectiveness of her >ywn be the small spoon on the couch during movie night >ywn wake her up by using your cute boy mouth to tease her with blowies each morning >ywn encourage her during her lifts >ywn be used as her personal stress relief after her workout >ywn be exhausted, then curled up on her chest like a kitten for snugs and fall asleep together
lost my job, man I feel like shit, just frick everything up somehow even when I'm trying hard not to. I swear to god there is something wrong with me, adhd autism or something, and growing up people always said I'm just lazy & need to focus. trying my absolute fricking hardest to focus, getting out the van to make sure I don't fricking back into anything, still fricked up and ran a stop sign.
I fricked up at my last job, I flipped my car and almost died, got a decent job finally and lost it in a week all in the span of months.
my life is just waiting for negative things to happen, no good days, no luck, no good things happen to me, just negative as frick experiences every few months. if something good happens its going to be taken in away.
was a decent delivery job, something I was looking for driving around the country side. took me months to get it. all the jobs available are just garbage I don't want to do.
I hear you man. >be unemployed for year >get job >hold that job for 1.5 years, work 6-7 days a week, put self in good financial situation >able to replace 20+ year old car with something newer, get a used work truck because of job and also thought it was cool >company closes, laid off, also was 1099 because boss was a dothead who cut corners >total truck in wreck, replace it with a used 2010, guys insurance sued me didn’t have full coverage my lawyer israelites them down (they wanted $50k to replace his car which didn’t have a scratch somehow) but it’s the last of my savings >be unemployed and flat broke last 2 years, anxiety and depression worse and worse >apply all day every day but no one hires me >get call back from job like a month ago, actually get interview >get job >after first week of training boss says he hurt his shoulder not to come in & he’d lmk zelles me my payment for the week then never gets back to me
Literally had all my anxiety begin to fade with that job, and I hated it. I hated everything about that job but I felt so much better having one at all. Pay wasn’t even bad. I think he ghosted because he’s a pothead, he would tell me to do XYZ so I do XYZ exactly as he showed me, he says good job and he had to go make calls, comes back reeking of pot and starts yelling at me for doing it wrong then shows me how to do it in a totally different way than he originally did. I think his pot habit made him think I was incompetent.
Idk what’s going on. Fast food and retail won’t even hire me. Idk why I can’t find work. I need money. I need work. I feel fricked. I hate my living situation, I hate stagnating and making no progress, I hate not having a routine and I hate being broke.
I've got a nasty little cold right now and I'm regretting every single little thing in my life right now. wishing I didn't spend so many years being a neet drug addict, increasingly concerned about my chosen career path, missing old friends that I haven't seen since the covid lockdown, etc.
I've wasted so much time on the internet.
I take care of myself and work out, I dress okay, and I can hold conversations.
So why the frick can't I get a fricking gf? The dating pool is so shitty when you're in your late 20s. Doesn't help that I have to rely on the fricking apps. >just go meet people
Go where? I don't drink alcohol anymore, there are no real "clubs". Seems like I'm doomed to fail.
>I take care of myself and work out, I dress okay, and I can hold conversations.
Literally no women care about these things so that'd be why you have no gf.
im alright. probably going to a concert alone on wednesday and im both excited and scared. other than that my life is dull as frick and only my cat is here for me
hear me out. I recently moved to a new appointment. las week I was at my varanda ar night and I saw a "guy" looking. I immediately went inside. today, like 1h ago, I was smoking a cigar, I for some reason I look there, and there she was, a cute girl with glasses, shot hair, and some good boobies. she was in her bra. She saw me looking, I was looking directly, without any intention to hide. so fricking hot, I got so hard. But i think her boyfriend appeared a bit after.
wat do? How do I know when she's there again changing?
girlfriend of 4 years left me two weeks ago. Said she wasn't happy in the relationship, wanted to be single to find herself, I wasn't happy, enthusiastic or joyful about anything, etc etc
She was right, I am pretty depressed, my dad died two years ago, never really dealt with it. Just figured everything would be okay because I had her. House is a mess? Not a problem, I have her. 270 lbs? Not a problem, she still loves me. Not happy about anything in my life and dont know how to feel joy? Doesn't matter, I'm happy with her even if I didn't show it. Now shes gone. Now I have to deal with my problems. Went to the gym for the first time in 8 years, started counting my calories, actually reading, taking supplements, scheduled an appointment with a therapist. I'm gonna work on myself, better myself. Just wish she was still around
If it makes you feel any better, my gf of almost 6 years also left me 1 month ago and I've kept myself fit all these years, if anything I've gotten more attractive, have more money, and all around improved myself consistently across the years. My point being, sometimes people just leave, don't torture yourself with thoughts like "If I had done X she would've stayed".
I'm here, why do you think? All anons are dysfunctional to some degree, we can never be totally "normal". In my case, I'm emotionally distant and hermit-like, probably an undiagnosed schizoid.
I actually take pride in the fact that the relationship lasted that long, when I was a teen I though I would be alone for the rest of my life.
She was my first "real" gf and we were each others first and she was a nice girl, I'm lucky to have had the opportunity to experience a "normal" relationship.
I don't really miss her though, or being in a relationship, but I do get lonely sometimes at night and miss the sex.
If it makes you feel any better, my gf of almost 6 years also left me 1 month ago and I've kept myself fit all these years, if anything I've gotten more attractive, have more money, and all around improved myself consistently across the years. My point being, sometimes people just leave, don't torture yourself with thoughts like "If I had done X she would've stayed".
never get normies that spend so much time together but don't at least get a baby out of it
probably leads to lots of cases were things just fall apart like this
How do I prevent this webm happening to me? >turning 27 end of this year >never had a gf >don't have a career
I went from being a NEET of years to actually lifting and finding a job, I do mog my past self from 2 years ago but it feels like there's diminishing returns and I have stagnated.
I try to be social (even tho I was a shut in during teenage years) at work and actually have a lot of male friends at the gym.
I don't want to believe it's over.
Just broke up with my long term gf, fricking hurts bros
She did nothing wrong really, nothing malicious, but we just weren't compatible anymore. She always loved me more than I loved her. We just were too opposite, it's like our ways of handling stress were too grating on the other and our stress relief was exactly what made the other person more stressful
We spoke about marriage, almost moved in together recently too, and now it's just gone.
I made the decision, but now I feel like I wanna take it all back already, I don't know what to think. I know deep down I wasn't happy with her, we fought so much, especially the last year, but now I'm alone and it's odd. I hated hurting her so fricking much bros, but I lost myself by trying to change to fit her better
alright so now im REALLY curious. absolute hail mary from the last bar thread. whoever typed this, is you in here? >Anonymous Sat 13 Apr 2024 06:55:05 No.74041417 Report
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>Is it some variation of Krystal or Krystel or something like that?
it wasnt but it was close, unless she changed it to be more hippy dippy (she was an evolving hippie). where you at? you in california? san hoe? you tell me mfer!
Her name was kristelle. I think she’s moved to cali at some point but idk. I know she’s got close friends in cali. Covered in tattoos? Huge breasts? Forearm full of cutting scars? If so, I’ve dumped thousands of nuts deep in her pussy and across her face before ever taking her on any sort of date as have many other men. Had her begging for massahs big white dick at one point, she’s super against racism btw even though she used to hate blacks herself. Literally just stop dating her, push pull be aloof and indifferent. Stop caring (if it is her, and this fails you only lose a hoe). Don’t even reach out let her text you, then tell her to come over don’t ask tell her to come watch movie with you at your place if she says no then stop replying. She’s a prostitute man, if it’s the same b***h. Took my virginity if it is. She has put hands on me and manipulated and gaslit. Simply put, this isn’t a wife or even GF if it’s her so be careful BUT I miss the sex ngl. Full blown BPD chick, but frick she can suck a dick. Best head I’ve ever had. Took a while to get over her but I’m in love with my new girl so idgaf good luck bro. Lmk if this sounds like her, last I saw of her she was trying to be “black earth girl” hippy b***h btw. Too wild if it’s her man
oh no that aint her. she aint ratchet like that, doesnt have tattoos. petite but a nice bubble butt. she was actually pretty classy, otherwise i never woulda dated her without her putting out. man how crazy would that have been though? the girl you talking about sounds pretty sweet though. wouldnt mind a piece of that. there arent any black women where i live now though so i guess its over
Yeah dude it would have been an insane IST story. Well good luck man, if she’s how you say you might have found a worthwhile one. Don’t do any frickboy tactics with her see what happens. But also, don’t waste your time. My current black GF is classy and petite comes from a good Christian family and it took a while to clap but it was worth it. I can see myself marrying her.
Her name was kristelle. I think she’s moved to cali at some point but idk. I know she’s got close friends in cali. Covered in tattoos? Huge breasts? Forearm full of cutting scars? If so, I’ve dumped thousands of nuts deep in her pussy and across her face before ever taking her on any sort of date as have many other men. Had her begging for massahs big white dick at one point, she’s super against racism btw even though she used to hate blacks herself. Literally just stop dating her, push pull be aloof and indifferent. Stop caring (if it is her, and this fails you only lose a hoe). Don’t even reach out let her text you, then tell her to come over don’t ask tell her to come watch movie with you at your place if she says no then stop replying. She’s a prostitute man, if it’s the same b***h. Took my virginity if it is. She has put hands on me and manipulated and gaslit. Simply put, this isn’t a wife or even GF if it’s her so be careful BUT I miss the sex ngl. Full blown BPD chick, but frick she can suck a dick. Best head I’ve ever had. Took a while to get over her but I’m in love with my new girl so idgaf good luck bro. Lmk if this sounds like her, last I saw of her she was trying to be “black earth girl” hippy b***h btw. Too wild if it’s her man
And btw if it is her, she moved to cali for an ex who she isn’t over.
I think I need some sort of emotional support at times, but whenever I open up to someone, I always regret it without fail. I used to be less sensitive when I was younger. I was sure of myself and needed no one. How do I return to the way I was before?
Should I get back into dating apps
I quit them all together after having 0 luck during the last few months
I had luck before matched with a 10/10 emo girl and she messaged first
I was hoping to meet someone at my school
But I am at the trade side of the campus
So pretty much the only time I see women is when they are going to the parking lot
So it’s only like a 30 sec window if I am lucky
In my work a meh 5/10 supervisor with a nice ass is constantly saying high anon good job today and I am the only person she does this to
I deleted all my apps months ago
No I feel like it’s my only chance in finding someone to at least have sex with a bit
(I know this one decent chick who would dm me all the time there) she was just decent looking which is why ignored her
Should I go for it or wait a month or two
If not dice at school
I was just diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. Ive been lifting for years, tracking my macros, eating clean without much junk except on things like birthdays, and my doc says I have four months. I'm 29. I feel lost and sad
Sorry about that, I can't imagine how it feels.
I would recommend reading about going on a no carb all red meat diet, it has helped some with cancer. Take it with a grain of salt tho.
Again, I'm sorry.
Thsts terrible. Do you actually feel different/sick or not?
You should try carnivore, since for some it helps, but again like the other anon said, it's a long shot. Might as well go out whoring and traveling with the time left.
Do you have any resources for an all meat diet helping with cancer? I feel so numb right now, but anything couldn't hurt I guess. I dont feel different I just some abdominal discomfort after meals, so I went to the doctors office, and he referred me to get a colonosopy after an ultrasound found nothing
>Do you have any resources for an all meat diet helping with cancer?
I advise to spend the rest of your time in w worthwhile way, without falling for all sorts of quakeries
no amount of dieting or meme diets will help you in any way, all the random anons posting their shit takes have drool dropping from their mouth
>Do you have any resources for an all meat diet helping with cancer?
I advise to spend the rest of your time in w worthwhile way, without falling for all sorts of quakeries
no amount of dieting or meme diets will help you in any way, all the random anons posting their shit takes have drool dropping from their mouth
The red meat diet can be a longshot but why not at least try you got nothing to lose, don't expect it to save you but if you try expecting nothing at least you tried. I would in your shoes, but you do you anon.
Spend the rest of your time as if it's your last regardless.
it's stage 4, it's already ogre, there isn't a stage 5 or 6
I want dietgays to rope themselves so much, no amount of obsessing or neuroticism over fricking food will magically improve your life or cure you from a disease
I was just diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. Ive been lifting for years, tracking my macros, eating clean without much junk except on things like birthdays, and my doc says I have four months. I'm 29. I feel lost and sad
Watch this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nYL-0QRARhY
Do the Gerson Therapy. It is the only method proven to cure terminal cancer. It has a near 50% cure rate for stage IV cancers. The people telling you to eat "only red meat" are trying to get you killed. Countless studies have shown that that is exactly what causes colon cancer in the first place.
I advise you put aside any beliefs you might hold on the subject and carefully examine your options.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
>Coffee enemas can cause infections, dangerous electrolyte deficiencies, and death (5). Despite proponents' claims of recovery rates as high as 70-90 percent, case reviews by the NCI and New York County Medical Society in 1947 found no evidence of anticancer effects with the Gerson diet
frick off
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
>low sodium diet plus laxatives
Yeah I bet that'll cure him. What a crock.
>hey bro put coffee up your butt >also take all these chemicals >no Theres no evidence btw
This is a 6 hour lecture on the Gerson Therapy with countless people giving testimonials https://youtu.be/6gZYM7dL3rI?t=3834
Pic rel. includes 50 terminally ill cases with biopsies, bloodwork, x-rays, all from INDEPENDENT hospitals (not affiliated with Gerson) showing a complete remission and cure. No other therapy has shown that. Max Gerson was assassinated a month after it's release. The telegram group I linked contains countless testimonials of chlorine dioxide curing cancer as well. You can find endless before-afters and watch the tumours literally shrink within weeks.
I sincerely hope you're shills because if not, you're doing a massive disservice to mankind for nothing. The truth about cancer will eventually come out and when it does you'll have to answer to God about how many lives you've helped ruin.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Testimonies mean literally nothing. You can fine testimony from people who did the macrobiotic diet and took bleach enemas to cure autism
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
https://web.archive.org/web/20220614100445/http://www.users.on.net/~pmoran/cancer/Gerson.htm
Here's a debunking of those 50 cases. Gerson always took any vaugery as a sign he was right. Over half the time the tests weren't done, the tumors were thought to be benign and other times, they sought gerson out after having other therapies or surgeries, so you can't pin the remission on him.
Nice try.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
>low sodium diet plus laxatives
Yeah I bet that'll cure him. What a crock.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
Additionally, I'm going to drop some redpills that I hope will infuriate the shills. >Fenbendazole and Ivermectin >MMS >GcMAF >Hyperbaric oxygen chambers >Intravenous Vitamin C >Vitamin B17 >Hoxsey herbs >Sweet wormwood >Essiac >Juice fasting/water fasting
And the #1 >Chlorine dioxide
All of these will kill of the cancer. But the most important aspect is restoring the immune system. You can only do that with a healthy diet where your body is flooded with vitamins and minerals. Your body needs nutrients or it cannot mount an immune response against the cancer.
See https://patents.google.com/patent/US10105389B1 >The chlorine dioxide compositions are injected directly into the cancerous tumor and the resulting tumor is effectively eliminated from the patient or subject over a period of one to several days to a few weeks, often after a single injection, or multiple injections at one session into the tumor.
At this point in time, anon needs to do everything within his power to restore his body. Thankfully, colon cancer is easily curable. I highly recommend you check out https://t.me/ChlorineDioxideTestimonies/1
and read the countless testimonials of people recovering-- in full -- from cancer.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
>hey bro put coffee up your butt >also take all these chemicals >no Theres no evidence btw
Sorry about that, I can't imagine how it feels.
