That feeling after you get out of the shower after a heavy workout.
Those last minutes of a run.
That moment the girl cums during sex.
That feeling of creating something out of nothing, even when small.
1. I like to be able to do things with my body like sports and outdoor stuff.
2. It’s good for long term health.
3. Women like it no matter what they say otherwise.
In that order.
>the goofy troony ass Black folk i talk to on this website have reproduced and are going to raise cwc tier autistic subhumans to shoot up schools in a few decades
fricking hell man.
>Im a middle aged dad of 2
You're bragging this? Kek. And you're on FOUR CHANNEL lil bro...you are a middle aged balding ass troony ass man...on IST....while your kids are out there listening to drag queen tales at school and your wife is cucking you. You're on IST. Sheeeeeeeesh boomoid. The divorce is going to be extremely painful. For you
Not much tbh I enjoy reading books, watching movies. I want to write a novel made of my nightly monologues and scenarios I made up in my head. I want to see what my body will be capable of at it's peak.
And that's basically it
>What keeps you going?
What I keep at the front: I just want to be happy
What I keep hidden deep down: anger, hatred for others and my self, resentment, a desire to widen the gap between me and others so much that it crushes their spirit. To show everyone exactly what I’m capable of when I truly weaponize my autism and sociopathy (both diagnosed, wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy but my god it’s a useful and deadly combo if you know what you’re doing).
>autism and sociopathy >deadly combo
How? All autism ever does for me is cause me to have these compulsive bouts where I have to check the door several times to see if it's locked even when I'm sure I locked it.
That’s OCD anon. What I mean was if I leverage my autism with the only ways I can actually function, it’s very successful. For example I won’t get anything done unless I make an autism list with this weird complex system that just works for me. >have to clean entire house, run errands, lift, laundry, handle weeks worth of work shit after hours, and also want to spend time to develop a skill >have whole tier system with levels and specific orders to do everything and a specific way of going out each one
Normally would take someone all week instead I finish it all in 1-2 days >sociopathy
I tie this into it to be disciplined. Can’t frick someone who I hates wife if I’m not on top of all my shit.
Damn bro, can't wait to hear about you in the news
>local autistic man hangs self with belt in closet while jerking off
The naive belief that maybe if I keep going things will get better. The belief that maybe if I get more fit my wife will stop being asexual/autistic and find me attractive again. The belief that maybe if I get more fit I can prevent my daughter from growing up as lazy and slovenly as I did, and in so doing maybe come to be stronger than me. The belief that maybe if I get fit, I'll find the inner strength and discipline to finally achieve my life goals, rather than stay firmly rooted in one place out of fear and convenience. The belief that maybe if I get fit, I can feel happy with myself, and maybe I can learn the true meaning of "indomitable spirit".
Life is actually good now. It took me a while but I have a house, a wife, good friends, and plenty of money to spare. Just deciding if we want to have a kid or not.
I unironically go to the gym everyday so i can show off to my gym crushes. When they dont come to the gym and i dont have my test boost, the exercise is unbareable. I know im working out for the wrong reasons, but it has worked for me for the last 7 months
Jesus
My Family
I Want A Wife
I want to make my family proud
my my future kids proud
i wanna do something big
i wanna watch the demons burn forever for ruining peoples lives
I refuse to be weaker and worse than anyone who has ever looked down on me. Little by little my mere presence makes them feel insecure about themselves and the better I get the stronger the effect.
Being at peak physical condition is fun too.
I used to have this crushing boredom and meaninglessness looking over me no matter what
Then I started lifting
And now the routine kind of spilled over into the rest of my life I guess.
So my whole week is a routine I just repeat and somehow it doesn’t feel so meaningless anymore even though I know it is.
Just gonna keep going til I die I suppose.
you know when you walk a long distance and you kinda forget you are walking at all and your legs move on their own? something like that
Should I keep going if I'm currently 5'7 friendless virgin?
Yer mum
i really don't know
this, all I know is I'd rather be alive than dead
I don't have a choice. I'm pre-betic and If I don't exercise I die.
So why don't you?
Because I like living and blood sugar problems are a fate worse than death.
I need a gf. I just need one.
The knowledge that life has limitations in regards to time, and I want to push myself far before those limitations crush me. Also my gf touches my pp
I'm running on pure copium for the last 10 years
I don't want to make my mother sad
I do.
That feeling after you get out of the shower after a heavy workout.
Those last minutes of a run.
That moment the girl cums during sex.
That feeling of creating something out of nothing, even when small.
Not committing suicide, I keep going by default
>What keeps you going?
