>I don't like when people tell me thank you. Both my grandmas are dying. I live and work in a place away from friends and family. Multiple important people in my life have said they want to commit suicide. I'm unhappy with my body and am scared of yoyoing again for the 5th time. I'm a Norwood 2 or 3. I have lost 25lbs this month by fasting. I need to lose 13 more to go into phase 2 of my plan body transformation plan.
These are my problems, they weigh on me immensely, yet I have never talked to anyone about this. Over my life I learned that no one cares, so why would I talk about this shit. I fully expect none of you to care either and thats an order
If I followed your order that would mean I care. Frick you.
But you are right, no one cares. Some moron here might say he does or someone you meet might say they do but everyone stops caring as soon as caring means putting in any effort in.
>Over my life I learned that no one cares, so why would I talk about this shit.
There are people out there you can befriend who would genuinely care, but they're a really rare breed
Also, what's the point of venting here if you expect people to ignore it? Might as well just keep a diary
I’m upset with myself. I failed something I was working very hard to change and I was successful for a long time with it. It’s keeping my anger in check and not reacting viciously towards other people. As a young kid I learned to go for the throat when someone harassed me because often that made people frick off and leave me alone. Like they make fun of me for XYZ thing that I found hurtful, I came at them for having an alcoholic mother. Or they came at me for having neglectful parents myself, I just got physical and folded them. I hate it it’s disgusting.
This last one was with my ex. She hurt me and there were all kinds of signs and red flags I should leave. So after she hurt me and then acted like I needed to apologize to her for speaking up about it I left her. It was like she couldn’t accept she fricked up, she kept hmu every week for 10 months after I left her. Eventually I responded and she was just playing games. Argument, then when I seemed okay talking to her again she told me we shouldn’t talk anymore. It infuriated me that she’d hurt me and then seek out some twisted revenge for me leaving. So I mentioned the name of a guy who killed her brother. And I feel sick about it still. All I said was “[name].” But it was enough to cross the line and hurt her pretty bad. I feel horrible still and it’s been a few months since that happened. I just feel sick about it still. I wish I never responded, that I blocked her.
You need to work on your mental demons but it sounds like your girlfriend wasn't blameless either. She sought you out to pick a fight and you gave her one: play stupid games, win stupid prizes.
It’s hard to say not being in that moment. It depends on the circumstances.
With my own family in the car? No fricking way, my only priority is getting myself and my family to safety.
All by myself? I might be inclined to stop, backed up with adrenaline, and help. But I would like to think even solo and full of adrenaline I would have the awareness to not stop and just focus on gtfo.
I'd stop and get her into my car then take her to safety. I would nurse her back to health myself and during her recovery she would see how great I am and fall in love with me. Then once we were married we would start a family and have 6 children. They would grow up hearing the story of my heroism which would influence them to be good people too.
Keep driving. If she's on the ground not moving it's already too late. Smoke inhalation is no joke. Pretty much best case scenario is she lives with massive brain damage from oxygen deprivation and that's if you got to her just after she collapsed.
I'd want to try, but I know it's a bad idea. If those superheated gases damaged her airway in addition to good ol' smoke inhalation, there's pretty much no saving her. No point in both of us dying, she'd probably want me to save myself.
In that situation? No way in hell am I stopping for anyone or anything. Somebody motionless on the ground in that kind of environment is likely past help anyway.
I would volunteer on hawaii if I had any money to get there. I would be helping others instead of being an aimless neet and maybe wathever I saw there would be enough to shock me out of this perpetual ennui.
>getting some more b***hes lately >none gf material but pussy is pussy >feel hollow inside
what gives bros? i thought this is at least a step to something greater
Mix of you realizing there’s more to the game than just getting laid by realizing none of them are gf or potential wife material, plus the added “hunting” aspect now being taken out of the equation.
Find something else to chase while you frick these b***hes, and keep screening them until you find gf material ones. Get 3 that are gf material dump all others, juggle those three without making any major commitments to any, decide which of the three is best and focus on just her after a while. If it works and you made the right choice congrats, if it doesn’t and it needs to end oh well back to the hunt again should be easy if you didn’t get comfortable and stagnate.
Pro tip: a b***h should never be the main focus, not even chasing b***hes. So fill that void with something else that will never leave you such as starting a business. Keep women as a side hobby of sorts.
Mix of you realizing there’s more to the game than just getting laid by realizing none of them are gf or potential wife material, plus the added “hunting” aspect now being taken out of the equation.
Find something else to chase while you frick these b***hes, and keep screening them until you find gf material ones. Get 3 that are gf material dump all others, juggle those three without making any major commitments to any, decide which of the three is best and focus on just her after a while. If it works and you made the right choice congrats, if it doesn’t and it needs to end oh well back to the hunt again should be easy if you didn’t get comfortable and stagnate.
Pro tip: a b***h should never be the main focus, not even chasing b***hes. So fill that void with something else that will never leave you such as starting a business. Keep women as a side hobby of sorts.
I went from very little attention to an obscene amount. Decided to date a girl but I knew she wasn't wife or even gf material, and it went as bad as you figured. She 'wanted' to be wife material, to the point she started pressuring me into discussing long term plans even a month or so in. Marriage has never been a goal of mine, cuz I'm not gonna marry someone I don't trust fully. Now I have an fwb that I met before her and it's very consistent. Between seeing him again and when I broke up with frickface I racked up 15 or so in a month and a bit.
You know you made it if you can't recognize anyone you hooked up with or even matched. Most chicks on tinder here are only on to get laid so they're not distracted at school. I went through my queue in a few days, think I'm at 100th percentile or so for matches given my age and my filters. Even without age I guess.
The hollow feeling probably comes from the lack of emotional connection, hookups can be a decent ego boost but that shit gets old fast. I do seem to match with a lot of career women who want an actual relationship, but I don't really give a shit about that right now.
I'm jelly, anon. I just wanna plow thru sexy cannon fodder 3x a week for a few months all in the name of sloppy top and seeing different kinds of breasts.
Been vivid dreaming a lot lately (this last week). Very strange dreams. Usually my entire family gets murdered. Today one of my dreams was some strange situation where there were these strange zombies (almost like foam) that floated and if they touch you, you would also become that floating foam. My entire family also got murdered there. I woke up that second time when 2 motherfricker cornered me. Sneaky frickers I thought I was clear for a second there. 2 nights ago I dreamed that my sister got violently stabbed to death. Then sometimes when I wake up I see creatures beside my bed. They disappear when I start punching them. Probably stress.
Water, please.
I've been having vivid dreams about having sex with fit chicks. My girlfriend is absolutely not fit, and despite my best efforts she is likely not going to get fit anytime soon. I really, really love my girlfriend, but the more I dream of these fit chicks the more I want them in my waking life. I will never cheat on my girlfriend, of course, but frick is it difficult.
>gonna be 30 next month >still no gf
I lilve in nyc but these women are horrible here. They act like dudes and are fricking disgusting. I need to get out of this fricking liberal shithole ASAP.
I’m so happy to hear someone from NY actually saying this. I live in Florida where many New Yorkers move and many native Floridians pick up NY slang/mannerisms and coin them as their own.
It’s always been my same feelings. It’s not attractive. It’s not even that it’s intimidating like they’d probably cope and say if you told them this. It just makes come off like butch dikes and low intelligence. I understand what that anon meant the other about finally grasping why rapists do it. Physically there may be some attraction and yet because of how they act I just want to dehumanize them and show them they’re being loud for nothing, they’re powerless if I chose to do something about it. Big if though.
In six months time, the woman you love is going to be raped by three men who are much, much stronger and more resilient than you. It will happen when you and her are interacting together, and she will call out to you and beg you to help her. If you are unprepared, and you neglect your fitness, one of the men will restrain you and force you to watch as the other two have their way with your beloved. And unlike what happens shitty NTR porn, this will be in no way enjoyable for your love, she will cry and scream for you to help her because of how painful and traumatizing the experience is. Once the men are done, maybe she will continue to be okay seeing you after the fact, or maybe she will refuse to even look at you again, being reminded of how you failed to protect her. Either way, your relationship with her will be forever changed for the worse.
All of this can be avoided if you return to the gym and continue lifting and improving. The choice is yours.
A few weeks ago, my office had some kind of outdoor lunch event going on. Two people in there were asking if I was coming, but I made up that I was busy with work. The reality is that I'd know that I wasn't going to talk to anybody and just stand there like a lonely loser on my phone. I hate being like this, but I don't like being in these situations where I'm watching everybody's lives while I'm just in the background of it all. Not saying I want the spotlight on me, but that's how these situations have gone just about my whole life. There's a party and I'm just there just to be there.
I'm the same anon, I've been able to avoid most of the work events except for the last one and a Christmas party a few years back. Which both ended up being pretty much exactly what you described
I don't have any advice to give you obviously, just letting you know that you're not alone in your loneliness
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If someone tries to rob me I’m 100% getting stabbed or shot purely because I’m not giving up the most expensive thing I carry one me: my deceased grandfathers signature pendant. I’ll give them the $2000 gold chain that I later bought, but the bronze pendant that’s worth nothing but sentimental value I will die over and I’m sure some junkie or nig isn’t going to believe or listen to me as I try to point out it’s clearly jot gold and is tarnished to shit. I will gladly die over it. Makes me want to stop wearing it.
I dont think I can feel romantic things for a woman anymore. That doesn't bother me too much though
I graduated like 1-2 months ago and I can't find a job and it's starting to weigh on me a bit. Anyone got any tips for getting through the job hunt period?
