I used to have this moron method of eating, where every meal had to have at least three things on it. This resulted in some rather bizarre food habits, where I'd have a bowl of pasta with fish or a breakfast consisting of nothing but cereal, an apple, and a pare. Because of this shit dieting, one morning I woke up extremely hungry, and after eating only some fruit and cereal, I decided that this was stupid and that I was properly going to count calories. As a result, I finally reached a healthy BMI for the first time in my life.
>some rather bizarre food habits, where I'd have a bowl of pasta with fish
What's next? Butter on bread? Cheese with tomatoes? Sugar in tea? You'll be telling me you put SALT on the pasta next you sick frick
I had reverse body dysmorphia, that is, every time I looked into the mirror I saw this model tier man. Then I looked at a family photo we took in christmas, not a bad angle or anything, but I saw my reality, a fat frick.
Till this day I like what I see in the mirror but I know it's a lie kek
I had a similar problem. I was over 300 lbs but convinced myself I carried it well and had a good muscle foundation because I used to lift in high school 5+ years ago.
I saw a candid photo lounging by the pool and almost cried. Lost 90 lbs and counting since then in nearly the best shape of my life.
I had these delusions despite browsing IST for years. Fat is like a neurotoxin.
I told myself I will get gf who looks like yael shelbia or marina diamandis I said I will become more responsible and fit and disciplined man. Getting better
Even if I don't get epic wife like those ladies I am happy for the journey
I realized that I am 31 year old who has never gone on a date in my life and the only time I had sex was in high school when the girl was chasing me. It's almost absurd to me to think that men and women get together and have sex because it is something that has never been a part of my life. If someone told me that sex is not a real thing and I'm not supposed to be experiencing it then I would 100% believe them and go all my life without even interacting with women. Porn has basically fulfilled all my relationship/sexual needs so far
When I was in high school, a lot of girls liked me, but I had a bad mentality at the time so I never had a girlfriend in highschool. One time I was even walking behind this girl on the way to class, and she looked behind her to see that I was there. Then she literally stops walking, bends over and pushes her ass right into my dick. She even said something like "oh I'd love to feel that again" but I just let it slip. Probably for the best when it came to that particular girl though
When a friend of mine changed and things started to work out for him, most notably getting asked out by a super hot chick. At that point I realized change was possible and if I just put in the work I wouldn't have to be like this anymore.
Cruising on autopilot in a relationship with a slampig I decided to start dating because she was a virgin when I met her.
I stayed up all night one night realizing that I didn't want to marry this girl because of way too many red flags. Made me start realizing that I was no better if not worse than her, and I realized everything I had been doing up until then was wrong.
That was the night I discovered God is real and hell was a real place I was going to end up if I didn't change my ways asap.
Autopilot would have been preferable to my ex's 'dreams' that changed every 5 minutes, often based on whatever media she just consoomed. But yes, fat, red flags. I got sick of her shit and cheated on her with an old fwb at a friends house. Fricked her raw for 5 hours, woke up with her cuddling up to me. Went to (then)gfs the next day, watched some shitty movie, had mid-day sex. Laid in bed after nutting and stared at the ceiling. Wondered what the frick am I doing with this moron. Broke up a couple days later.
>went sprinting >loved it >got shin splint because I was too heavy
Not really a major injury, took about a month to heal completely but the psychological impact was massive (as it should be!). I realised if something as simple and natural as running was hurting my own body, it wasn't far when other normal activities such as climbing stairs would hurt my knees and sneezing would break my ribs if I didn't do anything. It was my call to action moment basically
Saw a YouTube video on benefits from exercises, based on book of some sctufies. How it all so good that if there was a pill with the same effects, ppl would buy the shit out of it. It's also has no sides and free.
I saw fires rising up from the street, illuminating the old marble. Graffiti, boarded up windows, crowds of angry people and lines of armed men.
MRAPs blocking the street, scores of federal goons with black stripes across their badges to hide their bade numbers, masks to hide their face, plates to protect their bodies, and loaded ARs in their arms.
I saw bodies in the streets, many of them over the years. Some of them shot down from the hands of government men, others from the hands of lawless men. Young man in the neighborhood killed over a phone. Another dead over a few hundred dollars.
I walk past the great towers of banks of glass and steel where the fumes and the people who live without homes sleep and freeze to death among great thieves in suits and one day I simply realized that things needed to change.
>scores of federal goons with black stripes across their badges to hide their badge* numbers
I saw helicopters fly low to scatter crowds and leave bodies glistening in the orange pale of the streetlights.
A large, bald man, middle aged, Summer of 2020. Civilian, dead at an intersection, large unit of armed guardsmen at the scene under the orange light in fatigues with rifles. The soft glow of the lamp glistening off his bald head.
I look back at every single one, every guardsman and riot officer. Almost got shot by them. Most of them, not so fit. Some of them fit, covered in gear, most now overweight or obese. A unit of them nearly shot and killed me that night.
In this moment, I realized that these are the men that they would send. When the shit hit the fan, when the people rose up and the orders came down, these would be the men they would send to fight the people.
Just people like me, some of them older or even younger. To be stronger, to be faster, to be more prepared, to be more ready for what is coming. With every lift, and each mile, waking up one day closer to the total overthrow of the zionist government of the United States.
was a lifeless sack of shit that lost interest in life and anything meaningful and then i found the gym and now im no longer sexless and i feel motivated to do shit again
I still have no idea, I was a 130kg subhuman fatso and one day I just enrolled in a gym and started working out while eating healthy.
I am still sad, lonely and depressed but at least I like the way I look now and clothes look good on me. I think I've lost my motivation along with my will to live but the gym keeps me going, I have a goal, I am gonna shred all body fat and get visible abs along with an aesthetic body before I grow the balls to kill myself. Still, I wish I could be happy one day but I don't think I can do that.
I spent my whole life trying to satisfy society and women. I worked hard in school, got a good, "respectable" job, got married.
Wife was BPD psycho who wouldn't let me go to the gym or see my family without threatening to kill herself. 5 years of hell, just got divorced.