I would recommend reading about going on a no carb all red meat diet, it has helped some with cancer. Take it with a grain of salt tho.
Thsts terrible. Do you actually feel different/sick or not?
You should try carnivore, since for some it helps, but again like the other anon said, it's a long shot. Might as well go out whoring and traveling with the time left.
This is what killed my sister.
I wish you the best anon, truly. Try to write down all your meds and keep track as best you can, because nurses will make mistakes.
Yeah I think I might be a masochist and I can't stop self harming. Uhmmm this is bad, looks like I have a huge maladaptive cope for dealing with pain and stress.
>go on a first date with a chick from tinder/bumble >she reveals that she's going to a therapist, was depressed, didn't work for 2 years, her ex was abusive, she avoids some parts of town, doesn't have any friends etc - all or a combination of these and some other interesting quirks and features >the next day says we shouldn't go on a second date >this happened 3 times already (not consecutively just in the last couple of months)
Online dating is fun
>mentally I’ll past baggage/trauma abusive ex
Sounds like she did you a favor.
Should I get back into dating apps
I quit them all together after having 0 luck during the last few months
I had luck before matched with a 10/10 emo girl and she messaged first
I was hoping to meet someone at my school
But I am at the trade side of the campus
So pretty much the only time I see women is when they are going to the parking lot
So it’s only like a 30 sec window if I am lucky
In my work a meh 5/10 supervisor with a nice ass is constantly saying high anon good job today and I am the only person she does this to
I deleted all my apps months ago
No I feel like it’s my only chance in finding someone to at least have sex with a bit
(I know this one decent chick who would dm me all the time there) she was just decent looking which is why ignored her
Should I go for it or wait a month or two
If not dice at school
TLDR but no you should not see above it’s all trash focus on you, focus on being happy and comfortable alone get to the point you don’t feel lonely alone/rarely feel lonely (your human). b***hes will come to you. And if they don’t approach them, if you’re doing well and not hurt ugly you’ll meet some IRL. And if not then it becomes a numbers game. Dating apps = trash.
Who else here grew up with an unstable mom and “emotionally absent” father?
She would randomly get mad at us for thinking that we wouldn’t do something if she’d ask us
She’d go silent and say “everything is fine” when it obviously wasn’t the case, then she’d put the blame on us for not doing something she never told us to do.
My dad was almost always at work, he’d just tell me to go study and/or stop playing vidya.
Now they expect my brother and I to get married kek
Moved to Germany with my girlfriend so she could be closer to her family (we're both American, her step mom is German). She recently got diagnosed with autism and ADHD before we moved and it all makes sense why she was the way she is.
Needy, sensitive to anything, emotional, high strung. I don't say this to be all "hurr durr, woman emotional. Since the beginning of 2023 I've been in therapy, maintained a good job, lost 20lbs and counting, quit drinking and vidya.
However, since we moved here she's been crushing me. She has intensive German courses and that's it. Learning a new language is no joke, but I work a full time job, go the gym, trying to learn German, up skill in my job, and do all of the household chores (cooking, cleaning, budgeting, etc.) she claims she can't handle any of this because "muh autism executive dysfunction." Which in part I believe but now nothing can be "disruptive."
>Argument about household chores? Nope, I can't handle this I need to focus on German.
>Forgot to pack her lunch and make breakfast because I had to go to the gym early to log on for work meeting? "How dare you! I didn't anything all day and struggled in class."
>Demands to help with German, help with taxes, how to make conversations with people in her class, plan a weekend trip, all of it she can't handle these day to day things as it's all too much from autism.
>Hey, wanna go to this cool exhibit, or this expat meet up? "Oh god, no, I'm so tired and have a lot of studying for German. Plus I don't want to deal with people!"
I feel bad because I know without me shed either kill herself, or best case scenario move back in with abusive and insane family.
I want to go back to school, learn German, get a new job, make new friends, just fricking live my life and relish living in a new country, but I can't with this shit unless I make sacrifices in my time on the main things rn (gym, studying, working) and that's just gonna dig a hole there either.
Yeah no chance there. I don't really want kids, at least I don't think I do. Especially not with her though. She also has a litany of physical health issues (joint issues, eczema, possible endocrine issues)
I know I don't want to be a caretaker and I think this is where I'm at. I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted from all of this and it looks like there is no light at the end of the tunnel.
Bro, you know how this story ends? You give the best years of your life to this parasite you call a "gf" and she ends up cheating on you down the road for "neglecting" her. You know what to do, cut your loses, you still have time to rebuild.
Very curious why you say that? Just want to get your insight on what's wrong with Germany when comparing some of the bullshit the US has? The US is by no means a shit hole, but the health care, education, and public infrastructure in Germany is way above the US in my experience so far
>believing in ADHD autism, and therapy >moving to Germany of all places
I don't have nothing to comment nor do I have an advice for you, but you're one funny fella. I mean I've done some utterly dumb shit because of women, but this is next level.
>some modicum of advice
Well, I guess you already know the best course of action here. Prepare an exit strategy, exit, minimize the damage for all sides involved. I guess you'd already be leaving her better off than you picked her up so just take care of yourself.
But since you've asked, try not to make live-changing or costly decisions to accommodate a woman again, like, don't move countries, don't travel to visit her, don't travel with her to entertain her, don't move in with her (I mean her place), don't get pressured into going anywhere from her parents anniversary to a festival just to please her.
I was young and moronic and did like half of that list. Only going to another country to frick was remotely worth it (she was a total baddie)
Yeah it's fair. It's going to be nigh impossible to have some sort of damage from this and the fact we're still living together is shit, so I guess it's just going to be a fricking mess for a few months if I can find the courage.
I guess I never really had normal relationships modeled in my life with divorced parents and broken homes, so having the gusto and know how to bite this bullet is just scary and overall makes me feel like a shitty person for "giving up" on her. I do feel like moving on might be best for me in this situation.
>I guess I never really had normal relationships modeled in my life with divorced parents and broken homes
Same man, same. Didn't have anyone telling or showing me how this stuff is supposed to work so had to do a little bit of exploring and fricking around. I think it's fine, you'll do fine.
lmao your gf is a frickin bum. sorry, bro but adhd is no excuse for being a shithead. gotta wonder why she doesnt seem to feel the need to care about you in any way. i mean, is she your gf or your toddler?
>Moved to Germany with my girlfriend so she could be closer to her family (we're both American, her step mom is German). She recently got diagnosed with autism and ADHD
I refuse to believe posts like this aren't a joke
hate how when things went bad in my life, that i had my ex. so it wasn't as bad, now that i'm not with her anymore i really see how shit life is, when i'm without a job
yeah i'm thinking of getting something manual labour shit, where the money is good but boring work, just for a few months, so i can save up, i'm losing all my savings being jobless
I've decided that instead of autisticly masking myself at work I'm just going to be me. Tried it today (wore my hair down and behaved like I would do around friends) co-workers seemed more talkative today so I guess I'll just filter out the really autistic thoughts and see how it keeps rolling.
Genuinely feel happier right now, always thought the "be yourself" stuff was a meme.
the "be yourself" meme was normie speak for
- don't be obnoxious
- don't be needy
- don't be unnecessarily negative
- don't make a move on a girl if she does not show signs of interest first
- shower and brush your teeth each morning, get a haircut, don't wear weird colors or anime/video game/movie logos
Normies do the last one all the time these days. Saw a really hot girl rocking a fricking demon slayer messenger bag with her office get up a few weeks ago.
I have a 3 weeb tees (Berserk, HxH and Outlaw star) they're pretty basic looking without any of the characters on them. One of the first compliments I got at my new work from a girl was when I wore my Nakatomi Christmas party sweater during our Christmas week.
>only good thread on the entirety of IST >literally the only place on the entire internet i post at all >gets derailed and ruined by some nutrition conspiracy nutjob
well that sucks
I’ve been ignoring his posts is it keto schizo? It’s still better than the dyel newbie (if you see this you know who you are and you won’t post your pathetic body with a timestamp because you know you’re hideous and weak) who only comes to this board to report the /feel/s threads from multiple IPs every weekend to feel good about himself since he doesn’t accomplish anything actually worthwhile in his own life
>only good thread on the entirety of IST >literally the only place on the entire internet i post at all
these threads are one of the things I look forwards to the most during the week
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never get normies that spend so much time together but don't at least get a baby out of it
probably leads to lots of cases were things just fall apart like this
>never get normies that spend so much time together but don't at least get a baby out of it
can you rephrase that bro? I don't quite get what you mean, you mean she left because we didn't have a kid and she didn't see a future with me?
Most "normie" couples will have had at least 1 child by the time they reach the 5 year mark. If one or both people have some kind of dysfunctional trait there's a good chance they'll have no kids and sometimes that can contribute to the relationship breaking down.
T. Dysfunctional moron who was with his high-school sweetheart for 14 years and never knocked her up. I regret it every day since we split and really hope I can find a nice girl to put a baby in before my swimmers start producing moron babbys.
I would not stay with a woman more than several years if I would not plan to start a familly with her.
Past the age of 25 this entire shtick of being in a relationship and you are best buddies and spend your time together and attend events with other normie couples can get frankly useless. At the end of the day, you want a woman for the sex and child-rearing part, not for her joining on your hobbies and just wasting your time doing nothing together.
And at some point the woman will want a kid one way or another, but even that we managed to replace and you see all these 25+ women getting dogs or cats.
Obviously I am generalizing and I don't know your situation and can never know it fully. But at some point a relationship will end if it doesn't progress to marriage/kids.
I do not think there was ever a period in human history until now where a man and woman stood together for years and never reproduced, literally getting cucked by comfort and a piece of fricking rubber into not passing your genes.
More like getting cucked by previous generations fricking over housing market and economy. Kids are reasonably cheap to have these days but the other securities needed for starting a family keep going up and up. There's almost 0 chance I'll ever own my home with the way shit keeps going.
>Obviously I am generalizing and I don't know your situation and can never know it fully. But at some point a relationship will end if it doesn't progress to marriage/kids.
Yeah the thing is, while my friends were moving in with their gfs and having kids, my gf was talking to me about "open relationships" so you can now see why I didn't progress "to the next stage". Long story short, after than conversation I checked out emotionally, the relationship was basically over by that point.
https://web.archive.org/web/20220614100445/http://www.users.on.net/~pmoran/cancer/Gerson.htm
Here's a debunking of those 50 cases. Gerson always took any vaugery as a sign he was right. Over half the time the tests weren't done, the tumors were thought to be benign and other times, they sought gerson out after having other therapies or surgeries, so you can't pin the remission on him.
Nice try.
Debunks that, the blood work coming from a man who tells people he cured people of cancer when at least 10 had no cancer at all is irrelevant and suspect by default. >I know half a dozen people who were personally cured of terminal cancer with this method.
You dont, and personal anecdotes prove nothing. Youve been debunked, so has gerson. Hes a quack and everyone knows it. Blowing out your ass with coffee and limiting salt does not cure anything, stop peddling this moronic pseudoscience
>Before and afters, bloodwork, x-rays, clinical data, photo evidence, testimonials all count for nothing? >
The tobacco companies had blood tests, xrays, and testimonials from docits that said smoking doesnt cause cancer.
Bros I just invited a girl over, place your bets is she gonna come or not?
context >we were supposed to have a date today by the river but it's raining >told me it's too cold to go there, asked me if I had any other ideas
I think I have a shot here, like at least 10% she says yes.
I mean, frick it, it's not like I'm losing anything by asking right? I've already avoided the worst case scenario which was her ghosting me, and she asked me if I had any other ideas, it's sunday and it's raining what the frick else are we going to do...? Everything is closed
>I mean, frick it, it's not like I'm losing anything by asking right?
yeah but you need to do your think in a way that maximizes your chances of success
why do you think dates outside in the open are important? she needs to gauge you and leaves her room for rejecting you or escalating things
is this the first time you two see each other? a normal one would not come to your place just like that
>is this the first time you two see each other?
we met at a party last year, but I had a gf at the time, so in a sense it's not the first time we meet in public so I should be out of the "total creep weirdo" zone.
pffahaha, what happened? what did the text say?
I mean you can't just tell her to come to you if you did not went to a formal date. If she does he is more likely a hoe.
Now you kinda fricked your chance to re-schedule a normal date
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
She ghosted me, it's over.
In my defense, I figured the "reschedule" was never gonna happen so I took my chances, an all-or-nothing approach.
I don't regret it btw.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
how did you figured out you got ghosted in such a short time from posting your reply?
play it safer next time, if she doesn't want to reschedule she will not come to your place anyway, even if some time ago you met at a party, that literally means nothing
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
>how did you figured out you got ghosted in such a short time from posting your reply?
I sent her that message like 1 hour ago bro, it's over. >play it safer next time, if she doesn't want to reschedule she will not come to your place anyway
noted.
I've been dating this girl for 3 week, yesterday I asked her to be my gf and she said yes. I felt ecstatic at the moment, but now I'm having this weird feeling, asking myself if I made the right decision. I don't regret anything, tho. We're both 30, she's my first gf and I'm her first too, so idk if I feeling like this just because it's something new to me. Also she said no sex before marriage, which is adding to my doubts. Either way, I like her a lot, we're very compatible, so I'll carry on with the relationship.
>Also she said no sex before marriage
Don't automatically agree to what women say.
I'm not saying it's bad to not have sex before marriage, but you need to have an adult discussion about why that is happening: is she a virgin, is she religious. are you both religious, when is the wedding happening, are you going to have kids.
It's a pretty big commitment to agree to do this with a 30yo woman. You need to be serious about this and get the respect you deserve.
I think she’s a virgin, like I am, and we’re both religious, even though she’s more than me (I’m a virgin just because autism). I don’t even know about marriage, even though she’s pretty wife material to me.
do it, i almost split with my ex a few times, when we started dating, it lead to a full on relationship, i'm still broken, even tho i don't know why i'm so sad losing her, when i knew her ptsd toxic ass would ruin me.
Yeah I can see myself being ruined with this one. I already tried once when she showed up to my house at 2am uninvited banging on my window.
Do it at a public place, less chance of her breaking your stuff or her hitting herself and pretending you assaulted her, if possible, bring a witness and make her stay at a distance, if possible a female friend.
Good luck.
Yeah was planning at a café or something similar. I would just do it over text but I want to preserve my integrity because I said I would have important conversations in person.
>Also she said no sex before marriage
it's unironically over
but if she is a religious tard maybe you can salvage it
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BPD demons can be feisty, good luck
Thanks fren, either way it's chest and back day tomorrow so I am chilling
yeah, i had the things in order, were just having fun for now, nothing serious. two years passed. We split in September, fricked around for a while in december-january, no contact since, she already has a new bf kek. while i'm still broken like an idiot
literally only been sad over relationships for like a week, then i'm good again and going, so never something that messed me up on the long run. But somehow this hit me very hard, even tho i knew it would come at some point. Here i am, sad while i was just "security and comfort" for her.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
It be like that sometimes. You'll make it out a better man in the long run. It is okay to feel the way you do just don't wallow in it.
3 weeks ago
Anonymous
You will get over it, give it more time.
you're right, some days are good and i'm feeling everything will be okay, then i hit a period like i have been in for the last few days. Also could be that i saw her with her new bf the other day
Do it at a public place, less chance of her breaking your stuff or her hitting herself and pretending you assaulted her, if possible, bring a witness and make her stay at a distance, if possible a female friend.
Good luck.