>I dont think I can feel romantic things for a woman anymore
I feel the same way but I assume it comes back with the right person. The hardest part for me is I'm 100% still looking for pussy for validation but I'm not that interested in putting in the effort. Because of that I'm experiencing a lot of internal conflict which is a struggle.
>Anyone got any tips for getting through the job hunt period?
Depends on what your degree is in, but I would consider fricking off to Thailand for at least a month. It's just a shit time to find jobs if you're fresh out of uni.
I went out to watch a meteor shower with my wife last night, and while it was very relaxing, it also filled me with quite a bit of melancholy because it reminded me of the last time I spent time outside at night with her, two years ago. In fact, since our relationship started we periodically enjoy nighttime events (lunar eclipses, meteor showers, etc.), and this last one reminded me of how much life has changed in those intervening years. I am 32, and while I fervently believe that my life isn't over yet (unlike some of my friends), I can't deny that on some level I feel like the stability and structure of my life has left me without the ability to feel excitement or adventure - there is no going out on a random road trip with the guys, because we all have work and families now. There is no going out and meeting cute girls, because I'm married with a child. I didn't do any exciting stuff when I was in my 20s, and now I feel somewhat trapped. It isn't bad enough that I feel actively, deeply depressed about it, but it's enough that it will always stay in the back of my mind.
But I've lost 30 pounds since I started my diet a couple months ago, so that's been neat
I've considered it, but I honestly don't know if I could. Maybe for a one-time fling but anything more would make me feel way too guilty - I do absolutely adore my wife, and the last thing I want to do is to hurt her.
Maybe find out why you started dating? Find/rediscover the things that made you like her in the first place, something as simple as going to a new restaurant or trying a new sport together, something adventurous, iirc first dates are always more successful if you get someones heart rate up with something exciting, why should marriage be any different
Dog's getting put down tomorrow night
Hermangiosarcoma
Guy's had a spleen out for two months, starting to turn the corner and family's figured we should just give him the easy out.
It's hard. My parents are taking it a lot worse than I am, he's really their dog.
For what it's worth, no matter how big a part of your life he was, your love was always a bigger part of his
My current relationship's kinda going to shit and Idk how to prepare for the inevitable shitstorm that is feeling sad for weeks if not months on end again
Honestly if you're able to feel contempt for her then it will be that much easier. I don't know the circumstance, but it's much easier to get over someone by learning to hate them - and hating someone is much more intense if you recently loved them. You'll get over her, you'll meet other people.
There is no 'the one' - you might be alone for a while and that might be a good thing, but you'll be able to meet someone else in time.
Ehh there'd been issues for the past months tbh and times where I felt it was heading this way/that we wouldn't work out since we had opposing views on a lot of things, so I know once I get over her I'll realise I probably should've ended things sooner, I suppose it's just adjusting to not having her around anymore that's getting to me, for all our faults we did have similar problems so it was great having someone supportive and understanding around who didn't judge me for things I was afraid to open up to with friends or family
Evening, anons. I am feeling the lonely today but I got a long workout in this morning then built some furniture while listening to some records. Overall a productive day but I can't help but feel like something bad is going to happen to ruin it.
>tfw the bipolar meds cause the paranoias and tremors
>quitting nicotine, only an hour in getting agitated >last time I quit few weeks ago made it to 3 days withdrawals lasted 1 day then it was massive cravings, so after tomorrow I should be good to go so long as I don’t cave to cravings
After nicotine is gone I’m hoping my cardio improves and by extension I start losing more fat.
This is my last shot to get my shit in order. After nicotine I only need to quit caffeine and then I’m 100% sober again, already quit other drugs a while ago. I just need to cut, fix my money, and I’m good.
Idk how many hours it’s been since I posted this but I’m going strong still. Much easier than it was like a week ago. I guess me going for 3 days out a dent in my dependency/addiction. Feel out of it and spacey, kind of hazy like. Heart rate has gotten a lot lower as well just a day after quitting. I can actually lay on my back and hit the low 60s. Even with my normal 200-400mg caffeine I’m sitting in the 70s. If I get up and walk around it’ll go to the 80s. But doesn’t seem to be going over 100 from basic chores.
What this means bros, is that cutting will be more doable for me because I won’t feel sick from having shit cardio due to vaping. I feel that I’ve lost everything in life and all I can do is gain and blossom once again. I have one path and I can either lay down in the road and die or I can march this path towards success. I’m on a pothole quitting nicotine right now, but I’ll keep going forward and I will make it.
I don't know how to conciliate respecting my father with the fact that he's an butthole and alternates between saying and doing shit that's activelly damaging to mine, my mother's and my brother's lives or acting like a complete deadbeat. My family is in a sorry and unfixable state and it can be traced back to his failures as a father and a husband. Even my mother's bpd histrionics wouldn't have been so bad if he hadn't forced her to quit her job and spend about 15 years raising me and my brother alone while also taking care of any affairs he was too lazy to go about solving. He managed to be as absent from our lives as some guy who went to buy cigarettes and never came back despite us sharing the same house. That doesn' stop him from giving his opinions about everything and anything, always negatives more reminiscent of the shit demotivational posters say around here than what a man should say to his family. I swear I tried to put in the effort a gazillion times and it always ends the same way. I simultaneously try to get along with him and despise him. It doesn't help that the things I hate the most about myself are those we have in common - like a superiority complex and a perchant to take the easier path and avoid challenges - and that the man I aim to be is almost antagonic to what he is.
The four of us are only a family nominally and we were raised distant from our other relatives because my father never cared for them and my mother nurtures bad feelings about everyone im her life and constantly shittalks them.
What I'm trying to say is that a couple years ago I realized that I don't have a family and went through a shitton on abuse during my formative years and I still can't deal with it. I try to strive for a good life despite being in a bad place and having gone through a lot of shit in the past but somedays it seems impossible.
Brother, I feel you. This is what my father has become too. Only difference is he and my mother have been divorced for 19 years (since I was 18). My mom was actually in the wrong with the divorce, but I think it really began his spiral into being an butthole. But now she's a decent lady and he is a full on frickin butthole. Never has anything good to say, can't handle his own business, only nice when he wants something, same shit as you about the loud, obnoxious opinions on everything that are always negative and demotivational. And on top of that, became a degenerate gambler who is always broke and was constantly hitting me and my sisters up for money until I hard cut him off on it. Always puts my sisters and I down in these shitty ways that are just shy of something that warrants you telling him to frick off for good, and at anything you go to with him he acts like a belligerent child and one of us is always stuck babysitting him. Often think he'd be more satisfied if we failed so he could give us a lecture, and was demotivational on everything good we've accomplished (all three of us are responsible and successful adults with good jobs, homes, taking care of ourselves). You'll be just ready to be done with his shit then he'll have an occasion where he's actually nice or so pathetic you feel bad. Was a miserable and unsupportive sack of shit when I went through a divorce a few years back and hit me up for thousands of dollars in the middle of it because he was gonna lose his house over mysteriously having no money. Told me flat out to give up on buying a house when I was working on it (and then hit me up for 100 bucks the week before closing on it). My sister's wedding was a couple weeks ago, and even there he was miserable, sarcastic, and left early. I feel you anon. I think the best way to deal with it, is to counter the negative with positivity or simple dismissiveness, since we've all proved his shitty attitude wrong in practice many times over now.
>And on top of that, became a degenerate gambler who is always broke
Mine spends all of his free time watching youtube political videos and mocking the politics obsessed people from the other side of the spectrum despite their videos being basically the same aesthetics/quality wise and they acting quite similar to the youtubers he likes. >at anything you go to with him he acts like a belligerent child and one of us is always stuck babysitting him.
Taking him to the doctors or even something simple as going out to eat is always on exercise on patience and self-restraint. >positivity or simple dismissiveness, since we've all proved his shitty attitude wrong in practice many times over now.
It's what I try to do. I'm just too insecure about myself after a lifetime surrounded by people putting me down and sometimes I let the shit they say get to me. Things will get better though. I'm glad you're doing well anon. Any advice for a 26 yo semi-zoomer?
Just water for me, please
My girlfriend broke up with me last week
At first I was hurt, mostly by the way she did it (she simply replied to me on a message) to the point that I got angry and instantly blocked her on every single social media we shared. It felt extremely disrespectful after almost 2 years of dating
But now, after one week? I'm glad it's over. It felt long overdue that we broke things off, and the way she treated me long before that fatidical day just screamed to me that she wasnt the right one for me
I'm grateful, actually, for what she did. I dont feel hate or anger towards her, even though I feel she is a massive coward for not at least confronting me, face to face. I feel liberated, ready to forgive and forget, and ready to improve myself, to find someone worthwhile, who does not make me feel like shit
Hope you all find happiness within my friends
I snapped some shit in my lower back on a warmup deadlift yesterday and I have to go to work tomorrow doing manual labor. I’m going to be out of the gym and in pain and I’m feeling very upset, but I can’t miss work. I’ve spent almost all day in bed reading and could barely get into my car earlier. I feel like a piece of shit.
>broke up with gf a few weeks ago >meet a cute girl on hinge yesterday, we frick on first date >she leaves, today I text her thx and she responds with "of course :)"
I wanna frick her again tomorrow, should I hit her up or do you think this is a sign she's not really interested? idk how to go about this lmfao
Do you anglos text exclusively through the dating apps or do you give your number to a hoe before going out with her? Most women around here always b***h about wanting your number before a date, even when we're just going for a one night stand and will meet at a public place first. I'm cautious with it but it pisses me off losing easy sex because I refuse to give some dumb hoe my number before we go out.
we used the app at the start. She actually asked for my number b4 our date to call me to tell me she had a food allergy.
you lose dates because you dont give your number out?... no wonder you lose out on sex dude if youre being stingy with details like that youre gonna come across as shady to them, but if thats a boundary for you thats ok.