No woman has ever told me I was attractive, regardless of how hard I worked on my body or appearance. No woman has ever approached me. When I try to approach women, OR EVEN TALK TO THEM AND TRY TO PURSUE ANYTHING AFTER THEY TALK TO ME FIRST, they tell me they will no longer engage in the activities they were engaged in that led to us meeting (e.g., hiking if we meet on a trail).
I've fricking had it. When someone tells me to change my behavior to attract a mate, they can't possibly be saying anything stupider. Either you have it or you don't, and I clearly don't. So now I'm going full leanpill to kill my sex drive, hiding all coombait threads (like this one), not jerking off, not watching porn, not even fricking looking at women in public except for benign normie interactions like telling the cashier that I don't want a receipt. I'm done. Nobody will care, so I vent on IST because at least then it feels like I'm letting something out, which helps in the short term.
I used to want a relationship when I believed in love, I now understand love is a scam. Now I very badly desperately want a wife and family to take care of and support, but there are no takers and never will be. I need to change and become so hardened and calloused against the possibility of making it in this domain that I can at least put more effort into making it in others (work, exercise, physique) and have something worth living for, otherwise I worry I might lose it entirely. I just need to pound it into my fricking skull.
HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE
Ever since I learned how to approach and entertain women I love them. It comes naturally, I can flirt while choosing avocados, or asking a pharmacist girl for a laxative. I say the dumbest shit confidently and they find it fun. I flirt with milfs on a plane, I flirt with my boss, I just love it. My body count is probably nearing 150 but I'm not sure.
And even I agree with you anon. Women deserve less, relationships are a scam, and the less I need to interact with women (unless I want to frick them) the better my day is.
Sorry about your story bro, hope you'll find peace in something you love.
Mystery Method and other PUA books are free to pirate on libgen and other book piracy sites (though some are on tor these days). Research it before you give up completely.
Also consider moving overseas. You could go to China and leave hundreds of single mothers just by dating women over 25, whom Chinese men refuse to date.
I went to Japan and hung out with women who made porn, and nutted inside over a hundred of them in 6 months. One of them let me live with her rent free with the only obligation being that I nut in her pussy. She was pregnant when I left after my work contract was over, and she messages me to come back anytime.
Asian men are fricking moronic throwing away perfectly good women because their moronic traditions say so, and then they get incredibly mad when White guys go over there and frick everything.
You can do the same thing in Africa or Latin America. Just leave, get some experience, get some confidence, bleach some brown b***hes, and then come back.
Or buy White eggs and make some White sons to continue the tradition.
There is no better service the white man can do for other races than to breed and colonize the non-white races while preserving the European stock within Europe.
>I went to Japan and hung out with women who made porn
How did you meet them? Did you know what they did for a living right out the bat? I thought that these subjects were kinda taboo on nipland.
realized i was approaching being genuinely obese for the first time in my life, as opposed to being a chubby guy, also fumbled a girl and got mad at myself for not being 'good' enough or whatever, sometimes things dont work. realized i have to make changes, myself. my idea of love and lust have been warped by media as some kind of thing that just occurs. im starting to realize its not and that i'm staring down decades of loneliness if things don't change. its been nice to lose weight and lift, but im more of a cynical piece of shit than when i started this. doubt shit's gonna change, gonna die alone and broke.
I was just tired of being an alcoholic power shitter. Realized that my only options were to cut and look like a UFC fighter or continue bulking and be a fat guy with strong lifts
getting to 30.
it's just a number until you get tired more easily, you get random little pains more easily, you get new pains inside where you had never felt anything...
and I think I'm one of the lucky ones, cause I still have a head very full of dark hair and good skin.
My problem is that reaching 30 made me give up. I ruined and wasted all of my teens and 20s. Once I reached 30, hitting that milestone with nothing to show for my life drove me into utter despair. I should have felt the “realizing things need to change” point many years before that. But reaching 30 just drove me to despondency of misery and suicide of how I’ve wasted my life
I’m now 31 almost 32 and it hasn’t been any different .
I get that but as I got older I found more satisfaction in doing things for me. I don't got much to show too, but I have fun with myself and improving in small ways. no need to show to anyone.
in my gym we have many older people. it's not too late to take care.
you can become fit in 3 years. life can always be better. not perfect, nothing is, but better
I was a virgin 26yo lonely fat frick. After a heavy day of trekking with some friends decided to work out and get in shape and now I'm virgin a 28yo lonely less fat frick!
I was born, people sliced a part of my body off without my permission, then they injected me with a bunch of bad things and gave me autism. Then I got thrown into the satanic meat grinder of the education system where they tried to kill my soul and my creativity and my imagination and my innocence. They also tried to give me all sorts of prescription drugs that only made all of my issues worse instead of better. At times the drugs would make me skeleton skinny, but eventually made me somehow get an eating disorder and become morbidly obese also due to the fact that I was constantly emotionally in psychologically abused by my extremely boring ordinary normal NPC parents who were too damn smart and too damn evil to be normal, and might as well have work for Mk ultra. I have no idea why they never became politicians or lawyers, they would have been billionaires. They constantly gas lit me and tried to manipulate me and mold me into something that they wanted me to be and constantly tried to get me to doubt myself. The way that they treated me made it very easy for me to develop an eating disorder because they would constantly lie to me and try to get me to try the same Foods multiple times that they already knew that I tried and didn't like because they wouldn't believe me that I didn't like something or wouldn't respect my decision. At some point later I was in school and I was very fat and I randomly for absolutely no obvious reason at all broke my femur which is the most difficult bone in the body to break, think the big bone in your thigh. I didn't fall down, the femur just broke suddenly while I was walking and then I fell down. Doctors never figured out why it happened. After that I slowly became vegetarian and eventually became vegan and lost a hundred pounds, and my wife has been pretty fricking insane ever since, but I have been distancing myself from religion and politics and science because it's all so corrupt. But I've been getting closer to God.
My life not my wife what the hell I'm not even married and I never will be, I don't like falling for stupid traditions and Concepts that are not beneficial to me
>This reads like a blog post from a BPD girl
I know just because I mentioned an eating disorder and all women these days mentioned eating disorder that you probably automatically Associated the sound of it with that, combined with the fact but I had to fit everything into a post with a character limit. So I understand. Another part of the Bingo board I can cross out is to say that my parents were narcissists. A lot of this shit is way too common these days.