In the spring I get severe allergy attacks from the pollen and I can barely do anything without sneezing every 5 seconds on some days. It's fricking hell. On those days I usually can't even leave the house it's so bad, or if I need to go somewhere and I'm covered in snot. Shit makes me want to die sometimes.
Been partying a lot recently and was asked by some chick to go back to her place. She was, not very attractive to say the least. It seems like people just hang out in their groups unless forced to interact. I would like to at least make out with a chick before graduation or maybe find a girl who lives near my hometown.
I am hoping this summer I can find someone but if I join zog it will likely just delay it because I doubt you can have a stable relationship while in. Oh well, unless I can land an IT job that's where I will be. Seems decent for a least getting certs and clearance, alongside benefits. I hate the government but it may be the best case for getting a decent job. That is of course if I get commissioned, not gonna enlist for 20k.
>ask girl out friday night to make plans for sunday or saturday >literally no reply for two days, was blackpilled >she replies at 5 pm Sunday that we can go out if I still can >I say yes >5 minutes after she tells me that she forgot that she has to go pay rent this evening, plans cancelled
I had a dream last night that I was back at the house getting beaten by dad and screamed at by my mom. It's a recurring one and they usually end with me verbally owning them and making them finally feel bad about what they did to me.
It's been 11 years since I last saw them. When does this go away?
A woman with a dildo is not a man. I have zero interest in men and I am revolted by men that pretend to be women. Now, on the other hand…I’ll gladly give a bio-woman a fat strap-on and let her go to work. You ever fricked a chick in the ass while getting fricked in the ass by a chick? It’s money.
loneliness is a b***h. never tried a dating app in my life. coworker told me i would slay on there and it’s tempting i guess.. shame i practically have zero pictures and i also feel kinda embarrassed or something for going on a dating app.
I’m good looking but I never get past the “where the hell are your friends?” stage on apps because I don’t have pictures with friends in them and I guess that gives grills the ick
>ask grill out after we get really close >says no and ignores me >says she wants to reconnect and we fight and don't talk for months >I move >Have to go back to city a month later and she apologizes >get close again >texts me today saying we're purely platonic and she doesn't want me to act on my feelings >tell her we want different things and that my feelings are my feelings
So sick of this shit bros I just feel used and I have only myself to blame
Never ever give women attention if they're not wetting your dick on command. Women literally survive on attention and stringing you along. If you can't send her a "u up?" text and frick her or she isn't your actual gf, do not engage. You get nothing out of it and will never get anything out of it and she gets infinite validation from ever notification you pop onto her little phone along with all the other guys.
Yeah, I think I've finally learned this lesson. She was confused when I told her that going shopping together and doing other shit together is something you do with someone you're dating not "just a friend". She was just using me as an interim while she gets ignored by chad
I did it again. I lost my cool and let anger get the best of me. Got into a petty argument online, the guy started being a gay out the gate instead of having normal discussion, still tried not to stoop to his level but he got worse as I kept successfully defending my side of things just being insulting and shit like that. He ended up telling me to rope, called me an autistic druggie, said I had a wiener in my ass. I had no way of knowing if this would strike the nerve it did but I replied “I wonder what your father would think if her knew you were talking about dick inside man ass online lol you got a crush on me huh?” And he lost it and fricked off. Pretty sure he was fatherless from how he was acting. It was just a haunch but it seems I was right. I feel bad, I don’t like doing shit like this. I hate hurting people no matter how they’ve treated me, evens total stranger online. I hate letting my anger get the best of me. I hate that I’ve become so good at going for the throat and insta killing people verbally speaking. I became this way from having an angry always pissed off father and hectic home life while being bullied. I learned very young to go way lower than other people do if they won’t stop treating me a certain way. Grew up fighting a lot which always ended things, haven’t been physically violent since I was a kid. But the verbal, I try so hard but I still frick up. I try my best to keep my cool and stay calm but inevitably snap and then do things I regret and feel horrible about. I want to be kinder and more patient no matter what, only ever become violent or unreasonable where I absolutely have to like to protect loved ones.
you guys ever look at other dudes and think "how the frick is he in a happy relationship"?
I mean I know dudes who barely have any hygiene and that manage to frick on the regular
I wasted my 20ies. I cycled in and out of depression for years, flunked two universities because of it. Ended up in landscaping for a couple of years and work at a sawmill right now. I have a small but tight group of friends, so at least that's nice I guess.
At 29 I wanted to get treatment for depression but got diagnosed with ADHD and Bipolar instead. Crazy how something like that can retroactively explain all your life failings.
5 weeks ago I started hitting the gym. First time in my life. 3 times a week (soon 4). I'm maintaining my weight, loosing fat (i've never been "normal" weight before since childhood but never fat either) and I'm building muscles. I'm currently reading Atomic Habits and try my best to get my life in order, bit by bit. I don't want my fricking "mental problems" to dictate my life anymore. I can see things so much more clearly now it's amazing.
Just this week I had the weirdest interaction with a girl so far. A cashier girl at my supermarket gave me a really "weird" smile when she told me to have a nice day. She even shyly averted her eyes a couple of times while we talked. that belongs on tv tropes ffs, like the only way her smile could have felt bawdtier is if she had bit her lip or something.
Is this what being "fit and confident" gets you? Not gonna lie, it feels kind of nice. Guess that's my new gym motivation until I figure out what to do with my life jobwise.
Why do i fall in love with every woman that is just a little nice to me and treats me like a human? It happened again and i idiot thought she actually liked me.
I used to be very ugly when i was younger, so girls usually avoided talking to me or being seen with me. I guess now i'm kinda average and women are not disgusted by me anymore, but also not interested in having a relationship with me.
>make eye contact with receptionist while reracking my plates >she busts out a huge smile >akwardly smile back and break off eye contact >imagine a whole life together on my drive home
>Injure myself >Take break for 2 weeks / months depending on what I injured >go back >injure a completely different part of my body >take break again >Injure a different body part >rinse and repeat with different body parts
Alright at this point I'm just gonna give up and go back to being a fatfrick
What the frick man.
>hurt my trap >take a week off >get sick >take a week off >hurt my trap again >take a week off >hurt my back >take a few extra rest days >get shit sleep and take an extra rest day
>hurt my trap >take a week off >get sick >take a week off >hurt my trap again >take a week off >hurt my back >take a few extra rest days >get shit sleep and take an extra rest day
have you ever thought of learning from your mistakes, moron kuns?
I'll have sparkling water please. I've never felt so good in weeks. Still some background anxiety, but random. And just like when I'm suicidally depressed, I know this too shall pass before I make any significant change.
I’m the anon who last thread mentioned his parents always discourage and belittle and have destroyed any self confidence and esteem that I may have had, while having always treated my older sister the exact opposite.
Well my sister got engaged today. I’m super happy for her, it makes me feel good. But I just had the realization and I feel crappy about myself. I thought to myself just now >Well at least one of their kids can make them proud before they pass
Idk how to say it any better but this feels like shit. It shouldn’t have to just be one of their kids. But here I am still living at home, unsure where the relationship I’m in is even going no way to even meet other women. Ah man I hate this so much. Things could have been so much different for me. Things should have been different. And the truly upsetting part is outside of b***hing about it here, I’m the one who has to be responsible for it anyways. My parents guilt me and make me feel like shit for being the dysfunctional insecure low self esteem anxious wreck they’ve made me, one of the main reasons I even want to do good in life anyways is to make them happy and proud. Shits just fricked.
Not a bad weekend >go to emo night alone >have a couple drinks and headbang to some emo music >mosh pits and just generally a good time >this girl taps me from the back and offers to do a cheers >8/10 21yr old qt, kinda looks like Jane from Breaking Bad >only downside is she has hella face piercings >but her pretty face makes up for it >super pleasant girl, very kind and child like >chat more and exchange numbers
It feels good to get more female mires again, I want to see this chick more but don't know if I want to pursue an actual relationship. These kind of things make blow up my ego too much to the point where my standards get too high when looking for chicks. I do not want to spend any of my energy getting to know 7/10 or below chicks. But we will see what happens
Yesterday I cleaned my bathroom so hard (it was long overdue) my arms got a pump. Looked pretty juicy.
I don't have any feelings to report, I just thought that was hilarious and have no one else to tell it to.
>pain in back of upper arm (tricep area) running down to elbow >started feeling it in wrist/forearm as I began typing this >feel really weird. Not dizzy or lightheaded just weird. Little short of breath, but mostly kind of confused >slight tingling in head >tfw may be stroking out
I don’t wanna die. But at the same time, release.
I think it’s my ulnar artery. Idk what’s going on. Idk if it’s anxiety and a random pain or if I’m right. Don’t wanna go to the ER yet again and just find out it’s my anxiety.
I just got back from a run and about a mile in I started feeling a pain inside my ass. That's really disconcerting because there isn't a good explanation for that. I agree with you on death. I'm relatively old, mid-40s, so if I croak, not much loss. I already missed my chance to do anything interesting. It'll still be a bummer though.
Damn man, do I have to verify with Cloudflare every time I open my browser now?
I’m late 20s. I’m just depressed and not much in life has gone my way. That’s kind of why I’m torn between embracing it and fearing it. There’s still hope in me that I can do right and better, but then there’s the feeling of not much is lost and relief.
Oh well, God will do with me what he wants I’ll trust him. But if this gets worse I’ll go to an ER, since it could very easily be a random pain or a nerve issue and the rest of what I feel could be anxiety manifesting symptoms like usual for me…
beer
I went on a blind date with a girl to a her college dance. I want to ask her out but im incredibly nervous. She is a bit out of my leaugue. What do I do bros. I feel I am running out of time to ask her on a second date. The dance was Friday.
go on, send her something tomorrow to test the water. feel free to get your wording figured out tonight if you want. worst case scenario, you get told "no" and move on. the sad part is that i am telling you this while never bothering to try to get into a relationship. i may at some point. my biology is slowly starting to yell louder and louder as i get older about my lack of effort in that regard, but i live in a rural area without many options.
I dont even know you anon. idc that im posting anime, fricking like that show. I texted and asked if she was busy, if she responded I was going to call and ask her out, she didnt. Its over. Dance had gone well and we had been texting too.
Well just like with all my cool secret internet terms normies have ruined both and use them bother interchangeably to mean jerk off, which used to just be called fapping. >Goon
Gooning is a long masturbation session, possibly consisting of multiple edge sessions, with the intent (and sole sexual gratification stemming from the goal of) frying one’s brain on too much undeserved dopamine. It often includes the most degenerate shit just super taboo and gross stuff because those that have reached the point of gooning have already fried their brain to some extent. There’s entire goonification videos that flat out have text on screen saying “that’s right get this dopamine you don’t deserve you fat pig give yourself brain damage” like gooner hypno. It’s disgusting and pathetic and it’s a damn shame it exists. >edging
Edging is simply beating off getting close to the point of cumming, or the doge of a climax, and then stopping, waiting until you’ve calmed down and doing it again and again. Sometimes there’s a massive release other times you don’t at all. Some morons who do nofap do this and cope thinking it still counts as nofap.
I actually don’t care about normies using these terms and I find it hilarious. Because they don’t know what they’re saying, and also I think it’s good these terms lose their meaning because it’s disgusting that they even existed in the first place.
Im thinking of dropping out from college i dont think the school system is for me. The course material isnt engaging enough to study and lectures are just snooze fests. Having a degree would make getting a job easier but i cant bear to spend more time there. Ill probably go back to learning web development and getting certificates.
2 kinda connected issues i want some perspectives on.
1. literally my birthday today, wanted to already have an event organized before today but had a depressed period I pulled myself out of. Anyway how odd/off putting would it look to invite people to a party, either today or tomorrow that is about a month from now, to celebrate my birthday which is today.
I know it literally doesn't matter, most people will just be happy to have a reason to drink, but this is the last thing blocking me from pulling the trigger.
I have a lot of anxiety around this party, and celebrating myself in general, that I've been trying to overcome.
2. I struggle a lot with believing that people like me. I "know" they do, but something in my brain doesn't quite connect that with belief, not like I think people are constantly lying to me, it's a weird thing I've been fighting with for years. Anyway how this goes with women is I just don't think they find my attractive or whatever of course, but I had two friends seemingly express interest and if that is true I have the whole other issue of wanting to have sex with them but not wanting to hurt them emotionally or whatever.
Sex and women is another whole thing I've been trying to unravel in my mental health, because of me thinking people don't like me I went with escorts for 2 years, only not paying for sex once which ALSO caused issues.
Despite all that, gym is going good.
tl;dr I just finished a workout at the gym, feeling good and overly talkative about myself right now.
finally removed her off of snapchat and deleted my text history with her. sounds like some gay shit a 16 yr old girl would type and do, but i hope it makes me feel better
I just wanked in the bus toilet. It had no paper or even water so I just wiped my dick with the bus ticket and spread the semen left in my hand all over the place.
It's probably the most disgusting shit I have done. I had sex earlier today and I'm slightly hungover from yesterday. Feel like a total degenerate. I went from a bottom of the barrell incel to a respected member of society but some shit just runs in my blood.
To get it out of my chest. Who else could I share this with? I've got some friends I tell all the stupid shit I do but I'm a little ashamed of this. I've wanked in the bus toilet plenty of times but never in such disgusting fashion.
I completely wasted my potential and exchange for getting blackout drunk to cope with depression for most of my 20s. I have fantastical dreams of success or something working out for me & every Sunday night, it's back to the grind that will truly never end. Im pretty good looking, make decent money, & am pretty damn fit; but I just don't want to wake up anymore. Work stress has been a lot worse so I wonder if that has something to do with it.
blooming feels great bros. >quit cigs for 8 days now, no physical cravings, only mental cravings which i conquer with ease >went for a run for the first time since pulling myself out of this depression and feel great >no porn for a few days now, but feeling more and more determined as I go on
I am capitalizing on this momentum to take my fricking life back and stop being a fat, lazy, depressed frick
Nah she's definitely not interested in me, appreciate the wake up call anons. Now back to my normal mundane existence but with the added benefit of not being delusional.
Sloe gin, on the rocks, and a wedge of lime. cant and dont want to sleep tonight but have to wageslave inna morn. cant wait to live off of my parents inheritance one day and go full neet. spend all my days working on cars and lifting
Meeting with a taller iranian woman. She seems fun and has great energy but I'm worried she's a bit overweight. She's 177cm tall and 78kg and has a slender build from the picture I saw but could never get a full bodyshot. Avoid?
My roommate constantly borrows money from me and is fat and loud. Just signed a new lease with him for another year. Kind of regretting it. Was the easiest thing to do but im planning to move away when its over.
I was hating my job being an excel moneky until Friday when my supervisor said hes switching me to another team where Ill be coding again. Im so hyped to be using my brain again and actually get good at embedded software. I was ready to quit and move to japan or get into a trade, but i think Ill wait now.
Havent had access to a gym for the past couple weeks. I can feel my mucsles shrinking. Bought ~700lbs in weight for $500. Plates are pretty rusted, will give a vinegar bath. Gunna get a power rack/bench next and make a home gym.
Want to start dating, got no pictures for an app though. Maybe i should learn game.
Its 5am, laying in bed listening to nightcore, got work in 3 hours. Need to fix sleep schedule. Going to get demensia at this rate. Thanks for reading by blog.
Been struggling finding a job in IT as a grad, I've got a couple of internships under my belt and a few job interviews next week but the grind is really wearing me down.