I don't see a reason to give it if we're just meeting for sex. Besides, I don't want them bothering me down the line. There's this woman I didn't even went out with that still keeps texting months latter even though I very politely let her down and didn't even reply to her last texts. Also, a ton of women on these apps a bpd-tier crazy. Nothing good will come from giving them a means of contacting me.
yeah that's fair, but this is the trade off with vulnerability. if you dont want to share phone details then you gotta accept you might miss out on smashing. plus idk, i havent been on dating apps for very long but i gave my # out and this girl is respectful of me. worst comes to worst you just block them man.
>you gotta accept you might miss out on smashing
Yeah, I know. It just bothers me that most women get away with acting like the most deranged incel when it comes to being rejected. If a guy repeatedly contacted and bothered a woman that wants nothing to do with him he would rightfully be called a creep. The amount of bureaucracy zoomers/millenials invented when it comes to having casual sex also puts me off. For fricks sake, one of them stsrted grilling me about why I broke up my last relationship before we even went on a date. I recall some milf coomer talking about how ridiculous it was to see young people on sanitized apps act more reluctant than the strangers who used to meet each other at shady bars/clubs back in her days.
trying to make it happen while being overwhelmed with vanity...
Philippians 2:9-11
Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name that is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
My meds have been making me feel shitty lately but I have no choice but to take them because the alternative (being med free) is dangerous.
>take meds >life is flat, stale, generally low energy and boring >don't take meds >be depressed and suicidal or euphoric, irritable and full of energy >anger issues off the charts without meds
I hate how in my head I am with how awkward it is between myself and my 'gym crush.' I shot my shot after getting really good signals but when I shot I got an awkward response to which I took as a no. since then we've just been avoiding each other to the point other people even notice.
An yes I am trying to talk to other girls and move on but the moment she shows up I just fixate. It's pathetic. >her body type
>big crush on friend >we used to talk every single day >she'd ask to do things with me >one day just starts acting mean to me >takes hours to respond >now just straight up ignores me and acts like I'm not even in the room >Friends just say she's going through some stuff
Why do I never get a direct answer on why I'm not likeable? I swear I did nothing to offend her or creep her out yet this shit keeps happening
Tell her to get fricked and move on
She's being like that go you because there's someone else and you're adding problems to her relationships with other men
I swear I wasn't aiming to be a relationship guru when I started replying to your posts.
It's female drama and probably has nothing to do with you. I once had a girl who constantly said we should go out just to ghost me some hours before the date. She did it like 3 times. A couple months latter I met a friend of hers on the street and she asked me why I had "given up on chasing her friend". She purposefully ghosted me because in her mind acting like a simp and begging to go out with her after getting ghosted would serve as a proof of commitment. Every single woman has her particular brand of bullshit and if you take it seriously you'll drive yourself mad.
>work 58hrs a week >as soon as I have days off I get insanely lonely >back to work and loneliness goes away
I'm literally too busy to think about no gf until I have days off but then it hits me and it's so much worse because unless I'm keeping my brain busy it just fantasises/daydreams about me being with random women I know or coworkers, even if there's no attraction between us or anything. Probably going to learn to waltz on my days off just for something fun to do and keep me distracted.
Learning how to waltz sounds cool.
>be me >27yo kissless virgin >swallow pride and make a dating app profile for the first time (Hinge) >90% of the profiles I'm shown are landwhales >receive a handful likes from bottom of the barrel women >no women I like match me back
Is this a sign I was just never meant to have a girl like me? Seriously considering seeing an escort at this point.
Dating apps are 50% luck. The other 50 is having good photos. Just take a page out of your average thot's book and snap a gazillion pics of yourself until you've one that's good. Do that 6 times and you're good to go. Random hookups are shit btw but maybe it'll help you desmistify sex. Wear a condom and try not to gf her.
Been old romcoms. Really feel like finding that first gf but the constraints of life make that unfeasible for some time. Dunno how to reconcile this feel, advice?
Romcoms are like those comfy shows about highschool. You wish it was like that but it isn't. You should go on dates if that's what you want. There's no such thing as a life without constraints and there'll never be an ideal moment to do what you want.
>work 58hrs a week >as soon as I have days off I get insanely lonely >back to work and loneliness goes away
I'm literally too busy to think about no gf until I have days off but then it hits me and it's so much worse because unless I'm keeping my brain busy it just fantasises/daydreams about me being with random women I know or coworkers, even if there's no attraction between us or anything. Probably going to learn to waltz on my days off just for something fun to do and keep me distracted.
>be me >27yo kissless virgin >swallow pride and make a dating app profile for the first time (Hinge) >90% of the profiles I'm shown are landwhales >receive a handful likes from bottom of the barrel women >no women I like match me back
Is this a sign I was just never meant to have a girl like me? Seriously considering seeing an escort at this point.
once you stick your dick in a woman and coom, you will see that women are nothing more than a hole. no need to be a virgin at that age. just visit a hooker.
My ex gf is back in town and i still want her, i was the one breaking up but every girl i've been with since then (3 only in one year) cannot match her energy, her mood, her looks. The nostalgia is real bros, the only thing is that she has bpd and nothing is free with her and im not talking about money.
I have her blocked and she is sending me emails wanting an explanation why i ghosted her. should i give in? i don't sleep night bros. also she is leaving in 3 days for her phd and she was here only a month already, should i hold the line? its brutal, i had another girl on my bed yesterday and i was thinking about her... and no she was not my oneitis. my life is pure hell.
nta but I get his problem, it can suck when you're physically outgoing and want to do active things all day but have a more passive partner who doesn't share your love of physical exercise
Been old romcoms. Really feel like finding that first gf but the constraints of life make that unfeasible for some time. Dunno how to reconcile this feel, advice?
Just water I don't want to frick my teeth any more. Years of teeth grinding and my front teeth hurt where my bottom teeth rest when I close my mouth. I'm praying to god it's not a crack due to constant pressure and it'll pass if i take it easy for a while. Had a mental breakdown years ago and it fricked me up and I still haven't fully recovered. Jaw clenches on its own I have to shove my hand between my teeth sometimes to prevent them from snapping shut like a bear trap. I just want to not live in pain and get fit and get through this shit life. I wish I could go back to being a kid and not having these gay ass problems but I can't. I don't want this shit anymore.
>Anyone else?
Me. I assume you don't mean a medically diagnosed moron, but just a moron in general. I try to keep my mouth shut unless absolutely necessary so it's less obvious when I'm in public
Been pretty depressed recently. I go to bed at 2am and I don't wake up until 2pm, I could easily sleep more too. I dont want to wallow in it though, I just want to get better and be happy again. So I get up, force myself to eat even though I don't want to, then apply for jobs (I just graduated) until there's none left to apply for. After that, I'll go to the gym which is the only thing that provides me some relief, exercising surrounded by young people my age just trying our best. But even that is waning now. Then I get home and wait until its time to sleep.
I think the structure and routine of a job would help a lot but at the same time I don't know if the existential dread of wageing would outweigh it and spiral me even further. I'm already anxious about starting a job and transitional periods always frick me up.
Just feel hopeless and I see that everyone else also feels depressed and I wonder why we're all like this.
Are there any wise anons with some words of advice for me?
Wageing is like having a gf: some just up and quit when things get bad while others spend their entire lives with the same one out of fear despite how miserable it makes them. You can also be dumped despite doing more for them than they ever did for you and as you go through multiple experiences you undestand more about yourself and what you want. Some people like going thorugh many of them and almost make a game out of it while others hate the whole looking around process, struggle with it and feel relief at finally having one no matter how many problems it has.
>32 >advertising career >havent work since 2019 because of i got into a depression when my friend killed herself. Pandemic came. My country went to shit. Had to move back with my parents. >try to find a job >NO LOL U ARE TOO OLD >try to find construction job >NO LOL YOU ARE NOT PART OF THE UNION >try to find a fricking fast food job >LOL YOU ARE STILL OLD homosexual
Im done. Probably kill myself soon, what a shit career i picked. My savings ran out a long time ago and i can tell my parents are bored of me because they mentioned weeks ago why i dont go out anymore
You could become a lighthouse keeper, a watchmaker, a merchant mariner or work in a research vessel. Depending on your country some of these will train you for free and are always in need of people. You could also fitmaxxx and become a fireman or a paramedic. My point is: think about some whimsical thing you found cool when you were young and look it up online. You would be surprised with how accessible some of things are. Frick, just travel to japan, visit the karakuri puzzlemaking homies and beg them for an apprenticeship. Maybe do it with one those japanese laquerware makers, caligraphers or noh theatre guys if that's more up to your speed. A canadian guy did exactly that with an old guy that was a master of some obscure jap form of standup and he's now one of the few remaning people who knows how to do it and probably the only foreigner that ever went to them for training.
>Female killed herself
She literally must have been 300+lbs to consider that. Life on easy mode still too hard
Also >Muh depression
Stop being a fricking pussy and lift your whole post makes me sick.
Recently discovered the side effects of this shit. I've been constantly congested for years. Nose is constantly blocked when going to bed/waking up.
Went to my dr thinking I've got a deviated septum but honestly I've had the worst winter with sickness and have always thought my immune system was dog shit despite being IST and eating healthy.
It fricks you up. I felt sick all the time because of it. This shit never really went away but spraying a mix of one part bleach and two parts water at it makes it frick off for a couple months. If any anon has a better anti-mold recipe I'm all ears.
I love my wife. Simple as. I just want to give her a better life and buy her nice things, so she never has to stress about the outside world (bills, jobs, competition, etc). That is all.