I craved sugar growing up, so I always ate sugary foods like candy, sweets cookies, cakes, you name it! Well, my mother always told me one day I’m gonna get diabetes. I laughed at her while I ate a spoonful of sugar… Then one day my doctor says during my check up “Yeah you got diabetes”, so I started lifting with my athletic friends during high school just enough to lift weights and to get to a decent size football season started for em, I did not continue being healthy for like two years. During Covid I looked at the mirror and said yeah I’m going to stop eating sugary shit n never look back. I’m doing better than ever still a bit cynical when some girls give me the look but when I’m on my best it’s a W
Losing the love of my life because I realized a lot of shit about myself way too late. Every girl after that's just been filler, but I know she'll never be back, and I know that even if she was I'd never feel content with myself or anything.
In all reality it's better if I'm single for the foreseeable future. I can get laid easy enough if I need it, have money to travel if I want to knock up some ethnics. I'm much happier single.
>thread about what made you realize you need to change >mention healthy relationship I ruined to keep with the theme of the thread >some moron assumes you must think of her constantly
Recently all of my friends have cut ties with me for being low value male/ Incel. I’m age 20 at 5’7 and 5/10 face, people think im weird and don’t like me. The most I can do currently is try and get a degree (starting law) and get in better shape. This is now maybe I could start up boxing. What else?
My girlfriend stayed with me before and during my fitness journey. Even at my worst. She’s still with me. After losing all this weight I asked her why did you ever love me when I looked like that? She said because I love you anon. She’s a keeper
Dude, you will. They’re out there. We love you anon. And someday you’ll find her and she’ll love you. If she left your life she wasn’t the one. She was just character development. Love you bro.
Damn, how and where did you even meet her?
I fricking wish I had girl like this:
I'm not fat though I still hit the gym frequently.
I also work, I play acoustic guitar and picked up piano last week (intermediate guitarist: said by a few music teachers who overhead me play on campus, though I'm new when it comes to piano).
Though I guess I have an ugly face and it'll take 3 years to get a few of my teeth fixed, said by one of the top orthodontist's in my country.
Not sure if my muscles, personality, money and my love for music even matter at this point.
Guess I'm happy for you at least.
That I didn’t even know what I looked like off the top of my head. Had to look in the mirror only to know. Wouldn’t recognize myself in the pictures. I just couldn’t accept all the fat on my body, I got close to killing myself and I decided, it’s not me I want to kill. It’s a part of me I want to kill. So I got to work.
I had a date with the prettiest girl I've seen in years. I realized she couldn't say the same of me. She doesn't some skinny frick that can't lift her cute ass and make her feel loved. I don't know how I convinced myself my entire life that being a stick and weak makes me happy but by this time next year I'm going to be normal weight and much stronger. Imma make it bros.
I decided that everything im doing is for other people, and not myself.
Career, hobbies, side hustles, etc. It was all to please other people, and I lost sight of the things that make me genuinely happy.
So frick em, im doing me & loving it.
Getting a DWI
I was working out, but had a very shitty routine. Getting arrested made me realize that drinking like a fish was ruining my body. Been dry ever since 2018
someone is actively trying to ruin my life right now and that seems likely to happen
i won't go into details but if i make it out of this intact it will be my second chance to correct all the mistakes i've made
My roommates in college. Nearly every single one of them has been a completely spineless b***h. I’ve had some in the past that were total chads, one being a complete dick and the other two being super cool and trying to get me to go lift with them, but I let my own insecurities get in the way.
Other more recent roommates, however, made me realize the path I was going down if I didn’t change. One of them is a total pussy that constantly posts homosexual bullshit on Instagram and TikTok and reads “motivational” books but doesn’t do a damn thing to actually change or do something with his life. He won’t go to church because he’s “depressed” and because there aren’t any hot girls there. He has a $50 a month membership to a gym he never goes to but makes fun of me for going to the apartment’s ghetto-ass gym for free. He thinks he’s some kind of womanizer because he had one relationship years ago that he blew because he thought he could get someone hotter but he doesn’t realize how fricking ugly he is. God, he gets me angry just talking about him.
Another was a skinny fricking twig who lacked so much muscle that his torso was hunched over simply because he never uses his damn back muscles and hasn’t worked a day in his life. This guy is a lot easier to get along with than the other but he would always say “Ew, gross.” or “Why would you do that?” when I’d invite him to go with me to the gym.
I cannot end up like these people. I have another roommate who is severely overweight but I have massive respect for him because he has owned up to his current situation and firmly decided that there is no going back and that he needs to change. He goes with me nearly every time and I cannot put into words how proud of him I am.
Finally, it’s the women. I have been led on and rejected so many times that I am on the brink of giving up on them entirely. I lift to forget about them and thinking of them fuels my anger and lifts.
I used to smoke weed every day. One time I got incredibly high and for some reason I suddently became brutally honest about the way I felt about my life. I undressed in front of a mirror and tried to judge myself as objectively as possible. It was kind of a horrible experience and it made me feel like shit in the moment, but it still felt like a breakthrough because I was finally being 100% honest about what was bothering me. After that I sat down and made a list of all the things I wanted to change in my life and getting in shape was one of them. It's funny to think how one random moment is what caused me to jump on a completely different timeline and change my life for the better. Of course this wasn't the first time I tried to turn my life around, but this time it was like a switch turned on in my mind and I just started eating right and exercising and I just never felt the urge to quit. I stopped smoking weed and I finally got a gf, who is now my wife and the mother of my son. >TL;DR I got high and had an epiphany or something.
You're heavily disadvantaged due to your skin. At best you're going to be a one night stand whom she won't even count towards her body count because she didn't see you as bf material
>Once I understood that I needed one I got busy indagym.
What do you think you'll do once you understand that being in the gym won't bring you any closer to getting one [moron]?
Damn, how and where did you even meet her?
I fricking wish I had girl like this:
I'm not fat though I still hit the gym frequently.