Someone pls tell me there's a light at the end of the tunnel...
if you're in the united states the economy is way worse than the government is letting on. tech got obliterated by the interest rate hikes. all the job growth is in part time service jobs and government shit. hopefully after the election the media will start being honest about the situation. don't beat yourself up. it's bad right now.
no real connection to those whom i thought friends
(vidya, hobbies, etc)
still can't stop thinking about those homies though
may as well move away i don't think i exist to them folk
I HATE MY FRICKING JOB. I HATE BEING THE ONE FORCED TO SEND BAD NEW AND IM THE ONE UNDER FIRE. I HATE HAVING TO TARD WRANGLE ENGINEERS AND SUPPLIERS
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT
I WISH SOMEONE WOULD FRICKING KILL ME I FRICKING HATE MY LIFE
I HATE FRICKING LIVING. 28 YEARS OF LIFE FOR THIS. PANICING OVER GRADES FOR THIS.
NO GF. NO WIFE. IM FRICKING ALONE I CANT FRICKING DO THIS ANYMORE
I think I literally solved my depression.
Trying to follow advice on the internet or asking your friends/family is fricking garbage. Your life is your own, act on instinct stop acting based on what your notion is what you think is "right".
It really seems like everyone's trying to sabotage each other. like damn you ask advice on some minor inconvience and people online always gaslight you into thinking it's much worse and everyone's out to ruin you and anyone who makes a mistake with you deserves to get cut off for life.
frick that. living that way is just a recipe of depression. disassociating yourself from difficult situations is losing yourself. stop thinking. be you.
Feeling conscious about my nasolabial folds, especially that one side is more pronounced.
I had a hunch lately and now I googled it and confirmed it. Apparently face shape can be fricked up by lacking teeth and I don't have one tooth on that more pronounced side, exactly where the wrinkle is.
I think I must get back to dentist and go through with the implant thing I was planning to do before covid hit.
Alright story time from last Thursday to now, boys >broke up with gf of over 1 year a couple days ago >go to the club with some friends and a couple girls >the one girl I've never met is suddenly dancing with me hugging me and so on >It gets late so she needs to go and i offer to walk her back to her dorm >holding hands the whole time, hugging me and all >we make out at the entrance of her dorm but don't go upstairs cause roommate >just send her a message the next day and we agree to hang out on Saturday >we go for a walk she's laughing the whole time says her stomach is hurting from all the laughter so on >she offers to pass by my place on the walk back >in front of my place now I'm hungry >ask if she's down to come upstairs and we can order some food >says yes >order food, I pay, we eat >then she starts acting distant >says she's "in a between phase" with someone else and wants to just be friends >kick her out saying "I'm sick of looking at you" >I apologise for being so harsh in text and say i had different intentions but it isn't working out >don't message her anymore >tells the whole story to a mutual friend without the kissing and club dancing part >makes me look like a cuck
Why do women?
>act like a psychopath >people get told about how i acted like a psychopath >this is somehow someone elses fault
jfc just take the L man. maybe learn a lesson on not sperging out for next time
Wdym i sperged out when she acted like she was interested. You don't kiss, hug, hold hands with someone you aren't interested in. You also dont go to their place unless you have other intentions. You're moronic and need to see more people
lol so frickin earned. i hope youre 18 or less. you sound like you threw a tantrum when you didnt get what you wanted instead of just thinking its kinda gay she did that calling it a night.
That's called leading someone on and is a sure way to get into the friendzone also if you put up with that shit you lack self respect. As if she doesn't know what she's doing
She wanted to act hard to get.. little did she know it made her hard to want. You did the right thing, next time curbstomp her skull to send a message.
>Why do women?
So you drove a car into the rainy mountain serpentine, crashed due to lack of skills and asking why do cars
>ask if she's down to come upstairs and we can order some food >says yes
Everything up to that is perfect. Your words, your voice, body language, projected values, character is vey good, she shows high attraction. But she doesnt know yet that you are an inexperienced boy
>order food, I pay, we eat >then she starts acting distant
Women mood is like the wind, it changes all the time. Why are you affected by the wind, are you a frail girl or are you a huge man, the hunter and warrior? Because you are result oriented inexperienced neurotic little boy
Her mood changes, back off a little. Be playful, confident, smiling, calm. The man would know that she will frick her sooner or later anyway, no rush. And if not, a man will frick better one tomorrow
>says she's "in a between phase" with someone else and wants to just be friends
Shes a woman, you mongoloid. She doesnt have testosterone. She is scared weak little creature, driven by ever changing emotions, insecurities, indecisiveness, permanent anxiousness. She said that she FEEL that RIGHT NOW she is not ready yet
The man would make one step back with a smirk saying *But do you really have the patience to be just friends with me? What if I whisper in your year like this? Its a very friendly whisper...* and you make two steps forward playing with your voice and her ears
Learn some persuasion, seduction and foreplay, you will thank me tenfold later
>kick her out saying "I'm sick of looking at you"
Anakin, no. Bad. Be harsh in actions, but polite with words. You will get in in five to ten years of practice
>I apologise for being so harsh in text and say i had different intentions but it isn't working out
Feminine move
Dont mind the errors, I am tripping balls in the middle of night after celebrating last day of Songkran. But information itself is proper and as precious as gold
>Songkran
oh shit the creepy pua guy is a thailand sex tourist, gross
>creepy
I didnt create women, and unfortunately most things that you know are completely opposite to reality
>pua
Pua is about manipulation and short hook ups. My perception is relationships oriented. Both uses same principles because women respond to what they respond to and behave predictably
>thailand sex tourist
If I am a sex tourist, why would I even develop this skill set after multiple failures? Sex tourists are even more oblivious to women than anons here. They get into a long miserable marriage or cant even hold a relationship, then they blame western women for all of them being *bpd cheating prostitutes* and then they pay yellow goblins to play pretend being ideal girlfriends
The first person I genuinely fell in love with and she just sees me as a friend. She asked me if we could still be friends and I accepted because even being with her was good enough for me. Months later and we still laugh and help each other out but unfortunately my love didn't fade. I don't know if I should tell her again, but that wouldn't really change anything except risking losing her. Also she's muslim so even if she did love me she couldn't be with me.
Being alone was easier than this.
i'm still bothered by my constant reminiscing of my toxic ex. I have been so invested in her and her needs because of her PTSD. I have invested so much into her, that now that i'm alone again, i see all of my flaws and insecurities, i'm jobless and i'm just clinging onto the memories of a better time.
I'm kinda addicted to hookers. It sounds funny but isn't really. I had zero luck with women for a while and then just went to the prostitutehouse because it's convenient. Where I live this is legal and not especially expensive. Then I took a liking to it, tried out all types of women and fetishes and after a while I've gotten so used to it. I now frick hookers like 5-7 times a month. It's fun but I also realize it's simply unhealthy, at least mentally. I don't even care about meeting women normally anymore because all my sexual needs are taken care of.
Somehow I feel all of this is just wrong und not healthy.
I’m getting sick of how entitled old people are. I find one thing that brings me genuine joy and pulls me out of my depression and it’s a problem for these c**ts. It’s fishing. Doesn’t hurt anyone. I do catch and release unless it’s salt water and even then I follow regs. I do this better than most. I leave any water I go to in better condition than I found it, always cleaning up any trash I see. I only fish public property unless I’m given permission to be on and fish private property.
Few days ago I went to a city golf course. That’s public property. I asked if I could fish there I was given the okay and told others fish there too. Golf courses are great fishing because not many fish them and the fish get big. First fish was a personal best for me. Great day, no issues, head home after few hours. Next day same shit no problem. Few days break because busy. Go to fish there again today and there were a ton of golfers. No big deal, I get clearance again to be safe, stay out of everyone’s way out of the line of fire (the other golfers were more at risk for getting hit than I was, keep this in mind). Most guys don’t care. One old israelite pulls up to me in his golf cart to ask what I’m catching, seemed respectful but it had undertones of “why are you hear”. Whatever I was polite he left me be. Another guy speeds up slams his breaks just a few feet from me as if to try and be aggressive, ignore him, he starts b***hing to himself “WHATS THIS GUY DOING HERE” I ignored it I’m not responding to bullshit like that. He sat there and took a video of me or some shit probably to jack off to later. He throws his fit, management comes and tells me I have to leave. Polite with management, reminded them I had permission but said it was no issue. I’ll be back for sure.
All because this retired homosexual wants to feel his PUBLIC course is exclusive. He had to go out of his way to get to where I was.
Later I went to one of my usual spots, a public city park which encourages fishing. Old lady (wanna take a guess on her background?) starts yelling at me says there’s no fishing and to read the sign. The only sign by the water is a gator warning lmao. I told her “no that’s okay.” And she called the cops. No one came out. Instead I got a new PB, 6lb bass.
Why are they like this? I could understand if I broke into someone’s backyard or something but they act as if what I’m doing, on public property, takes anything from them. These people are such buttholes. Let’s not even get into the damages they’ve done to this country and my state in particular. Fishing are you kidding me? There’s way worse shit I could be doing in my free time. I find one thing that hurts no one doesn’t even harm the fish and these frickers start b***hing over some power bullshit just to have some feeling of adequacy in their old age.
I do when necessary. In the case of the old lady she couldn’t do shit so there was no point in getting myself worked up. Either the cops would come I have her ticked for harassing a fisherman, or they tell her to frick off and leave me alone. If the golf course management wants me off the premises even after telling me I could be there I can’t do much
feel like its over for me. >29 >losing weight and getting strong >people suddenly want to talk to me >scared like a coward to socialize, when i try i freeze up
is there something i can do to get over this? I have even tried losing my v-card to a hooker who said some nice things but i get so fricking scared i cant even get hard with viagra.
Almost had sex for the first time in 6 months and couldn't get it up. Happened to me last time too. I feel like I'm at the point where I can't get it up unless I really like the chick. That or dicks broken. Frustrating, but the chick said she'd be down to try again in a few days so we'll see what happens
not really sure what to do anymore. i have pain and injury in my left knee, right hip, left shoulder and right rhomboid. i want to kill myself and reincarnate in a new body that doesn't fall apart so easily. exercise is the only thing that brings me joy and i can't even do that anymore. i'm a failure of a man.
I'm dating this 30 year old virgin chick and i played with her a little bit and she is the wettest woman i ever been with but as i said, she is a virgin. I'm afraid her not having sex all those year she might be low sex drive, are my predictions correct? She told me she never fingered herself or mastrubated. Will fricking her make her crave dick more or im i doomed? I'm thinking of ghosting just because of this
high chance shes lieing about masturbation. unless shes ugly as frick, she most definitely fricked around by 30 to some degree.
>unless shes ugly as frick
she is indeed ugly but not really much, pretty frick frickable by 90% of guys, she has slim hot body.
>lies about nofap
I kinda believe her idk
If you were already fingerbanging her and got her all wet she’d probably be happy to take your dick, you just might have to initiate everything
>What are you having anon?
Crippling depression
I don't get it
I can't stop thinking about the Japanese girl. She hasn't texted back in a while but that's pretty normal for her. It's just worse now because I can't just go over and see her. The time zone difference makes her normal route of rarely/takes days to answer back feel bad.
I hope she never answers me back and doesn't just reply back to me a few days from now. So the feeling can go away and I can stop fantasizing about her.
homie you’re saving texts??? Please delete any and all evidence this is how men get caught and how women get away with it. I say this for the sake of your kids because if your wife found out and she divorced you they’re the ones who suffer.
Delete, block contact, remove any evidence. If she sent nudes put them in a secure location like a fake calculator app with a passcode. But frick dude don’t be texting this b***h, even if you think you know your wife she could go through your phone and a password means nothing she’ll discretely watch you unlock it if she really wants to snoop.
I thought the situation was a little based and funny but it’s getting bad man
I have a Samsung phone. We're using an app with another instance of wechat on a secure folder. No one but me knows It exists and my wife is an apple lover.
Nah, I don't have nudes of her nor did I ever ask for any. She's has Instagram pics that I saved on a secures folder though. I could always play those off to me having porn if my wife ever sees them since they looked proffesionals.
i don't know your story but if she isn't all over you already it's probably over brother. Just let it go. t. in a long distance relationship with a japanese girl who was lovey-dovey from the start and has continued
I say she's japanese but she's really only half Japanese and half Chinese. And she grew up in China. I think I still have a shot. I met my first fiance and my wife long distance too and we had a similar style of communication in terms of how long it took to respond.
The age gap we had didn't seem to bother her and she warned me before hand she hardly ever responded to text and it something her mother and friends complain about constantly.
That being said if it just ends here it might be an overall good thing.
Just had a family dinner and my fricking cousin has the audacity to bring his literal 10/10 gf.
He's like 140lbs soaking wet, constantly drunk and will talk for hours without shutting up and she looks at him like he's the king of the world.
Meanwhile I managed to say like 8 words before spilling my spaghetti and sitting in silence during the entire dinner.
Why did God have to curse me with this fricking terrible autism
height of cousin
he's 6'3 (I'm 6'1)
you'd think after 27 years I'd finally have enough experience to be a somewhat passable normie but it's like it's impossible to retain anything and every time I talk to someone I'm back at zero
The best I did was stop caring but I acted like a total fool. I pretended to be Johnny bravo and act like I was in love with myself like my shit didn’t stink and I was gods gifts to women. I did manage to have social circles and get laid doing that, but it wasn’t authentic. I’m your age now too and yeah it sucks. Every interaction ever word I speak feels choreographed and planned, unnatural and forced. Like I’m not even in the moment, I’m actively planning and strategizing choreographing IRL seconds before I speak.
kek, stay strong brother. One step at a time
t. talked to humans for the first time this week, misspoke at least 20 times
also frick off jannies, leave us alone
I’m the jobless guy who had the ptsd ridden ex. That i fricked around with In december-january.
met her and her new bf the other day. My head has been messed up since, even tho i didn't want to get back together at any point after we split. But i'm still thinking about her way to often and it ruins my mood
>met her and her new bf the other day.
damn, why do you still have access to her
i don't i cut of contact after we slept around and saw eachother, ended in january. i met them randomly
Truly, social slowness and weirdness is the worst curse... especially when, like most men here, you are acutely aware of female beauty and feminine energy. Every time there is a big gathering and you underperform, you can feel the females there just be unimpressed and look at you as less capable. So brutal.
Truth. As soon as you feel it, its incredibly hard to recover
4 pm and I have done nothing beneficial today aside from 30 mins of reading because I've just been on my phone the rest of the day
I’ve been struggling with this too man.
Last couple years I’ve been trying to do better, and I’ve definitely made some progress in productivity and not just rotting in bed all day. But it’s come and gone. Basically I’ll have a couple good weeks where daily I get stuff done, then back to a couple weeks where I have whole days I do nothing and drag my feet all week on chores that would only take an hour to get done.
Making lists (physical) helps, as does making the first item on the list something that isn’t work and I will do no matter what such as take my morning shit, just to scratch it off get a small dopamine boost and get the ball rolling. My autism also likes seeing the whole list blacked out so leaving one scratched and not the others fricks with me. Just for some advice. Keep the lists small, 1-5 things per day. Even stuff you wouldn’t normally do like spot clean the bathroom. Be consistent and progressive overload it gradually add in more difficult stuff.
I’m more productive on average but it’s still not great. I did laundry and went grocery shopping today. Cleaned my room a bit. Hey, I actually did more than I realized today without even having a list 😀
Make your lists man. Try what I suggested.
I have a dinner date in an hour and I hope my tism doesnt ruin it.
I just want to find a guy who I can tender and loving with that I'm attracted to that isn't a total prostitute. Why is this so hard? I try to stave off the negativity but it's hard. It's upsetting how at best- i am treated like a piece of meat or meal ticket.