Based devoted husband anon. You should take a look at some online and well reputed british antique stores. They've a ton of cool israeliteelery for accessible prices. I would buy some of them myself if my country didn't have some of the worst import laws known by man.
nothing i do gives me any satisfaction or sense of purpose
its like i cant be happy with any kind of circumstance and i have a constant negative thoughts telling me im worthless and a loser eventhough i am educated and have a respected job
im doing a media cleanse and just going to read books to get my mental health in a better place
Have you tried making ice cream? I bet that if you bought an ice cream machine and kept making all of those weird sorbet recipes you can find online you wouldn't feel like that. The gay negative thoughts will shut up when you realize you're probably the only man in your city - hell, in your entire country - who can make a raspberry and roses sorbet with slight hints of lilac and honey.
Just quit my job for a $1 promised raise they failed to hold up. Was present there everyday they needed me (took a day off every two weeks) and they tried to find a excuse to dismiss the raise until my next paycheck (biweekly pay.) Don't feel discouraged at all, just recognizing that I needed to stand up for myself at this day and age. Wish every other anon here is feeling better these comings days and thank you for anyone reading my blogpost. 🙂
>almost 31 >stable relationship, house, easy and lucrative hybrid job >feel like I'm supposed to be happy >feel extremely restless and dissatisfied instead, like I'm slipping into some kind of boomer workaday hell
I'm just autistic enough to feel uncomfortable while still able to mask it and blend in. But it all feels so unnatural. I'm exhausted from trying. I feel like I'm just not meant to be with other people, living the way they live, and it's killing me.
Just water for me >managed to drink 700ml (22 std drinks) of scotch on Sunday >woke up and vomited 200 times then went through a day of work super hungover >did a similar thing the week before (15 std drinks, Friday hungover)
I think this needs to stop
Can you reliably go cold turkey when you're the only one that knows you have a problem?
Ya, no physical withdrawal or anything. I mostly binge with no self control. More just me being the only one to hold myself to account, so one weak moment and I'll be back at square one
I'm fricking killing it in life right now. By my own standards of course. I went from a fat depressed moron to fit and relatively competent. I stopped drinking and smoking ,I gained 2 certifications, passed an in person test for the more difficult one (I was nervous as hell and the questions were nothing like what was presented in the course) and aced it. Working on a 3rd now and enrolled in college for my desired field. Hitting the gym 3 days a week, staying at a constant 180 but getting stronger and leaner very slowly. Got a new job in tech from being in food for a while. I've been through a lot of downs, death in the family and losing my business due to COVID and landlords israelitery but now things are looking up and I'm finally moving forward in life due to the hard work I've put in. It only took a year and a 2 months. Life is never NOT worth working towards your goals but just know your effort accumulates. You may not see results for a while but sooner or later you'll be at the point and reflect that you're making progress or already where you want to be. Just needed to express this to someone.
Hey this is a reminder for all you people talking about being "depressed" in these threads, you're just a homosexual, stop being a homosexual. Here's how you do it: >Pray to God and worship Him and His Son Jesus Christ >Workout >Avoid destructive habits to the best of your ability >Find hobbies that you can improve at continuously. I play chess competitively, guitar, am getting in to golf, and enjoy reading and watching movies, find your own shit nerds
It's that simple
Water for me, I'm at work so I don't want to get drunk
I got bored so I went through some old emails from when I was 15-17 yo and holy frick I'd forgotten how much of an obnoxious miserable little b***h I used to be. I have no idea how my family put up with me. I mean I knew I was annoying and I kind of felt pity for my teen self but now I just hate that homosexual so fricking much. And no, this is not >babby's first self cringe moment
I'm just now realizing how bad those years were and how much I've actually grown since. I'm obviously not done, I'm just 21 and I still have a lot of shit to do and fix to be able to say "I made it". But goddamn, no wonder I had no friends and still can't make any. This just gives me more motivation to absolutely destroy any memorabilia from that era, either physical or in my personality
Anyway, that's it for now. Just needed to rant on this
I'll have a saku originaal, the estonian working man's choice.
I am going on a date with a girl who squats more than me. We are going berry picking in the forest
Ok norwood/baldgays. I went to a derma and got the fricking fin prescription but I'm scared to actually get it from the pharmacy.
Be honest. Which ones of you have actualy sides?
I've read hundreds of threads now and I think PFS is a schizo myth, but short term sides and gyno are still concerning.
I'm only your friend if you're a white male. If you are I love you and will venture to help you whenever our Internet paths cross. If you're not white then frick you Black person
I’m not sure what’s going on with me this year. Old things from childhood that I was oblivious to, or that I repressed, have been surfacing and I have this intense clarity of the situations. Every few weeks there’s something new just popping into my head. >parents getting divorced, realizing my mother is the type of woman I hate
Typical story except she was stupid and didn’t get much out of the divorce. Lost what was a normal childhood at 7 years old, and ultimately made me fricked up as an adult
Literlaly I think back and I’d have grown up socializing with my neighborhood friends. Plenty of girls my age plenty of bros with the same interests. Instead they split and make me a shut in because they both move to predominately black hoods. >helicopter parents
They coddled any confidence I had out of me. Literally would tell me I was too stupid and irresponsible to do anything but never gave me a chance despite me making straight As and handling everything fine. Was forbidden from driving and working until I was 18 for example. >turned me into a soft pussy
I was a stereotypical goombah meatball who wouldn’t take shit. If someone tried to bully me I just escalated it and hurt them. Finally had a kid who was antagonizing me cry and b***h after I KO’d him to get me in trouble, and it was downhill from there I was basically taught I was wrong for defending myself. So I was then bullied going into middle and highschool and just turned the other cheek and had to re learn how to stand up for myself as a adult when I realized the problem with turning the other cheek.
There’s many more but whoever is reading this understands. My point here is I’m realizing things were never supposed to end up how they have. And idk what realizing all this bullshit really does to serve me here. And idk why these memories and things are suddenly all coming to light in my head. All it’s doing is making me resent my family.
I understand you my homie. Everyone who went through this shit does. >My point here is I’m realizing things were never supposed to end up how they have.
What sucks is realizing how easy it would have been, to grow up normally. They wouldn't need to go through some homeric challenges to provide you with a decent environment, just take their heads of their asses and make some effort. >And idk what realizing all this bullshit really does to serve me here.
Serves to make you a better person, one who's more compassionate about others and what they've gone through. Even more important, it serves to remind you that some of the things that you despise about yourself aren't inherent to your being. They were just taught to you at an impressionable age and can be unlearned and/or swapped for things you really value. Not saying it'll be easy, but it's possible. >And idk why these memories and things are suddenly all coming to light in my head.
Because running away from the past solves nothing. It is only by comprehending it that you can transcend your circumstances and build a better future. >All it’s doing is making me resent my family.
Not resenting them is tough. I still try to avoid it tho.
I get a similar thing as time goes on a d my shit gets more fixed. I think that as you solve your current issues, unsolved conflict from the past starts to pop up in your subconscious.
For example, I used to think about no gf all the time. Now that I have gf, I don't think about that anymore. I used to be anxious about the future, but now that things are going well I don't think about the future too much. It's as figured out as it gets. I used to fear I'd frick up things thay I didn't frick up and so on.
So every now and then I think about those times in the past everything was fricked up and nothing was resolved. I try to avoid it cause it's pointless and feel bad, but it's inevitable. You need to draw conclusions from things. >these people were wrong here >I was wrong there >I should've done x >I learnt y >I forgive a >frick b
I talk about having kids a lot with my gf and I think that has spawned in my mind a frickton of wrongings I went through during my childhood. It's great to have feedback about what not to do when it comes to educaction. It's sad to know you missed out on a good childhood but there's no point in dwelling. Better to make the most of what you've got.
I'm going back to school full time at 26, I graduated undergrad right at the peak of the covid recession in mid 2020 and it fricked my job prospects massively - I've spent the last 3 years working odd manual labor jobs in teaching, food service, healthcare, etc.
It's amazing how different it feels compared to then. Being around 21 year olds is very odd lol. I think I'll (hopefully) have an advantage as someone who's worked full-time, lives own his own, has a long-term girlfriend and friends, etc.
any tips from guys who went back to school in their mid/late 20s or 30s? everyone wants to socialize like middle schoolers and all the forced mixers/icebreakers and social events feel very weird, not to mention the guys look like they're 12.
i’m feeling queer
Cheer up, chum! You'll soon be feeling gay instead!
Water please, I am going in the gym tomorrow.
Thirsty ass homie
>I don't like when people tell me thank you. Both my grandmas are dying. I live and work in a place away from friends and family. Multiple important people in my life have said they want to commit suicide. I'm unhappy with my body and am scared of yoyoing again for the 5th time. I'm a Norwood 2 or 3. I have lost 25lbs this month by fasting. I need to lose 13 more to go into phase 2 of my plan body transformation plan.
These are my problems, they weigh on me immensely, yet I have never talked to anyone about this. Over my life I learned that no one cares, so why would I talk about this shit. I fully expect none of you to care either and thats an order
If I followed your order that would mean I care. Frick you.
But you are right, no one cares. Some moron here might say he does or someone you meet might say they do but everyone stops caring as soon as caring means putting in any effort in.
>I'm a Norwood 2 or 3
Only real problem I can see
>Over my life I learned that no one cares, so why would I talk about this shit.
There are people out there you can befriend who would genuinely care, but they're a really rare breed
Also, what's the point of venting here if you expect people to ignore it? Might as well just keep a diary
I’m upset with myself. I failed something I was working very hard to change and I was successful for a long time with it. It’s keeping my anger in check and not reacting viciously towards other people. As a young kid I learned to go for the throat when someone harassed me because often that made people frick off and leave me alone. Like they make fun of me for XYZ thing that I found hurtful, I came at them for having an alcoholic mother. Or they came at me for having neglectful parents myself, I just got physical and folded them. I hate it it’s disgusting.