The indomitable human spirit
BASED
my wife and my son and my meaningful goals
lust and greed
My hate for the antichrist
longing and greed
my cigar + cognac + jazz sessions at the end of the day
Give me some jazz recommendations
Charles Brown Mint Julep
cool anime songs
Fear of something going wrong and ending up a vegetable.
1. I like to be able to do things with my body like sports and outdoor stuff.
2. It’s good for long term health.
3. Women like it no matter what they say otherwise.
In that order.
Buddhas teachings
My hatred for israelites. That's literally it. I live to spite the israelites.
Inertia
Going on a date with a big tiddy goth girl on Monday. That’s what’s keeping me from killing myself tbh
>letting women keep you from killing yourself
What a homosexual
Enjoyment of life.
hatred and resentment.
My kids
>the goofy troony ass Black folk i talk to on this website have reproduced and are going to raise cwc tier autistic subhumans to shoot up schools in a few decades
fricking hell man.
Nta but I'm a middle aged dad of 2, how you doing, troonyBlack person
>Im a middle aged dad of 2
You're bragging this? Kek. And you're on FOUR CHANNEL lil bro...you are a middle aged balding ass troony ass man...on IST....while your kids are out there listening to drag queen tales at school and your wife is cucking you. You're on IST. Sheeeeeeeesh boomoid. The divorce is going to be extremely painful. For you
Not much tbh I enjoy reading books, watching movies. I want to write a novel made of my nightly monologues and scenarios I made up in my head. I want to see what my body will be capable of at it's peak.
And that's basically it
I wanna move 500lb before I hit 200bw
>What keeps you going?
What I keep at the front: I just want to be happy
What I keep hidden deep down: anger, hatred for others and my self, resentment, a desire to widen the gap between me and others so much that it crushes their spirit. To show everyone exactly what I’m capable of when I truly weaponize my autism and sociopathy (both diagnosed, wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy but my god it’s a useful and deadly combo if you know what you’re doing).
>autism and sociopathy
>deadly combo
How? All autism ever does for me is cause me to have these compulsive bouts where I have to check the door several times to see if it's locked even when I'm sure I locked it.
That’s OCD anon. What I mean was if I leverage my autism with the only ways I can actually function, it’s very successful. For example I won’t get anything done unless I make an autism list with this weird complex system that just works for me.
>have to clean entire house, run errands, lift, laundry, handle weeks worth of work shit after hours, and also want to spend time to develop a skill
>have whole tier system with levels and specific orders to do everything and a specific way of going out each one
Normally would take someone all week instead I finish it all in 1-2 days
>sociopathy
I tie this into it to be disciplined. Can’t frick someone who I hates wife if I’m not on top of all my shit.
>local autistic man hangs self with belt in closet while jerking off
Damn bro, can't wait to hear about you in the news
nothing, I'm on autopilot
Laziness
hopium i guess
im not ready to accept that things wont get better
t. 28yo incel
My heart, mostly
The naive belief that maybe if I keep going things will get better. The belief that maybe if I get more fit my wife will stop being asexual/autistic and find me attractive again. The belief that maybe if I get more fit I can prevent my daughter from growing up as lazy and slovenly as I did, and in so doing maybe come to be stronger than me. The belief that maybe if I get fit, I'll find the inner strength and discipline to finally achieve my life goals, rather than stay firmly rooted in one place out of fear and convenience. The belief that maybe if I get fit, I can feel happy with myself, and maybe I can learn the true meaning of "indomitable spirit".
my programming
That post-workout goon sesh
Rage, greed, pussy, and the 1% chance things might turn out ok
Hope, I guess.
Life is actually good now. It took me a while but I have a house, a wife, good friends, and plenty of money to spare. Just deciding if we want to have a kid or not.
If I kill myself I'll go to hell so I do the alternative
I unironically go to the gym everyday so i can show off to my gym crushes. When they dont come to the gym and i dont have my test boost, the exercise is unbareable. I know im working out for the wrong reasons, but it has worked for me for the last 7 months
Jesus
My Family
I Want A Wife
I want to make my family proud
my my future kids proud
i wanna do something big
i wanna watch the demons burn forever for ruining peoples lives
I refuse to be weaker and worse than anyone who has ever looked down on me. Little by little my mere presence makes them feel insecure about themselves and the better I get the stronger the effect.
Being at peak physical condition is fun too.
I'm just kinda
I used to have this crushing boredom and meaninglessness looking over me no matter what
Then I started lifting
And now the routine kind of spilled over into the rest of my life I guess.
So my whole week is a routine I just repeat and somehow it doesn’t feel so meaningless anymore even though I know it is.
Just gonna keep going til I die I suppose.