I don't think cold approaching men would work out at ALL so I'm just stuck on these apps, biding my time. In a perfect world I just wouldn't care, I'd delete the apps, focus on myself. But I'm lonely. No friends or family. The most conversation I had today was two brief exchanges with a restaurant worker to took my pickup order
I'm gonna try put this unpleasantness out of mind at least temporarily and have a nice night.
test
Why were you banned?
Wierd thing is, I actually didn't do anything this time. Connected to a already banned I.P. Someone spammed their discord and got banned for a month. I had to reset it.
Hell if I know . False accusations I take it *shrug* having a sense of humor possibly
It’s over for me. Feel as if I’m just a walking dead person. What do I do with the rest of my time here?
be my friend, im a straight while male doctor 6'2 200 lbs
>doctor
I'll pass
You just know he got the vax too..
>straight while male
>on IST
Nothing. It's so over.
>Landlords are trying to jack my rent up an extra $500 a month
>Will be paying $425 instead of $324 like i pay now
>Showed them the rental downstairs in the same apartment building as mine is only $360 a week and is 10x better than my shithole
>Offered them a increase of $10 a week.
>Waiting to here back from them
>weather is pretty decent to go biking
>but it's after lunch, so parents are about to go take a nap
>anxious about leaving the house like that
You might want to see if you could move to that other rental at moment's notice. Your landlords might the type to cut expenses somewhere else if they agree to your terms.
>ywn be an Amazonian’s qt Femboy bf
>ywn be reassured that you’re not just enough, but perfect in her eyes
>ywn feel the motherly love and protectiveness of her
>ywn be the small spoon on the couch during movie night
>ywn wake her up by using your cute boy mouth to tease her with blowies each morning
>ywn encourage her during her lifts
>ywn be used as her personal stress relief after her workout
>ywn be exhausted, then curled up on her chest like a kitten for snugs and fall asleep together
lost my job, man I feel like shit, just frick everything up somehow even when I'm trying hard not to. I swear to god there is something wrong with me, adhd autism or something, and growing up people always said I'm just lazy & need to focus. trying my absolute fricking hardest to focus, getting out the van to make sure I don't fricking back into anything, still fricked up and ran a stop sign.
I fricked up at my last job, I flipped my car and almost died, got a decent job finally and lost it in a week all in the span of months.
my life is just waiting for negative things to happen, no good days, no luck, no good things happen to me, just negative as frick experiences every few months. if something good happens its going to be taken in away.
Iktf bro. Currently unemployed and i have zero confidence about getting one
what job? hopefully it won’t be too hard to find a new one
was a decent delivery job, something I was looking for driving around the country side. took me months to get it. all the jobs available are just garbage I don't want to do.
Sounds like youre a total moron, probably for the best for road safety that youre unemployed
kinda mean dog
I hear you man.
>be unemployed for year
>get job
>hold that job for 1.5 years, work 6-7 days a week, put self in good financial situation
>able to replace 20+ year old car with something newer, get a used work truck because of job and also thought it was cool
>company closes, laid off, also was 1099 because boss was a dothead who cut corners
>total truck in wreck, replace it with a used 2010, guys insurance sued me didn’t have full coverage my lawyer israelites them down (they wanted $50k to replace his car which didn’t have a scratch somehow) but it’s the last of my savings
>be unemployed and flat broke last 2 years, anxiety and depression worse and worse
>apply all day every day but no one hires me
>get call back from job like a month ago, actually get interview
>get job
>after first week of training boss says he hurt his shoulder not to come in & he’d lmk zelles me my payment for the week then never gets back to me
Literally had all my anxiety begin to fade with that job, and I hated it. I hated everything about that job but I felt so much better having one at all. Pay wasn’t even bad. I think he ghosted because he’s a pothead, he would tell me to do XYZ so I do XYZ exactly as he showed me, he says good job and he had to go make calls, comes back reeking of pot and starts yelling at me for doing it wrong then shows me how to do it in a totally different way than he originally did. I think his pot habit made him think I was incompetent.
Idk what’s going on. Fast food and retail won’t even hire me. Idk why I can’t find work. I need money. I need work. I feel fricked. I hate my living situation, I hate stagnating and making no progress, I hate not having a routine and I hate being broke.
Chopping down the block with the 'lac doing jumping jacks.
I've got a nasty little cold right now and I'm regretting every single little thing in my life right now. wishing I didn't spend so many years being a neet drug addict, increasingly concerned about my chosen career path, missing old friends that I haven't seen since the covid lockdown, etc.
I've wasted so much time on the internet.
I take care of myself and work out, I dress okay, and I can hold conversations.
So why the frick can't I get a fricking gf? The dating pool is so shitty when you're in your late 20s. Doesn't help that I have to rely on the fricking apps.
>just go meet people
Go where? I don't drink alcohol anymore, there are no real "clubs". Seems like I'm doomed to fail.
Just start talking to random women in public.
Same but looking for a dude. Gay guys are vile creatures that should never be trusted
post body
You first
im not the one trolling for dick
I'm not either, homosexual
ok well then kys for answering for another anon like the homosexual you are.
After you, wienersucker
You are just not handsome enough
>I take care of myself and work out, I dress okay, and I can hold conversations.
Literally no women care about these things so that'd be why you have no gf.
im alright. probably going to a concert alone on wednesday and im both excited and scared. other than that my life is dull as frick and only my cat is here for me
hear me out. I recently moved to a new appointment. las week I was at my varanda ar night and I saw a "guy" looking. I immediately went inside. today, like 1h ago, I was smoking a cigar, I for some reason I look there, and there she was, a cute girl with glasses, shot hair, and some good boobies. she was in her bra. She saw me looking, I was looking directly, without any intention to hide. so fricking hot, I got so hard. But i think her boyfriend appeared a bit after.
wat do? How do I know when she's there again changing?
also, when she saw me, she continued what she was doing, "ignoring" me.
girlfriend of 4 years left me two weeks ago. Said she wasn't happy in the relationship, wanted to be single to find herself, I wasn't happy, enthusiastic or joyful about anything, etc etc
She was right, I am pretty depressed, my dad died two years ago, never really dealt with it. Just figured everything would be okay because I had her. House is a mess? Not a problem, I have her. 270 lbs? Not a problem, she still loves me. Not happy about anything in my life and dont know how to feel joy? Doesn't matter, I'm happy with her even if I didn't show it. Now shes gone. Now I have to deal with my problems. Went to the gym for the first time in 8 years, started counting my calories, actually reading, taking supplements, scheduled an appointment with a therapist. I'm gonna work on myself, better myself. Just wish she was still around
If it makes you feel any better, my gf of almost 6 years also left me 1 month ago and I've kept myself fit all these years, if anything I've gotten more attractive, have more money, and all around improved myself consistently across the years. My point being, sometimes people just leave, don't torture yourself with thoughts like "If I had done X she would've stayed".
why did she left?
he wasnt right
I'm here, why do you think? All anons are dysfunctional to some degree, we can never be totally "normal". In my case, I'm emotionally distant and hermit-like, probably an undiagnosed schizoid.
I actually take pride in the fact that the relationship lasted that long, when I was a teen I though I would be alone for the rest of my life.
She was my first "real" gf and we were each others first and she was a nice girl, I'm lucky to have had the opportunity to experience a "normal" relationship.
I don't really miss her though, or being in a relationship, but I do get lonely sometimes at night and miss the sex.
never get normies that spend so much time together but don't at least get a baby out of it
probably leads to lots of cases were things just fall apart like this
How do I prevent this webm happening to me?
>turning 27 end of this year
>never had a gf
>don't have a career
I went from being a NEET of years to actually lifting and finding a job, I do mog my past self from 2 years ago but it feels like there's diminishing returns and I have stagnated.
I try to be social (even tho I was a shut in during teenage years) at work and actually have a lot of male friends at the gym.
I don't want to believe it's over.
You're making progress just don't slow down or get unmotivated. I'm in a similarish situation just gotta keep moving forward
Can some anon share that weight loss motivation pic that reminds you why you dont eat goyslope?
it is a mix of goyslope, pics of hot women and pics of thirsty text.
I kinda need all the motivation i can get.
You're talking about this? Saw it myself for the first time just now in the LeanPill thread up right now. Saved it immediately.
Just broke up with my long term gf, fricking hurts bros
She did nothing wrong really, nothing malicious, but we just weren't compatible anymore. She always loved me more than I loved her. We just were too opposite, it's like our ways of handling stress were too grating on the other and our stress relief was exactly what made the other person more stressful
We spoke about marriage, almost moved in together recently too, and now it's just gone.
I made the decision, but now I feel like I wanna take it all back already, I don't know what to think. I know deep down I wasn't happy with her, we fought so much, especially the last year, but now I'm alone and it's odd. I hated hurting her so fricking much bros, but I lost myself by trying to change to fit her better
IST Ufc 300 livestream/chat
https://discord.gg/RJpWTbvg
alright so now im REALLY curious. absolute hail mary from the last bar thread. whoever typed this, is you in here?
>Anonymous Sat 13 Apr 2024 06:55:05 No.74041417 Report
>Is it some variation of Krystal or Krystel or something like that?
it wasnt but it was close, unless she changed it to be more hippy dippy (she was an evolving hippie). where you at? you in california? san hoe? you tell me mfer!
Her name was kristelle. I think she’s moved to cali at some point but idk. I know she’s got close friends in cali. Covered in tattoos? Huge breasts? Forearm full of cutting scars? If so, I’ve dumped thousands of nuts deep in her pussy and across her face before ever taking her on any sort of date as have many other men. Had her begging for massahs big white dick at one point, she’s super against racism btw even though she used to hate blacks herself. Literally just stop dating her, push pull be aloof and indifferent. Stop caring (if it is her, and this fails you only lose a hoe). Don’t even reach out let her text you, then tell her to come over don’t ask tell her to come watch movie with you at your place if she says no then stop replying. She’s a prostitute man, if it’s the same b***h. Took my virginity if it is. She has put hands on me and manipulated and gaslit. Simply put, this isn’t a wife or even GF if it’s her so be careful BUT I miss the sex ngl. Full blown BPD chick, but frick she can suck a dick. Best head I’ve ever had. Took a while to get over her but I’m in love with my new girl so idgaf good luck bro. Lmk if this sounds like her, last I saw of her she was trying to be “black earth girl” hippy b***h btw. Too wild if it’s her man
oh no that aint her. she aint ratchet like that, doesnt have tattoos. petite but a nice bubble butt. she was actually pretty classy, otherwise i never woulda dated her without her putting out. man how crazy would that have been though? the girl you talking about sounds pretty sweet though. wouldnt mind a piece of that. there arent any black women where i live now though so i guess its over
Yeah dude it would have been an insane IST story. Well good luck man, if she’s how you say you might have found a worthwhile one. Don’t do any frickboy tactics with her see what happens. But also, don’t waste your time. My current black GF is classy and petite comes from a good Christian family and it took a while to clap but it was worth it. I can see myself marrying her.
And btw if it is her, she moved to cali for an ex who she isn’t over.
I think I need some sort of emotional support at times, but whenever I open up to someone, I always regret it without fail. I used to be less sensitive when I was younger. I was sure of myself and needed no one. How do I return to the way I was before?
Should I get back into dating apps
I quit them all together after having 0 luck during the last few months
I had luck before matched with a 10/10 emo girl and she messaged first
I was hoping to meet someone at my school
But I am at the trade side of the campus
So pretty much the only time I see women is when they are going to the parking lot
So it’s only like a 30 sec window if I am lucky
In my work a meh 5/10 supervisor with a nice ass is constantly saying high anon good job today and I am the only person she does this to
I deleted all my apps months ago
No I feel like it’s my only chance in finding someone to at least have sex with a bit
(I know this one decent chick who would dm me all the time there) she was just decent looking which is why ignored her
Should I go for it or wait a month or two
If not dice at school
I was just diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. Ive been lifting for years, tracking my macros, eating clean without much junk except on things like birthdays, and my doc says I have four months. I'm 29. I feel lost and sad
bruh that's mostly impossible unless you have a genetic disease like familial adenomatous polyposis or lynch syndrome or whatever
Its genetic. My father and his father had it. The doctors said something about accelerated development or something
Sorry to hear that anon
Turn to Christ if you haven’t already
Thanks, sincerely
Do you have any resources for an all meat diet helping with cancer? I feel so numb right now, but anything couldn't hurt I guess. I dont feel different I just some abdominal discomfort after meals, so I went to the doctors office, and he referred me to get a colonosopy after an ultrasound found nothing
>Do you have any resources for an all meat diet helping with cancer?
I advise to spend the rest of your time in w worthwhile way, without falling for all sorts of quakeries
no amount of dieting or meme diets will help you in any way, all the random anons posting their shit takes have drool dropping from their mouth
Thanks anon. I guess maybe I'm in a vulnerable spot. Sorry if I came off as gullible or stupid to you.
The red meat diet can be a longshot but why not at least try you got nothing to lose, don't expect it to save you but if you try expecting nothing at least you tried. I would in your shoes, but you do you anon.
Spend the rest of your time as if it's your last regardless.
it's stage 4, it's already ogre, there isn't a stage 5 or 6
I want dietgays to rope themselves so much, no amount of obsessing or neuroticism over fricking food will magically improve your life or cure you from a disease
Diet matters, but I'm no doctor but it might be too late like you say.
I'm moronic, but you write like a moron.
>diet matters
not in the significant way you think
>but I'm no doctor
I am
Watch this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nYL-0QRARhY
Do the Gerson Therapy. It is the only method proven to cure terminal cancer. It has a near 50% cure rate for stage IV cancers. The people telling you to eat "only red meat" are trying to get you killed. Countless studies have shown that that is exactly what causes colon cancer in the first place.
I advise you put aside any beliefs you might hold on the subject and carefully examine your options.
>Coffee enemas can cause infections, dangerous electrolyte deficiencies, and death (5). Despite proponents' claims of recovery rates as high as 70-90 percent, case reviews by the NCI and New York County Medical Society in 1947 found no evidence of anticancer effects with the Gerson diet
frick off
This is a 6 hour lecture on the Gerson Therapy with countless people giving testimonials https://youtu.be/6gZYM7dL3rI?t=3834
Pic rel. includes 50 terminally ill cases with biopsies, bloodwork, x-rays, all from INDEPENDENT hospitals (not affiliated with Gerson) showing a complete remission and cure. No other therapy has shown that. Max Gerson was assassinated a month after it's release. The telegram group I linked contains countless testimonials of chlorine dioxide curing cancer as well. You can find endless before-afters and watch the tumours literally shrink within weeks.
I sincerely hope you're shills because if not, you're doing a massive disservice to mankind for nothing. The truth about cancer will eventually come out and when it does you'll have to answer to God about how many lives you've helped ruin.
Testimonies mean literally nothing. You can fine testimony from people who did the macrobiotic diet and took bleach enemas to cure autism
https://web.archive.org/web/20220614100445/http://www.users.on.net/~pmoran/cancer/Gerson.htm
Here's a debunking of those 50 cases. Gerson always took any vaugery as a sign he was right. Over half the time the tests weren't done, the tumors were thought to be benign and other times, they sought gerson out after having other therapies or surgeries, so you can't pin the remission on him.
Nice try.
>low sodium diet plus laxatives
Yeah I bet that'll cure him. What a crock.
Additionally, I'm going to drop some redpills that I hope will infuriate the shills.