I also work, I play acoustic guitar and picked up piano last week (intermediate guitarist: said by a few music teachers who overhead me play on campus, though I'm new when it comes to piano).
Though I guess I have an ugly face and it'll take 3 years to get a few of my teeth fixed, said by one of the top orthodontist's in my country.
Not sure if my muscles, personality, money and my love for music even matter at this point.
Guess I'm happy for you at least.
that it's unreal..
I love playing acoustic guitar, I like hitting the gym and I'm not fat, I also picked up piano recently:
Though I don't have the nicest face and my teeth are very similar to Michael Balzary (RCHP's bassist), though he actually has children and head married now.
Though I need to be as successful as him to actually get women and actually become a dad someday?
I guess it's obvious that all women/girls especially today, regardless of how gorgeous, smart, etc she is just wants you only for your status and money, especially if you are ugly, yet natty like (e.g) me.
Do you Anons agree with my statement?
I started learning piano this year and I'm thinking about acoustic guitar too after I get better at piano. My biggest issue is noise because I can't just plug in headphones like with a digital piano, but I think they make guitar mutes right?
I got rejected. She bascially said I was a beta male and a onions cuck. I knew lifting helped with females back then but I just didn't have the motivation to go through with starting. Now I lift for me and it's a permanent part of my life now
Spent 6 months in love with a girl on discord who lived on the other side of the world. Realized one day what I’m doing and decided to start running, lifting, and dieting so real girls will like me. Lost 70 lbs.
After losing weight and building muscle girls still didn’t like me so now I’m depressed as frick again and I gained all the weight back.
Nothing, I'm bipolar or something and always go through phases where I'm insanely motivated in life (but never enough to completely fix everything) or too depressed to do anything constructive (but never depressed enough to completely end everything). I thought it was normal, but recently learned that normies can go through life being 100% motivated all the time.
Hard times, hard year. >be me 300lbs but starting to diet and losing weight >move cross country so fiancée can live near her family. >known her 9yrs, been together 7 >18hr drive from closest senpai but it’s k cause all her brothers and cousins moved here over the years too and I’ve been friends with them most of my life, that’s how we met. >new job pays 1/3rd of old job but can’t get anything better. Fiancée is finishing last year of school and makes basically nothing. >drain all my savings paying bills. >get 3 flat tires in two months. >get injured at work. >become depressed, start binge eating >fiancée begins starting fights over everything >1yr in fiancée starts blatantly cheating >the fallout is insane. >after a long conversation with her best friend and parents we realize the person we thought we knew did not exist >she is a sociopathic liar and has been manipulating everyone in her life for years. >plotting suicide >look in mirror, unrecognizable fat blob >picrel
lost 130lbs, lift weights, get attention from girls, good job, life good, happy.
Bullied as a kid, beat up and screamed at at home, put on amphetamine as a 9 year old which spiraled into a serious fentalogue addiction in college. OD'd idk how many times. One day I went to the gym and could only do 3 pullups, I'd been able to do 15 as a 10 year old. Decided I was going to get my shit together and get big enough that nobody could ever frick with me again.
Tinder. At least that's what caused my epiphany. I had broken up a two years realtionship, was about to graduate in a terrible field and my life was largely going nowhere. Then I downloaded tinder a had a good look at the 30yo+ women there. The fading looks ravaged by neglect and unhealthy lifestyles, the pathetic "I'm still a teenager" behavior, the shallow pursuits and the overall mediocrity portrayed through a way of living which could easily be defined as "never improve. Never assume responsibility for yourself and your place in the world. Only consume and chase pleasure" caused me a shock. Looking at old schoolmates on LinkedIn and even men I still keep in contact with finished the job. I realized that I either did something with myself or that dreadful existence was my future. So I gave myself until my thirties to develop my life towards where I want it and never let myself forget what's in store if I give up.
Looked in the mirror one day and thought to myself
>He could lose some weight.
I used to have this moron method of eating, where every meal had to have at least three things on it. This resulted in some rather bizarre food habits, where I'd have a bowl of pasta with fish or a breakfast consisting of nothing but cereal, an apple, and a pare. Because of this shit dieting, one morning I woke up extremely hungry, and after eating only some fruit and cereal, I decided that this was stupid and that I was properly going to count calories. As a result, I finally reached a healthy BMI for the first time in my life.
hmmm
Shoutout to all pare
i love pare
>some rather bizarre food habits, where I'd have a bowl of pasta with fish
What's next? Butter on bread? Cheese with tomatoes? Sugar in tea? You'll be telling me you put SALT on the pasta next you sick frick
It's spelled pair idiot
I had reverse body dysmorphia, that is, every time I looked into the mirror I saw this model tier man. Then I looked at a family photo we took in christmas, not a bad angle or anything, but I saw my reality, a fat frick.
Till this day I like what I see in the mirror but I know it's a lie kek
I had a similar problem. I was over 300 lbs but convinced myself I carried it well and had a good muscle foundation because I used to lift in high school 5+ years ago.
I saw a candid photo lounging by the pool and almost cried. Lost 90 lbs and counting since then in nearly the best shape of my life.
I had these delusions despite browsing IST for years. Fat is like a neurotoxin.
Yeah, my heaviest was 230, already lost 17 since May, it's still crazy to me how my brain stills see fit teenager me on the mirror
checked.
the day I discovered the bottom part of lmao Americahttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=44YZY18byVE
I told myself I will get gf who looks like yael shelbia or marina diamandis I said I will become more responsible and fit and disciplined man. Getting better
Even if I don't get epic wife like those ladies I am happy for the journey
No one wanted to frick me
I had negative emotions most of the time
The hard part was figuring out why
I realized that I am 31 year old who has never gone on a date in my life and the only time I had sex was in high school when the girl was chasing me. It's almost absurd to me to think that men and women get together and have sex because it is something that has never been a part of my life. If someone told me that sex is not a real thing and I'm not supposed to be experiencing it then I would 100% believe them and go all my life without even interacting with women. Porn has basically fulfilled all my relationship/sexual needs so far
exactly me right now but have never had sex at all
what are we going to do with our lives, anon?
hopefully ending it soon
>in high school when the girl was chasing me.