This last one was with my ex. She hurt me and there were all kinds of signs and red flags I should leave. So after she hurt me and then acted like I needed to apologize to her for speaking up about it I left her. It was like she couldn’t accept she fricked up, she kept hmu every week for 10 months after I left her. Eventually I responded and she was just playing games. Argument, then when I seemed okay talking to her again she told me we shouldn’t talk anymore. It infuriated me that she’d hurt me and then seek out some twisted revenge for me leaving. So I mentioned the name of a guy who killed her brother. And I feel sick about it still. All I said was “[name].” But it was enough to cross the line and hurt her pretty bad. I feel horrible still and it’s been a few months since that happened. I just feel sick about it still. I wish I never responded, that I blocked her.
I suppose it achieved my goal though, she wants nothing to do with me now.
You need to work on your mental demons but it sounds like your girlfriend wasn't blameless either. She sought you out to pick a fight and you gave her one: play stupid games, win stupid prizes.
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would you open the door or keep driving fit?
It’s hard to say not being in that moment. It depends on the circumstances.
With my own family in the car? No fricking way, my only priority is getting myself and my family to safety.
All by myself? I might be inclined to stop, backed up with adrenaline, and help. But I would like to think even solo and full of adrenaline I would have the awareness to not stop and just focus on gtfo.
I'd stop and get her into my car then take her to safety. I would nurse her back to health myself and during her recovery she would see how great I am and fall in love with me. Then once we were married we would start a family and have 6 children. They would grow up hearing the story of my heroism which would influence them to be good people too.
Keep driving. If she's on the ground not moving it's already too late. Smoke inhalation is no joke. Pretty much best case scenario is she lives with massive brain damage from oxygen deprivation and that's if you got to her just after she collapsed.
I'd want to try, but I know it's a bad idea. If those superheated gases damaged her airway in addition to good ol' smoke inhalation, there's pretty much no saving her. No point in both of us dying, she'd probably want me to save myself.
In that situation? No way in hell am I stopping for anyone or anything. Somebody motionless on the ground in that kind of environment is likely past help anyway.
I would volunteer on hawaii if I had any money to get there. I would be helping others instead of being an aimless neet and maybe wathever I saw there would be enough to shock me out of this perpetual ennui.
For a wom*n? Frick no. Might help a man but never a wom*n.
I've maxed out the dumbbells I have at home. Can't afford more, and hate going to the gym. I'm not going to make it bros.
>getting some more b***hes lately
>none gf material but pussy is pussy
>feel hollow inside
what gives bros? i thought this is at least a step to something greater
Mix of you realizing there’s more to the game than just getting laid by realizing none of them are gf or potential wife material, plus the added “hunting” aspect now being taken out of the equation.
Find something else to chase while you frick these b***hes, and keep screening them until you find gf material ones. Get 3 that are gf material dump all others, juggle those three without making any major commitments to any, decide which of the three is best and focus on just her after a while. If it works and you made the right choice congrats, if it doesn’t and it needs to end oh well back to the hunt again should be easy if you didn’t get comfortable and stagnate.
Pro tip: a b***h should never be the main focus, not even chasing b***hes. So fill that void with something else that will never leave you such as starting a business. Keep women as a side hobby of sorts.
I went from very little attention to an obscene amount. Decided to date a girl but I knew she wasn't wife or even gf material, and it went as bad as you figured. She 'wanted' to be wife material, to the point she started pressuring me into discussing long term plans even a month or so in. Marriage has never been a goal of mine, cuz I'm not gonna marry someone I don't trust fully. Now I have an fwb that I met before her and it's very consistent. Between seeing him again and when I broke up with frickface I racked up 15 or so in a month and a bit.
You know you made it if you can't recognize anyone you hooked up with or even matched. Most chicks on tinder here are only on to get laid so they're not distracted at school. I went through my queue in a few days, think I'm at 100th percentile or so for matches given my age and my filters. Even without age I guess.
The hollow feeling probably comes from the lack of emotional connection, hookups can be a decent ego boost but that shit gets old fast. I do seem to match with a lot of career women who want an actual relationship, but I don't really give a shit about that right now.
I'm jelly, anon. I just wanna plow thru sexy cannon fodder 3x a week for a few months all in the name of sloppy top and seeing different kinds of breasts.
Been vivid dreaming a lot lately (this last week). Very strange dreams. Usually my entire family gets murdered. Today one of my dreams was some strange situation where there were these strange zombies (almost like foam) that floated and if they touch you, you would also become that floating foam. My entire family also got murdered there. I woke up that second time when 2 motherfricker cornered me. Sneaky frickers I thought I was clear for a second there. 2 nights ago I dreamed that my sister got violently stabbed to death. Then sometimes when I wake up I see creatures beside my bed. They disappear when I start punching them. Probably stress.
Water, please.
I've been having vivid dreams about having sex with fit chicks. My girlfriend is absolutely not fit, and despite my best efforts she is likely not going to get fit anytime soon. I really, really love my girlfriend, but the more I dream of these fit chicks the more I want them in my waking life. I will never cheat on my girlfriend, of course, but frick is it difficult.
>gonna be 30 next month
>still no gf
I lilve in nyc but these women are horrible here. They act like dudes and are fricking disgusting. I need to get out of this fricking liberal shithole ASAP.
I’m so happy to hear someone from NY actually saying this. I live in Florida where many New Yorkers move and many native Floridians pick up NY slang/mannerisms and coin them as their own.
It’s always been my same feelings. It’s not attractive. It’s not even that it’s intimidating like they’d probably cope and say if you told them this. It just makes come off like butch dikes and low intelligence. I understand what that anon meant the other about finally grasping why rapists do it. Physically there may be some attraction and yet because of how they act I just want to dehumanize them and show them they’re being loud for nothing, they’re powerless if I chose to do something about it. Big if though.
How do i make the gym fun and exciting again lads?
In six months time, the woman you love is going to be raped by three men who are much, much stronger and more resilient than you. It will happen when you and her are interacting together, and she will call out to you and beg you to help her. If you are unprepared, and you neglect your fitness, one of the men will restrain you and force you to watch as the other two have their way with your beloved. And unlike what happens shitty NTR porn, this will be in no way enjoyable for your love, she will cry and scream for you to help her because of how painful and traumatizing the experience is. Once the men are done, maybe she will continue to be okay seeing you after the fact, or maybe she will refuse to even look at you again, being reminded of how you failed to protect her. Either way, your relationship with her will be forever changed for the worse.
All of this can be avoided if you return to the gym and continue lifting and improving. The choice is yours.
A few weeks ago, my office had some kind of outdoor lunch event going on. Two people in there were asking if I was coming, but I made up that I was busy with work. The reality is that I'd know that I wasn't going to talk to anybody and just stand there like a lonely loser on my phone. I hate being like this, but I don't like being in these situations where I'm watching everybody's lives while I'm just in the background of it all. Not saying I want the spotlight on me, but that's how these situations have gone just about my whole life. There's a party and I'm just there just to be there.
I'm the same anon, I've been able to avoid most of the work events except for the last one and a Christmas party a few years back. Which both ended up being pretty much exactly what you described
I don't have any advice to give you obviously, just letting you know that you're not alone in your loneliness
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i am 24 and there’s a 17yo alt girl hardcore flirting with me i don’t know what to do
If you like fricking children, go for it
took mdma last night, dont feel like shit today which is a surprise
went and did some muay thai
That's a superpower probably. After taking m I'm useless for a day and then my mind is worthless for three or so.
got mugged at knife point
everything got stolen
best motivation to quit smoking tho
If someone tries to rob me I’m 100% getting stabbed or shot purely because I’m not giving up the most expensive thing I carry one me: my deceased grandfathers signature pendant. I’ll give them the $2000 gold chain that I later bought, but the bronze pendant that’s worth nothing but sentimental value I will die over and I’m sure some junkie or nig isn’t going to believe or listen to me as I try to point out it’s clearly jot gold and is tarnished to shit. I will gladly die over it. Makes me want to stop wearing it.
How much do I need to OHP to not hate myself anymore and to find someone that can stand being around me?
i want to sniff a girl's sweaty ass crack
same bro
I dont think I can feel romantic things for a woman anymore. That doesn't bother me too much though
I graduated like 1-2 months ago and I can't find a job and it's starting to weigh on me a bit. Anyone got any tips for getting through the job hunt period?
>Anyone got any tips for getting through the job hunt period?
You will hate your job anyway so enjoy the free time until then.
>I dont think I can feel romantic things for a woman anymore
I feel the same way but I assume it comes back with the right person. The hardest part for me is I'm 100% still looking for pussy for validation but I'm not that interested in putting in the effort. Because of that I'm experiencing a lot of internal conflict which is a struggle.
>Anyone got any tips for getting through the job hunt period?
Depends on what your degree is in, but I would consider fricking off to Thailand for at least a month. It's just a shit time to find jobs if you're fresh out of uni.
I went out to watch a meteor shower with my wife last night, and while it was very relaxing, it also filled me with quite a bit of melancholy because it reminded me of the last time I spent time outside at night with her, two years ago. In fact, since our relationship started we periodically enjoy nighttime events (lunar eclipses, meteor showers, etc.), and this last one reminded me of how much life has changed in those intervening years. I am 32, and while I fervently believe that my life isn't over yet (unlike some of my friends), I can't deny that on some level I feel like the stability and structure of my life has left me without the ability to feel excitement or adventure - there is no going out on a random road trip with the guys, because we all have work and families now. There is no going out and meeting cute girls, because I'm married with a child. I didn't do any exciting stuff when I was in my 20s, and now I feel somewhat trapped. It isn't bad enough that I feel actively, deeply depressed about it, but it's enough that it will always stay in the back of my mind.