>Fenbendazole and Ivermectin
>MMS
>GcMAF
>Hyperbaric oxygen chambers
>Intravenous Vitamin C
>Vitamin B17
>Hoxsey herbs
>Sweet wormwood
>Essiac
>Juice fasting/water fasting
And the #1
>Chlorine dioxide
All of these will kill of the cancer. But the most important aspect is restoring the immune system. You can only do that with a healthy diet where your body is flooded with vitamins and minerals. Your body needs nutrients or it cannot mount an immune response against the cancer.
See https://patents.google.com/patent/US10105389B1
>The chlorine dioxide compositions are injected directly into the cancerous tumor and the resulting tumor is effectively eliminated from the patient or subject over a period of one to several days to a few weeks, often after a single injection, or multiple injections at one session into the tumor.
At this point in time, anon needs to do everything within his power to restore his body. Thankfully, colon cancer is easily curable. I highly recommend you check out https://t.me/ChlorineDioxideTestimonies/1
and read the countless testimonials of people recovering-- in full -- from cancer.
>hey bro put coffee up your butt
>also take all these chemicals
>no Theres no evidence btw
Sorry about that, I can't imagine how it feels.
I would recommend reading about going on a no carb all red meat diet, it has helped some with cancer. Take it with a grain of salt tho.
Again, I'm sorry.
Thsts terrible. Do you actually feel different/sick or not?
You should try carnivore, since for some it helps, but again like the other anon said, it's a long shot. Might as well go out whoring and traveling with the time left.
This is what killed my sister.
I wish you the best anon, truly. Try to write down all your meds and keep track as best you can, because nurses will make mistakes.
Yeah I think I might be a masochist and I can't stop self harming. Uhmmm this is bad, looks like I have a huge maladaptive cope for dealing with pain and stress.
>go on a first date with a chick from tinder/bumble
>she reveals that she's going to a therapist, was depressed, didn't work for 2 years, her ex was abusive, she avoids some parts of town, doesn't have any friends etc - all or a combination of these and some other interesting quirks and features
>the next day says we shouldn't go on a second date
>this happened 3 times already (not consecutively just in the last couple of months)
Online dating is fun
>mentally I’ll past baggage/trauma abusive ex
Sounds like she did you a favor.
TLDR but no you should not see above it’s all trash focus on you, focus on being happy and comfortable alone get to the point you don’t feel lonely alone/rarely feel lonely (your human). b***hes will come to you. And if they don’t approach them, if you’re doing well and not hurt ugly you’ll meet some IRL. And if not then it becomes a numbers game. Dating apps = trash.
Who else here grew up with an unstable mom and “emotionally absent” father?
She would randomly get mad at us for thinking that we wouldn’t do something if she’d ask us
She’d go silent and say “everything is fine” when it obviously wasn’t the case, then she’d put the blame on us for not doing something she never told us to do.
My dad was almost always at work, he’d just tell me to go study and/or stop playing vidya.
Now they expect my brother and I to get married kek
yeah
Whiskey, neat.
Moved to Germany with my girlfriend so she could be closer to her family (we're both American, her step mom is German). She recently got diagnosed with autism and ADHD before we moved and it all makes sense why she was the way she is.
Needy, sensitive to anything, emotional, high strung. I don't say this to be all "hurr durr, woman emotional. Since the beginning of 2023 I've been in therapy, maintained a good job, lost 20lbs and counting, quit drinking and vidya.
However, since we moved here she's been crushing me. She has intensive German courses and that's it. Learning a new language is no joke, but I work a full time job, go the gym, trying to learn German, up skill in my job, and do all of the household chores (cooking, cleaning, budgeting, etc.) she claims she can't handle any of this because "muh autism executive dysfunction." Which in part I believe but now nothing can be "disruptive."
>Argument about household chores? Nope, I can't handle this I need to focus on German.
>Forgot to pack her lunch and make breakfast because I had to go to the gym early to log on for work meeting? "How dare you! I didn't anything all day and struggled in class."
>Demands to help with German, help with taxes, how to make conversations with people in her class, plan a weekend trip, all of it she can't handle these day to day things as it's all too much from autism.
>Hey, wanna go to this cool exhibit, or this expat meet up? "Oh god, no, I'm so tired and have a lot of studying for German. Plus I don't want to deal with people!"
I feel bad because I know without me shed either kill herself, or best case scenario move back in with abusive and insane family.
I want to go back to school, learn German, get a new job, make new friends, just fricking live my life and relish living in a new country, but I can't with this shit unless I make sacrifices in my time on the main things rn (gym, studying, working) and that's just gonna dig a hole there either.
what pussy does to a motherfricker
do you imagine that attention-whoring trainwreck as a good mother?
Yeah no chance there. I don't really want kids, at least I don't think I do. Especially not with her though. She also has a litany of physical health issues (joint issues, eczema, possible endocrine issues)
Consider ending it, do you want to be a caretaker the rest of your life or do you want a life partner?
I know I don't want to be a caretaker and I think this is where I'm at. I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted from all of this and it looks like there is no light at the end of the tunnel.
Bro, you know how this story ends? You give the best years of your life to this parasite you call a "gf" and she ends up cheating on you down the road for "neglecting" her. You know what to do, cut your loses, you still have time to rebuild.
So let her go, always take care of yourself first, you are number uno in your life.
Why would you willingly move to Germany lmao
>t. German
Very curious why you say that? Just want to get your insight on what's wrong with Germany when comparing some of the bullshit the US has? The US is by no means a shit hole, but the health care, education, and public infrastructure in Germany is way above the US in my experience so far
Germany has suicidal energy politics and mass immigration for starters. No free speech.
Health care and education are only better in Germany if you are dirt poor.
The medium to high level facilities are exclusively better in the US.
>believing in ADHD autism, and therapy
>moving to Germany of all places
I don't have nothing to comment nor do I have an advice for you, but you're one funny fella. I mean I've done some utterly dumb shit because of women, but this is next level.
Yeah, I do realize it now and it fricking sucks. That's why I've come to this Mongolian fish farming website for some modicum of advice.
The whole move to Germany thing when she got these diagnosis was where I ventured not to do it because it is moronic
>some modicum of advice
Well, I guess you already know the best course of action here. Prepare an exit strategy, exit, minimize the damage for all sides involved. I guess you'd already be leaving her better off than you picked her up so just take care of yourself.
But since you've asked, try not to make live-changing or costly decisions to accommodate a woman again, like, don't move countries, don't travel to visit her, don't travel with her to entertain her, don't move in with her (I mean her place), don't get pressured into going anywhere from her parents anniversary to a festival just to please her.
I was young and moronic and did like half of that list. Only going to another country to frick was remotely worth it (she was a total baddie)
Yeah it's fair. It's going to be nigh impossible to have some sort of damage from this and the fact we're still living together is shit, so I guess it's just going to be a fricking mess for a few months if I can find the courage.
I guess I never really had normal relationships modeled in my life with divorced parents and broken homes, so having the gusto and know how to bite this bullet is just scary and overall makes me feel like a shitty person for "giving up" on her. I do feel like moving on might be best for me in this situation.
>I guess I never really had normal relationships modeled in my life with divorced parents and broken homes
Same man, same. Didn't have anyone telling or showing me how this stuff is supposed to work so had to do a little bit of exploring and fricking around. I think it's fine, you'll do fine.
lmao your gf is a frickin bum. sorry, bro but adhd is no excuse for being a shithead. gotta wonder why she doesnt seem to feel the need to care about you in any way. i mean, is she your gf or your toddler?
Yeah, well I've gotten myself tangled in a lease and a whole new country with her because things were somewhat going well until we got here
>Moved to Germany with my girlfriend so she could be closer to her family (we're both American, her step mom is German). She recently got diagnosed with autism and ADHD
I refuse to believe posts like this aren't a joke
I'm so tired all the time
Think I may actually have low test
How's your diet? You eating clean?
hate how when things went bad in my life, that i had my ex. so it wasn't as bad, now that i'm not with her anymore i really see how shit life is, when i'm without a job
lads ?
??
get a job
2. profit
yeah i'm thinking of getting something manual labour shit, where the money is good but boring work, just for a few months, so i can save up, i'm losing all my savings being jobless
>having an ex
sorry dude can't relate to your normie problems but i'm sure it's a downer
I've decided that instead of autisticly masking myself at work I'm just going to be me. Tried it today (wore my hair down and behaved like I would do around friends) co-workers seemed more talkative today so I guess I'll just filter out the really autistic thoughts and see how it keeps rolling.
Genuinely feel happier right now, always thought the "be yourself" stuff was a meme.
>this one trick bitter IST losers dont want you to know
It's nuts meng, all my interactions were either the same as before or generally more positive.
the "be yourself" meme was normie speak for
- don't be obnoxious
- don't be needy
- don't be unnecessarily negative
- don't make a move on a girl if she does not show signs of interest first
- shower and brush your teeth each morning, get a haircut, don't wear weird colors or anime/video game/movie logos
Normies do the last one all the time these days. Saw a really hot girl rocking a fricking demon slayer messenger bag with her office get up a few weeks ago.
its gotta be the right animes. if you go out there with some total pedo weebshit on youll still get (rightfully) ostracized
I have a 3 weeb tees (Berserk, HxH and Outlaw star) they're pretty basic looking without any of the characters on them. One of the first compliments I got at my new work from a girl was when I wore my Nakatomi Christmas party sweater during our Christmas week.
I just want to be able to afford my own place
I feel that pain
>this is AVERAGE 1 bed prices
once again, and i cant stress this enough, third worlders need to be banned from the internet
>only good thread on the entirety of IST
>literally the only place on the entire internet i post at all
>gets derailed and ruined by some nutrition conspiracy nutjob
well that sucks
I’ve been ignoring his posts is it keto schizo? It’s still better than the dyel newbie (if you see this you know who you are and you won’t post your pathetic body with a timestamp because you know you’re hideous and weak) who only comes to this board to report the /feel/s threads from multiple IPs every weekend to feel good about himself since he doesn’t accomplish anything actually worthwhile in his own life
>only good thread on the entirety of IST
>literally the only place on the entire internet i post at all
these threads are one of the things I look forwards to the most during the week
>never get normies that spend so much time together but don't at least get a baby out of it
can you rephrase that bro? I don't quite get what you mean, you mean she left because we didn't have a kid and she didn't see a future with me?
Most "normie" couples will have had at least 1 child by the time they reach the 5 year mark. If one or both people have some kind of dysfunctional trait there's a good chance they'll have no kids and sometimes that can contribute to the relationship breaking down.
T. Dysfunctional moron who was with his high-school sweetheart for 14 years and never knocked her up. I regret it every day since we split and really hope I can find a nice girl to put a baby in before my swimmers start producing moron babbys.
>for 14 years
Jesus fricking Christ
She was very career focused and I didn't really think about it until it was too late.
>She was very career focused
Welp, so she was shooting herself in the foot like many women nowadays.
Yeah I partially feel guilty for not just getting her pregnant, she's a great woman and would've been a great mother to our kid(s).
>can you rephrase that bro
Yeah I can
I would not stay with a woman more than several years if I would not plan to start a familly with her.
Past the age of 25 this entire shtick of being in a relationship and you are best buddies and spend your time together and attend events with other normie couples can get frankly useless. At the end of the day, you want a woman for the sex and child-rearing part, not for her joining on your hobbies and just wasting your time doing nothing together.
And at some point the woman will want a kid one way or another, but even that we managed to replace and you see all these 25+ women getting dogs or cats.
Obviously I am generalizing and I don't know your situation and can never know it fully. But at some point a relationship will end if it doesn't progress to marriage/kids.
I do not think there was ever a period in human history until now where a man and woman stood together for years and never reproduced, literally getting cucked by comfort and a piece of fricking rubber into not passing your genes.
More like getting cucked by previous generations fricking over housing market and economy. Kids are reasonably cheap to have these days but the other securities needed for starting a family keep going up and up. There's almost 0 chance I'll ever own my home with the way shit keeps going.
>Obviously I am generalizing and I don't know your situation and can never know it fully. But at some point a relationship will end if it doesn't progress to marriage/kids.
Yeah the thing is, while my friends were moving in with their gfs and having kids, my gf was talking to me about "open relationships" so you can now see why I didn't progress "to the next stage". Long story short, after than conversation I checked out emotionally, the relationship was basically over by that point.
Yeas, because
Debunks that, the blood work coming from a man who tells people he cured people of cancer when at least 10 had no cancer at all is irrelevant and suspect by default.
>I know half a dozen people who were personally cured of terminal cancer with this method.
You dont, and personal anecdotes prove nothing. Youve been debunked, so has gerson. Hes a quack and everyone knows it. Blowing out your ass with coffee and limiting salt does not cure anything, stop peddling this moronic pseudoscience
>Before and afters, bloodwork, x-rays, clinical data, photo evidence, testimonials all count for nothing?
>
The tobacco companies had blood tests, xrays, and testimonials from docits that said smoking doesnt cause cancer.
speaking of tobacco in the 1700s people thought tobacco smoke enemas could cure all kinds of shit too lol
>tobacco smoke enemas
So... They literally blew smoke up your butt or what
Why'd you delete your lies?
Bros I just invited a girl over, place your bets is she gonna come or not?
context
>we were supposed to have a date today by the river but it's raining
>told me it's too cold to go there, asked me if I had any other ideas
I think I have a shot here, like at least 10% she says yes.
I mean you did escalated hard from a date by the river to wantsumfuk-tier meeting
good luck :^)
I mean, frick it, it's not like I'm losing anything by asking right? I've already avoided the worst case scenario which was her ghosting me, and she asked me if I had any other ideas, it's sunday and it's raining what the frick else are we going to do...? Everything is closed
>I mean, frick it, it's not like I'm losing anything by asking right?
yeah but you need to do your think in a way that maximizes your chances of success
why do you think dates outside in the open are important? she needs to gauge you and leaves her room for rejecting you or escalating things
is this the first time you two see each other? a normal one would not come to your place just like that
idk, hope it turns out good for you
>is this the first time you two see each other?
we met at a party last year, but I had a gf at the time, so in a sense it's not the first time we meet in public so I should be out of the "total creep weirdo" zone.
update: it's over
pffahaha, what happened? what did the text say?
I mean you can't just tell her to come to you if you did not went to a formal date. If she does he is more likely a hoe.
Now you kinda fricked your chance to re-schedule a normal date
She ghosted me, it's over.
In my defense, I figured the "reschedule" was never gonna happen so I took my chances, an all-or-nothing approach.
I don't regret it btw.
how did you figured out you got ghosted in such a short time from posting your reply?
play it safer next time, if she doesn't want to reschedule she will not come to your place anyway, even if some time ago you met at a party, that literally means nothing
>how did you figured out you got ghosted in such a short time from posting your reply?
I sent her that message like 1 hour ago bro, it's over.
>play it safer next time, if she doesn't want to reschedule she will not come to your place anyway
noted.
Bartender, 1 Moscow Mule please.
I've been dating this girl for 3 week, yesterday I asked her to be my gf and she said yes. I felt ecstatic at the moment, but now I'm having this weird feeling, asking myself if I made the right decision. I don't regret anything, tho. We're both 30, she's my first gf and I'm her first too, so idk if I feeling like this just because it's something new to me. Also she said no sex before marriage, which is adding to my doubts. Either way, I like her a lot, we're very compatible, so I'll carry on with the relationship.
>no sex before marriage
it's over
>Also she said no sex before marriage
it's unironically over
but if she is a religious tard maybe you can salvage it
BPD demons can be feisty, good luck
>but if she is a religious tard maybe you can salvage it
Why?
Stick with her, don't let memes get to your head, ignore people who encourage you to frick her this instant just because.