I wish this had been me
>I had sex in highschool when a girl was chasing me
Frick off chad this board isnt for you
When I was in high school, a lot of girls liked me, but I had a bad mentality at the time so I never had a girlfriend in highschool. One time I was even walking behind this girl on the way to class, and she looked behind her to see that I was there. Then she literally stops walking, bends over and pushes her ass right into my dick. She even said something like "oh I'd love to feel that again" but I just let it slip. Probably for the best when it came to that particular girl though
got rejected by a 2/10 chink that unironically looks like this.
as a former Chad d1 athlete who got fat from alcoholism it was a real wakeup call.
Have you considered that you might not like your personality, and it has nothing to do with you looks?
nah she said I was too fat
When a friend of mine changed and things started to work out for him, most notably getting asked out by a super hot chick. At that point I realized change was possible and if I just put in the work I wouldn't have to be like this anymore.
Cruising on autopilot in a relationship with a slampig I decided to start dating because she was a virgin when I met her.
I stayed up all night one night realizing that I didn't want to marry this girl because of way too many red flags. Made me start realizing that I was no better if not worse than her, and I realized everything I had been doing up until then was wrong.
That was the night I discovered God is real and hell was a real place I was going to end up if I didn't change my ways asap.
Autopilot would have been preferable to my ex's 'dreams' that changed every 5 minutes, often based on whatever media she just consoomed. But yes, fat, red flags. I got sick of her shit and cheated on her with an old fwb at a friends house. Fricked her raw for 5 hours, woke up with her cuddling up to me. Went to (then)gfs the next day, watched some shitty movie, had mid-day sex. Laid in bed after nutting and stared at the ceiling. Wondered what the frick am I doing with this moron. Broke up a couple days later.
My ex had a better life than me. More friends, promising career as a rising actor. Etc. I decided I would not be a fricking loser.
Who is she
The name is in the picture. She has a hideous nose, despite this angle
Nevermind
She's got nosejob now. She's perfect
She’ll still breed big nose israelite kids
>went sprinting
>loved it
>got shin splint because I was too heavy
Not really a major injury, took about a month to heal completely but the psychological impact was massive (as it should be!). I realised if something as simple and natural as running was hurting my own body, it wasn't far when other normal activities such as climbing stairs would hurt my knees and sneezing would break my ribs if I didn't do anything. It was my call to action moment basically
A friend told me I could do anything when I was drunk. So I lost 70 lbs.
I was today years old when I realized God truly hates me and isn't going to give me super powers so I can destroy the CIA...
So I'm going to start water fasting.
Saw a YouTube video on benefits from exercises, based on book of some sctufies. How it all so good that if there was a pill with the same effects, ppl would buy the shit out of it. It's also has no sides and free.
I saw fires rising up from the street, illuminating the old marble. Graffiti, boarded up windows, crowds of angry people and lines of armed men.
MRAPs blocking the street, scores of federal goons with black stripes across their badges to hide their bade numbers, masks to hide their face, plates to protect their bodies, and loaded ARs in their arms.
I saw bodies in the streets, many of them over the years. Some of them shot down from the hands of government men, others from the hands of lawless men. Young man in the neighborhood killed over a phone. Another dead over a few hundred dollars.
I walk past the great towers of banks of glass and steel where the fumes and the people who live without homes sleep and freeze to death among great thieves in suits and one day I simply realized that things needed to change.
>scores of federal goons with black stripes across their badges to hide their badge* numbers
I saw helicopters fly low to scatter crowds and leave bodies glistening in the orange pale of the streetlights.
A large, bald man, middle aged, Summer of 2020. Civilian, dead at an intersection, large unit of armed guardsmen at the scene under the orange light in fatigues with rifles. The soft glow of the lamp glistening off his bald head.
I look back at every single one, every guardsman and riot officer. Almost got shot by them. Most of them, not so fit. Some of them fit, covered in gear, most now overweight or obese. A unit of them nearly shot and killed me that night.
In this moment, I realized that these are the men that they would send. When the shit hit the fan, when the people rose up and the orders came down, these would be the men they would send to fight the people.
Just people like me, some of them older or even younger. To be stronger, to be faster, to be more prepared, to be more ready for what is coming. With every lift, and each mile, waking up one day closer to the total overthrow of the zionist government of the United States.
was a lifeless sack of shit that lost interest in life and anything meaningful and then i found the gym and now im no longer sexless and i feel motivated to do shit again
My old jeans didn't fit and I refused to buy more in a bigger size. I wore dickies shorts for a while.
I still have no idea, I was a 130kg subhuman fatso and one day I just enrolled in a gym and started working out while eating healthy.
I am still sad, lonely and depressed but at least I like the way I look now and clothes look good on me. I think I've lost my motivation along with my will to live but the gym keeps me going, I have a goal, I am gonna shred all body fat and get visible abs along with an aesthetic body before I grow the balls to kill myself. Still, I wish I could be happy one day but I don't think I can do that.
Cognitive Behavioral Therapy
Awesome pic
Thanks
I spent my whole life trying to satisfy society and women. I worked hard in school, got a good, "respectable" job, got married.
Wife was BPD psycho who wouldn't let me go to the gym or see my family without threatening to kill herself. 5 years of hell, just got divorced.
No woman has ever told me I was attractive, regardless of how hard I worked on my body or appearance. No woman has ever approached me. When I try to approach women, OR EVEN TALK TO THEM AND TRY TO PURSUE ANYTHING AFTER THEY TALK TO ME FIRST, they tell me they will no longer engage in the activities they were engaged in that led to us meeting (e.g., hiking if we meet on a trail).
I've fricking had it. When someone tells me to change my behavior to attract a mate, they can't possibly be saying anything stupider. Either you have it or you don't, and I clearly don't. So now I'm going full leanpill to kill my sex drive, hiding all coombait threads (like this one), not jerking off, not watching porn, not even fricking looking at women in public except for benign normie interactions like telling the cashier that I don't want a receipt. I'm done. Nobody will care, so I vent on IST because at least then it feels like I'm letting something out, which helps in the short term.
