I fricked up again. I could’ve told my trainer I’m doing stronglifts but no I had to be not assertive and do what she had. Knew I shouldn’t have done a personal trainer again.
Yeah I wish I hadn't I know I'm a pussy and I just get in my head about things and make them much worse than they are. If there is no one around to tell me to stop being a b***h then I just implode.
Wish I could be as autistically determined as Goggins.
>You are not your thoughts, you are the observer.
This is so based. The same can be said about your emotions. I gotta write it on my walls to read it every single time I feel like shit
>You are not your thoughts, you are the observer.
This is so based. The same can be said about your emotions. I gotta write it on my walls to read it every single time I feel like shit
that's bullshit though, you can sit and meditate and listen to the thoughts that arise but you can also will your own thoughts into being through organizing your active recall. don't let this homosexual demoralize you into nihilism, even in a deterministic universe you must behave as if you have free will because you cannot see the future. and you must believe you can choose your own thoughts because otherwise you lack agency and that is emotionally disempowering.
It isn't nihilism. I have a way and a goal. I know what I have to do along the way so my thoughts become my actions. It is important for me to recognize unwanted / unnecessary thoughts and treat them as such. Emotions too. Can't achieve anything if I am sad everyday because I am lonely
I understand but I do think that trying to reason your way out of it via "tricking" your mind isn't really the right way, but that's just my opinion. I think the right way is to contextualize your existence against what you know about the rest of humanity and history and realize that what you are is okay and you should just focus on doing what is best for you. We're just these creatures born into random circumstances. I'm not going to harp on it but "hacking" your brain I think is not a harmonious way of being and will backfire in a similar way to what happens to trannies and shit (who are just an extreme case). Living a lie is never good.
I am not tricking my mind. My mind is trying to trick me. Actually, no. It is not. It is simply functioning as it is supposed to. I just do not choose to see myself as being my mind. I am the sum of all the parts of my physical body and then so much more. I guess I could be called spiritual or whatever. I used to think like you for so long and it's such a good way to limit your own experience as a living being with a consciousness.
I do understand myself as the whole of my being, things get dicey when you start to pick it apart and describe it without the caveat that you understand the whole, I guess. But I appreciate the concern.
When I was at my lowest point I went to a thrift store and bought $50 worth of women's skirts and dresses. By the time I got home I was too disgusted with myself to try any of them on, but also too disgusted to go back and return them. I didn't want to just throw out $50 worth of clothing, so I showed it all into a box and hid it in the back of my closet. I wish I'd just gotten rid of it, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think or ripping the box open and dressing myself up all cute. The whole reason I started lifting was some sort of last ditch attempt to "fix" myself. I thought maybe the testosterone boost would help but all it does it drown out the nagging desires I've dealt with my entire life.
trust me bro start working out again soon if you’re anything like me it’ll save innocent people from being slaughtered
They're not innocent
haha time to forget about it and hit those weights
haha ok anon haha
I fricked up again. I could’ve told my trainer I’m doing stronglifts but no I had to be not assertive and do what she had. Knew I shouldn’t have done a personal trainer again.
PT's are for fat middle-aged women, anon... Show breasts?
>Quit my job because of mental health again despite doing great until this week
When this starts to happen to me I think about the david goggins 1 second thing and it always gets me through.
Yeah I wish I hadn't I know I'm a pussy and I just get in my head about things and make them much worse than they are. If there is no one around to tell me to stop being a b***h then I just implode.
Wish I could be as autistically determined as Goggins.
Have you considered that it's your mental illness causing you to self sabotage and quit your job?
Yes.
>The thoughts start coming back
You are not your thoughts, you are the observer.
Kinda gay
>You are not your thoughts, you are the observer.
This is so based. The same can be said about your emotions. I gotta write it on my walls to read it every single time I feel like shit
that's bullshit though, you can sit and meditate and listen to the thoughts that arise but you can also will your own thoughts into being through organizing your active recall. don't let this homosexual demoralize you into nihilism, even in a deterministic universe you must behave as if you have free will because you cannot see the future. and you must believe you can choose your own thoughts because otherwise you lack agency and that is emotionally disempowering.
It isn't nihilism. I have a way and a goal. I know what I have to do along the way so my thoughts become my actions. It is important for me to recognize unwanted / unnecessary thoughts and treat them as such. Emotions too. Can't achieve anything if I am sad everyday because I am lonely
I understand but I do think that trying to reason your way out of it via "tricking" your mind isn't really the right way, but that's just my opinion. I think the right way is to contextualize your existence against what you know about the rest of humanity and history and realize that what you are is okay and you should just focus on doing what is best for you. We're just these creatures born into random circumstances. I'm not going to harp on it but "hacking" your brain I think is not a harmonious way of being and will backfire in a similar way to what happens to trannies and shit (who are just an extreme case). Living a lie is never good.
I am not tricking my mind. My mind is trying to trick me. Actually, no. It is not. It is simply functioning as it is supposed to. I just do not choose to see myself as being my mind. I am the sum of all the parts of my physical body and then so much more. I guess I could be called spiritual or whatever. I used to think like you for so long and it's such a good way to limit your own experience as a living being with a consciousness.
I do understand myself as the whole of my being, things get dicey when you start to pick it apart and describe it without the caveat that you understand the whole, I guess. But I appreciate the concern.
What thoughts?
The bad ones
This
When I was at my lowest point I went to a thrift store and bought $50 worth of women's skirts and dresses. By the time I got home I was too disgusted with myself to try any of them on, but also too disgusted to go back and return them. I didn't want to just throw out $50 worth of clothing, so I showed it all into a box and hid it in the back of my closet. I wish I'd just gotten rid of it, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think or ripping the box open and dressing myself up all cute. The whole reason I started lifting was some sort of last ditch attempt to "fix" myself. I thought maybe the testosterone boost would help but all it does it drown out the nagging desires I've dealt with my entire life.
/r9gay/ refugee
Post body
>start exercising again
>immediately get sick
>can't do shit for several days
I'm upset
Do it anyways bro just don't push it as hard as usual