>We're both 30, she's my first gf and I'm her first too
homie what?
>Also she said no sex before marriage
Don't automatically agree to what women say.
I'm not saying it's bad to not have sex before marriage, but you need to have an adult discussion about why that is happening: is she a virgin, is she religious. are you both religious, when is the wedding happening, are you going to have kids.
It's a pretty big commitment to agree to do this with a 30yo woman. You need to be serious about this and get the respect you deserve.
I think she’s a virgin, like I am, and we’re both religious, even though she’s more than me (I’m a virgin just because autism). I don’t even know about marriage, even though she’s pretty wife material to me.
Going to break it off with BPD fling tomorrow. Wish me luck boys things could get wild.
do it, i almost split with my ex a few times, when we started dating, it lead to a full on relationship, i'm still broken, even tho i don't know why i'm so sad losing her, when i knew her ptsd toxic ass would ruin me.
Yeah I can see myself being ruined with this one. I already tried once when she showed up to my house at 2am uninvited banging on my window.
Yeah was planning at a café or something similar. I would just do it over text but I want to preserve my integrity because I said I would have important conversations in person.
Thanks fren, either way it's chest and back day tomorrow so I am chilling
yeah, i had the things in order, were just having fun for now, nothing serious. two years passed. We split in September, fricked around for a while in december-january, no contact since, she already has a new bf kek. while i'm still broken like an idiot
I am just glad I am able to be stoic in these times when years ago I would've felt "love"
literally only been sad over relationships for like a week, then i'm good again and going, so never something that messed me up on the long run. But somehow this hit me very hard, even tho i knew it would come at some point. Here i am, sad while i was just "security and comfort" for her.
It be like that sometimes. You'll make it out a better man in the long run. It is okay to feel the way you do just don't wallow in it.
you're right, some days are good and i'm feeling everything will be okay, then i hit a period like i have been in for the last few days. Also could be that i saw her with her new bf the other day
You will get over it, give it more time.
Do it at a public place, less chance of her breaking your stuff or her hitting herself and pretending you assaulted her, if possible, bring a witness and make her stay at a distance, if possible a female friend.
Good luck.
In the spring I get severe allergy attacks from the pollen and I can barely do anything without sneezing every 5 seconds on some days. It's fricking hell. On those days I usually can't even leave the house it's so bad, or if I need to go somewhere and I'm covered in snot. Shit makes me want to die sometimes.
I need to make extra dish, bad
What can I do on the side to get money?
Been partying a lot recently and was asked by some chick to go back to her place. She was, not very attractive to say the least. It seems like people just hang out in their groups unless forced to interact. I would like to at least make out with a chick before graduation or maybe find a girl who lives near my hometown.
I am hoping this summer I can find someone but if I join zog it will likely just delay it because I doubt you can have a stable relationship while in. Oh well, unless I can land an IT job that's where I will be. Seems decent for a least getting certs and clearance, alongside benefits. I hate the government but it may be the best case for getting a decent job. That is of course if I get commissioned, not gonna enlist for 20k.
>ask girl out friday night to make plans for sunday or saturday
>literally no reply for two days, was blackpilled
>she replies at 5 pm Sunday that we can go out if I still can
>I say yes
>5 minutes after she tells me that she forgot that she has to go pay rent this evening, plans cancelled
I love women
I had a dream last night that I was back at the house getting beaten by dad and screamed at by my mom. It's a recurring one and they usually end with me verbally owning them and making them finally feel bad about what they did to me.
It's been 11 years since I last saw them. When does this go away?
>When does this go away?
Never, I still dream about them too.
I just got pegged by a chick while fricking another chick and then I came in one of their mouths.
Hah GAY
A woman with a dildo is not a man. I have zero interest in men and I am revolted by men that pretend to be women. Now, on the other hand…I’ll gladly give a bio-woman a fat strap-on and let her go to work. You ever fricked a chick in the ass while getting fricked in the ass by a chick? It’s money.
It’s over for me. What do I do the next 50 or so years?
So you're like 30? What makes you think it's over bro?
>tfw 1/2/2.5/3 1rm @80kg
How do I cope? I don’t want to go over 16%bf
You are enough anon, if you aren't 6 feet then I advise you do not gain more weight
>tfw 5’10-5’11
Thanks anon, I am kenough
loneliness is a b***h. never tried a dating app in my life. coworker told me i would slay on there and it’s tempting i guess.. shame i practically have zero pictures and i also feel kinda embarrassed or something for going on a dating app.
I’m good looking but I never get past the “where the hell are your friends?” stage on apps because I don’t have pictures with friends in them and I guess that gives grills the ick
>ask grill out after we get really close
>says no and ignores me
>says she wants to reconnect and we fight and don't talk for months
>I move
>Have to go back to city a month later and she apologizes
>get close again
>texts me today saying we're purely platonic and she doesn't want me to act on my feelings
>tell her we want different things and that my feelings are my feelings
So sick of this shit bros I just feel used and I have only myself to blame
Never ever give women attention if they're not wetting your dick on command. Women literally survive on attention and stringing you along. If you can't send her a "u up?" text and frick her or she isn't your actual gf, do not engage. You get nothing out of it and will never get anything out of it and she gets infinite validation from ever notification you pop onto her little phone along with all the other guys.
Correct
Yeah, I think I've finally learned this lesson. She was confused when I told her that going shopping together and doing other shit together is something you do with someone you're dating not "just a friend". She was just using me as an interim while she gets ignored by chad
Based and factual. It's a pleasure to see IST collectively turn 30.
I did it again. I lost my cool and let anger get the best of me. Got into a petty argument online, the guy started being a gay out the gate instead of having normal discussion, still tried not to stoop to his level but he got worse as I kept successfully defending my side of things just being insulting and shit like that. He ended up telling me to rope, called me an autistic druggie, said I had a wiener in my ass. I had no way of knowing if this would strike the nerve it did but I replied “I wonder what your father would think if her knew you were talking about dick inside man ass online lol you got a crush on me huh?” And he lost it and fricked off. Pretty sure he was fatherless from how he was acting. It was just a haunch but it seems I was right. I feel bad, I don’t like doing shit like this. I hate hurting people no matter how they’ve treated me, evens total stranger online. I hate letting my anger get the best of me. I hate that I’ve become so good at going for the throat and insta killing people verbally speaking. I became this way from having an angry always pissed off father and hectic home life while being bullied. I learned very young to go way lower than other people do if they won’t stop treating me a certain way. Grew up fighting a lot which always ended things, haven’t been physically violent since I was a kid. But the verbal, I try so hard but I still frick up. I try my best to keep my cool and stay calm but inevitably snap and then do things I regret and feel horrible about. I want to be kinder and more patient no matter what, only ever become violent or unreasonable where I absolutely have to like to protect loved ones.
you guys ever look at other dudes and think "how the frick is he in a happy relationship"?
I mean I know dudes who barely have any hygiene and that manage to frick on the regular
A glass of water "on the rocks", please.
I wasted my 20ies. I cycled in and out of depression for years, flunked two universities because of it. Ended up in landscaping for a couple of years and work at a sawmill right now. I have a small but tight group of friends, so at least that's nice I guess.
At 29 I wanted to get treatment for depression but got diagnosed with ADHD and Bipolar instead. Crazy how something like that can retroactively explain all your life failings.
5 weeks ago I started hitting the gym. First time in my life. 3 times a week (soon 4). I'm maintaining my weight, loosing fat (i've never been "normal" weight before since childhood but never fat either) and I'm building muscles. I'm currently reading Atomic Habits and try my best to get my life in order, bit by bit. I don't want my fricking "mental problems" to dictate my life anymore. I can see things so much more clearly now it's amazing.
Just this week I had the weirdest interaction with a girl so far. A cashier girl at my supermarket gave me a really "weird" smile when she told me to have a nice day. She even shyly averted her eyes a couple of times while we talked. that belongs on tv tropes ffs, like the only way her smile could have felt bawdtier is if she had bit her lip or something.
Is this what being "fit and confident" gets you? Not gonna lie, it feels kind of nice. Guess that's my new gym motivation until I figure out what to do with my life jobwise.
>When you start DIRECTLY confronting the model of yourself you developed due to severe childhood trauma
NTA but how does one do that?
Why do i fall in love with every woman that is just a little nice to me and treats me like a human? It happened again and i idiot thought she actually liked me.
I used to be very ugly when i was younger, so girls usually avoided talking to me or being seen with me. I guess now i'm kinda average and women are not disgusted by me anymore, but also not interested in having a relationship with me.
>make eye contact with receptionist while reracking my plates
>she busts out a huge smile
>akwardly smile back and break off eye contact
>imagine a whole life together on my drive home
>Injure myself
>Take break for 2 weeks / months depending on what I injured
>go back
>injure a completely different part of my body
>take break again
>Injure a different body part
>rinse and repeat with different body parts
Alright at this point I'm just gonna give up and go back to being a fatfrick
What the frick man.
Been like that this year.
>hurt my trap
>take a week off
>get sick
>take a week off
>hurt my trap again
>take a week off
>hurt my back
>take a few extra rest days
>get shit sleep and take an extra rest day
have you ever thought of learning from your mistakes, moron kuns?
Damn thats a brilliant solution thanks anon I guess I'm not gonna injure myself anymore
I'll have sparkling water please. I've never felt so good in weeks. Still some background anxiety, but random. And just like when I'm suicidally depressed, I know this too shall pass before I make any significant change.
How do I learn to enjoy socializing as a necessary function of life if I have mostly negative experiences since I was a kid?
I’m the anon who last thread mentioned his parents always discourage and belittle and have destroyed any self confidence and esteem that I may have had, while having always treated my older sister the exact opposite.
Well my sister got engaged today. I’m super happy for her, it makes me feel good. But I just had the realization and I feel crappy about myself. I thought to myself just now
>Well at least one of their kids can make them proud before they pass
Idk how to say it any better but this feels like shit. It shouldn’t have to just be one of their kids. But here I am still living at home, unsure where the relationship I’m in is even going no way to even meet other women. Ah man I hate this so much. Things could have been so much different for me. Things should have been different. And the truly upsetting part is outside of b***hing about it here, I’m the one who has to be responsible for it anyways. My parents guilt me and make me feel like shit for being the dysfunctional insecure low self esteem anxious wreck they’ve made me, one of the main reasons I even want to do good in life anyways is to make them happy and proud. Shits just fricked.
Not a bad weekend
>go to emo night alone
>have a couple drinks and headbang to some emo music
>mosh pits and just generally a good time
>this girl taps me from the back and offers to do a cheers
>8/10 21yr old qt, kinda looks like Jane from Breaking Bad
>only downside is she has hella face piercings
>but her pretty face makes up for it
>super pleasant girl, very kind and child like
>chat more and exchange numbers
It feels good to get more female mires again, I want to see this chick more but don't know if I want to pursue an actual relationship. These kind of things make blow up my ego too much to the point where my standards get too high when looking for chicks. I do not want to spend any of my energy getting to know 7/10 or below chicks. But we will see what happens
Yesterday I cleaned my bathroom so hard (it was long overdue) my arms got a pump. Looked pretty juicy.
I don't have any feelings to report, I just thought that was hilarious and have no one else to tell it to.
>pain in back of upper arm (tricep area) running down to elbow
>started feeling it in wrist/forearm as I began typing this
>feel really weird. Not dizzy or lightheaded just weird. Little short of breath, but mostly kind of confused
>slight tingling in head
>tfw may be stroking out
I don’t wanna die. But at the same time, release.
I think it’s my ulnar artery. Idk what’s going on. Idk if it’s anxiety and a random pain or if I’m right. Don’t wanna go to the ER yet again and just find out it’s my anxiety.
I just got back from a run and about a mile in I started feeling a pain inside my ass. That's really disconcerting because there isn't a good explanation for that. I agree with you on death. I'm relatively old, mid-40s, so if I croak, not much loss. I already missed my chance to do anything interesting. It'll still be a bummer though.
Damn man, do I have to verify with Cloudflare every time I open my browser now?
I’m late 20s. I’m just depressed and not much in life has gone my way. That’s kind of why I’m torn between embracing it and fearing it. There’s still hope in me that I can do right and better, but then there’s the feeling of not much is lost and relief.
Oh well, God will do with me what he wants I’ll trust him. But if this gets worse I’ll go to an ER, since it could very easily be a random pain or a nerve issue and the rest of what I feel could be anxiety manifesting symptoms like usual for me…
And yeah, the new captcha system is gay.
You need to stop getting fricked on the weekends anon.
despite all the whorin around, still gucci
kinda crazy
fricking hell people setting shit up again
mon - new couple
tues - fwb prolly
wed - diff swinger friend is setting up a mmfmm for herself
beer
I went on a blind date with a girl to a her college dance. I want to ask her out but im incredibly nervous. She is a bit out of my leaugue. What do I do bros. I feel I am running out of time to ask her on a second date. The dance was Friday.
how did the dance go? did you talk to her at all these past 2 days? I'd say do it tomorrow morning
go on, send her something tomorrow to test the water. feel free to get your wording figured out tonight if you want. worst case scenario, you get told "no" and move on. the sad part is that i am telling you this while never bothering to try to get into a relationship. i may at some point. my biology is slowly starting to yell louder and louder as i get older about my lack of effort in that regard, but i live in a rural area without many options.
It uh didn’t go too well bois. Maybe next time.
What happened bro? I was supposed to have a date today but she cancelled last minute, at least we have each other bro...
I dont even know you anon. idc that im posting anime, fricking like that show. I texted and asked if she was busy, if she responded I was going to call and ask her out, she didnt. Its over. Dance had gone well and we had been texting too.
ok, wtf is the difference between edging and gooning?
Ugly bug butchered by prastic surgeonoo
Well just like with all my cool secret internet terms normies have ruined both and use them bother interchangeably to mean jerk off, which used to just be called fapping.
>Goon
Gooning is a long masturbation session, possibly consisting of multiple edge sessions, with the intent (and sole sexual gratification stemming from the goal of) frying one’s brain on too much undeserved dopamine. It often includes the most degenerate shit just super taboo and gross stuff because those that have reached the point of gooning have already fried their brain to some extent. There’s entire goonification videos that flat out have text on screen saying “that’s right get this dopamine you don’t deserve you fat pig give yourself brain damage” like gooner hypno. It’s disgusting and pathetic and it’s a damn shame it exists.
>edging
Edging is simply beating off getting close to the point of cumming, or the doge of a climax, and then stopping, waiting until you’ve calmed down and doing it again and again. Sometimes there’s a massive release other times you don’t at all. Some morons who do nofap do this and cope thinking it still counts as nofap.
I actually don’t care about normies using these terms and I find it hilarious. Because they don’t know what they’re saying, and also I think it’s good these terms lose their meaning because it’s disgusting that they even existed in the first place.
So.. gooning is edging while looking at hardcore porn?
that guy gives off vibes of a nofap freak, i wouldn't look to him for initiation into the goon mysteries.
Back in my day a goon was a stupid simple muscle henchman.
monster absolute zero
Im thinking of dropping out from college i dont think the school system is for me. The course material isnt engaging enough to study and lectures are just snooze fests. Having a degree would make getting a job easier but i cant bear to spend more time there. Ill probably go back to learning web development and getting certificates.
2 kinda connected issues i want some perspectives on.
1. literally my birthday today, wanted to already have an event organized before today but had a depressed period I pulled myself out of. Anyway how odd/off putting would it look to invite people to a party, either today or tomorrow that is about a month from now, to celebrate my birthday which is today.