I used to want a relationship when I believed in love, I now understand love is a scam. Now I very badly desperately want a wife and family to take care of and support, but there are no takers and never will be. I need to change and become so hardened and calloused against the possibility of making it in this domain that I can at least put more effort into making it in others (work, exercise, physique) and have something worth living for, otherwise I worry I might lose it entirely. I just need to pound it into my fricking skull.
HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE
Ever since I learned how to approach and entertain women I love them. It comes naturally, I can flirt while choosing avocados, or asking a pharmacist girl for a laxative. I say the dumbest shit confidently and they find it fun. I flirt with milfs on a plane, I flirt with my boss, I just love it. My body count is probably nearing 150 but I'm not sure.
And even I agree with you anon. Women deserve less, relationships are a scam, and the less I need to interact with women (unless I want to frick them) the better my day is.
Sorry about your story bro, hope you'll find peace in something you love.
can you give a qrd on your methods
"Man suffers only because he takes seriously what the gods made for fun"
>He is starting to believe
The black pill is the final pill. Self improvement and generally trying to change what you are is troonism.
Mystery Method and other PUA books are free to pirate on libgen and other book piracy sites (though some are on tor these days). Research it before you give up completely.
Also consider moving overseas. You could go to China and leave hundreds of single mothers just by dating women over 25, whom Chinese men refuse to date.
I went to Japan and hung out with women who made porn, and nutted inside over a hundred of them in 6 months. One of them let me live with her rent free with the only obligation being that I nut in her pussy. She was pregnant when I left after my work contract was over, and she messages me to come back anytime.
Asian men are fricking moronic throwing away perfectly good women because their moronic traditions say so, and then they get incredibly mad when White guys go over there and frick everything.
You can do the same thing in Africa or Latin America. Just leave, get some experience, get some confidence, bleach some brown b***hes, and then come back.
Or buy White eggs and make some White sons to continue the tradition.
>bleach some brown b***hes
What if I'm brown myself?
>Mystery Method and other PUA books are free
Yeah, they're also dumb as frick, you stupid moulie.
Heartiste was the best of them all
>based bleacher
Thank you for your service.
There is no better service the white man can do for other races than to breed and colonize the non-white races while preserving the European stock within Europe.
can you just get foreign girls pregnant or will they make you pay child uspport?
From what I can tell generally you can. Lots of countries don't have child support either so it makes it easy even if they can find you
>I went to Japan and hung out with women who made porn
How did you meet them? Did you know what they did for a living right out the bat? I thought that these subjects were kinda taboo on nipland.
Your problem is actually being a fricking manchild dude
my little brother dying
realized i was approaching being genuinely obese for the first time in my life, as opposed to being a chubby guy, also fumbled a girl and got mad at myself for not being 'good' enough or whatever, sometimes things dont work. realized i have to make changes, myself. my idea of love and lust have been warped by media as some kind of thing that just occurs. im starting to realize its not and that i'm staring down decades of loneliness if things don't change. its been nice to lose weight and lift, but im more of a cynical piece of shit than when i started this. doubt shit's gonna change, gonna die alone and broke.
I feel lonely
If getting fit doesnt solve if then its my unfixable personality
When I looked at the mirror.
I was getting old
I was just tired of being an alcoholic power shitter. Realized that my only options were to cut and look like a UFC fighter or continue bulking and be a fat guy with strong lifts
getting to 30.
it's just a number until you get tired more easily, you get random little pains more easily, you get new pains inside where you had never felt anything...
and I think I'm one of the lucky ones, cause I still have a head very full of dark hair and good skin.
My problem is that reaching 30 made me give up. I ruined and wasted all of my teens and 20s. Once I reached 30, hitting that milestone with nothing to show for my life drove me into utter despair. I should have felt the “realizing things need to change” point many years before that. But reaching 30 just drove me to despondency of misery and suicide of how I’ve wasted my life
I’m now 31 almost 32 and it hasn’t been any different .
I get that but as I got older I found more satisfaction in doing things for me. I don't got much to show too, but I have fun with myself and improving in small ways. no need to show to anyone.
in my gym we have many older people. it's not too late to take care.
you can become fit in 3 years. life can always be better. not perfect, nothing is, but better
In at least 6 months of true focus and dedication you could completely turn your life around. I know because I was in your position
checked. got a 68 on my first paper 🙁
all As here i come
nothing. i wanted to stay the same.
Was hatewatching DSP and saw his skinnyfat atrophied gamer body, realized I was a 6'2 155 lbs skelly possibly on the same path.
I was a virgin 26yo lonely fat frick. After a heavy day of trekking with some friends decided to work out and get in shape and now I'm virgin a 28yo lonely less fat frick!
I was born, people sliced a part of my body off without my permission, then they injected me with a bunch of bad things and gave me autism. Then I got thrown into the satanic meat grinder of the education system where they tried to kill my soul and my creativity and my imagination and my innocence. They also tried to give me all sorts of prescription drugs that only made all of my issues worse instead of better. At times the drugs would make me skeleton skinny, but eventually made me somehow get an eating disorder and become morbidly obese also due to the fact that I was constantly emotionally in psychologically abused by my extremely boring ordinary normal NPC parents who were too damn smart and too damn evil to be normal, and might as well have work for Mk ultra. I have no idea why they never became politicians or lawyers, they would have been billionaires. They constantly gas lit me and tried to manipulate me and mold me into something that they wanted me to be and constantly tried to get me to doubt myself. The way that they treated me made it very easy for me to develop an eating disorder because they would constantly lie to me and try to get me to try the same Foods multiple times that they already knew that I tried and didn't like because they wouldn't believe me that I didn't like something or wouldn't respect my decision. At some point later I was in school and I was very fat and I randomly for absolutely no obvious reason at all broke my femur which is the most difficult bone in the body to break, think the big bone in your thigh. I didn't fall down, the femur just broke suddenly while I was walking and then I fell down. Doctors never figured out why it happened. After that I slowly became vegetarian and eventually became vegan and lost a hundred pounds, and my wife has been pretty fricking insane ever since, but I have been distancing myself from religion and politics and science because it's all so corrupt. But I've been getting closer to God.