But I've lost 30 pounds since I started my diet a couple months ago, so that's been neat
if you’re not cheating for yourself do it for your wife, keeps things fresh
I've considered it, but I honestly don't know if I could. Maybe for a one-time fling but anything more would make me feel way too guilty - I do absolutely adore my wife, and the last thing I want to do is to hurt her.
Maybe find out why you started dating? Find/rediscover the things that made you like her in the first place, something as simple as going to a new restaurant or trying a new sport together, something adventurous, iirc first dates are always more successful if you get someones heart rate up with something exciting, why should marriage be any different
For what it's worth, no matter how big a part of your life he was, your love was always a bigger part of his
Thanks for saying so. He's a coward, but a good one.
The most braindead thing I read in a while
My current relationship's kinda going to shit and Idk how to prepare for the inevitable shitstorm that is feeling sad for weeks if not months on end again
find comfort in the fact that she's fricking someone for god knows how long
it will hurt a bit but life goes on
Honestly if you're able to feel contempt for her then it will be that much easier. I don't know the circumstance, but it's much easier to get over someone by learning to hate them - and hating someone is much more intense if you recently loved them. You'll get over her, you'll meet other people.
There is no 'the one' - you might be alone for a while and that might be a good thing, but you'll be able to meet someone else in time.
Ehh there'd been issues for the past months tbh and times where I felt it was heading this way/that we wouldn't work out since we had opposing views on a lot of things, so I know once I get over her I'll realise I probably should've ended things sooner, I suppose it's just adjusting to not having her around anymore that's getting to me, for all our faults we did have similar problems so it was great having someone supportive and understanding around who didn't judge me for things I was afraid to open up to with friends or family
Evening, anons. I am feeling the lonely today but I got a long workout in this morning then built some furniture while listening to some records. Overall a productive day but I can't help but feel like something bad is going to happen to ruin it.
>tfw the bipolar meds cause the paranoias and tremors
Women call me the cervix smasher
Dog's getting put down tomorrow night
Hermangiosarcoma
Guy's had a spleen out for two months, starting to turn the corner and family's figured we should just give him the easy out.
It's hard. My parents are taking it a lot worse than I am, he's really their dog.
>quitting nicotine, only an hour in getting agitated
>last time I quit few weeks ago made it to 3 days withdrawals lasted 1 day then it was massive cravings, so after tomorrow I should be good to go so long as I don’t cave to cravings
After nicotine is gone I’m hoping my cardio improves and by extension I start losing more fat.
This is my last shot to get my shit in order. After nicotine I only need to quit caffeine and then I’m 100% sober again, already quit other drugs a while ago. I just need to cut, fix my money, and I’m good.
Idk how many hours it’s been since I posted this but I’m going strong still. Much easier than it was like a week ago. I guess me going for 3 days out a dent in my dependency/addiction. Feel out of it and spacey, kind of hazy like. Heart rate has gotten a lot lower as well just a day after quitting. I can actually lay on my back and hit the low 60s. Even with my normal 200-400mg caffeine I’m sitting in the 70s. If I get up and walk around it’ll go to the 80s. But doesn’t seem to be going over 100 from basic chores.
What this means bros, is that cutting will be more doable for me because I won’t feel sick from having shit cardio due to vaping. I feel that I’ve lost everything in life and all I can do is gain and blossom once again. I have one path and I can either lay down in the road and die or I can march this path towards success. I’m on a pothole quitting nicotine right now, but I’ll keep going forward and I will make it.
>The Sunay bar is open
You only had ONE job op.
anyway,,,
>Water, as always
Today i went to a methaporical bar and the moron of the owner fricking wrote sunay instead of sunday. i hope he kys.
The end.
I don't know how to conciliate respecting my father with the fact that he's an butthole and alternates between saying and doing shit that's activelly damaging to mine, my mother's and my brother's lives or acting like a complete deadbeat. My family is in a sorry and unfixable state and it can be traced back to his failures as a father and a husband. Even my mother's bpd histrionics wouldn't have been so bad if he hadn't forced her to quit her job and spend about 15 years raising me and my brother alone while also taking care of any affairs he was too lazy to go about solving. He managed to be as absent from our lives as some guy who went to buy cigarettes and never came back despite us sharing the same house. That doesn' stop him from giving his opinions about everything and anything, always negatives more reminiscent of the shit demotivational posters say around here than what a man should say to his family. I swear I tried to put in the effort a gazillion times and it always ends the same way. I simultaneously try to get along with him and despise him. It doesn't help that the things I hate the most about myself are those we have in common - like a superiority complex and a perchant to take the easier path and avoid challenges - and that the man I aim to be is almost antagonic to what he is.
The four of us are only a family nominally and we were raised distant from our other relatives because my father never cared for them and my mother nurtures bad feelings about everyone im her life and constantly shittalks them.
What I'm trying to say is that a couple years ago I realized that I don't have a family and went through a shitton on abuse during my formative years and I still can't deal with it. I try to strive for a good life despite being in a bad place and having gone through a lot of shit in the past but somedays it seems impossible.
Brother, I feel you. This is what my father has become too. Only difference is he and my mother have been divorced for 19 years (since I was 18). My mom was actually in the wrong with the divorce, but I think it really began his spiral into being an butthole. But now she's a decent lady and he is a full on frickin butthole. Never has anything good to say, can't handle his own business, only nice when he wants something, same shit as you about the loud, obnoxious opinions on everything that are always negative and demotivational. And on top of that, became a degenerate gambler who is always broke and was constantly hitting me and my sisters up for money until I hard cut him off on it. Always puts my sisters and I down in these shitty ways that are just shy of something that warrants you telling him to frick off for good, and at anything you go to with him he acts like a belligerent child and one of us is always stuck babysitting him. Often think he'd be more satisfied if we failed so he could give us a lecture, and was demotivational on everything good we've accomplished (all three of us are responsible and successful adults with good jobs, homes, taking care of ourselves). You'll be just ready to be done with his shit then he'll have an occasion where he's actually nice or so pathetic you feel bad. Was a miserable and unsupportive sack of shit when I went through a divorce a few years back and hit me up for thousands of dollars in the middle of it because he was gonna lose his house over mysteriously having no money. Told me flat out to give up on buying a house when I was working on it (and then hit me up for 100 bucks the week before closing on it). My sister's wedding was a couple weeks ago, and even there he was miserable, sarcastic, and left early. I feel you anon. I think the best way to deal with it, is to counter the negative with positivity or simple dismissiveness, since we've all proved his shitty attitude wrong in practice many times over now.
>And on top of that, became a degenerate gambler who is always broke
Mine spends all of his free time watching youtube political videos and mocking the politics obsessed people from the other side of the spectrum despite their videos being basically the same aesthetics/quality wise and they acting quite similar to the youtubers he likes.
>at anything you go to with him he acts like a belligerent child and one of us is always stuck babysitting him.
Taking him to the doctors or even something simple as going out to eat is always on exercise on patience and self-restraint.
>positivity or simple dismissiveness, since we've all proved his shitty attitude wrong in practice many times over now.
It's what I try to do. I'm just too insecure about myself after a lifetime surrounded by people putting me down and sometimes I let the shit they say get to me. Things will get better though. I'm glad you're doing well anon. Any advice for a 26 yo semi-zoomer?
Just water for me, please
My girlfriend broke up with me last week
At first I was hurt, mostly by the way she did it (she simply replied to me on a message) to the point that I got angry and instantly blocked her on every single social media we shared. It felt extremely disrespectful after almost 2 years of dating
But now, after one week? I'm glad it's over. It felt long overdue that we broke things off, and the way she treated me long before that fatidical day just screamed to me that she wasnt the right one for me
I'm grateful, actually, for what she did. I dont feel hate or anger towards her, even though I feel she is a massive coward for not at least confronting me, face to face. I feel liberated, ready to forgive and forget, and ready to improve myself, to find someone worthwhile, who does not make me feel like shit
Hope you all find happiness within my friends
inspirational and heart-warming post
Well at least you had a girlfriend...
Glad you feel better I guess.
I snapped some shit in my lower back on a warmup deadlift yesterday and I have to go to work tomorrow doing manual labor. I’m going to be out of the gym and in pain and I’m feeling very upset, but I can’t miss work. I’ve spent almost all day in bed reading and could barely get into my car earlier. I feel like a piece of shit.
>broke up with gf a few weeks ago
>meet a cute girl on hinge yesterday, we frick on first date
>she leaves, today I text her thx and she responds with "of course :)"
I wanna frick her again tomorrow, should I hit her up or do you think this is a sign she's not really interested? idk how to go about this lmfao
Do you anglos text exclusively through the dating apps or do you give your number to a hoe before going out with her? Most women around here always b***h about wanting your number before a date, even when we're just going for a one night stand and will meet at a public place first. I'm cautious with it but it pisses me off losing easy sex because I refuse to give some dumb hoe my number before we go out.
we used the app at the start. She actually asked for my number b4 our date to call me to tell me she had a food allergy.
you lose dates because you dont give your number out?... no wonder you lose out on sex dude if youre being stingy with details like that youre gonna come across as shady to them, but if thats a boundary for you thats ok.