I know it literally doesn't matter, most people will just be happy to have a reason to drink, but this is the last thing blocking me from pulling the trigger.
I have a lot of anxiety around this party, and celebrating myself in general, that I've been trying to overcome.
2. I struggle a lot with believing that people like me. I "know" they do, but something in my brain doesn't quite connect that with belief, not like I think people are constantly lying to me, it's a weird thing I've been fighting with for years. Anyway how this goes with women is I just don't think they find my attractive or whatever of course, but I had two friends seemingly express interest and if that is true I have the whole other issue of wanting to have sex with them but not wanting to hurt them emotionally or whatever.
Sex and women is another whole thing I've been trying to unravel in my mental health, because of me thinking people don't like me I went with escorts for 2 years, only not paying for sex once which ALSO caused issues.
Despite all that, gym is going good.
tl;dr I just finished a workout at the gym, feeling good and overly talkative about myself right now.
happy birthday bud
finally removed her off of snapchat and deleted my text history with her. sounds like some gay shit a 16 yr old girl would type and do, but i hope it makes me feel better
About to take an exam that determines whether I pass the class or not, wish me luck
Good luck
I just wanked in the bus toilet. It had no paper or even water so I just wiped my dick with the bus ticket and spread the semen left in my hand all over the place.
It's probably the most disgusting shit I have done. I had sex earlier today and I'm slightly hungover from yesterday. Feel like a total degenerate. I went from a bottom of the barrell incel to a respected member of society but some shit just runs in my blood.
Why did you decide to share this
To get it out of my chest. Who else could I share this with? I've got some friends I tell all the stupid shit I do but I'm a little ashamed of this. I've wanked in the bus toilet plenty of times but never in such disgusting fashion.
Jaeger please.
I completely wasted my potential and exchange for getting blackout drunk to cope with depression for most of my 20s. I have fantastical dreams of success or something working out for me & every Sunday night, it's back to the grind that will truly never end. Im pretty good looking, make decent money, & am pretty damn fit; but I just don't want to wake up anymore. Work stress has been a lot worse so I wonder if that has something to do with it.
mood:
blooming feels great bros.
>quit cigs for 8 days now, no physical cravings, only mental cravings which i conquer with ease
>went for a run for the first time since pulling myself out of this depression and feel great
>no porn for a few days now, but feeling more and more determined as I go on
I am capitalizing on this momentum to take my fricking life back and stop being a fat, lazy, depressed frick
wrong thread bro
I watched Spirited Away, and I am underwhelmed. Beautiful art, certainly. But the story was meh.
yeah pretty much. great eyecandy though. it is also a movie made for kids so theres that
I'm not ready for the weekend to be over. Please just one more day
Nah she's definitely not interested in me, appreciate the wake up call anons. Now back to my normal mundane existence but with the added benefit of not being delusional.
Sloe gin, on the rocks, and a wedge of lime. cant and dont want to sleep tonight but have to wageslave inna morn. cant wait to live off of my parents inheritance one day and go full neet. spend all my days working on cars and lifting
>inheritance
big enough to retire early or what?
6 properties across 3 countries, and sizeable investments to boot, ill keep the same wealth manager my parents have and live simply but well
damn, lucky.
I'll be lucky if I get 2 properties and some farmland which is rentable
Meeting with a taller iranian woman. She seems fun and has great energy but I'm worried she's a bit overweight. She's 177cm tall and 78kg and has a slender build from the picture I saw but could never get a full bodyshot. Avoid?
Lol she's a fat Black person. I'd still pound her but you should really be trying.
How fat are we walking about. I don't care about women being plump but I don't want ugly barrel shaped ones
My roommate constantly borrows money from me and is fat and loud. Just signed a new lease with him for another year. Kind of regretting it. Was the easiest thing to do but im planning to move away when its over.
I was hating my job being an excel moneky until Friday when my supervisor said hes switching me to another team where Ill be coding again. Im so hyped to be using my brain again and actually get good at embedded software. I was ready to quit and move to japan or get into a trade, but i think Ill wait now.
Havent had access to a gym for the past couple weeks. I can feel my mucsles shrinking. Bought ~700lbs in weight for $500. Plates are pretty rusted, will give a vinegar bath. Gunna get a power rack/bench next and make a home gym.
Want to start dating, got no pictures for an app though. Maybe i should learn game.
Its 5am, laying in bed listening to nightcore, got work in 3 hours. Need to fix sleep schedule. Going to get demensia at this rate. Thanks for reading by blog.
A perfect Manhattan, no garnish.
Been struggling finding a job in IT as a grad, I've got a couple of internships under my belt and a few job interviews next week but the grind is really wearing me down.
Someone pls tell me there's a light at the end of the tunnel...
if you're in the united states the economy is way worse than the government is letting on. tech got obliterated by the interest rate hikes. all the job growth is in part time service jobs and government shit. hopefully after the election the media will start being honest about the situation. don't beat yourself up. it's bad right now.
no real connection to those whom i thought friends
(vidya, hobbies, etc)
still can't stop thinking about those homies though
may as well move away i don't think i exist to them folk
I HATE MY FRICKING JOB. I HATE BEING THE ONE FORCED TO SEND BAD NEW AND IM THE ONE UNDER FIRE. I HATE HAVING TO TARD WRANGLE ENGINEERS AND SUPPLIERS
I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT
I WISH SOMEONE WOULD FRICKING KILL ME I FRICKING HATE MY LIFE
I HATE FRICKING LIVING. 28 YEARS OF LIFE FOR THIS. PANICING OVER GRADES FOR THIS.
NO GF. NO WIFE. IM FRICKING ALONE I CANT FRICKING DO THIS ANYMORE
You sound burnt out bro, take a week off or something or just quit and find something else, you got savings?
i feel u bro
I think I literally solved my depression.
Trying to follow advice on the internet or asking your friends/family is fricking garbage. Your life is your own, act on instinct stop acting based on what your notion is what you think is "right".
It really seems like everyone's trying to sabotage each other. like damn you ask advice on some minor inconvience and people online always gaslight you into thinking it's much worse and everyone's out to ruin you and anyone who makes a mistake with you deserves to get cut off for life.
frick that. living that way is just a recipe of depression. disassociating yourself from difficult situations is losing yourself. stop thinking. be you.
how much fat you guys willing to put up with for big breasts?
I prefer small breasts
Feeling conscious about my nasolabial folds, especially that one side is more pronounced.
I had a hunch lately and now I googled it and confirmed it. Apparently face shape can be fricked up by lacking teeth and I don't have one tooth on that more pronounced side, exactly where the wrinkle is.
I think I must get back to dentist and go through with the implant thing I was planning to do before covid hit.
Alright story time from last Thursday to now, boys
>broke up with gf of over 1 year a couple days ago
>go to the club with some friends and a couple girls
>the one girl I've never met is suddenly dancing with me hugging me and so on
>It gets late so she needs to go and i offer to walk her back to her dorm
>holding hands the whole time, hugging me and all
>we make out at the entrance of her dorm but don't go upstairs cause roommate
>just send her a message the next day and we agree to hang out on Saturday
>we go for a walk she's laughing the whole time says her stomach is hurting from all the laughter so on
>she offers to pass by my place on the walk back
>in front of my place now I'm hungry
>ask if she's down to come upstairs and we can order some food
>says yes
>order food, I pay, we eat
>then she starts acting distant
>says she's "in a between phase" with someone else and wants to just be friends
>kick her out saying "I'm sick of looking at you"
>I apologise for being so harsh in text and say i had different intentions but it isn't working out
>don't message her anymore
>tells the whole story to a mutual friend without the kissing and club dancing part
>makes me look like a cuck
Why do women?
>act like a psychopath
>people get told about how i acted like a psychopath
>this is somehow someone elses fault
jfc just take the L man. maybe learn a lesson on not sperging out for next time
Wdym i sperged out when she acted like she was interested. You don't kiss, hug, hold hands with someone you aren't interested in. You also dont go to their place unless you have other intentions. You're moronic and need to see more people
lol so frickin earned. i hope youre 18 or less. you sound like you threw a tantrum when you didnt get what you wanted instead of just thinking its kinda gay she did that calling it a night.
That's called leading someone on and is a sure way to get into the friendzone also if you put up with that shit you lack self respect. As if she doesn't know what she's doing
you people are deranged. you can be miffed about it but having yourself a little meltie is a surefire way to get ostracized, which is good and right.
She wanted to act hard to get.. little did she know it made her hard to want. You did the right thing, next time curbstomp her skull to send a message.
Thanks anon, this other guy has obviously never talked to a woman younger than 30
unironically glad you did that
>teeheehee coming to your place but we are just fwiends :^)
You will have my time
>Why do women?
So you drove a car into the rainy mountain serpentine, crashed due to lack of skills and asking why do cars
>ask if she's down to come upstairs and we can order some food
>says yes
Everything up to that is perfect. Your words, your voice, body language, projected values, character is vey good, she shows high attraction. But she doesnt know yet that you are an inexperienced boy
>order food, I pay, we eat
>then she starts acting distant
Women mood is like the wind, it changes all the time. Why are you affected by the wind, are you a frail girl or are you a huge man, the hunter and warrior? Because you are result oriented inexperienced neurotic little boy
Her mood changes, back off a little. Be playful, confident, smiling, calm. The man would know that she will frick her sooner or later anyway, no rush. And if not, a man will frick better one tomorrow
>says she's "in a between phase" with someone else and wants to just be friends
Shes a woman, you mongoloid. She doesnt have testosterone. She is scared weak little creature, driven by ever changing emotions, insecurities, indecisiveness, permanent anxiousness. She said that she FEEL that RIGHT NOW she is not ready yet
The man would make one step back with a smirk saying *But do you really have the patience to be just friends with me? What if I whisper in your year like this? Its a very friendly whisper...* and you make two steps forward playing with your voice and her ears
Learn some persuasion, seduction and foreplay, you will thank me tenfold later
>kick her out saying "I'm sick of looking at you"
Anakin, no. Bad. Be harsh in actions, but polite with words. You will get in in five to ten years of practice
>I apologise for being so harsh in text and say i had different intentions but it isn't working out
Feminine move
Dont mind the errors, I am tripping balls in the middle of night after celebrating last day of Songkran. But information itself is proper and as precious as gold
>Songkran
oh shit the creepy pua guy is a thailand sex tourist, gross
Not that anon, but this sounds like good advice.
Thank you
>creepy
I didnt create women, and unfortunately most things that you know are completely opposite to reality
>pua
Pua is about manipulation and short hook ups. My perception is relationships oriented. Both uses same principles because women respond to what they respond to and behave predictably
>thailand sex tourist
If I am a sex tourist, why would I even develop this skill set after multiple failures? Sex tourists are even more oblivious to women than anons here. They get into a long miserable marriage or cant even hold a relationship, then they blame western women for all of them being *bpd cheating prostitutes* and then they pay yellow goblins to play pretend being ideal girlfriends
The first person I genuinely fell in love with and she just sees me as a friend. She asked me if we could still be friends and I accepted because even being with her was good enough for me. Months later and we still laugh and help each other out but unfortunately my love didn't fade. I don't know if I should tell her again, but that wouldn't really change anything except risking losing her. Also she's muslim so even if she did love me she couldn't be with me.
Being alone was easier than this.
Beer and whiskey
Fricking tax agencies! Frick you all!
i'm still bothered by my constant reminiscing of my toxic ex. I have been so invested in her and her needs because of her PTSD. I have invested so much into her, that now that i'm alone again, i see all of my flaws and insecurities, i'm jobless and i'm just clinging onto the memories of a better time.
Are you the same dude that posted at least 2 times ITT about seeing his ex with her new boyfriend?
I'm kinda addicted to hookers. It sounds funny but isn't really. I had zero luck with women for a while and then just went to the prostitutehouse because it's convenient. Where I live this is legal and not especially expensive. Then I took a liking to it, tried out all types of women and fetishes and after a while I've gotten so used to it. I now frick hookers like 5-7 times a month. It's fun but I also realize it's simply unhealthy, at least mentally. I don't even care about meeting women normally anymore because all my sexual needs are taken care of.
Somehow I feel all of this is just wrong und not healthy.
I’m getting sick of how entitled old people are. I find one thing that brings me genuine joy and pulls me out of my depression and it’s a problem for these c**ts. It’s fishing. Doesn’t hurt anyone. I do catch and release unless it’s salt water and even then I follow regs. I do this better than most. I leave any water I go to in better condition than I found it, always cleaning up any trash I see. I only fish public property unless I’m given permission to be on and fish private property.
Few days ago I went to a city golf course. That’s public property. I asked if I could fish there I was given the okay and told others fish there too. Golf courses are great fishing because not many fish them and the fish get big. First fish was a personal best for me. Great day, no issues, head home after few hours. Next day same shit no problem. Few days break because busy. Go to fish there again today and there were a ton of golfers. No big deal, I get clearance again to be safe, stay out of everyone’s way out of the line of fire (the other golfers were more at risk for getting hit than I was, keep this in mind). Most guys don’t care. One old israelite pulls up to me in his golf cart to ask what I’m catching, seemed respectful but it had undertones of “why are you hear”. Whatever I was polite he left me be. Another guy speeds up slams his breaks just a few feet from me as if to try and be aggressive, ignore him, he starts b***hing to himself “WHATS THIS GUY DOING HERE” I ignored it I’m not responding to bullshit like that. He sat there and took a video of me or some shit probably to jack off to later. He throws his fit, management comes and tells me I have to leave. Polite with management, reminded them I had permission but said it was no issue. I’ll be back for sure.
All because this retired homosexual wants to feel his PUBLIC course is exclusive. He had to go out of his way to get to where I was.
Later I went to one of my usual spots, a public city park which encourages fishing. Old lady (wanna take a guess on her background?) starts yelling at me says there’s no fishing and to read the sign. The only sign by the water is a gator warning lmao. I told her “no that’s okay.” And she called the cops. No one came out. Instead I got a new PB, 6lb bass.
Why are they like this? I could understand if I broke into someone’s backyard or something but they act as if what I’m doing, on public property, takes anything from them. These people are such buttholes. Let’s not even get into the damages they’ve done to this country and my state in particular. Fishing are you kidding me? There’s way worse shit I could be doing in my free time. I find one thing that hurts no one doesn’t even harm the fish and these frickers start b***hing over some power bullshit just to have some feeling of adequacy in their old age.
have you considered being more aggressive when you tell someone to frick off? works for me
I do when necessary. In the case of the old lady she couldn’t do shit so there was no point in getting myself worked up. Either the cops would come I have her ticked for harassing a fisherman, or they tell her to frick off and leave me alone. If the golf course management wants me off the premises even after telling me I could be there I can’t do much
feel like its over for me.
>29
>losing weight and getting strong
>people suddenly want to talk to me
>scared like a coward to socialize, when i try i freeze up
is there something i can do to get over this? I have even tried losing my v-card to a hooker who said some nice things but i get so fricking scared i cant even get hard with viagra.
get good at faking it. i had to learn to mask a fake attitude that people love. people eat that shit up.
Almost had sex for the first time in 6 months and couldn't get it up. Happened to me last time too. I feel like I'm at the point where I can't get it up unless I really like the chick. That or dicks broken. Frustrating, but the chick said she'd be down to try again in a few days so we'll see what happens
not really sure what to do anymore. i have pain and injury in my left knee, right hip, left shoulder and right rhomboid. i want to kill myself and reincarnate in a new body that doesn't fall apart so easily. exercise is the only thing that brings me joy and i can't even do that anymore. i'm a failure of a man.