My life not my wife what the hell I'm not even married and I never will be, I don't like falling for stupid traditions and Concepts that are not beneficial to me
This reads like a blog post from a BPD girl
>This reads like a blog post from a BPD girl
I know just because I mentioned an eating disorder and all women these days mentioned eating disorder that you probably automatically Associated the sound of it with that, combined with the fact but I had to fit everything into a post with a character limit. So I understand. Another part of the Bingo board I can cross out is to say that my parents were narcissists. A lot of this shit is way too common these days.
> t.
Fake: this entire wall of text I won’t read
Gay: needing this much text to answer why you should always be improving yourself
I saw myself in a full length mirror and thought “what a fat frick look at those rolls” before I realized it was my own reflection
I craved sugar growing up, so I always ate sugary foods like candy, sweets cookies, cakes, you name it! Well, my mother always told me one day I’m gonna get diabetes. I laughed at her while I ate a spoonful of sugar… Then one day my doctor says during my check up “Yeah you got diabetes”, so I started lifting with my athletic friends during high school just enough to lift weights and to get to a decent size football season started for em, I did not continue being healthy for like two years. During Covid I looked at the mirror and said yeah I’m going to stop eating sugary shit n never look back. I’m doing better than ever still a bit cynical when some girls give me the look but when I’m on my best it’s a W
nothing, I haven't really changed
I got skinnyfat and it was not a good look for someone so single. Figured I'd be better with a bit of muscle on me
I was fat growing up, but compared to my family, I was relatively slim. I decided I didn't want to end up like them, so I didn't.
Now I have muscle dysmorphia and I'm less happy than my family, who are still fat.
Realizing that trannies, Black folk, and israelites are taking over the world!
Losing the love of my life because I realized a lot of shit about myself way too late. Every girl after that's just been filler, but I know she'll never be back, and I know that even if she was I'd never feel content with myself or anything.
In all reality it's better if I'm single for the foreseeable future. I can get laid easy enough if I need it, have money to travel if I want to knock up some ethnics. I'm much happier single.
Only a man could write something so thoroughly depressing as this.
That's upsetting because I was being very vague and keeping it light.
lol shut up you whiny b***h, you'll get over it if you stop being chicken little about it
Was actually nothing to do with the fact she's not in my life or we broke up, more that I don't feel content at the best of times.
And yet, you keep thinking about her. Even now, posting about her on this godforsaken hellhole. Dont lie. Not to yourself at least
>thread about what made you realize you need to change
>mention healthy relationship I ruined to keep with the theme of the thread
>some moron assumes you must think of her constantly
Recently all of my friends have cut ties with me for being low value male/ Incel. I’m age 20 at 5’7 and 5/10 face, people think im weird and don’t like me. The most I can do currently is try and get a degree (starting law) and get in better shape. This is now maybe I could start up boxing. What else?
you have neckbeard genetics bro... it's over.
split with gf, have a gambling issue, need to change it around and grind
My girlfriend stayed with me before and during my fitness journey. Even at my worst. She’s still with me. After losing all this weight I asked her why did you ever love me when I looked like that? She said because I love you anon. She’s a keeper
good for you man, really is a keeper, hopefully i'll find the one someday
Dude, you will. They’re out there. We love you anon. And someday you’ll find her and she’ll love you. If she left your life she wasn’t the one. She was just character development. Love you bro.
Damn, how and where did you even meet her?
I fricking wish I had girl like this:
I'm not fat though I still hit the gym frequently.
I also work, I play acoustic guitar and picked up piano last week (intermediate guitarist: said by a few music teachers who overhead me play on campus, though I'm new when it comes to piano).
Though I guess I have an ugly face and it'll take 3 years to get a few of my teeth fixed, said by one of the top orthodontist's in my country.
Not sure if my muscles, personality, money and my love for music even matter at this point.
Guess I'm happy for you at least.
That I didn’t even know what I looked like off the top of my head. Had to look in the mirror only to know. Wouldn’t recognize myself in the pictures. I just couldn’t accept all the fat on my body, I got close to killing myself and I decided, it’s not me I want to kill. It’s a part of me I want to kill. So I got to work.
I realized that I will die alone someday, so I am preparing to live out my elder years by myself.
I had a date with the prettiest girl I've seen in years. I realized she couldn't say the same of me. She doesn't some skinny frick that can't lift her cute ass and make her feel loved. I don't know how I convinced myself my entire life that being a stick and weak makes me happy but by this time next year I'm going to be normal weight and much stronger. Imma make it bros.
You can do it anon, you really can
When Hitler split up his army in Russia.
I decided that everything im doing is for other people, and not myself.
Career, hobbies, side hustles, etc. It was all to please other people, and I lost sight of the things that make me genuinely happy.
So frick em, im doing me & loving it.
israeli names kept pushing anti-white propaganda
I overheard a cute girl say I would be handsome if I wasn't so fat
Getting a DWI
I was working out, but had a very shitty routine. Getting arrested made me realize that drinking like a fish was ruining my body. Been dry ever since 2018
I fight with my brother. The next time he touch me he will lose
Stab that b***h next time
someone is actively trying to ruin my life right now and that seems likely to happen
i won't go into details but if i make it out of this intact it will be my second chance to correct all the mistakes i've made
When I learned about the Frankfurt School, the Rothschilds and the origin of bolshevism.
My roommates in college. Nearly every single one of them has been a completely spineless b***h. I’ve had some in the past that were total chads, one being a complete dick and the other two being super cool and trying to get me to go lift with them, but I let my own insecurities get in the way.
Other more recent roommates, however, made me realize the path I was going down if I didn’t change. One of them is a total pussy that constantly posts homosexual bullshit on Instagram and TikTok and reads “motivational” books but doesn’t do a damn thing to actually change or do something with his life. He won’t go to church because he’s “depressed” and because there aren’t any hot girls there. He has a $50 a month membership to a gym he never goes to but makes fun of me for going to the apartment’s ghetto-ass gym for free. He thinks he’s some kind of womanizer because he had one relationship years ago that he blew because he thought he could get someone hotter but he doesn’t realize how fricking ugly he is. God, he gets me angry just talking about him.