I don't see a reason to give it if we're just meeting for sex. Besides, I don't want them bothering me down the line. There's this woman I didn't even went out with that still keeps texting months latter even though I very politely let her down and didn't even reply to her last texts. Also, a ton of women on these apps a bpd-tier crazy. Nothing good will come from giving them a means of contacting me.
yeah that's fair, but this is the trade off with vulnerability. if you dont want to share phone details then you gotta accept you might miss out on smashing. plus idk, i havent been on dating apps for very long but i gave my # out and this girl is respectful of me. worst comes to worst you just block them man.
>you gotta accept you might miss out on smashing
Yeah, I know. It just bothers me that most women get away with acting like the most deranged incel when it comes to being rejected. If a guy repeatedly contacted and bothered a woman that wants nothing to do with him he would rightfully be called a creep. The amount of bureaucracy zoomers/millenials invented when it comes to having casual sex also puts me off. For fricks sake, one of them stsrted grilling me about why I broke up my last relationship before we even went on a date. I recall some milf coomer talking about how ridiculous it was to see young people on sanitized apps act more reluctant than the strangers who used to meet each other at shady bars/clubs back in her days.
trying to make it happen while being overwhelmed with vanity...
Philippians 2:9-11
Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name that is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
Plain seltzer for me
My meds have been making me feel shitty lately but I have no choice but to take them because the alternative (being med free) is dangerous.
>take meds
>life is flat, stale, generally low energy and boring
>don't take meds
>be depressed and suicidal or euphoric, irritable and full of energy
>anger issues off the charts without meds
Are any of you ISTbros bipolar?
I'm probably bipolar and also schizoid but I am never ever ever telling another person how I feel or taking medication for my mind
I hate how in my head I am with how awkward it is between myself and my 'gym crush.' I shot my shot after getting really good signals but when I shot I got an awkward response to which I took as a no. since then we've just been avoiding each other to the point other people even notice.
An yes I am trying to talk to other girls and move on but the moment she shows up I just fixate. It's pathetic.
>her body type
>had a job interview last week
>my birthday was yesterday
Now what
Happy birthday, friend
I moved into a new room and I really don't like it. It's bigger and better but I miss my old hovel.
Hit 90kg bench for 3x5 at 75kg. Feels good man, on a cut too.
Is this better at progressing on bench than doing 3x10 at 80kg?
>big crush on friend
>we used to talk every single day
>she'd ask to do things with me
>one day just starts acting mean to me
>takes hours to respond
>now just straight up ignores me and acts like I'm not even in the room
>Friends just say she's going through some stuff
Why do I never get a direct answer on why I'm not likeable? I swear I did nothing to offend her or creep her out yet this shit keeps happening
Tell her to get fricked and move on
She's being like that go you because there's someone else and you're adding problems to her relationships with other men
I swear I wasn't aiming to be a relationship guru when I started replying to your posts.
It's female drama and probably has nothing to do with you. I once had a girl who constantly said we should go out just to ghost me some hours before the date. She did it like 3 times. A couple months latter I met a friend of hers on the street and she asked me why I had "given up on chasing her friend". She purposefully ghosted me because in her mind acting like a simp and begging to go out with her after getting ghosted would serve as a proof of commitment. Every single woman has her particular brand of bullshit and if you take it seriously you'll drive yourself mad.
Learning how to waltz sounds cool.
Dating apps are 50% luck. The other 50 is having good photos. Just take a page out of your average thot's book and snap a gazillion pics of yourself until you've one that's good. Do that 6 times and you're good to go. Random hookups are shit btw but maybe it'll help you desmistify sex. Wear a condom and try not to gf her.
Romcoms are like those comfy shows about highschool. You wish it was like that but it isn't. You should go on dates if that's what you want. There's no such thing as a life without constraints and there'll never be an ideal moment to do what you want.
>work 58hrs a week
>as soon as I have days off I get insanely lonely
>back to work and loneliness goes away
I'm literally too busy to think about no gf until I have days off but then it hits me and it's so much worse because unless I'm keeping my brain busy it just fantasises/daydreams about me being with random women I know or coworkers, even if there's no attraction between us or anything. Probably going to learn to waltz on my days off just for something fun to do and keep me distracted.
>be me
>27yo kissless virgin
>swallow pride and make a dating app profile for the first time (Hinge)
>90% of the profiles I'm shown are landwhales
>receive a handful likes from bottom of the barrel women
>no women I like match me back
Is this a sign I was just never meant to have a girl like me? Seriously considering seeing an escort at this point.
once you stick your dick in a woman and coom, you will see that women are nothing more than a hole. no need to be a virgin at that age. just visit a hooker.
t. lost virginity to a hooker at 26yo
I'm also 26 that's probably what I'll do too.
My ex gf is back in town and i still want her, i was the one breaking up but every girl i've been with since then (3 only in one year) cannot match her energy, her mood, her looks. The nostalgia is real bros, the only thing is that she has bpd and nothing is free with her and im not talking about money.
I have her blocked and she is sending me emails wanting an explanation why i ghosted her. should i give in? i don't sleep night bros. also she is leaving in 3 days for her phd and she was here only a month already, should i hold the line? its brutal, i had another girl on my bed yesterday and i was thinking about her... and no she was not my oneitis. my life is pure hell.
>bpd
Run and hide, then reevaluate what you actually want in a woman. Energy and mood sounds like gay teen shit.
nta but I get his problem, it can suck when you're physically outgoing and want to do active things all day but have a more passive partner who doesn't share your love of physical exercise
Been old romcoms. Really feel like finding that first gf but the constraints of life make that unfeasible for some time. Dunno how to reconcile this feel, advice?
What is better to go for as a 30-year-old? Quality of life with some money stress or higher pay with lower quality of life?
higher pay
Why?
it sucks having no money mate
I would be earning slightly above average in either scenario, just one has less financial strain but is in a worse life situation
Just water I don't want to frick my teeth any more. Years of teeth grinding and my front teeth hurt where my bottom teeth rest when I close my mouth. I'm praying to god it's not a crack due to constant pressure and it'll pass if i take it easy for a while. Had a mental breakdown years ago and it fricked me up and I still haven't fully recovered. Jaw clenches on its own I have to shove my hand between my teeth sometimes to prevent them from snapping shut like a bear trap. I just want to not live in pain and get fit and get through this shit life. I wish I could go back to being a kid and not having these gay ass problems but I can't. I don't want this shit anymore.
I’m a moronic moron. Anyone else? The moronation needs to stop.
>Anyone else?
Me. I assume you don't mean a medically diagnosed moron, but just a moron in general. I try to keep my mouth shut unless absolutely necessary so it's less obvious when I'm in public
Been pretty depressed recently. I go to bed at 2am and I don't wake up until 2pm, I could easily sleep more too. I dont want to wallow in it though, I just want to get better and be happy again. So I get up, force myself to eat even though I don't want to, then apply for jobs (I just graduated) until there's none left to apply for. After that, I'll go to the gym which is the only thing that provides me some relief, exercising surrounded by young people my age just trying our best. But even that is waning now. Then I get home and wait until its time to sleep.
I think the structure and routine of a job would help a lot but at the same time I don't know if the existential dread of wageing would outweigh it and spiral me even further. I'm already anxious about starting a job and transitional periods always frick me up.
Just feel hopeless and I see that everyone else also feels depressed and I wonder why we're all like this.
Are there any wise anons with some words of advice for me?
Wageing is like having a gf: some just up and quit when things get bad while others spend their entire lives with the same one out of fear despite how miserable it makes them. You can also be dumped despite doing more for them than they ever did for you and as you go through multiple experiences you undestand more about yourself and what you want. Some people like going thorugh many of them and almost make a game out of it while others hate the whole looking around process, struggle with it and feel relief at finally having one no matter how many problems it has.
have a conversation with one of them at the gym. start with a fist bump near the water fountain, say something like good work today
>32
>advertising career
>havent work since 2019 because of i got into a depression when my friend killed herself. Pandemic came. My country went to shit. Had to move back with my parents.
>try to find a job
>NO LOL U ARE TOO OLD
>try to find construction job
>NO LOL YOU ARE NOT PART OF THE UNION
>try to find a fricking fast food job
>LOL YOU ARE STILL OLD homosexual
Im done. Probably kill myself soon, what a shit career i picked. My savings ran out a long time ago and i can tell my parents are bored of me because they mentioned weeks ago why i dont go out anymore
You could become a lighthouse keeper, a watchmaker, a merchant mariner or work in a research vessel. Depending on your country some of these will train you for free and are always in need of people. You could also fitmaxxx and become a fireman or a paramedic. My point is: think about some whimsical thing you found cool when you were young and look it up online. You would be surprised with how accessible some of things are. Frick, just travel to japan, visit the karakuri puzzlemaking homies and beg them for an apprenticeship. Maybe do it with one those japanese laquerware makers, caligraphers or noh theatre guys if that's more up to your speed. A canadian guy did exactly that with an old guy that was a master of some obscure jap form of standup and he's now one of the few remaning people who knows how to do it and probably the only foreigner that ever went to them for training.
>Female killed herself
She literally must have been 300+lbs to consider that. Life on easy mode still too hard
Also
>Muh depression
Stop being a fricking pussy and lift your whole post makes me sick.
Chemical operator. You learn on the job. It's tough but a fair option i think
Black mould.
Recently discovered the side effects of this shit. I've been constantly congested for years. Nose is constantly blocked when going to bed/waking up.
Went to my dr thinking I've got a deviated septum but honestly I've had the worst winter with sickness and have always thought my immune system was dog shit despite being IST and eating healthy.
Pic related, my bathroom in my unit.
What are your experiences with it anons?
It fricks you up. I felt sick all the time because of it. This shit never really went away but spraying a mix of one part bleach and two parts water at it makes it frick off for a couple months. If any anon has a better anti-mold recipe I'm all ears.