Another was a skinny fricking twig who lacked so much muscle that his torso was hunched over simply because he never uses his damn back muscles and hasn’t worked a day in his life. This guy is a lot easier to get along with than the other but he would always say “Ew, gross.” or “Why would you do that?” when I’d invite him to go with me to the gym.
I cannot end up like these people. I have another roommate who is severely overweight but I have massive respect for him because he has owned up to his current situation and firmly decided that there is no going back and that he needs to change. He goes with me nearly every time and I cannot put into words how proud of him I am.
Finally, it’s the women. I have been led on and rejected so many times that I am on the brink of giving up on them entirely. I lift to forget about them and thinking of them fuels my anger and lifts.
very interesting anon
I used to smoke weed every day. One time I got incredibly high and for some reason I suddently became brutally honest about the way I felt about my life. I undressed in front of a mirror and tried to judge myself as objectively as possible. It was kind of a horrible experience and it made me feel like shit in the moment, but it still felt like a breakthrough because I was finally being 100% honest about what was bothering me. After that I sat down and made a list of all the things I wanted to change in my life and getting in shape was one of them. It's funny to think how one random moment is what caused me to jump on a completely different timeline and change my life for the better. Of course this wasn't the first time I tried to turn my life around, but this time it was like a switch turned on in my mind and I just started eating right and exercising and I just never felt the urge to quit. I stopped smoking weed and I finally got a gf, who is now my wife and the mother of my son.
>TL;DR I got high and had an epiphany or something.
A girl way out of my league said I had a handsome face that she'd wanna sit on if I didnt have the body of a 14 year old boy.
How does a trinidadian get a gf who looks like this
You're heavily disadvantaged due to your skin. At best you're going to be a one night stand whom she won't even count towards her body count because she didn't see you as bf material
I did coke and realized 99% of my problems were by letting fear win.
fricked up stretch marks
No blue eyed israeliteess gf. Once I understood that I needed one I got busy indagym.
>Once I understood that I needed one I got busy indagym.
What do you think you'll do once you understand that being in the gym won't bring you any closer to getting one [moron]?
I love gym thots, but it would not be fair to have beer belly while dating gym thot. I'm still single, but I don't have beer belly.
Your post resonates with me so damn much
that it's unreal..
I love playing acoustic guitar, I like hitting the gym and I'm not fat, I also picked up piano recently:
Though I don't have the nicest face and my teeth are very similar to Michael Balzary (RCHP's bassist), though he actually has children and head married now.
Though I need to be as successful as him to actually get women and actually become a dad someday?
I guess it's obvious that all women/girls especially today, regardless of how gorgeous, smart, etc she is just wants you only for your status and money, especially if you are ugly, yet natty like (e.g) me.
Do you Anons agree with my statement?
I started learning piano this year and I'm thinking about acoustic guitar too after I get better at piano. My biggest issue is noise because I can't just plug in headphones like with a digital piano, but I think they make guitar mutes right?
I got rejected. She bascially said I was a beta male and a onions cuck. I knew lifting helped with females back then but I just didn't have the motivation to go through with starting. Now I lift for me and it's a permanent part of my life now
Spent 6 months in love with a girl on discord who lived on the other side of the world. Realized one day what I’m doing and decided to start running, lifting, and dieting so real girls will like me. Lost 70 lbs.
After losing weight and building muscle girls still didn’t like me so now I’m depressed as frick again and I gained all the weight back.
Why did you like the girl on discord?
I'm 5'5" and some charity beggar ironically called me 'big guy'
This fat frick couldn't run 1 mile without wheezing like I was going to cough up a lung. I was the fattest I'd ever been. Down 60 pounds
Nothing, I'm bipolar or something and always go through phases where I'm insanely motivated in life (but never enough to completely fix everything) or too depressed to do anything constructive (but never depressed enough to completely end everything). I thought it was normal, but recently learned that normies can go through life being 100% motivated all the time.
Hard times, hard year.
>be me 300lbs but starting to diet and losing weight
>move cross country so fiancée can live near her family.
>known her 9yrs, been together 7
>18hr drive from closest senpai but it’s k cause all her brothers and cousins moved here over the years too and I’ve been friends with them most of my life, that’s how we met.
>new job pays 1/3rd of old job but can’t get anything better. Fiancée is finishing last year of school and makes basically nothing.
>drain all my savings paying bills.
>get 3 flat tires in two months.
>get injured at work.
>become depressed, start binge eating
>fiancée begins starting fights over everything
>1yr in fiancée starts blatantly cheating
>the fallout is insane.
>after a long conversation with her best friend and parents we realize the person we thought we knew did not exist
>she is a sociopathic liar and has been manipulating everyone in her life for years.
>plotting suicide
>look in mirror, unrecognizable fat blob
>picrel
lost 130lbs, lift weights, get attention from girls, good job, life good, happy.
harsh man
i don't lift for such cringe reasons.
i like moving weights and i like moving bigger weights than last time
Bullied as a kid, beat up and screamed at at home, put on amphetamine as a 9 year old which spiraled into a serious fentalogue addiction in college. OD'd idk how many times. One day I went to the gym and could only do 3 pullups, I'd been able to do 15 as a 10 year old. Decided I was going to get my shit together and get big enough that nobody could ever frick with me again.
Tinder. At least that's what caused my epiphany. I had broken up a two years realtionship, was about to graduate in a terrible field and my life was largely going nowhere. Then I downloaded tinder a had a good look at the 30yo+ women there. The fading looks ravaged by neglect and unhealthy lifestyles, the pathetic "I'm still a teenager" behavior, the shallow pursuits and the overall mediocrity portrayed through a way of living which could easily be defined as "never improve. Never assume responsibility for yourself and your place in the world. Only consume and chase pleasure" caused me a shock. Looking at old schoolmates on LinkedIn and even men I still keep in contact with finished the job. I realized that I either did something with myself or that dreadful existence was my future. So I gave myself until my thirties to develop my life towards where I want it and never let myself forget what's in store if I give up.
Nothing so far, I have a PT test due in a month so I guess I should probably start running or something