I love my wife. Simple as. I just want to give her a better life and buy her nice things, so she never has to stress about the outside world (bills, jobs, competition, etc). That is all.
Based devoted husband anon. You should take a look at some online and well reputed british antique stores. They've a ton of cool israeliteelery for accessible prices. I would buy some of them myself if my country didn't have some of the worst import laws known by man.
Will do thanks anon
nothing i do gives me any satisfaction or sense of purpose
its like i cant be happy with any kind of circumstance and i have a constant negative thoughts telling me im worthless and a loser eventhough i am educated and have a respected job
im doing a media cleanse and just going to read books to get my mental health in a better place
Have you tried making ice cream? I bet that if you bought an ice cream machine and kept making all of those weird sorbet recipes you can find online you wouldn't feel like that. The gay negative thoughts will shut up when you realize you're probably the only man in your city - hell, in your entire country - who can make a raspberry and roses sorbet with slight hints of lilac and honey.
Just quit my job for a $1 promised raise they failed to hold up. Was present there everyday they needed me (took a day off every two weeks) and they tried to find a excuse to dismiss the raise until my next paycheck (biweekly pay.) Don't feel discouraged at all, just recognizing that I needed to stand up for myself at this day and age. Wish every other anon here is feeling better these comings days and thank you for anyone reading my blogpost. 🙂
Let us know if they come back to you offering to give you the raise, if you're a good worker I would hope they would
Jannies should delete these threads at 2am Sunday (bar close).
Would be funny af
2am Monday
I dont like alcohol, I prefer pepsi.
This but instead of alcohol black "people" and instead of Pepsi white people
I hate the CCP and wumaos and all social credit and all that shit, but tiny 4'8" Chinese women activate my primal urges like nothing else.
>almost 31
>stable relationship, house, easy and lucrative hybrid job
>feel like I'm supposed to be happy
>feel extremely restless and dissatisfied instead, like I'm slipping into some kind of boomer workaday hell
I'm just autistic enough to feel uncomfortable while still able to mask it and blend in. But it all feels so unnatural. I'm exhausted from trying. I feel like I'm just not meant to be with other people, living the way they live, and it's killing me.
You're listless because you haven't found God moronanon
Just water for me
>managed to drink 700ml (22 std drinks) of scotch on Sunday
>woke up and vomited 200 times then went through a day of work super hungover
>did a similar thing the week before (15 std drinks, Friday hungover)
I think this needs to stop
Can you reliably go cold turkey when you're the only one that knows you have a problem?
Only depends on your level of addiction mate.
Like can you go without booze without going fully bonkers?
Ya, no physical withdrawal or anything. I mostly binge with no self control. More just me being the only one to hold myself to account, so one weak moment and I'll be back at square one
I'm fricking killing it in life right now. By my own standards of course. I went from a fat depressed moron to fit and relatively competent. I stopped drinking and smoking ,I gained 2 certifications, passed an in person test for the more difficult one (I was nervous as hell and the questions were nothing like what was presented in the course) and aced it. Working on a 3rd now and enrolled in college for my desired field. Hitting the gym 3 days a week, staying at a constant 180 but getting stronger and leaner very slowly. Got a new job in tech from being in food for a while. I've been through a lot of downs, death in the family and losing my business due to COVID and landlords israelitery but now things are looking up and I'm finally moving forward in life due to the hard work I've put in. It only took a year and a 2 months. Life is never NOT worth working towards your goals but just know your effort accumulates. You may not see results for a while but sooner or later you'll be at the point and reflect that you're making progress or already where you want to be. Just needed to express this to someone.
Hey this is a reminder for all you people talking about being "depressed" in these threads, you're just a homosexual, stop being a homosexual. Here's how you do it:
>Pray to God and worship Him and His Son Jesus Christ
>Workout
>Avoid destructive habits to the best of your ability
>Find hobbies that you can improve at continuously. I play chess competitively, guitar, am getting in to golf, and enjoy reading and watching movies, find your own shit nerds
It's that simple
Frick off israelite demon worshipper
Water for me, I'm at work so I don't want to get drunk
I got bored so I went through some old emails from when I was 15-17 yo and holy frick I'd forgotten how much of an obnoxious miserable little b***h I used to be. I have no idea how my family put up with me. I mean I knew I was annoying and I kind of felt pity for my teen self but now I just hate that homosexual so fricking much. And no, this is not >babby's first self cringe moment
I'm just now realizing how bad those years were and how much I've actually grown since. I'm obviously not done, I'm just 21 and I still have a lot of shit to do and fix to be able to say "I made it". But goddamn, no wonder I had no friends and still can't make any. This just gives me more motivation to absolutely destroy any memorabilia from that era, either physical or in my personality
Anyway, that's it for now. Just needed to rant on this
I'll have a saku originaal, the estonian working man's choice.
I am going on a date with a girl who squats more than me. We are going berry picking in the forest
Regarding your pic, blasphemy is fricking cringe
Regarding your post, the only fruit she's picking is you.
if you like fruit so much, why don't you marry fruit?
Ok norwood/baldgays. I went to a derma and got the fricking fin prescription but I'm scared to actually get it from the pharmacy.
Be honest. Which ones of you have actualy sides?
I've read hundreds of threads now and I think PFS is a schizo myth, but short term sides and gyno are still concerning.
>My childhood friend moved away.
>I'm 36yo which means that I will not make new friends
I just realized that you are the closest thing I have (or will have) to friends.
I'm only your friend if you're a white male. If you are I love you and will venture to help you whenever our Internet paths cross. If you're not white then frick you Black person
what a dick
You only think so because you aren't white.
Argie Latin. But my grandpa was very white and probably a descendant of Nazi refugees if that helps.
You im indifferent towards, do as you will anon and thanks for not being black
Neutral farewells to you too anon.
Just remember that racism is based but being racist to individuals is cringe.
I’m not sure what’s going on with me this year. Old things from childhood that I was oblivious to, or that I repressed, have been surfacing and I have this intense clarity of the situations. Every few weeks there’s something new just popping into my head.
>parents getting divorced, realizing my mother is the type of woman I hate
Typical story except she was stupid and didn’t get much out of the divorce. Lost what was a normal childhood at 7 years old, and ultimately made me fricked up as an adult
Literlaly I think back and I’d have grown up socializing with my neighborhood friends. Plenty of girls my age plenty of bros with the same interests. Instead they split and make me a shut in because they both move to predominately black hoods.
>helicopter parents
They coddled any confidence I had out of me. Literally would tell me I was too stupid and irresponsible to do anything but never gave me a chance despite me making straight As and handling everything fine. Was forbidden from driving and working until I was 18 for example.
>turned me into a soft pussy
I was a stereotypical goombah meatball who wouldn’t take shit. If someone tried to bully me I just escalated it and hurt them. Finally had a kid who was antagonizing me cry and b***h after I KO’d him to get me in trouble, and it was downhill from there I was basically taught I was wrong for defending myself. So I was then bullied going into middle and highschool and just turned the other cheek and had to re learn how to stand up for myself as a adult when I realized the problem with turning the other cheek.
There’s many more but whoever is reading this understands. My point here is I’m realizing things were never supposed to end up how they have. And idk what realizing all this bullshit really does to serve me here. And idk why these memories and things are suddenly all coming to light in my head. All it’s doing is making me resent my family.
I understand you my homie. Everyone who went through this shit does.
>My point here is I’m realizing things were never supposed to end up how they have.
What sucks is realizing how easy it would have been, to grow up normally. They wouldn't need to go through some homeric challenges to provide you with a decent environment, just take their heads of their asses and make some effort.
>And idk what realizing all this bullshit really does to serve me here.
Serves to make you a better person, one who's more compassionate about others and what they've gone through. Even more important, it serves to remind you that some of the things that you despise about yourself aren't inherent to your being. They were just taught to you at an impressionable age and can be unlearned and/or swapped for things you really value. Not saying it'll be easy, but it's possible.
>And idk why these memories and things are suddenly all coming to light in my head.
Because running away from the past solves nothing. It is only by comprehending it that you can transcend your circumstances and build a better future.
>All it’s doing is making me resent my family.
Not resenting them is tough. I still try to avoid it tho.
I get a similar thing as time goes on a d my shit gets more fixed. I think that as you solve your current issues, unsolved conflict from the past starts to pop up in your subconscious.
For example, I used to think about no gf all the time. Now that I have gf, I don't think about that anymore. I used to be anxious about the future, but now that things are going well I don't think about the future too much. It's as figured out as it gets. I used to fear I'd frick up things thay I didn't frick up and so on.
So every now and then I think about those times in the past everything was fricked up and nothing was resolved. I try to avoid it cause it's pointless and feel bad, but it's inevitable. You need to draw conclusions from things.
>these people were wrong here
>I was wrong there
>I should've done x
>I learnt y
>I forgive a
>frick b
I talk about having kids a lot with my gf and I think that has spawned in my mind a frickton of wrongings I went through during my childhood. It's great to have feedback about what not to do when it comes to educaction. It's sad to know you missed out on a good childhood but there's no point in dwelling. Better to make the most of what you've got.
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I'm going back to school full time at 26, I graduated undergrad right at the peak of the covid recession in mid 2020 and it fricked my job prospects massively - I've spent the last 3 years working odd manual labor jobs in teaching, food service, healthcare, etc.
It's amazing how different it feels compared to then. Being around 21 year olds is very odd lol. I think I'll (hopefully) have an advantage as someone who's worked full-time, lives own his own, has a long-term girlfriend and friends, etc.
any tips from guys who went back to school in their mid/late 20s or 30s? everyone wants to socialize like middle schoolers and all the forced mixers/icebreakers and social events feel very weird, not to mention the guys look like they're 12.
boomp